Monday, March 15, 2010

Have I stopped believing in myself? Or am I not having faith in the promise that "In my weaknesses, God is glorified"? Or is the Lord taking me to another road?

Have you just blocked out this part of me or have I caused this upon myself and I need to pray for healing and restoration? Lord, I want to know what's happening.


I can do all things, through Christ who gives me strength
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me
No great success to show, No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness, He is there to let me know

His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect

We can only know, the power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength in us begins, Where ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again

Friday, March 12, 2010

I'm all the more convinced and convicted that we continue to advance the gospel truthfully and boldly. We wonder why the youths are not an energetic and passionate bunch, and may I know what you mean by that? They jump and shout during P&W? They enthusiastically join ministry and volunteer to plan events? While this would seem to be a good report but the heart of the matter is the heart.

A heart that burns for Christ, these works will follow. To say that we ought to do this for God and do that for God without a strong foundation in the true gospel is like a warrior that says he wants to fight and bring honour to the country but he's not trained in combat. By no means am I against serving or going out into the world to evangelise but what are the motives behind us serving, what is the message we are sending out? Are we preaching gospel or MANspel? HAHA i love that word.

And we wonder why our youths are like that...maybe they haven't been hearing the gospel but manspel. If we believe in anything apart from the gospel, can we say we are truely God worshippers and followers? No! You are following your own religion, "the heart is deceitful above all things" Jeremiah 17:9.

What saves? God or Man?
"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son" John 3: 17-18

"For it is by grace you have been saved through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God not by works so that no one can boast" Ephesians 2:8-9

Who or what can cause an inward change? God or man?
Only the Word of God. It is God who "began a good work in you will carry to completion" MANspel is not spiritual and hence cannot save and cannot change the heart.

Does theology divide?
Eph 4:13-15 "until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and deceitfulness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head,that is Christ"

This is so clear! The gospel unites! How can we ever think that knowing theology divides? The only 'divide' I see is between believers and unbelievers. If we say we hold true to the gospel surely we cannot say "oh this part of the is not true" or "it's only for those people in the past, no longer applicable today". Oh how I am guilty of that mistake! If we even say that it is no longer applicable TODAY, we are in fact saying that God changes but scriptures say that our God is the SAME today, yesterday and forevermore (Heb 13:8)! If we say that any part of the gospel is not true even if we don't say it straight out, by avoiding it we're just not facing up to the truth! What are you afraid of? That you might be shaken? Be shaken! Then when God grants you the understand, there'll be repentence and an amazement of his GRACE that He gave you the understanding and now you can worship the true and living God and not a god that is a figment of your creative imagination.

1 cor 12:14 "We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that we may understand what God has freely given us. This is what we speak not by words taught us in human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them for they are spiritually discerned"

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Tired..school is tiring..projects are hanging..fear.

Monday, March 01, 2010

I've always wondered what it was like to be hungry for the Word of God, for many years the bible was boring to read and I thought I only need to know that "God loves me, Jesus died on the cross for my sins, believe and you shall be saved" and that's it. I wasn't hungry to know more about this marvelous God. I only wanted to know what it takes to go heaven and escape hell. When I see how some women and men are so zealous for God, I also desire to be as zealous and I question why I am just not like them. The reason is simple really, I have neglected the Word of God, it's really not about how regular I have to read the bible in order to be hungry it's more like I have been wearing a pair of sunglasses (metaphorically speaking) when I read the Word of God. I chose only to remember parts of the bible (often those that empowers me) and ignore the rest which are equally important if not why is it revealed in the bible in the first place!

It was definitely a struggle for me to understand some parts of the bible. But just because we struggle with understanding doesn't mean that we can ignore it, downplay the seriousness of it, say it's not important to know or worst implying it's untrue. It's ironic how we say that the bible is the truth and yet we don't speak all the truth especially those that makes us feel uncomfortable. We 'know' that we're sinners but we don't really understand the magnitude of our sinfulness and we think we're "okay, not that bad la" or that we're "good and righteous". (Romans 3:10-12). We know that God loves us, but we may not understand the magnitude of his love for us.

Lord, help me to the Word for what it is even if it's pride shattering even if it's a struggle that I may know the true and living God. Amen.

Monday, February 08, 2010



Verse:
Take this offering that I bring
Humbly I fall on my knees
To proclaim your everything
My life's nothing without you
Take my hand and lead me through
You are my sustaining love

I live to worship you (2x)

CHORUS:
Here I am, worshiping you
with all I am, worshiping you
Bowing down in spirit and truth
With lifted hands worsiping you.

BRIDGE:
I'm gonna worship you forver
I'm gonna worship you

Tuesday, February 02, 2010



Highest place (Desperation Band)

[Verse 1:]
Lord You search me
And You know me
You hear all of my thoughts
No point in hiding Lord You
Lord you've found me
So completely in need of You
I cannot run from You

[Pre-chorus:]
If I go to the heavens or down below
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there, I will find you waiting

[Chorus:]
You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
And valleys speak
The wonders of Your Name
You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You 're my Prince of Peace

[Verse 2:]
In the glory
Of your glory
I become like You are
Its overwhelming
In the presence
Of Your presence, I finally see
All Your love, for me

[Repeat Pre-chorus:]
[Repeat Chorus:]
[Bridge:]
You're everything
You're in everything
You're in every cry
It all ends and starts
With You my King

I don't like finance! =(