Went Vivo with XinJie yesterday to just shop around and get somethings that I wanted. It was a very quick shopping day out with her as her bf had booked out of camp.

We were thinking of wat to buy for weiling also, cox her bdae is just round the corner. Walk walk walk.. we entered into River Island. The clothes were really ex.. Sigh. Just as we were about to exit River Island, we saw this really cute dress hanging there. Somehow, River Island was promoting Blaire's fashion line this season!!! Everything in River Island were screaming out BLAIRE BLAIRE BLAIRE. Of course the pricing was very Blaire-like too. Somewhat only affordable for those people living in the Upper East Side. (FYI.. Blaire is a bitch in Gossip Girl and filthily rich and anaeroxic). Xin Jie had a great time trying these Blaire-like fashion on, and she didnt even wanna take it off!!! lol..

Proudly presenting the BLAIRE FASHION..





If only we were filthily rich and living on the Upper East Side in Spore.. haiz..

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I suddenly wonder what causes the change in me. I became more bitchier and more hardhearted ba. Or some say in a nicer term.. more outspoken and opinionated. Whatever the case is, I have definitely change. Sometimes.. being alone in the house alone for 3/4 of the day, i have loads of time on my hand to think through things. Somehow, I feel that I am beginning to lose myself, I was not who I use to be.

Till recent events, I realize that maybe the old me is hidden somewhere deep down, and when needed to, it will surface.( but i am not having split personality ok! ) Feels good to be the old me again. Till then, i guess i will have to get use to what i am now!

The only reason that I can come up with for my change is DUE TO CIRCUMSTANCES.. haha.. it forces people to change.. and i guess we can only HATE IT.. or LOVE IT


J

Labels: Life'08

After attending Sze Yeng's father wake just now, i was pretty much in deep thoughts. All the wakes that I have attended are friend's parent, and its because of sickness. Seeing how shag and tired and emotionally broken down Sze Yeng is, i was taken aback. I began to think of how brittle life really is.. and within that snap of a finger, your close ones can leave you forever. I was never so emotional with the other wakes that I have attended, and this time its exceptional. It just blew me out of my head. I have no idea why I feel this way.

Walking round to pay our last respects, i nearly cried. I saw the CDs and sutras on the chair and Sze Yeng's camera there, i suddenly feel like i felt her loss, the tot of wanting to spend the last moment with her dad, the tot of creating lots and lots of merits for the dad so that he could go in peace. The tot of having someone u love leaving you forever.

One sentence that Sze Yeng said nearly made me cry on the spot.. and it is " 老爸，我光明山的朋友来看你了".

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Finally gotta meet melvin after sometime. It was all about camwhoring and camwhoring, and after some time melvin got so tired that his battery level became negative and so we went home. It was not like the typical meeting that we usually had ( as it used to be a whole day thing ), but within that few hours I guessed we pretty much enjoyed the time with stupid jokes and laughters. I think the next outing would be some time later.. not so soon. Haha.. i guess thats the benefit of not meeting on a frequent basis. All the bottled up fun and laughter is burst out at the only day, and it was fun. lalala

The secondary thing for this outing is also to search for louis's birthday present. I walked around the whole City Hall, and didnt spot anything in particular for him. Sigh.. though i hav some things in mind, but i am still unsure of wat to get. (Louis, if u r reading this.. I AM HAVING A HEADACHE!!!! DUNNO WAT TO GET FOR U! HAHA)



Camwhoring in the train...... i wanna get a pair of toot toot glasses too!Or not? Hum...

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After watching So You Think You Can Dance.. i offically fall in love with Mia Micheals. Her choreograph for dance routines are simply fantastic. Her routines.. I would say that it is very emotional ( given my limited knowledge about dance and my last dance thingy was when i was in Primary 3 ).


I guess I am someone that is so easily affected by the television. Though I have joined volleyball before, the thought of the physical trainings and my time eaten up by trainings made me procrastinate about joinging a team again. Yet, when I was watching the Beijing Olympics, i was inspired to join a team again. Sigh, with the busy schedule and FYP after this 6 weeks of holidays, the thought of joining a team will have to be postponed... AGAIN.


