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Monday, 28 March 2011 ||12:07 pm||
March....
Its coming to the end of March now and let's just say that, some things are not meant to be repaired.
If an old monitor is spoilt and it takes a hundred bucks to repair, many people would agree that it is better to throw the monitor away and get a new one, rather than going through the hassle and trouble of paying a hundred bucks for it to be repaired only for it to be damaged again in future. But, whether you want to keep the old monitor who has served you well all these years, or dump it into the bin and never want to see that montior again, it is all up to you. The same applies for life. Just that unlike monitors, humans make mistakes. And once again, I re-iterate that I made alot of mistakes in my life. Some of which I regret making, some of which are good mistakes to make as those mistaked are lessons learnt for me. I used to be the guy who cares alot for others' feelings and feeling sensitive to theirs. Especially towards my friends. I used to think that it was a strong point. But boy was I wrong. This strong point is in turn, a weakest link for me. And I realised I should only spare a thought for feelings to those who are dearest to me. My family, my girlfriend and my other few close friends that I am left who have always given me the support no matter the circumstances. :) Assumptions and incorrect facts always plays a part for any misunderstandings and that's why people ask. If we don't feel obliged to answer, then the assumptions will continue. We can't blame these people for assuming if we don't answer their questions or queries. Unless these people are just assuming and shooting their mouth (or rather, fingers) off WITHOUT asking any questions. And there is a GREAT difference between interrogating and asking. :) I may hurt certain people along the way out of frustration and anger. I am not pleading my case but there are certain things which these people that I hurt don't know or don't have a clue as well. I just have got to learn to take it easy, take it in my stride and let myself be the fury of others while preventing myself from using social media as a tool to talk bad about others to make myself look good. Because frankly, I have had enough. And 20th March 2011 was another new journey in life for me. The day Siti Khadijah said yes and officially became my partner and opening up another chapter in our lives. :) Thank you, love. :) Hidanilson Out. . .
Tuesday, 8 February 2011 ||4:08 pm||
Dear friends.....
To all my friends out there.....
I know I have wronged all my friends out there before.... Whether intentionally or unintentionally.... But these things happen.... Because let's face it, sometimes out of anger and frustration, we do bitch about each other... And I do not mean in any way to talk negatively.... Cos in the first place, we should always stay positive.... But never ever be afraid to trash things out whenever a problem arise or when there's conflicts... And I deeply apologise for my mistakes.... And for whatever wrong I have done towards any of you.... Especially those who are dear to me and close to me.... Or, used to be close to me.... In life, we have to accept that we do make mistakes.... And I have done lots of mistakes that I might regret.... I do not blame any of you if you wish to delete me.... Or if you wish to banish me out of your life.... But I would jsut like to dedicate this song to those dearest friends of mine.... Especially to those whom I have shared a great bonding with for the past few years... Hidanilson Out. . . .
Wednesday, 22 December 2010 ||11:45 am||
hello stranger
Watched Hello Stranger with Shahrul, Maria, Qiqin and Aiz yesterday. It was an impromptu movie outing but damn was it a funny one!
The movie is based from Thailand but the setting is in Korea. It is one of those sappy but yet comedic romantic movie where ladies' floated in the air upon ogling Korean stuff. But the movie was so damn funny that anyone who is stressed out will defintely be de-stressed after watching this piece. I realised that as friends, we think we know what has been happening in each other's lives but the true fact is, we don't sometimes. There are soooo many things to know about each other and even if it takes a lifetime to know them, it wouldn't be enough. But to actually spend some time to meet-up and pour our joys and sorrows to each other and just giving a shoulder to lean on, it is priceless. Hidanilson Out. . .
Monday, 20 December 2010 ||6:01 pm||
the irony of a year..
