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Sunday, April 30, 2006

6:26 PM

Imagine this scene:

Someone standing over a dry piece of ground where a puddle used to lie..

Got it?

And now, someone crying to start the puddle all over again.

Once that happens, the person is sad because the reflection is showing a sad face.

Could you make it out?

What was on your mind while you were thinking of that??

Well, the answer is..

That's me you are imagining.

Feel that way now.

I need help.

Really.

: '(

Anyway, ignore the previous posts.

:|

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

5:08 PM

Hmm..

It was a tough week.

Had to deal with certain blows..

Funny how we can go ga-ga together over stuff that's not really relevant yet be indifferent when we're say, separated?

So, being together does not equal to being separated. (Like duh? Who doesn't know that?) Well, yeah.. It was something I learnt, from him.

To be independent.

Well, Mela, I happened to read your blog. My advise to you is that.. You can pray about what you wanna do in the future.. Ask God if accountancy is really your thing. If it isn't then it's all right. Maybe you can ask your mother for opinions. Hahaha.. Not that I'm encouraging you to go against your mother but, yeah.. Try opening up other options. As for Chemical Engineering, I would advise you not to go for it. Jer told me that there has been too many chemical engineers in the working world. Might get boring after a while.. So yeah, pray about it.. Ask God for direction. Always seek Him okay? Don't make your decisions too fast or "cause I like/want that course NOW.." You may not like it in the long term. Hope you are okay with my advice. All the best then..

(:

SIGH.

Having said that, I've dropped the thought of wanting to go Optometry. Firstly, it requires 9 points, has 48 vacancies per intake and the job we get? Hmm.. Besides being in a spectacle shop for the whole day or week, it gets quite boring. Hahaha.. Every job does become a routine sooner or later. That's why, we've gotta do something we like! (:

Amy asked me: "Do you want to be a nurse?"
me: "Erh.. No?"
A: "Why not? You've the heart for people.. Or what about air-stewardess?"
Saph: "EH! Not fair! How come she gets to be an air-stewardess and I don't?"
me: "Hahahaha.. Cause you're too short =P "
Saph: "Yeah right. Shut up. "

Well, so what if I've the heart for others? Hahaha.. Been manipulated because of that. Thus, I feel vulnerable at times. Talk about serving others. Heh. The message on "Self or others?" by Brother Sam struck me.

By serving others, it does benefit. But sometimes, the help we offer to others, does it please God? Hmm..

Hard to say.

Well, I do have a few goals after O's.

1. Biotechnology in any of the Polytechnics (most preferably Singapore Polytechnic)..

2. Pharmacology in Ngee Ann Polytechnic (it being a new course, points required might be.. ??)

3. Biomedical Science in Temasek Polytechnic?

4. Take Arts with Shmi in JC for the first 3 months.

Hahahahaha.. Current goal is number 4.

We're gonna work hard and try for it.

"We can do it!"

(:

As for him, he says we'll continue after O's. Wants to be as "close" as possible. If he goes to VJ and I go SP, it's really -> <- of each other. Hahaha.. Ah, it all depends. Gotta work hard. If I don't work hard and get good mid-year/prelim results, Amy's not getting me the keyboard ): So that's the motivation and the thing I'm working for. And also, at this point in time, I'm guilty of neglecting God even more. Do keep me in prayer as I hope to achieve a stronger relationship with Him and, him (: Eh yeah.. Current goal for Mid-Year is: Chinese: B4 but A2 for O's Maths: B4 but A2 for prelims and A1 for O's Combined Science: B4 but B3 for prelims and A2 for O's Geography: B4 but B3 for prelims A2 for O's English: B3 for prelims and O's Combined Humanities: C5 but B4 for prelims and A2 for O's. Sounds silly but, gotta work for it. My CA grades are mostly 40++% and I'm not happy about it. Just this much to passing.

Hahaha.. Yeah.

Good luck..

(:

May you have a blessed week ahead.

:D

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

5:43 PM

So, what's up?

Results were okay..

But there is room for improvement! (:

Gotta work on it.

HEH.

(X

SIGH..

So much has happened this week.

Too much to even catch up with reality.

Still a wee bit upset by her absence.

Other than that, am feeling happy (:

Because of him, everything changes.. He's the new addition to the family.

:D

Eh yeah.

That should be it.

(:

Managed to see my "best" friend on TV! (:

Rodney Skinner :)

Haha..

Yeap..

SNOW's on Friday, sad thing he can't go :(

But, Jer might be going.. That's if he remembers.

Otherwise, I'd strangle him. Haha..

:)

That's the only thing I'd be looking forward to this week.

To end off, it's time to do my holiday homework and revise! :)

Remy would get angry if I don't put in 2 hours of studying per day. Haha..

He is a nice mentor and friend (:

Gosh, sounds like Obi-Wan Kenobi (Ewan McGregor!! HEHE..)