Jolene is fascinated by the dancers on So You Think You Can Dance, and yes.. she is thinking of learning how to dance. The last offical dance lesson she had was like a decade ago. Blah.. she shall see how things goes. Learning things right now, at this point of time.. is just not right.







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Rui Rui.. if you are reading this..








ITS TIME FOR A FACE LIFT!!!! HAHA..







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Holidays hav offically started!!! Yes! and i think i manage to kick Manish's ass!!! YES!!! that irritating idiot that always screams for my model. Now i manage to shut him up man! Its Great!!! That irritating freak from Nepal... grrrrr.. DUN TRY STEPPING ON MY TAIL!


So, on my way out of school after cirtique, i saw these rolls of grass patch that resemble the Swiss Sponge Cake ( or watever the name is)
















See and resemblance?? hehe

Holidays are packed with activities for the first few weeks. Thereafter, I will make myself enjoy and relax throughly!!! Before the nightmare of project starts.. for the final time.

I guess like what weilin has said.. I will miss the rushing for deadline together, working late together, discussing things and having hedache together, printing and plotting things, buying materials, always searching for the cheapest printing place available. The recent submission was really a havoc wan. haha.. with so many ppl crowding at the printer, screaming out the names, searching frantically for papers, rushing to the stupid library to bind etc etc.. those were really the times... haha.. ( thanks rui rui for standing at the printer *winks* )


J

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Sitting down here, I began to think back about what happened in the past few months. Loads have happened.. some happy some sad, ups and downs.. and of course gaining and losing things.

Perhaps it was me thats being too selfish and very possessive. And the retribution now, is to lose everything. On the positive side, I am glad that things got a happy ending... at least for the time being. I told myself to keep it cool. I have been.. yet till recent events, I realise I am still not able to let it go FULLY. Well well.. I guess thats how attachments work.









Another thing.. hehe.. I feel like getting back into a volleyball AGAIN.. should I? >.<

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YEAH BABE!!! SUBMISSION IS FINALLY OVER! After 3 long weeks of torture!! All of us haven been sleeping and resting well. What matters the most is we should all agree that our pockets have been burnt a large hole. With that 6 a1 panels, printing, plotting, binding, materials for models.. its easily more than 200 bucks ba? MONEY MONEY MONEY!! Please drop from the sky and rescue us DID students!!

I am SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR MY CRIT! Its scheduled at Wednesday, 20 August, roll call at 2pm. Half of me is looking forward to this crit, so that it offically marks the end of this long, draggy project. The other half of me dread this crit. I seriously had no idea why the lecturers are so MEAN to put my names along with those ACE students!!!! And in front of me, there are like 3-5 ACE STUDENTS?! Its literally like "ooh.. i am gonna fail u, so i place u there to make it easier to fail u"something like that. Gods, Deities, Fairies of all directions.. please bless me!

Another thing that i realise today is HOW MUCH OF AN ACT WOULD YOU DO IN ORDER TO KEEP URSELF IN THE ACE STUDENT POSITION? Its nt that I want to be mean or anything, but its seriously bugging me!! Ok.. heres the thing. Ace student M has always be the lecturers favourite student, her works are perfect, drafting are perfect.. everything is almost perfect. Yet, this perfect student M is a very stubborn person, or rather.. too much of a perfectionist. She wanted everything to be so much so perfect that she spent way too much time on one thing. In the end, this perfect student M could not finish her things on time, and result to faking MC. She actually told the lecturers that she have an MC, so that she could skip the submission today and continue workin on her perfect project. I may sound bitchy, but if this is what you are resorting to keep urself at the cream top? UH UH! too bad! All 66 of us hav the same time period of 3 weeks, and now that perfect student M is getting herself 1 more day to do her things, just to make sure everything is flawless?
*breathes.. breathes.. breathes* End of my ranting session..

