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Sunday, September 30, 2007

2:51 AM

What was supposed to be just any other conversation went the other way. One wrong turn and we walked down a not-too-memorable side of memory lane. The roots tangled us and we tripped. Trying to break free only brought about more exhaustion. Still reaching for the glimmer of light.

Since things didn't work out, too bad. You were just meant to be a fragment of the past. Why try so hard just to ruin everything? I never thought malice would come, regardless of what wrongs the past had. Seems like i was wrong. Seems like the trust was broken and thanks for the unique way of saying thanks.

It shouldn't disgust as much as it appears.

mutilated

Saturday, September 29, 2007

10:24 AM

One step further. We took it. Now, it's time to await the promise. ((:

First of the 1 and a half hours lecture series yesterday. Maths turned out to be too fast but chem was alright. Bro was being a planner without making grand plans and PS-ed us yet again. Lunch and the mugging was great. Even though the flu made me delirious according to them, it was good that we all had fun.

5 packets of tissue to bring things under control lol. Regrouped with the planners and rushed here and there. WELCOME! (: Hah. Guess we all sorta brought home something today.

PROMISE

Thursday, September 27, 2007

9:02 PM

Before we knew it, it just happened. It's not gonna be taken for granted. Remember these words if nothing else goes in. (:

Shortest day in school today and bro PS-ed me AGAIN. Busied with going through papers till you came and yeah. Didn't look too promising at the beginning. Thought the 4 days took their toll but a little more time dispelled that notion totally.

Turn and turn and turn of events which brought us to a supposed 0% destination, right? Hahah. Studied at the most unexpected place and saw the most unexpected people. It happened. The ride could never be longer and the weeks don't seem that long anymore. It's tough adding the juicy details in but today could never be more RIGHT.

held

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

7:18 PM

Friends give you a push in the right direction when your narrow perceptives just aren't enough. It's weird how things can slowly affect your state of mind. Oh well. It just shows how much certain people matter.

It was pure disappointment receiving the GP papers. Normally, i'll probably clam up in self reproach but things were different today. Just had more important issues to fuss about. I meant it when i said i'll be there even if we were in a midst of a quarrel if you ever needed me.

Bro owes me! PS-ER!! HAH. I'm such a nice buddy. Kena left behind but it's alright. Needed some qualitytime eh? Hahah. Better straighten out soon and kick the emo bug lol. (:

Can't wait to collect results for econs tmr. Just hope that it would not turn out to be another ego crusher like mid years.

YOU((:

Monday, September 24, 2007

4:45 PM

We have no control over our surroundings but is it okay to let nature dictate what comes next? Guess i'm running out of time.

Time just dragged on in school today. Missed the breakfast and went through the drudgery of a schoolday even when it's supposed to be a damn marking day. Results were OKAY but chem hit hard. A little too harsh, i guess.

Spaced out.

REAL?

12:04 AM

When a tray of nicely sorted out coloured beans are being overturned by two pairs of hands and left to their own devices with time, what happens?

Same old things happened during the mission training. If it carries on at this rate, i guess we'll all be woefully unprepared la. But yeah. He has His plans. FAITH.

Then came the time which could only pass too quickly. WHAM! And it's gone before you know it. But at least it's something to hold on to till the days pass us by. I'll look forward to the many things we had in store for the times to come. (:

waitforyou

Saturday, September 22, 2007

12:33 AM

OVER!

Yeah. Somehow it felt like the prelims already ended before i stepped in the hall to take physics paper 1 lol. Thanks for all that encouragement with 4-choose-1. (:

Rushed home for a quick shower and a fresh change of clothes before ending up at amk being the EARLYBIRD. One of the first times i'm actually the earliest and the reward was consecutive waiting. Maybe it's because of the training i've received recently. Time spent waiting couldn't pass slower and words never got more alive lol.

We had fun cooking, breaking eggs, slaying crabs, shaking prawns... Maybe this is how this felt? Hmms. Could get used to it. The laugher, the smiles, the un-glamness and all. Time just passed too quickly and we all had to leave. This outing meant something.

Hope their walktalk brings out a new spark. (:

numberone

Thursday, September 20, 2007

10:29 AM

On the brink of temporial liberation as we march towards the As.

This probably wasn't the first time i've experienced the lightness of freedom but it never tasted so sweet and i never looked more forward to it. Papers come and papers go. Grades excite and wrench. But at least the final goal is finally in sight. What a way to end this prelims!

