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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

8:18 PM

Strange how i keep looking back with such fondness.

For me, JC life wasn't exactly how i always wanted it to be. I got so much more than i expected. Be it in terms of making friends, getting along, studying, CCA-ing and ____ing. So weird. Never knew my skin could actually be so thick, nor that my thoughts could actually get so twisted and all. Doing crazy things, starting routines with bro and WIS, leaving our legacies at every little nook and corner in that place we've all grown to love as our second home.

Results are coming out in less than two weeks and for all, it's a big emotional ROJAK. No one can absolutely define how they feel clearly. Every single J3 awaiting their results would probably agree with me on this. Thoughts of how they will fare to where they will end up never fail to pop up more and more frequently as the date of release of results draws nearer. Daily things just seem to give premonitions of the big ONE.

Missing those days...

creeping

Sunday, January 27, 2008

10:10 PM

It's funny how i've always looked forward to graduating from NYJC back when i was still studying and eagerly counted down to the days when the daily routine of tutorials and lectures would finally give way to a study break of 2 years to pursue a more secure future for Singapore @ tekong.

Being called a graduate of NYJC just churns out all the mixed feelings from inside. Like how relieved i am to be vindicated from all that stress from the really common common tests and how unwilling i am to move on from all those days of emo-ing, having guy talks, being dejected,rejected&trampled and finally having small dreams coming true. All those little places holding fond memories wouldn't have been so nostalgic without the people who made them worth a walk down memory lane.

Gonna swing into the fifth week of work and maybe for the first time, it doesn't seem that bad anymore. Lunching with tightass again and who knows how hilarious it's gonna be! After all that drama this week, it'll be pretty cool seeing how things are going to settle down.

Like it or not, results are coming out soon. Keeping the fingers crossed and heart faithful.

love

Sunday, January 20, 2008

10:32 PM

3 consecutive days of not sleeping well, not eating properly and not being able to work normally. At the end, guess it's all worth it.

It was hell, followed by a lil bit of heaven. Perhaps this whole ruckus just showed both of us what this meant to the other party. I guess this just elevates us to yet another level.

This marks the end of the third week of work. PHEW. Barely eleven weeks to go before i go on an emo cruise/holiday since SOME teacher's too preoccupied with teaching. So it's gonna be 9 lonely days before lfe comes to a halt.

It's been pretty cool learning the little secrets of wearing formal attire nicely. HAHA. At least the LAOSHI didn't complain. Sitting in front of a computer screen for 8 and a half hours a day doesn't seem as self deprecating as it used to. Dad's gonna be going overseas soon and it's prolly going to be another 2 days of having lunch alone unless i can date the tightass.

This jealousy has shone more than any other scenarios could. I know now that come what may, this IS the path to tread.

JEALOUSY ((:

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

9:22 PM

Uniforms change; friends don't. I'm so tempted to believe in this after meeting with Joel aka tightass today.

First look made me so unwilling to accept this person standing in front of me as the victim of all class jokes during upper sec days. Different hairstyle, hair colour and aura. Lunch and the walk around reassured me that this was still the buddy i knew. The twisted talk, colourful language and a totally unexpected sense of comfort hanging out. Is this what it feels like to keep a friend?

Food at golden shoe was good, as usual. Having joel around to crap with made things lighten up after a not-too-jubilant night before. A short walk around raffles place reminising old times and updates closed up the two years of gap and life at st gabs seemed so yesterday. It's funny how we long for the past yet eagerly anticipate what the future holds for us.

In a nutshell, today isn't over till the loose ends are tied up. The new routine at singapore river gave a much needed place to meditate even as my eyes followed the words on the newspaper before me. Mind was a lil eased with the cold messages but at least i know you're alright enough. New seating and new tasks but nothing beyond me yet.

Needed a confidante, so much.

HUNGup

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

9:03 PM

The icy walls of unfamiliarity have slowly melted away. Coldness and distant faces are taken over by warmth and smiles.

It's the third week and work's becoming more routine and people are becoming less alien. Even feels pretty alright to relax and be more MYSELF at the office. Walking around the place also helps the adaptation process. Friendly people at work who're always trying to help me fit in also help. ((:

Did something for a change this morning. Instead of heading to the 11th floor with dad to read papers or go for a snooze, i headed to raffles place mrt for newspapers then to singapore river to slack. Surprisingly, there were quite a handful of people around, probably soaking in the morning freshness. There was something refreshing about the morning scene @ singapore river. This won't be my last escapade down there. Litter blemished the beautiful landscape but as usual, the government shows why it's number 1. In what can be considered the wee hours of the morning, there were already 3-5 little boats with people scooping up the rubbish left behind by PIECESOFSHIT. Pitiful selfish beings.