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SO GONNA WATCH THIS BIMBO SHOW!!!!

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ARGH!!! Its already THURSDAY!!! 3 more days till 18 August! Yes! The submission deadline! And what have I have with? Loads.. CAD CAD CAD, renderings and panels, Intech Journal n PQM!!!! Someone kill me please! I wish I wish.. for 48 hours a day.

Not that I have been slacking, but seriously there are loads of things to do. Haiz.. gonna finish my cad today, plot tml. Starting rendering today. Gods of all directions.. please bless me.

Falling sick soon I guess. I am quite suprised that I still manage to survive till now, without my normal sympthoms of flu, cough, sore throat. Oh well.. BLESS! So exhausted. The day b4 ytd, I slept at 8am in the morning, the day b5 at 6am, ytd at 2am (simply too tired to do my things, so i decide to turn in early ). With this kinda inhuman sleeping hours.. one word.. EXHAUSTED! Oh wells, I know that i am nt the only one.. haha.. i still got weilin to acc me.

18 AUGUST!!! U R OFFICALLY BLACKLISTED!

Labels: Life'08

不知不觉，日子就这样一天天的过了。事情的发展并不乐观， 反而越来越糟糕。原本信心实足的我变得不知所措。信心这两个字仿佛离我越来越远。沉思在忙碌的课业里，我也没时间去胡思乱想。但我坚持我的信念。

今时不同往日，很多事情都变了。但也有很多事情没变。能冷静的坐在这里打这番话出来，多多少少也证明了我不在是以前的我了。现在的我，当然把事情看开了。 真希望未来的我们能同在一起。

未来的日子，我们没办法预料，但是我们能塑造我们要的未来。我既将为美好的未来奋斗，而不是浪费在无谓的事情上。在读的你会怎么想呢？你有了解我的用心良苦吗？

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Just caught a glimpse of Beach Volleyball from the Beijing Olympics. Its Australia against China. And its so so obvious that the China poeple are going to win. Look at the score, look at how they play, man! The China people are out for it! To me, the way the Australians played are very letargic and its like they have given up on the game. Though the China people are leading by 5 points, but its still possible that they catch up with the score RITE?? Its just so obvious that the Australians are literally giving up. They served the ball way over the line, spike over the line. That enough to lose the game. One thing I am sure is - the China people are good!! Though thy really look like skin head monkeys dressed in red ( cox the 2 players are so tanned and almost bald and tall and long ), their skills were GOOD.. way better than the Australians. Comeon! I tot Beach Volleyball was supposed to be and AngMoh game? Grrrrr..

Anyways.. I think the China people are going to secure a lot of gold medals this olympics ba. With the strong supportive crowds, all the cheering and the China atheletics stepping up to their game... hum..

Labels: Life'08

Amazingly, the initial plan of turning in at 3.30 has been postponed to 5am in the morning. I spent my time not doing on my project, but chatting on the phone with Desmond. Just as I was about to report to LaLaLand, we (desmond and I) started to hit off. Just then I received a call.. and it was from Desmond. So we just chatted on the phone.. talking about all sorts of things.

One of the topic that we chat about was being a Metrosexual guy. Interestingly, Desmond did tot of being a Metrosexual guy. How cool is that? wahaha.. so exciting!! I guess guys in Design would naturally be more Metrosexual than other ppl ba. (shrugs).

Anyways.. I am suffering from puffy eyes now. Grrrr....spare me from puffy eyes man.. my eyes are ald small enuff.

J

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I have been trying very hard to keep myself busy.. after waking up, i would just do do do my project and bath and do my project again. Or project, go out give tuition and drag my shag ass home to continue with my project. There is this absolute need to just kip my mind working and working. If not, I do not know what would happen to me. Keeping the current mood of "oh.. everything is fine and projects are more important than anything" is TEDIOUS.