AHH!!

That reminds me that I still haven't gone to the Star Wars Exhibition with Gracie yet.

=T

Oh well. Let's see how..

(:

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

3:36 AM

We're together again..

(:

Hahaha..

Jer's gonna kill me.

Seriously.

=P

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

8:30 PM

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Came back to school on Tuesday and talked to Miss JW.

Cried halfway.

It was a weird feeling.

Like the other time, nearly cried when I talked to her.

Just feel sad.

And numb.

How could she have gone?

It was good but, sigh..

No more pain..

Well, it was up to God's timing I guess.

(:

Jer's gonna kill me for talking to R.

Bleah.

Getting all emo over R.

What the heck.

Super duper..

Frustrating!

Licia!! We're in this, together.

LOL.

Trying to get someone out of our hearts and heads.

*boing*

Maybe I don't miss R anymore.

Considering the fact that he's such a..

Horrendous person.

Meano-kebeano.

However, he was the first person who..

Erm..

Liked me when I liked him.

Haha..

But it only lasted for one week.

Blah blah.

Feel..

LOST.

:(

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Tuesday, March 07, 2006

12:41 AM

Does it matter if I'm okay?

NO

It doesn't.

Stop asking me stupid questions and

GO AWAY!!

:(

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

11:01 AM

What's up man?

Throwing accusations at me for not being able to go for the movie.

Thanks Naz.

All the vulgarities starting pouring in..

It was all that I needed to start the day.

BLAH.

Anyway, this week has been better compared to last week. Even though someone else had to make it bad.. I am thankful to God that it was great.

Wanna take this opportunity to wish..

"Happy birthday Gaya!!"

(:

It's funny how Mon could ask, "how are you celebrating your birthday? Hiding behind coconut trees?"

Haha.. Found it funny but, this is when sarcasm kicks in.

Here's something I bet you didn't know or find out about me..

Last Sunday, I was feeling really down to the drains.

For what reason, I don't know.. It just made me feel so sad and.. Stressed.

Blah.

Feeling stressed was never really me in the first place because all these while, I'm such a slacker.

Until this year, it all changed.

Woke up to the new world of O levels.

It was all right at first but, the speed gradually got faster each time.

It's like a race you're running.

One time you can be fast with the subjects you are familiar with..

And after that, slowing down when you are unsure.

Stopping when you have no understanding towards the subject or feel indifferent towards it.

Weird huh?

That's life, you've gotta give and take.

Of course we have to seek God first in everything we do. He knows what's best for us.

Right?

(:

Yeah, then..

No one really knew that I was feeling down.

Until during the Watchlight meeting when I asked Bro Sam if I could take a break..

He said no.

Felt quite sad after that.

Not that I wanna pull a long face after that but I really.. Couldn't help it.

Was just so sad.

Received an encouraging SMS from RachC..

Around, 11+pm, got a call from Elizabeth.

She prayed for me, over the phone.

After that, tried to sleep but I really couldn't.

(At that time, was really on the verge of exploding because anger and sadness just took over me).

Amy came in and asked, "studying or sleeping huh??" in a joking way.

I told her to go away out of anger, and I just broke down..

Like, "WHOA.. Finally.."

Then Amy came in and just prayed for me again.

So I studied for Geog test from the 11+ to 12.30am.

Called Jer and we talked until 2.30am on the following Monday (February 27th).

Told him about the stuff that I'm going through.

The hurts.

Anger.

Emo stuff.

And of course, the joys.

How we laugh at each other's lame jokes, stories and stuff.

Ah, he knows what's best.

Cause he's my best friend after all.

(:

Even though I cried for half an hour, I am thankful to God that I went back to Him, immediately.

The next day, I felt much better.

The cheerful glow came back

(:

So, the week was fine.

However, some other obstacle came by.

The thought of taking my grade 6 piano practical exam.

Couldn't take ABRSM because I have no grade 5 theory.

Resorted to Guildhall.

The cost was.. $225.75!!

-.-"

Better pass or else Amy's money would go down the toilet bowl.

Madness.

Oh well.

Tried the pieces and found them a little bit easier than ABRSM's.

The examination's in June.

Pray hard that it'd either be after:

Chinese O levels,
Arts Excursion,
Supplementary classes
and..
Speedlight Camp.

Talk about Speedlight camp, I've a feeling my good friends won't go this year.

As in the Poly people.

:(

They start school in April and the camp's on June 5th-8th.

I think.

Well, other than that..

So many other thoughts are running through my head.

Am quite unsure if I should pen them down.

Share it.

Or..

Keep it to myself.

After all, there's weekly "confessions" to look forward to, with Jer.

Haha..

So weird.

In the upcoming week, I'll be looking forward to receiving:

1) Geography test results,
2) Report Book,
3) another rejection
and,
4) a whack in the head.

