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19 oct

very very bad haze,
i find it worse in jurong area, as compared to another region i went.
came out from one of the tutorial rooms and it was really hazy ~.~
the smoke really didnt make me feel any better,
given a splitting headache that's lasted for days cos i refuse to eat panadols. LOL.
reliance on painkillers is not good ok.
but well,
gave in today. it was really bad.
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had a math test today ~.~
sure can pass. scoring is another thing ~.~
and then.
ya gt essay deadline soon ):
sigh~
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ALOT OF READING TO DO LEHHHHHHHH.
MALAS. OMGDER.
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anyways, move on! work is nv ending =p

18 oct

i am the only one, who should choose the path i walk.
along the way,
there might be
regrets,
delusions,
happiness,
sadness,
loneliness,
freedom,
celebrations
failures,
etc,
good or bad.

but,
at least i know that i am responsible for my choice.
and eventually take all the things in my stride.

the worse thing ever,
is to know,that,
somebody else, is trying to decide your fate for you.
that's plain selfishness, ignorance, immaturity, or maybe even arrogance.
who knows.
but surely, the factor of stupidity.

i no longer entertain people with stupidity.
everybody shld grow up up up and up.
ok not just size but mentality and maturity shld improve too.
chills.

(:

on a side note,
i really want a new pillow for my hostel,
havent been sleeping well ):
neck achesssss.
donors, anyone? =p

17 oct

caught a movie with kimo.
he's currently in sg looking for a job..
had already went for an interview at toastbox, all the best to him (:
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watched life as we know it.
hmmms i kind of feel bad cos i didnt know there werent subtitles for the movie..
and he's not exactly proficient in english ._.
but the show's pretty good thou (:
http://lifeasweknowitmovie.warnerbros.com/
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everytime i watch a romance movie i'd feel like i wanna fall in love.
muahahahahahhaah.
it's like they always make it look like aw-so-sweet.
opening interview sessions for boyfriends.
interested applicants leave me a comment thkyou.
LOL.
alright just kidding.
whatever will come will come,
if not, then i'll just let it be (:
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had ding-tai-fung for dinner.
interestingly, i didnt eat dinner last night and did my work till 5am and still don't feel hungry.
ate dinner today and right now im feeling hungry already =p
and i didnt buy bread to hostel ):
convenience shop near my place closed earlier than expected today T^T
ya back to ding-tai-fung.
xiao long baosssssssss. loveeeeee.
=DDDDD
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and well,
on a side note, im been very intolerant to my parents ):
i always feel like i wanna go home and get some well-deserved rest..
but always made to do smth and hear nags nonstop..
sorry daddy mummy (:
special thks to daddy actually,
he bought chee cheong fun on friday hoping that i'd go home early to eat..
but i happened to meet dear huiting for dinner. LOL.
but i still ate the chee cheong fun =p
and cos i didnt eat dinner last night... and was still awake in the wee hours..
he came in to ask if i need supper.. but well i rejected..
and earlier in the morning.. he cooked and came into my room to tell me the food's ready if im hungry (:
thks dad.
mummy has been trying to tell me how dad is just concerned.
yes i do know.
but im just short-tempered =D
i don't mean harm or wad. i just wanna chill n rest =p
there are alot of people worth my concern (:
big big hugs to all my frens and other relatives n family members too.
sorry if i havent been meeting up with u frens..
there's really alot of assignments and i feel cranky everytime i get busy..
so i'd rather not meet.
but u all are still my dear dear dearest friends (:
thkyou for being the best ppl in the world.
nono, im not thanking u all to get better brithday presents this year =p
heartfelt thanks, darlings (:
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anyway i rebonded my hair ):
im sad cos... the person didnt trim my hair properly...
i'd say her skills are probably inadequate to trim my hair that was beautifully cut
by dear nic(senior hairstylist from storm..), the moment she trimmed i knew thats it.
she cant get the correct shape nic had in place for me.
but i don't expect much since ya, prices differ.
and i don't do rebonding at storm cos its literally throwing money away.
one day when im rich enough, i will get nic to rebond for me.
getting him to cut my hair is $30.90 ok!!!
but i cant deny he really knows his stuffs well, and i really feel assured and secured leaving my 'head' to him.
don't even dare to go trim it now T^T
he'd definitely laugh at me. (he always does when i get bad hair cuts. shrugs.
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super wordy post.
bleahs.

16 oct

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15 oct

huiting came to NIE to look for me today (:
had mcd and went to rot at my dorm/
she's totally inlove with my webcam=p

14 oct

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)


from facebook. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=439067&id=630050136&page=2

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the user actually dedicated this article to parents.
cos parents will often give it to their kids, forgiving the mistakes made by their loved ones.
but i guess it applies to relationships as well isnt it?
why is it that, people don't like to hear apologies... coming from their other half..
cause when the apology is accepted.. its just like what the eraser does;
erase away the mistake.
but at the same time.
feel smaller. and smaller.
for if its smth so important, an apology should be the last thing that should comeby, isnt it?