It has been nearly a month since I updated. Maybe I was depressed because I did not make it for my driving test. Immediate failure. Kannasai nye kerb. Well, I admit I was freaking nervous on that day. I basically had this look on my face. -_-'
And then the Standard Chartered Marathon. It was a killer! I could run/jog/briskwalk until the 22nd km, but after that I walked and jogged, walked and jogged and stopped jogging altogether when I reached the freaking 32km mark. The weather was scorching hot that everyone looked like they were in Zombieland. Somehow I could picture all of us acting in a Zombie movie. Hands extended, sliding on one leg while walking normally on the other. BUT, I completed it! Within 6 hrs 15 minutes. For someone who did not really train and since it is only my first marathon, I can safely say I am proud of myself that I completed it. My brother said that marathons are for losers. But it is these marathons which can lead us to think that we can go to greater heights. And have some belief in ourselves. :) My sister's birthday was well spent. Sakura treat from her and the normal laughters and thrills we share as always. Gave her a cool Swarovski iPhone cover and a couple of scarves. :) Visited Via Ferrata recently, a duo rock-climbing kind of thing, and took the Flyer for the first time! Haha. Thanks to my poly mates for making that happen. Was supposed to go Bali on 11 December. And amidst all the drama that happened, and all the emotions running through my spine most of the time, I am freaking glad I made a decision not to go. Firstly, because of work as it has been piling up like how H1N1 was spread. Secondly, I managed to spend time with people whom I enjoy spending with. Siti, Nana, Akbar, Maria, Qiqin, Shahrul, Ira, Dina and of course, my family. :) It was an emotional roller-coaster ride recently. But with the help of my close friends and siblings/siblings-in-law, I am glad I managed to open my eyes and look around. It would suit best if the love is given to someone else. She said she doesn't know how it feels to be loved, so all this while I guess I don't have an answer to what the hell I was giving. It was a freaking good learning experience and right now, I feel very contented with life and am loving the people around me. I am very much looking forward to the KL trip with my family at the end of the year. Although it'll be my 3rd time there this year, I am 100% sure there'll be lots of fun and laughters in it. =) And I just want to take some time off to thank everyone who have helped me get out of the sticky situation and for adding colours to my life. :) This coming Christmas will be my first year staying in the east. And I am glad that I have known you and became closer and closer to you since I moved. Thank you, Rapunzel. :) Hidanilson Out. . . . .
Tuesday, 30 November 2010 ||9:22 am||
take a breather..
It's the day today.
The day where I know if I can overcome my nerves for such an important milestone in my life. I hate tests and exams, just like interviews. Because I hate the butterflies in the stomach feeling. I'm sure everyone else hates that too. I will get all nervy and my hands will turn cold. But today, I will tell myself not to let the nerves get the better out of me and I will try my best to take the test with a clear mind and hear the good stuff. I have serious issues with parallel parking and I hope I can have the confidence to overcome it and use whatever skills I have known and practised. But whatever the outcome is later, I will be very much looking forward to a few activities this coming week. And that should help me get over the outcome later very quickly. Activity 1: Ben & Jerry's with Siti, Akbar, Nana, Shahrul and Maria later right after my TP. =) Activity 2: Batam trip with my Delta commanders on Wednesday, 1 December! =)) Activity 3: My company's retreat on Friday, 3 December! Paintball, Bowling and BBQ! Finally, a retreat I'll be involved in after more than 2 years here. =))) Activity 4: Standard Chartered Marathon this Sunday. 42km. With grazes on my knees and the left side of my thigh, I still hope I can complete this challenge. =)))) Activity 5: My elder sis' 28th birthday at Sakura Buffet...!! On this Sunday too! It is gonna be her treat. =))))) So I guess all these 5 activities are enough to keep me focused and attend my driving test with a clear and concise mind. InsyaAllah. Hidanilson Out. . . . .
Thursday, 25 November 2010 ||8:48 am||
closer to me... Every day reminisce with the past
Wednesday, 24 November 2010 ||2:00 pm||
god can explain There's a lot of things I understand
Hidanilson Out. . .
Monday, 22 November 2010 ||10:52 pm||
that's why you go away...
Tuesday, 16 November 2010 ||5:39 pm||
a very nice feeling..
I went down for awhile just now to drop a cheque.
On the way back to office, I witnessed someone helping out an old lady on a walking stick having difficulty crossing the road although it's a zebra crossing. It is always nice to see others helping out the needy. And it is really heart-warming. A few weeks back, there was a blind man walking into McDonalds when I was eating. He was asking around for directions to go the MRT. I stood up and helped him out of Junction 8 and led him out to the MRT. He requested to apply a plaster on his injured finger, and I did. He also asked for help to purchase him an EZ-link single trip card. And I did. I walked back smiling to myself because I did something good. Something good for the society. And these small actions we take will certainly make their day. He thanked me countless times. There was also once when a married couple with 2 kids, 1 in a pram, were kind of confused because they didn't know that the tunnel leading down to CityLink Mall did not have an escalator. There was only a flight of stairs. And the next underground walkway is a distance away. Seeing their predicament, I offered to help and carry the pram, with their daddy, down the staircase slowly. Once we reached the ground, they thanked me. Once again I smiled sheepishly and felt a sense of satisfaction. Of course, there are other occasions when they do not respond to the good gesture as well. But all I'm saying is good gestures will be repaid. Not by people, but by God. Sometimes we help the people in need around us but we don't receive any optimism or a word of thanks from them. We then questioned ourselves, is this how they treat people who helped them? Do we deserve to be treated like this? And then, we reflect on ourselves and tell ourselves that whatever we do, we do it with sincerity. People can be harsh and bochup with the way they react towards our kindness and good gestures, but in the end, the reason why we do it in the first place is that we want the other party to feel good and to feel better. And that should be enough. Ok, it is raining very heavily and the office is really damn freezing cold. And oh no, I have to go for practical later. Not good when its dark and raining. Reminds me of the song Stan by Eminem. Haha. Sang this song with my brother the other time. Think we should be rappers. Lol. Hidanilson Out. . . .