There's also, "Be a certified rock climber" course from 2.45-6pm on Friday! (:

Just two sessions of about 3-4 hours each and *ching ching*, the certificate is up! (:

Excited, are you?

OH YES!

How could I forget?

Salvation Sunday!!

And SNOW.

Oh my.

The songs chosen for SNOW are plain awesome!

Mostly my favourite songs.

:D

Woohoo! :)

Well, am going to end off now.

Been online too long and this entry..

Wonder who's concerned enough to ask what really happened.

Hmm..

Currently missing:

guyfriends: Elmo, Drew, Ah-pek Quekster, Ah-vid, Vin, Jer, Winst, Dwight and some others (does R count? Maybe.. But, it's different now.)

girlfriends: Zhenghui, Ern Huei, Ern Le, Junting, Sydney, Lynn, Ness, Shu Hua, Juvy and Jinny..

Argh..

Getting all sentimental and emotional again.

Well, that's all..

Take care.

Have a blessed week ahead!

*more thoughts are bombarding me*..

:P

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Saturday, February 25, 2006

12:08 PM

Am feeling very hurt by that dream.

Or was it a nightmare?

Hmm..

Jer will always know what's best.

"Learn to IGNORE please. Emo if you allow it".

Haha..

Talk about CA1 results..

They're horrendous.

Enough said (:

I wonder where Quest has gone to..

It's been 2 weeks

: (

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

4:06 PM

LONG ENTRY! (:

Finally had the chance to call Jer after not talking for 2 weeks.

"Was it that long? HAHA.." Jer asked.
"Guess so.. " I replied.

It was the first time I heard Jer so serious. Felt that something was wrong that made him like that. In the end, he said he was tired. Hahaha (:

We had a good conversation about some stuff. Told him that I wasn't that interested in Optometry anymore.. Was browsing the Career Guide book and happened to have interest in being a Scientific Officer. It required Biotechnology. "YAY!" I thought. Working in the laboratry, some forensic stuff (: "Can be like Eric Szmanda in CSI!" (:

All he said was, "do something that you like.."

That's all and our conversation ended because he had to go and study. Poor soul but still my best friend. Haha.. Kinda miss going out with him, really.

Anyway, last week was a tough one. However, I wanna thank God that I survived.

Had a conversation with Denny Low about why she was upset just now. Turns out that.. She was deeply affected by what Jacq said. We had a good talk on a certain things and turned out that we were going through the same thing at the same time. HAHA (:

Well, during cell-group, they talked about hurts.

I was smacked in the face.

Talk about hurts.

Been through so much yet it has numbed me completely.

What's the meaning of hurt?

Found it hard to comprehend.

Was it physical hurt?

Emotional hurt?

Mentally hurt?

Spritually dry?

It just made me think even more.

Honestly, I kinda drifted from God last week. Nothing seemed right and yet I let it be. It was supposed to be "seek and you will find.." but, it was weird. Couldn't open up to the cell-group, especially the guys. Can't help but to notice that the all the girls (excluding Hazel and I) cried. I, too, wanted to cry.. However, it just wasn't right. Not that I'm too proud but, I wish I could and it would be a great thing to cry before the Lord. (Yes, crying is good to distress but too much will kill you.. Learnt from experience).

"Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.."

Learnt it from Chingz and Licia (:

You know, I've been wondering..

When girls cry, is it to gain sympathy from guys?

I used to cry like crazy over stupid things last time. But now, thanks to Jer, I found it a waste of time. Is that right?

In case you're wondering, I was rather confused when Mela and Bitha apologised to me. Really. It was dificult to understand. I still feel a bit hurt when I see them in school not doing the stuff that is required of them. Not study-wise but something else.. It just kills me to see them like that.

Is pride that important? When one is too proud, is it possible to humble ourselves before God and tell Him we're sorry? I wish it was that easy.. But, is it?

Think about it.

I've a question to ask you..

have you ever wondered why God created us all to feel confused about life? and to some, they find it meaningless and want to end it immediately by suicide.

guess God has His reasons.

how do we appreciate the life we are given? by living it according to God's will and giving our utmost for His Highest?

hmm.. how to define the perfect life?

so many weird questions have been bombarding me. it's ok if u can't ans them. just being a bit random.

meanwhile, school's been really stressful. the amount of workload keeps increasing and there's no way to.. cope with it. chinese, esp.

do take care

God bless.
phina (: | 02.04.06 - 1:02 am | #

if it was me, ill agree wif u tt confusion surfaced by ourselves bt in e same complicated situation...in short, if we feel e complication, its hard to feel God cos its too easy to be in a comfortable spot..bt shld there be no easy life? haha..there shld be, bt e comfort will be God instead..

to live in accordance to His will is smth really quite big..well at least, its some standards we can look forward to in a God almighty..till date, my utmost for His highest cannot me MY bt we for Him with help frm e Holy Spirit..'i' cannot do it by himself..'i' can only do THRU Him n not as an individual..