HAIRSPRAY. I guess bro and i never pictured ourselves watching this kind of movies. As the credits rolled, maybe it wasn't so bad after all. Mixed emotions from the time we arrived till we left. OHWELL (:

Seconds slip by till the final obstacle.

VV

Sunday, September 16, 2007

1:41 PM

The events on friday haunted me. Attempts to distance myself from my thoughts were pretty much futile. If a picture speaks a thousand words then the image of 2 skewed lines fits us to a T.

Seconds, minutes and hours passed. Nothing. Given things as they were from this narrow point of view, the natural impulse came. But like all other times, it was impossible to tear myself away from the flames. It hurt but i knew this was what i really wanted.

Things happened. I'm glad they did. So we helped each other out of this pit again. Somehow, regardless of what comes next, regardless of the hurts and all, i have a good feeling about things.

I got ruptured. But guess what? You're a first aider so it don't matter. (:

mutual firsts

Saturday, September 15, 2007

2:05 PM

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

7:11 PM

8 more days. It's been NICE having someone to keep you awake through the most ordinary means. There were times when the towering stack of notes just made it near impossible to approach the desk. You made the difference.

So we had the most grueling papers for this prelims, just that econs is not over and done with yet. If i ever tried plotting a curve for the amount of revision time spent on studying for exams this year, it'll definitely be a downward sloping one.

Crappiest thing that ever happened this week was the supposed burst blood vessels in my eyes lol. Didn't see how bad it could be so i kept on wearing my lenses and the left eye just got worse. Punishment? A week of seeing the world through my trusty and nerdy glasses. Got greeted by weird looks and laughter but oh well. (:

Haven't been getting the required sleep these nights. Looking at things, perhaps i can finally get some rest over the weekends and do a bit of catching up.

Perhaps we all had a different idea of what a solution was. When it comes to things like this, obligation goes no further than a failed discussion.

complete.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

12:14 PM

Ever got the feeling of dread rising up in you when you know that things HAVE to be done but you're not even trying at all?

2 days to struggle with the remaining 80 chapters and ponder about a ghost from the past. Was it the right thing to do? Chanced upon this AMV a few days back. A dark song.

Counting down the weeks till we will no longer be shackled by these chains.

void

Thursday, September 06, 2007

9:58 AM

The past two days have been nothing short of an eye-opener. Went way up and caught a glimpse of heaven then fell all the way just to experience the torments of hell. It's plain weird how 2 days can capture so accurately these opposites.

So we caught the long awaited DEADSILENCE. Not as much of a scary movie as we thought it would be but yeah. Never felt more bony before. Thought maybe it wouldn't be so bad living it out after As. At least i think bro felt better and yeah.

Studied 6 hours with the classroom as my companion. Didn't know why i just had to keep looking at the razr and wondering if it was spoilt or anything. The notes, tenyearseries and stationery lay nicely in front of me but it was just hard trying to focus.

We make ill-informed decisions with imperfect information. Perfect mine for me so that it won't repeat itself again (:

ruptured

Saturday, September 01, 2007

10:26 AM

We marvel at the many possibilities of what a single action could mean.

Collected your effort and took a morning stroll to macs, watching fellow collegians rushing to school. It just felt different. Thought that wis would be late but they were actually there! We vomited at the playground while the rest were waiting. Arrived back in school only to see 2 j1 SCs trying too hard to keep the participation level high.

After the whole thing ended, we kind of felt cheated. It's like coming back to college for nothing la. No attendence taking, no picnic, no FUN. Waited for something but earlier events in the day didn't set the rhythm right. Ended up gaying with bro from amk to bishan. We even bought the movie package more intended for lovers LA. Rush Hour 3 was hilarious. We lamented our plight and allowed ourselves to be taken away by the movie. We laughed, but it felt empty.

Headed back to school after bro had to leave for his family commitments. School felt eerily abandoned and quiet. What used to be a place packed with muggers was as empty as some ulu graveyard la. Started working at complex AGAIN in some fourth floor classroom with the comfort in the fact that at least there were people in the classroom beside mine.

We spoke. At last words which supposed to come came. Tactless with warped usage of my words but everything that was said and done meant something.

This can never be more true. To the world, you may be ONE PERSON. But to one person, you may be his/her WORLD.

normal (: