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Saturday, April 28, 2007
8:34 AM

"As we know, there are known knowns. There are things we know we know. We also know there are known unknowns. That is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns, the ones we don't know we don't know."
- Donald Rumsfeld

Living in uncertainty really aint nothing to be enviable of. Like the quote at the top, it's pretty to see that nothing much is actually within your control in life. The unpredictable elements sometimes don't go your way and at times, it isn't all that hard trying to feel the sapping of colours from this colourful world. The feeling of being a fish is, perhaps more than what i can take. Is it really okay?

A little bit more. The icy wall is coming apart. It won't be long before connection is re-established.

We are all protons. Positive by nature, attracting the negativities.

Let's groove to the rhythm of life and embrace em!


Wednesday, April 25, 2007
7:09 PM

Today marks the end of something and the beginning of something else.

Not sure if i did the right thing earlier on. Things are definitely gonna be so different tomorrow. I just wonder how things may turn out.

Hopefully it's not gonna be yet another smack in the face.

On a lighter note, CONGRATS TO DANSEZ-LE! Hopefully the time and effort pays off.


Saturday, April 21, 2007
11:51 PM

Didn't manage to make it for TS's gabrielite soccer gathering. Think he's still pissed with me. Sorry man!

Went to school for the anniversary rehearsal which didn't really last for long, compared to poeple assigned to other tasks like the UMBRELLA SQUAD or something lidat. We collected our t-shirts which were not bad looking at all.

Managed to find a ball outside equipment room so the class played some ball. Had fun until this little boy came by himself and persisted in joining us. Initially, none of us wanted to realy let him join in cause he would probably end up injured and not get to touch the ball. His stubborn-ness prevailed in the end and dexter let the little boy play for him after a while.

Since he was wearing a "spiderman" shirt, i took the liberty of calling him spiderman. At the beginning, i thought he was cute till he started giving me names. Dang! 'Got rid' of him after a while and had some fun among ourselves. Evon and WJ joined us after that. Things got a little heated from there but at least no one was seriously injured.

He came back and we played. Had to make good my word to this small kiddo.

Went for dinner after he finally decided to leave and by then it was like 8 plus. Finally got the chance to DRAW in the slurpee contest! OH YEAH!! Now the score stands at 1-1 with 2 matches left to go.


Wednesday, April 18, 2007
4:32 PM

With each passing day, the stress mounts. It may seem easy to others and the best thing to do at the moment is to act like nothing happened and live life. It's like an avalanche. To do nothing about it till it snowballs and gets out of anyone's control shouldn't exactly be a solution if it can be helped.

If the dissent was truly malicious, there would be no bounds to the harm done to both sides. I guess it is best if we can truly sort things out. Why should something that probably snowballed from a trivial matter tear and rip away ties forged and strengthened over the year? Must things really come to the stage where we just act as if the other party is non-existent?

As one whose mood flutuates with each fleeting moment, the inner prompting still pushes for another chance. It's just that the situation is worsening as each day comes to a close. Perhaps there are misunderstandings and perhaps no one is blameless. "Innocent until proven guilty". Even criminals have the benefit of the doubt. It's absurd to bow down and apologize if the cause of the dispute isn't even identified. If nothing is said and if we were to humbly say SORRY, it's nothing more than mere pacifism. It solves the short-term pride problem but not the long-term innate differences that is the root cause of this contained and silent HOO-HA.

Vindication is nothing more than what you want it to be.


Tuesday, April 10, 2007
5:46 PM

Things have returned to their original state. Sometimes, all it takes to solve a problem is to open up with your feelings. You might seriously piss someone off and make them hate you. But the important thing is that if he is really a true friend, you will resolve it together. It doesn't matter if you slam the other person in his face cos if it is really reasonable, he will come round it and it won't be too late to make an apology after that.

I'm glad.

Happy 18th Birthday pink!

etaf


Saturday, April 07, 2007
10:33 AM

Just a few steps more to the forked road. Don't wanna let misunderstandings decide for me.


Thursday, April 05, 2007
10:12 PM

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.

I'd rather have hard times together, than have it easy apart.


9:49 PM

Some things are made to be broken while others are broken so that they can be repaired. The test of time tests the mettle of these "things".

It's difficult to say that one word which can solve problems and work wonders. Somehow it weighs heavily on my subconscious state. I hate this feeling but perhaps pride is holding me back. Maybe it isn't pride but shyness or whatever. I just have to find a way to get around this invisible wall or i'll never have peace at home.

Instead of going round in circles, i have decided not be too indirect here. If you detest someone, show it. Don't hide behind a friendly facade or dismiss it. There was a time when i thought it was something min0r. There was a time when i thought that perhaps i should make the first move and there was a time when i did. These times have passed and maybe you are still fuming. You know what? I'm getting sick of it. This feeling sucks. One day, we might even find each other repulsive.

If things are gonna work out somehow, good. Otherwise, it's still fine with me. A few decades down the road, i'll just recall the good times we had and nothing else....

Broken(ing...)


Tuesday, April 03, 2007
7:10 PM

So the weekends came and went and it's time for napfa tests again. Had a little bit of the monday blues after breakfast. Bonnie OFFERED to buy breakfast for us. Everyone remained as they were. No one actually realised that perhaps this wasn't the way things were supposed to be, including me. Thought that even though it was weird, this arrangement suited the various mini-groups.

Drifted through the lectures. New chapters taught today and luckily i managed to understand at least what was going on. Bonnie disappeared during one of the breaks and only saw him later during maths. Managed to persuade mrslim to released us earlier to prepare for our napfa.

NAPFA- 5 stations+ 2.4km
Started off with pull-ups, which was pretty simple to me and i just went up and pulled 11. Wanted to try doing one more but tommy told me to come down.

Next up was 2.4km since the sky looked threatening. Wasn't mentally prepared and al didn't do a special encouragement so i barely made it. Couldn't believe that i lagged behind from the first round onwards. The thing was that i thought i was already running too quickly since i timed 1.48min for round 1. Kept at this pace and only managed to overtake other guys from the 4-5 round onwards. Clocked a total time of 12.10min which kept me from my gold.

Sit and reach next and we were all sweating and still had to be cooped up in the equipemnt room la... Didn't do proper stretching and both my knees gave way at 47cm.

Standing broad jump straight after. Nothing much. Forgot to do my tuck jumps. 248cm.

Sit-ups. Dexter was kind enough to be my partner even though he was exempted from PE. 50. This time, the 50 came easier than all my earlier years since i was pacing the guy on my left who was doing so quickly and somehow, i didn't like the smirk on his face.

Closed off with shuttle run. I hate being distracted. I took a while to react to the teacher's "START". No hiccups along the way so i hit 9.5s. Pretty good but i reckon i could shave more time off.

Basketball-ed after that till 7plus.


Sunday, April 01, 2007
8:34 AM

Made do with 3 hours of sleep before heading to Bedok Reservoir at 730am.

Supposed to meet bonnie-chan(monk) at serangoon at 640am but there was some miscommunication and he ended up at the stop before me. Saw roddie at my stop instead. Chatted the whole 1+ hour journey away with roddie. Bonnie was on the upper deck and didn't get a chance to go up beacause the bus was seriously packed like crap.

GAMES!!
Finally made it there and the opening event for the group of classes which my class was assigned to was dragonboat. Ended up being a sub since there was full attendence for the game and everyone was so enthu. Waited for and supported them from a further part of land with lin and guys from 0619. They came in second.

Next event was the 1km race. Took part with lin, hs, yc and kh. We managed to start after a very long delay thanks to some super late classes. Came in second but it didn't really matter. We were supposed to run with people from 0616 but for some strange reasons, they were nowhere to be seen except for gerald. We decided to run back and finish the race with them. Turned out that one girl injured her back and her classmate took over for her. Pretty moved by the class spirit. The other friend ran with slippers only la...

Final game was frisbee. Played among our class and then with poeple from 0616 again. It was fun and everyone more or less ecame more familiar with the game. I played alongside bonnie, dexter, raine and sj for this game. We won.

Post Event Activities
After everything ended, headed with al to tpy since the guys left and the girls were busy with their red cross stuff. We managed to catch some sleep during the 1+ hour bus ride. Had lunch then guys talk. Kept updated on the latest happenings.