juz sm tots..nothing in detail..bt u've made me realized, unless im in a spot, if nt i wun need to seek God even more ernestly cos at a certain level, im in my own world..hehz..
vin | 02.04.06 - 9:25 am | #

yeap. He is our refuge and shelter, very help in time of need.

remember that song?

well, i've been really down for the past few weeks.. or, maybe ever since school started.

this year's chinese new year hasn't been a good one because i went back to see great-grandma (91 yrs old). she was sick and had to be hospitallized. seeing her lay in the hosp bed has made me feel weak and yet, can't do anything except pray.

grandma said she (great-grandma) dreamt of having a party with angels. is that a sign? somehow, i always feel sad cos i never really got a chance to talk to ggma in great but, yah. she's there, i guess.

other problems such as.. friendship/relationship problems just keeps increasing. i don't know. it really does hurt to see a fren say "who's Christ?" when all these while i've been evangelising to her. it's tiring and sometimes, tears just fill the eyes when i see my non-christian frens getting "stronger" in their non-existant faiths.

my sch's offering religious education and they say they wanna promote a christ-centred community in school. but how's that possible when everyone is just so b*tchy sometimes? cos we're girls? ah, girls. always prefered guys to be my friends since i was young. never knew why. haha.. bet you din noe that..
phina (: | 02.07.06 - 6:14 am | #

and then, the catholics in my school as good as non-Christians. ah, doesn't it suck? they do everything THEIR way and not the Christ-way. everything's just about 'them'.

talk about the end times, 'people will soon be lovers of themselves..' blah. it's scary. don't you think?

sigh.

the thoughts of suicide are coming back again. used to have them in sec 3 but, after that, i had a breakthrough and i emerged a happier and positive person. however, was it appreciated? sadly, never.

the only thing i fear is that i'll backslide. don't feel so.. enthu about things anymore. or going to cell has made me into a.. quieter person when i ought to be the most crazy and ON-est person.

honestly, i've forgotten how to pray and worship God.. just feel really neglected. it takes up a lot of energy to put up a strong front but of course, it never lasts. argh.

please help. i dare not tell anyone (not jacqueline or ernie or my frens).

currently need a smack on the head. or something that will wake me up.

thanks Vin. you've always been a great partner-in-crime for being enthu

see you soon.

[am thinkin of taking a break from cell and maybe speedlight like vera.. need time to self-reflect. wat say u?]
phina ): | 02.07.06 - 6:20 am | #

when i read ur tots, i felt so much like letting ya noe tt, ain't life made somehow more 'beautiful' like dis?(:perhaps,colourful, bt nt in a way we wld understand it frm a man's perspective..God may haf a higher intent of which, both of us may nt understand till somewhere later..

next, jacq n ernie are ur lders n i tot u might wanna approach them still cos they are ur direct spiritual authority of whom God place them to assist u in ur walk with Him..they noe u better in certain ways n i believe they can too enlighten ya n share ur burdens..

bout ur grandma, indeed, u can do betta n much more to reach out..see,men are very much bound by their very own sight, nt noeing how much more they can acheive thru God cos we hardly c e gradual bearing of His fruits..

i lost my grandpa few yrs ago. same kinda thing happened..e only thing im left wif was regret..dun follow e same footstep..dis was wad i did-i prayed for him bt did simply nothin cos i dunno wad to do n believed tt i cld only pray n then pray again..dis is faith w/o action..n there's no instruction to wad u can possibly do as of now.. u haf to communicate n discuss wif God..no point telling ppl how majestic God is when ur believe dun extend to a intimate relay of messages to n fro with ur ultimate savior..no matter how lost u are, e more u dun pray, e more ul stray..ill explain in a while why..

Next, sch. ah..er, wellz, nothin mixing wif guys cos we rock!..opps..wad i mean is, there muz still be a sense of balance..dun feel bitter n move towards an area of extreme..no ones perfect..if u sae ur catholic frens are as gd as non-christian, haf u been obedient to God as of till date so u may be a good testimony to them? are they supposed to be ard to help you or e other way round when in many other areas God has already been blessing u n others are still lacking of it?

We all haf certain weaknesses yea? Gossips n lashing of e tongue is smth veri common everywhere..u r e salt, make a difference..

NEVER SUICIDE. dis will lead u to a point of no return. for this, mark me well, i will be very strict wif u. at least im honest to u. tt body u reside in now is NOT urs in e first place..it belongs to God n u belong to Him. If u take it away, its selfish n u nv consider how God would feel n hw ur family wld tink bout it. wld u bear to leave everything behind for ur loved ones n frens to bear n remember for life they nv did anything well enuff to prevent u frm taking such a step?!

WHY LET E DEVIL PLAY UR MIND WHEN U HAF E POWER TO OVERCOME him?