I see myself disappearing.. in a way, consider it as a relieve. Yet on a negative tone, I hate it. Whatever the case is.. I am trying so hard to keep it down. Seeing it, hearing things, reading it, thinking of it, just sents my mind blank and the world stop spinning. I wonder to myself " why is that so? ". The chilly wind send chills down my spine. Deep down.. i knew why i was reacting this way. However, I gave myself the credits for maturing. There is only 1 word for myself.. and that is "GRIP"


J

Labels: Life'08

Just heard this from the radio... PARIS HILTON IS GOING TO JOIN IN THE ELECTION FOR VICE PRESIDENT IN THE WHITE HOUSE!!!!!! And she choose Rihanna to be the Vice President for her election. OMG.. imagine Paris Hilton being the Vice President.. the world is gonna be so bimbotic and chaotic.. and maybe the White House will turn Pink.

Goodness gracious.. cant this byotch just tone down? and stop making so many stupid news.
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ok.. its all a mock.. haha. Anyways.. there is actually a video to this whole Paris Thing.. go to www.funnyordie.com to watch. I am just to lazy to post video. Hehe

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Recent days are just pretty much of a torture to me. Sleeping time has been delayed to 3am in the morning.. if it doesn hit 3am, I wont be able to sleep. Naturally turning in so late, we would just tend to wake up later in the morning. Though some mornings i woke up later, but the way of waking up is killing me. I was woken up in shock, i literally jump out of bed.

What thing shocked me? Its my models that shocked me. The first time was the cracking sound of my model, and the second time was the collasping of my model. With that, i always hav to repair my model before i even go wash my face.

My sleeping hours have turned into napping hours. I didnt manage to rest well and my mind seems to be awake all the time. Gosh. Ever sound manage to wake me up, even the slightest sound of changing clothes. See how not asleep I am?

Next, i used to have brunch and dinner, 2 meals in a day. Now i can hav just 1 meal in a day.. surviving on a very brunch (as late as 3pm-4pm) .. and natuarlly by dinner time, i would still be half full. Not that I dun wanna eat, its just that i am bz with my things and eating is just stopping my progress. So i tend to procrastinate. Sometimes i simply do not have the appitete to eat.

Lastly, with my lack of rest, irregular meals, working non-stop (be it tuition or project ) my friendly stomach problem is back. Whats new? Gastric, killer pain that almost leave me fainting on the train became more and more friendly to me.

So if u wanna suffer your life, look through my example. Yes..

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van arc' says:
like that --> =D
Teach Me How To Smile says:
Huh
Teach Me How To Smile says:
wat thing?
van arc' says:
teach u howto smile. lol





I JUST LOVE ZACH..........FOR SIMPLY REASON

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The very fact that projects are very very extremely important to me is true, and yet I choose to place your feelings and well beings before my project. The tremendous stress that this current project is putting on me and the deadline creeping nearer and nearer just makes me wanna break down everyday. And yet, I still choose to be there for u when i think u need me to.

The feeling of sadness just overwhelms the feeling of anger. Somehow or another, messages are sent across, regardless if its a positive or negative message. I am happy that you are trying not to let current issues affect you that much. Yet, what i saw was fun was pretty much choosen. Nobody is to be blame. Who dun wanna have fun and enjoy? At that very moment, I knew that my companionship is over for the night. My self appointed duty of "cheering and making sure things are fine" is over. People with us that night are weird, I dunno them that well. Things just turned better when i know i have u with me. Yet, within a short time frame, things change.

I wanted to go home to carry on with my project, but i cant. The rest of the night was spent sitting outside alone, with cold wind blowing right into my face and I began to think of what you told me in the past. Things that really touched me, that shows u really care for me... things like " you will never lose me, I am nt like ur other friends" , " friendship is more important to me...". Till today, those sentences are still carved in my mind. The thought of these things, along with the cold wind, the feeling of emptiness just send that fountain of tears down my face.

Just to let u know, u play an important role in my life and what we have came a long way. I am not angry, its just hard to stay angry with a person, and i choose to let the feeling go. The feeling of sadness will fade with time. I just do not wish that the relationship that we have will fade away or choosen to let go by either parties.

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