13 oct - cont

i love my darling

13 oct

最近的我都很白癡
昨天把自己電腦弄得一團亂就算了
今天上廁所，把“鎖匙”落在廁所==
其實我們宿舍的鎖匙是卡狀的，就access card那種
結果廁所【自動上鎖】門關了，我尚早前也把房間的門鎖了
就這樣
把自己鎖在外頭/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~
然後沒有辦法就敲敲鄰居的門看誰在
借他的卡來開廁所的門
再把我的卡片取回來
【白癡】

(╯﹏╰）
舊照片。沒有很舊，3-4年前吧。
看來，應該讓頭髮留長 o(╯□╰)o

後來就剪了現在差不多的長短…

然後不懂吃錯什麽藥，決定再剪短

然後不懂受了什麽打擊，剪更短
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

新年時候就長了一點點




 後來又修了變短

又長了一點

又剪掉~~~~
不剪了不剪了！！
剪頭髮要錢的咯！！！！！！
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其實很多短髮后來認識的朋友都有問，
我是不是一直以來就都習慣短髮
很多也很意外
原來我以前都留長髮
嗯
我自己也很意外。

12 oct

):

i blame it on my own stupidity that such a thing happened.
like how would i believe that a .lnk file can be opened with windows media player.
i must be the most stupid person in the whole world right now.

system restore doesnt help,
encountered errors when restoring.
twice.

now im hoping by uninstalling windows media player (so that the programme is gone, it cannot run with it..) will help ):

i wanna jump off the building now. zzz.
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edited (1.28am)

after restoring the system twice it still didnt work.
and finally ok after i attempt to restore the third time in safe mode.. it finally worked.
SIGH. ):
but still at least its done.
and i changed to my oldwallpaper le (:

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. i want hugssssssss. LOL.

11 oct

i was really shocked last night,
to see that bb wrote a blog entry for me.
hahaha. thks alot ^^
you're suchaaaaaaaaaaaaa niceeeeeeeeee frennnnnnnnnnnn.
please come to sg soon for dinner.
真的谢谢你哦~
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feeling lethargic..
my enthusiasm to finish my work today dropped downright to pit bottom...
and had too full a lunch..
=p
ate korean hotplate beef set..
and shared waffle icecream with my frens..
was really really full and..
probably overworked my tummy.. LOL.
it cant seem to quite digest the meal.
maybe cos of my irregular meals these two weeks.
and
i vomitted earlier when bathing T^T
just ate a slice of pandan bread and afew sips of milo for the moment..
肚子暖暖~舒服~
shall eat an apple later.
MAYBE I WILL LOSE 500GRAMS TONIGHT LOLOL
and i will gain them back tomorrow.
hmmmms. lemme think wads good for lunch and dinner tml..

10 oct

10.10.10

(:
a nice date. alot of couples wanna get married on this once in a hundred years day, as reported in the news.
happy birthday to bryan, jennifer, kim.
like they'd even see but well!
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and a special thks to bb for his concern on what happened and also keeping up with my blog entries!
hahahaha. thks alot (:

and of cos huiting too =D
thks for ur fb comment!
i love you darling!

but well. im really fine.
nth is life is smooth sailing..
there's always ups and downs. no worries im climbing up again!
im almighty rui and im moving forward~
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anyways its a boring weekend. i skipped band practice again ):
maybe one day band commitment will just come to an end.. who knows.
lazy me.
went for a wedding dinner yst again.
the bride was really fat, fatter than I am, but i can see her eyes glowing with happiness (:
like, meeting the right person in her life..
how nice. and how evil of my dad and some of his frens whom mumbled and mumbled abt the bride. ah slap them.
and i went to the library to borrow some books for some assignments.
ah yes, went to my neighbour's place yst to do a music assignment too.
but i havent touch the one that's due on this coming wednesday.
hooray =/
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my singing seem to have taken another dip down.
well well. thats what happen when you don't practice..
im really not surprised LOL. cos i've been deteriorating in my singing ever since july last year.
=p
as long as im still in tune, that shld do fine xD

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on a side note, i skipped my breakfast n lunch today, wasnt really in the mood to eat.
(maybe on a positive note, i could lose some weight!)
but ate dinner with parents at a market 5-10min drive away..
and my gastric don't feel well now ;(
aw.
anyway brought apples to hall. im happy about that thou. LOL.

9 oct

人心险恶。
小心防备。

8 oct

还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后