We haf our downs. If my image is always positive n enthu, then believe me, i might haf smoked u guys for quite some time cos i'm actually suffering in army..not tt its downright terrible, bt i'm beginning to hate wad im doing n not honouring God in many sense..

Im doing silly mistakes n causing my instructors to be very hard on me n it seems like everything i'm doing is wrong n im again losing my confidence which was once held so hig
vin | 02.11.06 - 8:17 am | #

Im doing silly mistakes n causing my instructors to be very hard on me n it seems like everything i'm doing is wrong n im again losing my confidence which was once held so high..anyone noticed?haha..so why be brave when ur not n why nt allow God to take tt weakness n turn for to be in His strength instead?

when many others are actually 'mocking' me at my grave mistake of misfiring a blank bullet, im made to remember i haf to serve my 14 days punishment. It was tough..when everyone was asleep,i was still marching..when everyone had e extra time to do their own stuff, i was having my full pack inspection over n over again n doing PT at night..

You are not alone. Many others are suffering in certain sense n im not tryin to tell u how pathetic my current situation is cos its complicated..wad im tryin to bring across to u is tt, ur mind muz be strong enuff as of todae becos u are no longer any spiritual baby like before..ur lders fed u n e Lord led u to a certain stage where u muz also learn how to grow up wif e pressures of e world n rely on Him for answers..

till date, i still dunno why terrible things happen to me..i do actually haf e tots tt my instructors detest me cos of wad i did n all..bt tt was only my tots..no one confirmed tt kinda thing wif me, so shld i cont to live my life in camp thinking my authorities are nothing bt juz ______ when i am indeed e one who is feeling bitter bout it?

In desperation, i knelt by my bedside n prayed. nt tt its smth wonderful or life changing, bt i let Him be in control..i need confidence, bt many think i haf overwhelming lots of it..haha..okie la, i do haf some left la, bt shaken by too many happenings..

take this when it comes to prayers n worship-

WHY NOT START NOW?

i am enthu becos i believe i can n i want to be different..there will be stuff blockin n hindering me frm being whom i hope to be, bt e Lord will conquer. i am energetic, cos when i am tired, i noe tt will influence others to be more negative..if anything cld be done to twist a situation ard n improve on tt, why not? see, dis formula sounds very gd rite? bt when it comes to actions, its maddening..when i can try my very best in chr, i fail quite some lot when in OCS..bt im still trying..an officer muz be trained to be proficient..so as a spiritual child of God muz learn to grow by learning n trusting in e Lord..

take a break when u need to bt nv to end up sayin things like, 'since left quite some time liao, feel bit out, tink shouldn return..'. then ill sae, keep ur momentum right, so u wun lose it..bt when u need a rest IN THE LORD, do it, becos HE IS ALREADY WAITING FOR YOU.

Life is beautiful when u see a challenge before u n attempt to overcome it. When ur sail is smooth, no point..cos ul only realize, e tides are dead.

Learn to see things from different perspective n allow positive possibilities to run thru u..tt'll improve ur mindset to being more proactive towards forward-looking instead of laying back
vin | 02.11.06 - 8:18 am | #

Learn to see things from different perspective n allow positive possibilities to run thru u..tt'll improve ur mindset to being more proactive towards forward-looking instead of laying back n allowing smth really bad to happen n sae 'see!i knew it..it has to be this bad!'..

Enuff sayin...now its ur call..

wads e next step for ya?(:
vin | 02.11.06 - 8:19 am | #

Thanks again Vin (:

It was really good to see him, Norm and a few others in church.

The songs sung during Praise and Worship today were great! Talk about surrendering it all and going back to God. I found it as the perfect opportunity to do so (: PHEW.

And oh yes, Brother Sam's sermon has hit me in the face too. I'll leave the sermon notes here. It's entitled, "Reaching for a friend..":

1. Why should we have friends?
In Ecclesaistes 4:9-12, it shows that they are:
- our help in times of need
- the company that warms and expands our lives
- a hedge against loneliness and,
- God has commanded us to.
Read also John 15:12-14.

2. How do friendships form?
Around a third element - INTEREST (common one that is)

3. Where do we find friends?
We can find them in;
Family, church, place of study or work, local community and the world recreation.

(:

4. Barriers of friendship:
- fear of getting hurt (rejection) because of bad experiences in the past
- lack of self-confidence which leads them to being shy
- bitterness (could be anger or suspicion)

Read John 7:4-9, Matthew 9:11-13, Matthew 25:34-36 and Luke 10:30-37

**LOOK OUT FOR THE THOSE WHO NEED CHRIST AND KNOW THEIR NEEDS**

Talking about friends, it just scares me to see people just like that everyday.

Gotta work on it.