Monday, 15 November 2010 ||2:48 pm||
Lucky...
I went to karaoke with Sis, Abg Men, my bro and Sri yesterday.
In the midst of all those singing, my sister mentioned to me about Glee's music videos on mioTV and strongly suggested me to watch all of them. And so I watched. Why not? It was free. Lol. And I very much like their rendition of Lucky. Originally sung by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat. "Lucky I'm in love with my best friend...." And I still do. Hidanilson Out. . . .
Wednesday, 10 November 2010 ||2:26 pm||
mistakes..
We make many mistakes in our lives...
And we always tell ourselves to learn from these mistakes. The question is, "How do we learn from these mistakes?" To each, his own one would say. Do we not repeat the same mistake? Do we try our best to analyse each mistake and see it as a learning point but somehow, we would repeat it again? Sometimes mistakes that we encounter are all based on rashness, based on each of our personalities. Cause no matter how much we try to rectify that mistake, we know it is going to be a vicious cycle. And I am not spared either. Hidanilson Out. . . .
Tuesday, 9 November 2010 ||5:57 pm||
that was what i was trying to do...
Danny Gokey's version is better than Rascal Flatts'...
Friday, 15 October 2010 ||1:04 am||
not so good..
Wow, is this blog even alive yet? Haha.
But what has been happening lately, has rather been unpleasant. Firstly, there's some sibling rivalry going on between my mum and my aunt. Secondly, my close sec sch friend's, Aizat, dad passed away recently. Thirdly, Amy getting injured for a netball game after bumping onto me. Really sorry about that. Well I hope everything will be okay for all of them soon. InsyaAllah. Then there's me. I have been flushing myself down with activities to keep myself busy. I don't know, sometimes I just need answers but in the first place, are there even questions to ask? Or am I even in a position to ask? But I just need to know one thing and one thing only rather than leaving it hanging in the air. And when I do, at least it is crystal clear. Hidanilson Out. . . .
Monday, 6 September 2010 ||3:12 pm||
raya's 3 days away..
Raya is just 3 days' away but I didn't have the mood to clean up my room or whatsoever. Haha.
A few events have taken place ever since my last last update. My bro's birthday celebration, meet-ups with coaches and ex-NYP silat mates, and recently, with my ex-platoon mates from SISPEC back in the army days. All the outings were full of fun and laughters and had great catching up. But if only my heart and soul were put into the outings, that would be even better. Been keeping myself busy with driving lately. This Wednesday is gonna be my 3rd lesson. I don't know how long it will take for me to pass but I really hope it will be as early as early next year. It's quite nerve-wrecking for the first 2 lessons but hopefully I'll be able to remain calm and composed in the upcoming ones. Times like these, is where I need moral support. Hidanilson Out. . .
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somewhere only we know...
Wednesday, 25 August 2010 ||11:38 am||
talk...
Was on MC yesterday. But I still went to Fish N Chicks to meet up with Kak Aida, Taufiq, Ed, Ezad, Muhaimin and Sri for break fast yesterday. It has been some time since I met the NYP silat old timers. And I have to go and collect something from Causeway Point anyway.
Had a good talk with Sri yesterday when she dropped me off at Braddell station as she was heading to her uncle's place at Toa Payoh. Sometimes she might sound very harsh but she has our interests at heart. Well, it beats having someone to talk to rather than no one to talk to at home. Haha. Thank you sis-in-law. I will try my best to heed those words of advice. Found this entry in one of my previous posts. 13 March 2005. Brings nostalgic moments. Hidanilson Out. . .
Monday, 23 August 2010 ||4:56 pm||
oh, so tight...
Feeling sick now.
Coughing and having a sore throat. Not good when it is the fasting month. Tight schedule ahead. Alot of iftar sessions with old friends, coaches and to split those sessions with family as well. Bro's 26th birthday is just around the corner to add. Not looking forward to the first week of raya as there will always be disagreements a family is broken. It is very tough. Discussed with mum which day I should go with dad and there's always a sulken face on her. Sometimes, they have to understand that it is not easy. It is also not easy when my elder brother is working shift and we need to have a day to raya with my dad together. Each year, the raya outings I look forward to are the friends' outing. But even that looks bleak. On a lighter note, both of my baju kurungs are ready. And I don't need to make trips to Geylang to find one. So little time, so much to do. Hidanilson Out. . . .