Don't wanna lose this feeling.

PAPERCLIP x1

Saturday, January 12, 2008

12:33 PM

Second week of work has passed, with glee.

It's weird how this week just passed by so quickly. If only the coming weeks could be like this. Change of seating just when i adapted to my comfy corner. Ohwell. Just take things as they come. It's not like worrying about it would change anything.

Lunch turned out pretty alright and I got to know another J3 from hwachong. Seems like all colleges are still, in one way or another similar. That handful of elitists in NY really did their propagation well. So it was WORKWORKWORK later on and some chats till 615pm arrived.

Raffles City ain't a bad place to slack around but an hour there wandering is different. Tempers flared and all with words laced with thorns. New friends made changed the entire mood. It seemed as if they sucked up all the unhappiness and bottled up grievances. Couldn't believe it until i saw for myself. Maybe gentlemen DO exist.

So we headed towards esplanade after dinner. Made it to the rooftop garden at long last. Always wanted to check it out since da ass first spoke about it. View was awesome and the ambience was soothing.

Headed home for some much-needed clarifications to save myself.

SAVED.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

11:11 PM

080108. This marks the 5th day of work and yet another milestone- the hundredth.

Work has been pretty much of an eye opener. Learnt stuff about my folks i could never have imagined. Somehow, i feel a sense of pride being related to them. Maybe they're not the nags/disciplinarians/expecters they appeared to be. It's been tough but manageable reading, checking and picking up PR skills all of a sudden, especially when i've been honeymoon-ing my holidays away.

Lunch with SH was good today. Nice boss, smooth chat and all. Opened my eyes to LOADS of new stuff. Great guy. Power shortage today. So cool la! Twenty minutes or so but it was a much needed break.

Work ended and greatness swung into action. Great plans had to be thought up on the spot but nothing baffles the MAN. PLAN A didn't work out so PLAN B just took over. Mission accomplished, judging from that drastic change in expression. So everything just happened and the rabbit came and gone. Never have i tolerated so much before. DANGS.

SPONGEBOB ((:

Sunday, January 06, 2008

11:59 PM

Some things can't be bought with money. They are those you gotta work/fight/slog for to keep.

Service wasn't that dry today. Understandable and direct sermon. P&W pretty much added some fun to the service. After some light pingpong with the fish, we headed off to HOTELROYAL for buffet lunch.

Food was good and we just went round after round. Too bad we couldn't keep up the pace we were at during mission. No wonder uncleBUFFINGNIAO loved this place. Werewolves after that with some great plays from the RKBOYS.

Velocity was a pretty dull place to go to. Even with ky and cheng, and later xm, that place was probably a one-time-visitation. NOMORE. Unless there're some major revamps, i doubt i'll head for that place anytime soon.

Dinner-ed with some fussy person who just wanted CAVANA's honey grilled chicken rice. So we went ALLTHEWAY to sunplaza for it. A short walk followed by a totally unexpected SHOOTINGSTAR made the whole day memorable. We could even see the blazing trail of the star even though it only appeared for a mere 0.4s at most. Ended up staring up at the sky, looking for more, hoping that there was some sort of a meteor shower.

ONE

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

9:13 PM

First time working. New year, new hopes and a brand new experience for yet another chapter. Hope i write it well. (:

1jan wasn't the exuberant, hyped-up or funky kind of day that singaporeans from all over the island would remember by. For me, this not-too-vibrant day meant much more than the 17 1jans before it. The significance and all. Our third month, mundane but quality time spent alone. Feels so much as if we're like an old couple lol.

For the first day on the job, i really had no idea what to expect. Up to the moment i saw my superior, i hadn't the slightest inkling of what my job scope covered at all la! Things got better as the hours passed. The fellow temp staff my age didn't come so i was somewhat the youngest on the floor. Felt weird wearing office attire and all, and minding my language, taking extra care to pick my words to sound more civilised. Collegues were great in assimilating me.

Reading, reading and more reading. Wasn't something i was used to after keeping all reading material at bay since the 'A's. Guess i'll get used to doing stuff after this week and things will probably settle. Then, i can start materialising all the great plans i have for us lol.

Friday can't come sooner.

MISSES