"Jia you! " (:

March 12th 2006, Sunday: Salvation Sunday!! (:

Gonna end off with some advice Mr J shared with me:

"You know, with the learning of language, you need to take it one at a time. Don't stress yourself out by setting yourself by aiming such a high goal. Strategise by choosing simple goals. Then, do your best sto achieve them perfectly. One thing at a time, and that's how you build your confidence and remove stress. Then go on to your next targetted level".

and,

Chialey's encouragement made my day! Here it is:

"You can do it! I support you. Hahaha.. Happy new year.. Work hard will help you but stress will make you worse".

What she means is that working hard will benefit you and stress will just kill you..

Miss her so much.

Take care everyone.

Have a blessed week (:

Hope to talk to Dave aka "Ah-vid" soon.. Been so long.. -.-"

And Quest is acting irritating altogether (:

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

9:07 PM

Wah.. I'm in love....

With the song "REFUGE"..

Oh my gosh.. It has taken me away..

Here are the lyrics:

I sing a love song to Your Lord
Every day, every night
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life

Where can I go from Your presence
Under Your wings I take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart I know,
we'll never be apart

Every day, I draw closer to You
Lord I long to see Your face
And hide in Your embrace
All my life, dwelling in Your holy place
My heart O Lord, You've changed
I'll never be the same..

Published by City Harvest Church.

It was kinda weird when our church sang it. But the lyrics are nice (: LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT! (:

Anyway, someone came back to cell-group today! (:

Mela's probably gonna disturb me about this but, hah.. Shan't say much :D

Darn, I miss going out with Jer. Tsk.

But yah, promised him that I'll take him to a place where they sell nice cutleries. Hahaha.. (Like for what, right?) Well, for a secret mission. Just the both of us (: Felt really great walking with him, alone.. Haha.. From the cell-group house to the bus-stop. That's why I was late for Speedlight. SHHH!!! =P

Finally, HUH is complete. However, Drew's not there. That silly twin brother of mine -.-" Heard he did well for O levels? Hahaha.. He's smart enough to be silly (",)

Other than that, I'm really encouraged to see the cell-group growing more and more in numbers. Guess our cell is the only one in the division with such a big number. The rest are less than 10. Oh well? (: Thank God for always being there.

Yeap. Wanna thank Vin for being there too. Always encouraging. Now I've to work on it on my part.

Well, yah. That's all. Enough blogging for the week.

Valentine's Day is on Tuesday. HAHA.. Won't be expecting much. Just wish all my single girlfriends and guyfriends on that day! (: HEE.

Take care everyone. DRINK LOTSA WATER! (:

Oh yes, today's play was great! (: Deeply moved by it.

To be perfect is to be complete, in God.

Amen?

(:

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Friday, February 10, 2006

7:30 PM

Found this on Sheryl's page. Hahaha.. So cute!

1 Birthdate?
7589

2 Place of birth?
Jakarta, Indonesia

3 Blood type?
O+

4 Height?
164cm. Aiming to be about 170.

5 Weight?
50kg

6 Shoe size?
don't know. haha..

7 Working or Studying?
studying (:

8 Childhood nickname?
sera, fungus and.. some more lah. haha

9 Average hours you sleep in a day?
hmm.. can't get any sleep to about 6 hours

10 Time you go to bed?
depends. most of the time 11.30++pm

11 Any siblings?
1 older biological sister, many other God-korjiedimeis...

12 Eyesight: “ short-sighted, long-sighted or perfect?
Left eye is long sighted with a degree of +200, astimatized. Right eye perfect.