Sunday, 22 August 2010 ||8:16 pm||
YOG crap...
There is a lot of commotion going on at the Youth Olympic Games in Singapore. I understand that it is the first time that Singapore is staging a very big and important sports event. But surely not to the extent of all the happenings lately.
Firstly, it was mentioned in the papers that they had overspent on the budget for the event. More than double. Then it was the lack of nutrients in their food with just rice and a pathetic fish fillet or a piece of chicken. After that it was the tentage at SCAPE that fell onto the basketball grounds. The food poisoning. And lastly, the ticketing fiesta. We don't even know what "Unavailable" means. When we call them up, they blatantly told us to line-up an hour before the event to get the tickets and it is on a first-come first-serve basis. I heard we have alot of time to do that in this ever increasing hectic life we're living in. And this is only the first week. For all the fireworks during National Day to wow the foreigners on our soil and eating our tax money, this is surely not a good platform to impress them with how we been preparing for the event. And on top of that, "forcing" us to support them. I am vouching for the students and teachers that need to go to these YOG events to support our Singaporeans. I mean, even if they need our support, they do not need to go to such extents. And the teachers in turn have to spend their weekends and half of their evenings sending these students to these events. Not only just sending and accompanying, but to still keep them in a group together and instil discipline on them too. It is very difficult. And these teachers, they do not get time-off or anything for their efforts. Lately, there was an article on teachers overworking and MOE themselves release a statement that they are doing whatever they can to ease the workload on teachers. But with the happenings in YOG, as they say, action speaks louder than words. But I really have to take my hat off to the teachers and give them my utmost respect. Teachers' Day is around the corner by the way. :) I played soccer under the scorching hot sun just now and if we had more than enough players, I would not have to play the whole match. My lips were really dry and I could barely feel my saliva. Haha. But I survived! Phew. Lol. Oh, time for Premier League actions soon! Bye! Hidanilson Out. . . .
Monday, 16 August 2010 ||11:02 pm||
success yet?
The 2E6 2nd reunion dinner was a success! It is really heartening to organise something big and then have everyone re-united and updating on each other's lives. Some of them which I have not seen for the past 8 to 10 years! Like Yee Ching and Fauzi. A few others, I did not see them the past 3-4 years. Had a great time laughing and reminiscing the crazy and funny things we did back in the secondary school days. We won't ever get sick and tired of reminiscing the past. And I speak for everyone. :)
I have been having sleepless nights lately. I am not sure why and how. Work has been smooth and colleagues have been awesome in keeping each other sane. We have 3 new colleagues though. Although I have a very strong hunch that they will be in their own world. Haha. Someone has been really busy at work and how I wish I was in a position to help. But whatever the circumstances, hopefully you'll be able to pull through all the obstacles ahead aitez. Have fun and rest as much as possible when needed. YOG will end in 10 days' time and I really hope you'll be able to rest slightly more. Go Zee! I have a few other thoughts to pen down but I shall pen it some other time. Hidanilson Out. . .
Thursday, 12 August 2010 ||8:49 pm||
fasting month has arrived...
Fasting month has arrived and today is Day 2. Each fasting month, I will feel freaking cold in the office. Even with a jacket or a pullover on tow. It goes to show that we really need water to keep ourselves dehydrated and warm.
It's refreshing to witness my colleagues wanting to know more about the Islamic religion. Like what are the things we are not adhered to do, what can we think and not think of, why we eat before 5.30am and only can eat after 7pm et cetera. Those are just a few questions. And everyone treat the fasting month with respect by asking if it is fine to eat in front of me and aplogising that they can't offer me snacks and stuff. Haha. So funny. Eat lah all you want. I won't be tempted. Hehe. This year's Ramadhan is a little bit different for me. Finally, I am able to break fast with my mum and also this year, with my stepdad. As a family. Although there will be occasions when I will be breaking fast by myself at home when they're on morning shift, I feel blessed by the fact that they're around for most of the days. They are on night shift today though! It feels quite lonely to sahur alone. Therefore, I will just eat before I go to sleep. Hehehe. :) Oh and 1 month before I turn 24. The age when both my sister and brother got hitched to their respective love of their lives. Haha! Not for me though. Far far away. . . Hidanilson Out. . . .
Thursday, 22 July 2010 ||11:25 pm||
please don't stop the rain...
Hidanilson Out. . . .
