awww.. its been ages since i blogged. hehs. i'm now having exams lar. but instead of studying.. i'm so slacking now. haha. guess muz be the influence from CLARENCE n of cuz april dar dar and NICHOLAS.. haha. They are super good in slacking. i dunno why.. lol. ask em! x)
yeahh! i changed a new blog skin! nice marr? =x
i added a new song! "
IWannaRock" Its from
YingTaoBang! A new girl ROCK band! weets. actually i wanna put this song of theirs in my blog de lo! "
QingAiDeWangZi". It sounds so fairytale-like when the song begins! but as it reaches further n further.. it became a sort of evil song and creepy.. haha! but it juz sounds so nice! i'm so in loved with it lo! heheh!
i wanna be an evil girl! =x juz jokin~ the song make me feel
high! heheh!
i guess i'll be meeting the slackers in OB supp paper soon! haha.. =x realli not confident.. hais.. but wads the use? i handed in tt paper! =.=
yeh yeh! i finished the "My name is Kim Sam Soon" serials! aa..... DAMN SHUAI nehh.. the
Sam Shik.. woo.. falling in love with him! haha.. too bad. i cant speak korean! wait till i learn it! hehe! i believe i can de lo!
Yeh! there is smth else i am so happie to announce it!
I've gt in the CYA (Changi Youth Ambassador) !!!!! after 2 interviews.. and YES! I'M IN! together with my classmates yiyuan, kahwee and Maxx wong! x) i'm looking forward to work in Changi Airport and get access in places that most people cud not! and of cuz! assist the TOURISTS n LOCALS! its gonna be a good experience!
i shall stop here then! tatas! n STOP crapping CLARENCE!
craps. lol
clarence! i love you?? *pukes* darling? -.- okie.. tts all..
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I AM SO DAMN PISSED OFF! realli pissed off! i hate my mum! hate her hate her I HATE HER!
where the hell did i had this kind of mother? forever thinking that she is right! nv accept other opinions from anyone! DAMN IT! FUCK..
i gt a question to ask lo! wad do u think are the roles of a mother? to me its like.. a mother has to be supporting, tries to understand her children and husband and of cuz do the basic chores of a housewife in a family such as cooking, washing dishes, washing clothes, tidying the house. The role of a mother is never an easy one. but i cant understand why i have such a mother who is so damn petty, every little thing also wann to *ji jiao* with me. Including after finishing water then nv wash the cup.. she is such an ass..
sorry.. i know i shouldnt sae that.. i love her alot lo.. but she had made me lost respect for her once and once again.. she is so disappointing me. she is making me to hate her more and more..
the previous quarrel with her was quite recent.. it happened cuz i tried to share my views of whats the role of a mother.. but i think she gt the wrong meaning.. so in the end, we quarreled.. cuz she thinks tt as children.. i shud wash my plates and clothes all by myself.. =.= then i told her that.. that shud be done by her.. cuz.. if even all these stuff we children all did it by ourselves.. wad does she have to do? i think nth else ler lo.. watch fish lo.. then myb.. care more for her plants.. tts like.. out of the roles of mum.. =.= tts her hobbies.. she said those are the stuff we shud do.. we've gt hands n feets.. lol.. i said .. since then.. why did u give birth to us and have to take care of us since we've gt hands n feets.. =.= logical explaination right?
and she realli likes to put words into my mouth.. my father n i had miscommunication.. n got heated over it.. u know wad my mum did? instead of stopping us from getting angry or tries to explain the situation.. SHE ADDED FUEL.. by saying that i SEE HER AS A MAID.. cuz i said that the role of mother should include washing the clothes and cooking~ =.=
we seriously gt miscommunication. i tried to resolve this problem alot of times.. and each time juz ended up quarreling.. i dunno wads wrong with her brain.. wad is she realli thinking..
at first i think that myb the quarrels would oso be good.. at least its a wae where i can get my thoughts to be heard by her.. but it proved that i was wrong.. so wrong.. cuz she would distort it.. or even threaten to slap me when she cant talk back animore.. =.= IMAGINE.. SLAP ME.. i dun think i am in the wrong.. so i wun sae sorry to her..
i yearns for a mum who would be supportive of my views, of my works.. but she nv supported me though.. i alwaes yearns for her to praise the food i cooked.. but she nv.. she wud alwaes discriminates it and in the end scold me for messing the kitchen.. Arghhh.. sadded..
i had depression in my sec 2 n sec 4.. but guess wad? my parents do not know about it.. thankfully i had my teachers which one of them is my god-mum now.. they helped me tide over one crisis over another.. hais.. if my mum could be more understanding like them..
earlier on quarreled with her again.. cuz of her kitchen.. well, she discriminated the food i made.. ); i was quite proud of it de lo.. my first attempt still quite nice..i made.. baked fusili! x) thinking of making it for hh.. but too bad.. he dun like cheese stuff~ wahkeke..
k la k la.. ranted so much over here.. finally feeling better ler.. luckily i still have my loud music by my ears to stop hearing her scoldings.. if not it would nv end.. we will quarrel till.. myb she slap me! woooahhh... =.=
i gt this stupid thinking where i wud like to rent a house outside.. so i cud i hardly see my mum n so stop quarreling with her that much! =x tts so impossible.. my papa cfm kill me.. lol. aniwae.. tts all for todae.. wanted to blog a short entry.. in the end.. so long.. n this is starting with such vuglar language.. =x bleah~ wadeva?
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