13 What languages do you speak?
English, directly-translated Chinese and Indonesian/Malay and a bit of French

14 What languages would you like to speak?
French again, Canto, Hokkien and Spanish? HAHA

15 Nickname on Messenger?
aLfiNa (: losing a close friend is as good as being lonely. is it?

16 What do you collect?
everything and anything..

17 Model of handphone you are using?
Nokia 3200.

18 What is on your shopping list?
a lot of things. hahaha.. new handphone can still wait.

19 Favourite t-shirt brand?
Esprit

20 Favourite cut of jeans?
don't like jeans. hahaha..

21 Favourite fashion designer?
none.

22 Favourite clothing label?
Esprit..

23 Favourite shoe label?
most probably.. Adidas or Reebok? haha =P

24 Favourite bag label?
Don't have one.

25 Most dominant colour in your wardrobe?
BLUE, orange, green

26 Most worn-pair of shoes?
school shoes.

27 Favourite shampoo?
Herbal Essesnces

28 Favourite conditioner?
never used conditioner before.

29 Favourite bath product?
Shokubutsu or The Body Shop

30 Favourite facial product?
haha.. erm....

31 Favourite cosmetics?
nail polish? HAHA (:

32 Favourite art movement?
don't know

33 Favourite artist?
erm.. Michaelangelo? haha

34 Favourite gallery?
the Louvre Museum in France where Mona Lisa's kept

35 Favourite cold drink?
Water, Bandung! (:

36 Favourite hot drink?
Hot Chocolate (:

37 Favourite flavour of ice-cream?
Erm.. Anything from Ben and Jerry's (:

38 Favourite cuisine?
Jap, Chinese, Western, Italian.. So hungry

39 Favourite sandwich?
Anything nice. Ham and cheese! (:

40 Favourite cake?
Erm.. Nothing in particular

41 Favourite chocolate?
The ones from Switzerland

42 Favourite fast food?
Macdonalds, KFC, Mos Burger, Burger King.. Ah, anything (:

43 Favourite sushi?
anything except raw and yucky stuff =X

44 Favourite breakfast?
eating yoghurt (:

45 Spaghetti: “ tomato, cream or pesto sauce?
cream (:

46 Beef: “ rare, medium rare, medium, well-done?
well done (:

47 Restaurant you frequent most?
huh? HAHA.. maybe Sakae.

48 Best dining experience?
the one with my family at somewhere

49 Worst dining experience?
eh...

50 Favourite book?
Bible

51 Favourite movie?
Don't know. Star Wars! Can't wait for X-men 3 but, Nightcrawler won't be inside :(

52 Favourite artist writer?
Erm.. Don't have one.

53 Favourite actor?
If you don't know this, I'll whack you.. HAHA (:

54 Favourite actress?
Er.. So many.

55 Favourite record?
A LOT

56 Favourite singer?
Michelle Branch, Lucie Silvas.. BLAH2

57 Favourite band?
Hillsongs, Switchfoot

58 Favourite lyrics?
haha.. so many! (:

59 Favourite TV show?
nothing nice on tv lehs..

60 Favourite newspapers?
Straits Times... Or TODAY paper.

61 Favourite magazine?
Nothing nice these few days. Maybe, Seventeen and FIRST! :)

62 Favourite flower?
er....

63 Favourite animal?
FROG (:

64 Favourite country?
I think Singapore's nice (: NO PROTESTS.

65 Favourite street (in your country)?
Orchard. is that counted?

66 Favourite street (overseas)?
er.. Jalan Kembang Ayu I. Haha.. My grandma's house

67 Favourite sport?
tennis, cycling, rock-wall climbing, kayaking ( a little bit )

68 Scariest movie?
er.. The Hotel? HAHA.. stupid show -.-

69 Funniest movie?
err.. can't remember

70 Favourite leisure activity?
doing hw, singing, sleeping =X , msn-ing and talking to friends on the phone

71 Favourite public transport?
car =P

72 Favourite weather?
the monsoon season! (: rain like siao. shiok

73 Dream honeymoon destination?
haha.. not sure

74 Computer you use?
Mac. my sis'

75 Wallpaper on your computer?
a lost ladybug

76 Screen saver on your computer?
don't have that function

77 How many hours on the internet a day?
erm.. most of the time about 2 hours.

78 Favourite blog?
this one.

79 Favourite news site?
none

80 Favourite site?
err....

81 First pet?
hamster

82 Favourite cartoon from childhood?
er.. can't remember. haha

83 Favourite toy from childhood?
something..

84 What makes you smile?
seeing people happy.. some stuff. wanna know? just ask me.

85 What makes you cry?
some things that just can't be said

86 Which celebrity would you like to be?
don't want to be one.

87 What colour would you be if you are a crayon?
blue, orange, green, purple, turqoise (if they have) or black

88 If you can go back in time, which period would you want to be in?
kindergarten or primary school days or sec 1 and 2 days

89 If you can have your own business, what would you venture into?
eh.. don't know

90 What TV program would you like to go on?
CAMPUS SUPERSTAR. haha.. yeah right

91 How satisfied are you with your current situation?
alright lah

92 What would you rather be doing if you have a choice?
call him up and talk. he's feeling really down now..

93 The most important thing that has happened in your life?
to know God (:

94 What do you think you'll be doing 5 years down the road?
poly for 3 years and work for the other 2.

95 Most desired now?
talk to him.

96 Biggest worry now?
tests, results, L1R4..

97 Most unforgettable incident?
er.. losing a friend who is so close to me..

98 New year resolution?
there's a lot

99 Your motto in life?
listen before you speak. watch what you say!

100 Who do you want to answer 100 Things About Meâ€?
anyone if they're free. HAHA

Anyway, today was the release of the O level results..

My heart stopped when I saw Sue May getting one of the top. She's a really good role model to begin with and knowing her, she's very hardworking. You go girl! (:

On the other hand, my best friend, Lynn, had 3 A1s and 4 A2s. So proud of her. Even though she was upset that she couldn't get her As.. I wish she would still be happy wherever she'll be (:

Wonder how everyone else did. Shan't ask until Sunday.

Meanwhile, be happy with what you have.

Thank God for being with you during the exams.

SIGH.

I was shot in the heart on Thursday.

One of my sisters has......