Tuesday, 20 July 2010 ||5:32 pm||
get well soon.
Qiqin passed me her advanced theory book. My advanced theory test is coming soon. So I have 2 weeks to prepare. Thanks qin! I appreciate the kind gesture. :)
On another note, my application for PDL is delayed due to my lazy eyes. Will definitely need to get spectacles real soon or it will delay my progress and my aim to book a practical test by early next year at least. Wish me luck! :) Oh money, please drop from the sky soon! In fact, it is coming really soon. By the end of the month, I am going to pamper myself with alot of things. Like, finally. For all the hard work and weekends burnt, I will receive more than I expected. It's time to go.......shopping! Haha. Classic White Chicks movie. Feel like watching again! Lol. Will you accompany me to go shopping Zee? :) And hey Zee.... I know you are feeling under the weather right now. Please get well soon k? I miss those smiles. Those smiles which are very contagious not only to me, but to others as well. :) Hidanilson Out. . . .
Wednesday, 14 July 2010 ||2:51 pm||
LG
What a weekend it was.
Saturday went to Arnold's for dinner after work. I have been craving to go there for some time but somehow it didn't taste as nice. Would want to go there again soon! I bought a baju kurung for a-hundred-whopping-sixty-bucks! That has to be the most expensive baju kurung I have ever spent! But well, following Zee's advice, I should pamper myself and I did! And I'm satisfied with my choice! :) Sunday was a JB trip with Aizz, Maria and Shahrul. Watched "Zoo". It is a Malay version of "Night at the Musuem". It was slapstick funny. Especially the way the animals communicate and talk. After that, it was karaoke session time! They have new and updated songs! We also sang Sorry, Sorry by Super Junior. Maria and Aizz with their Korean songs. Tsk tsk tsk. Kecoh maut. There is just something about the karaoke place in JB. They have 3 microphones and the surround system is much better than what we have here. And they have snacks to keep our stomachs really full that we skipped dinner and had dessert at Secret Recipe instead before proceeding home. Thanks for joining people! :) An impromptu decision to watch Despicable Me was very satisfying indeed. The movie didn't keep me glued to my seat. Not because it is not a nice movie, but because I laughed quite alot until my butt couldn't keep still. Lol. Definitely worth watching! Had dinner at Botak's Favourites. Something like Botak Jones I suppose. The food was awesome although the "feng shui" was bad. Haha. 24th July is Universal Studios time! Hidanilson Out. . . .
Wednesday, 7 July 2010 ||10:49 am||
it feels very right...
It has been nearly 2 weeks since I last updated.
Blogging nowadays seems so ancient as most online users are catering more towards twitter, facebook and ermmmm....twitter and facebook....Haha! Sometimes I don't know what to write anymore as all the latest news and gossips are in either one of the 2 online tools as mentioned above. However, it is still pleasing to the eye to know that there are still a few active bloggers. =) I watched Eclipse the other day with Zee, Maria and Aizz. I have got to say it is definitely better than New Moon and Twilight. There are lovers and haters of the Twilight saga. Well, to each his own. But I am neutral about the movie. Aizz surely is a lover cos she watched twice! Lol. Oh well, I am such a movie go-er that any genre suits me just fine. =) Oh and The Legend is Born : Ip Man was good too! Time flies past swiftly these days. I read on one of the blogs and it mentioned something about when it feels right, it feels right. And I have to admit, that it feels right. It feels very right. When I know I can confide in her for anything. When I know she will give me the support in whatever I do. When I am happy when she is feeling happy and vice versa. When I am all smiles if she is all smiles and vice versa. When I have goosebumps each time I know she is reaching to meet me. When I keep stealing glances at her just to look at her. When you know you don't want the day to end each time you are hanging out. When we can laugh about silly little things. When we are very comfortable being ourselves. No do's and don'ts. Just being the way we are. Unexplainable feeling, but feels very surreal. To Ms Confident President, Thank you for taking time out to hang out although you are busy at work and have sooo many things to do in a week, what more a day. I appreciate everything that you have done. =) Let's keep going with the flow. =) Hidanilson Out. . .
Saturday, 26 June 2010 ||10:58 pm||
continuity
So, we did manage to catch Brazil vs Portugal. But the match itself was quite disappointing. Sometimes these powerhouses of football don't turn up for a match. Watching smaller nations or teams in action provide better entertainment.
Finally, Cambodian lady is back! It's good to be back isn't it? Hehe. Working tomorrow at Tampines 1's open field. Heart to heart campaign. Hopefully everything will go smoothly. :) And I miss playing soccer, be it futsal or field. Hope there's one soon! Hidanilson Out. . . . |