And, she was quite okay about it. But why? All these while.. Should I bring her back? Was sad that she broke up with 'korkor'. What am I to do? Pray hard that both of us can get into Optometry together..

Then.. There's something to look forward to. Jea's coming to church on Sunday! Am excited to see God has in plan for her. I wish her well and that she'll be receptive towards the Word.

Other than that, nothing much to comment on.

Math test was tough. Enough said.

"Sorry for being complacent in Math. I did try but it's just that.."

ODAC was quite alright today. We stayed in school for some exercises.. While doing jumping jacks, my phone and fell out and "dismantled". As in, cover, battery and phone just separated from each other. Thank goodness only Sha and Chit saw. PHEW. Meanwhile, I was super scared to see it get confiscated. However, I wouldn't mind if it got confiscated. HAHA.. Take a distraction away from me. ONCE AND FOR ALL. Surely my handphone bill will cut down by a lot? (: HAHA..

Jerm, my new sister.. Is so cute! (: Enough said.

ARGH.

These few days, I've been really down.

Emotionally unstable but, thanks Jer for being there (:

Mentally.. I'm still okay with the studying part. A bit drained but can still absorb whatever I'm studying.

Physically.. Tired because of the constant headaches. It just keeps coming on and off. I'm praying hard that it's not MIGRAINE. BLEAH. Poor him. He has it too.

Spiritually.. Dry. Need refreshing. Haven't been the positive and encouraging girl I was supposed to be. Saw people "dying" but stood there stoning and helpless cause I ran out of words to encourage them with. BAH. So.. Lost without Him.

Guess that's all, for now. There's gonna be a change in the template but I've lost the "code" for that desired template. HAHA.. Anyone knows how to custom make?

This is one template I'm "eye-ing" on:
http://blogskins.com/info/10363

Wanna get a template that is..:
1. Imageless,
2. Black,
3. Not so "scrolly"
4. Has enough space to put own uploaded photos.

Blogskins or blogskins. HELP!

But, this is not my main priority so.. It will take a while.

Cheers.

(:

*Feeling a bit better this week.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

6:30 PM

Some may think I'm crazy... Haha.. Well, the truth is.. Up to now, or last year at least.. I've had 4 ex's. None of them were serious, really. HAHA (: But I'm glad I'm over them. GAH (: It wasn't easy dealing with those 'blows'.

Anyway, this year's CNY was quite tough. Everything was different.. What can I say?

There isn't really much to talk to. Perhaps I'll tell Jer about it. HAHA.. After all, he's my best friend. Or so it seems..

:P

And, talking about friends.. I think Joels' not Joel S, Jeremys' not JP or Jem Wong and Jonathans' are silly idiots. HAHA. No offence but really. Got so many friends with those names and they are really, really siao.

Define siao.

Make you go upside down.

I swear.

(:

Yeah, that was that..

Now, I'm still considering whether or not to join rock-wall climbing competitively or not. The competition's on May 26th (the last day of school) and 3 days before Chinese O Level Exam.

Whoa.

So, the odac sessions now are to practise climbing. Though it may be a boring cycle but, it's really good exercise. HAHA.. Right Mr J? (:

Yes. Darn, I miss playing tennis. Stopped ever since last year's N level prelims.. So it's about, (since August, *counts fingers*..) 6 months?

Stamina's down, really down to the drain.

Speed's really slow.

Gosh.

Gotta work it! (:

Well, yeah..

That's all.

Will update soon again.

Meanwhile, am quite upset with some stuff happening but at the same time..

Am feeling quite happy over some stuff.

HEH.

(:

"Time flies when you're enjoying it.."

Today's Learning Journey to MPA was alright. Shan't say much. Otherwise some people will protest :)

Take care.

Night.

Oh yes, for the record. Shmi and I wanna make it official that we tortured Gracie the wrong way today. Gracie, I'm sorry :( but we hope you liked it. HEH (:

Nessy, sorry I couldn't send you off. I miss you already. Take care of yourself while you're in New Zealand. Love you girl!

Zima dear, sorry I couldn't catch you in school on Wednesday. GOSH. It was so sad. Hah. Meet up soon kay. Happy birthday to you too! Love ya lots! :) HAHA (:

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Friday, January 27, 2006

3:13 PM

Here you go Xian.

A photo of Alicia, me, Linda, Cindy and Rachel.

HAH (:

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

6:54 PM

Can't think of any title.

Hahaha..

Anyway, this week has been fine so far. Been lacking sleep though. Was feeling quite weird when Miss DC asked, "Who suffers from Insomnia?" I was like; "me. Last time". Hahaha.. Got a shock.

But now, I'm fine (:

Yeap.

Update again soon (:

Really fun to sit with Mela, Xian and Bitha (: HAHA.. Can really crap, act bimbo and beat each other up together (:

Cheers.

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

10:34 PM

SWOON.

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