Strangers or not?

Two strangers who met under different circumstances. Both of different worlds and of different backgrounds. Will they end up being together or will they go their separate ways. Will they try to make ends meet for their future, or will they just throw everything out to fate?

But most importantly, is it truly love or is it simply infatuation. One needs to really draw the line between love and infatuation.

I guess its time for me to take a few steps back and see what happens. How can something so bittersweet be very pleasant and heart wrenching at the same time.

Just want to say, that you have been missed.

Anyways this song was on repeat mode while in Bandung;







K bye

Till Then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: It'll take some time for me to get over this holiday mood.

Bandung Fever..

Its been almost a week since i came back from Bandung.  It feels longer though. Alhamdulilah the trip was great.

Since the trip from Bandung, i admit that some things has changed in me.

No offense to any parties but this is mainly my point of view.

In an overpopulated nation, I witnessed how extremely large the income gap is.  How some lived in extremely large houses with a lot of conveniences and on the other hand, some were begging for food or lived in squatters. In order for them to commute to work, they had to endure the long and tiring jams that always occur in the expressway between Jakarta and Bandung. And mind you, the duration of the trip to and fro is approximately 3 hours if there's no jam. So imagine if there's a jam, how excruciating the trip is. Plus, accidents along the roads are a common sight, lorries overturned, ambulance constantly rushing to the accident scene etc.

It is an extremely new experience for me and am glad i went through it. It got me thinking though, for someone who lived in a HDB flat, I complain when there's not enough hot water running in the house, or how the MRT is taking so long to reach so that I can finally board it and reach my destination. Come to think about it, I have been taking advantage of the conveniences that has been provided for me.

Most of the time, we can't foresee where we are going to be born at and how our lives will grow up to be. I can only be thankful Alhamdulilah, to be born in Singapore and have the basic amenities/necessities for me to be grow up and nourished till today. Ultimately at the end of the day, each individuals are the ones who decide how their lives would turn out to be.

On another note, will be turning a quarter of a century this year. Some people has been pressuring me to be married or to at least find a partner with whom in the future i could spend my whole life with. My reply to them, is that am happy the way I am now, I wouldn't want to have any complications at this point of time. Anyways, if I had chosen that path 5 years ago, I would have had 2 kids now i guess. Haha.

To end this entry, I sincerely miss Bandung; the scenery, the people...

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: Oh that smile, makes my heart skips a beat.. hehe..  :)

Oh Yea 2013..

Time flies and its 2013. Syukur alhamdulilah for having the chance to live for another year. 2012 has been a pretty relaxed year except for my work.

Am glad I accomplished the following through out the year of 2012. Participated in my first ever 10km race which was the jurong lake run. Managed to beat this nyonya's timing and am proud of that. Haha.

Next would be the completion of the 42km night cycling event, where i almost got hit by a car but thankfully nothing happened. Where some of the cyclist got "disturbed" plus losing our way back to the ending point.

Had our first ever breakfast at macs with family followed by the avengers movie. I do appreciate these moments, hoping that there will be more of this in 2013.

Participated in the futsal competition where i was totally flat out. It really hit me hard cause i wasnt physically prepared for the competition. Whatever it is, i did my best.

Anyways, most of my cousins and friends got hitched this year. May you have a blissful marriage plus am expecting more nieces or nephews. LOL.

Lastly, I hope(again) that 2013 would be good to me. Intentions for this year is to embark on adventure(s), getting fit(back again and maintaining ,have more family outings, keeping in touch with those long lost people(you know who u are), start on an amateur photo taking spree, etc etc. Most ultimately, is to maintain the single status. Yes its been years, but i guess it takes more time to heal right? If it happens, it happens. Wouldn't expecting anything of it.

Just watched the movie and i am loving this quote;
"Close ur eyes and take three deep breaths... This is the only moment you need to worry about. No yesterday. No tomorrow. Just right now. You're not late for anything. You aren't going to miss anything. You're exactly where you're supposed to be & you're exactly who you're supposed to be. You're absolutely perfect & whatever happens today is exactly whats supposed to happen & if you want, I'll spend every moment with you for the rest of your life."
(Hit & Run)

Will write again when i feel like writing, maybe a few months time i guess. Haha

Till then
Signing Out
Finny
                                             

PS: For those celebrating the new year, happy new year!

Hot and Cold

Have been procrastinating to write an entry here. Partly because am too tired to write cause i only go out of the office when the sun is no longer shining. Plus weekends is family outings and movie screenings. Its exhausting but life has to go on right?

Anyways, i have loads to write about but cant seem to figure out which one goes first. So if you find this entry like Rojak, finding it difficult to understand, either you comprehend or you could just click the X button on the top right hand corner of your screen. Hahah.

To a friend, what i can only say to you is that, we can only plan, but whether it happens or not, its up to Him. Yes you are hurt, disappointed so on and so forth, but life has to go on. Whatever that you are really going through, i have been through those stages before. You feel like you are alone in everything, you don't have the mood to do anything. You feel as if everybody doesn't understand you, as if they are all against you.
All it takes is time for all those wounds to heal. Its hard to forget but we only live once right? So lets just make the best out of it.

I've known you since we were in Poly, so its been almost 6 years, and the both of us has gone through alot in life. Still remember the first day when we panicked and got lost looking for the lecture hall. Will never forget that moment. Throughout those 3 years, i have seen how you've grown more confident and mature to a woman you are now. You are strong and i believe that you are able to go through this. Am here to give you support when you need it. :)

Anyways, i just hope that the trip that we are planning will work out. Itching to travel, so i guess this is the best time for both of us. I may not be the best travel partner that you can get, cause most ultimately i could be jet lagged which leads to me being more crankier. Whatever it is, its time to experience a different weather. So lets hope all goes well.

Have just finished watching the Apple Of My Eye, a very nice Taiwanese movie. It also reminds me of that certain someone whom i have been delaying to meet. Will never forget those secondary moments with you. Those extra classes, the basketball games and so on. All the I can say is that you'll always be the apple of my eye. :)

Anyways, here's my current play list addiction;



Meltz..



Till then
Signing out
Finny

PS: Loneliness doesn't mean you have to be with someone to get rid of it.

Raya-ing

Been falling sick this few days. Work has been pretty hectic. Its a Saturday night and am still checking my work mail. Currently am on a 4day leave. But i feel as if its not enough.

Anyways, raya this year has been a fruitful one. Basically, it is a teary raya, where certain families reunite after so long. Am glad i made the slow talk to the family. Time is precious, you never know when you leave, so just appreciate those around you. I received loads of hugs from the aunts. Maybe they are thankful for what I did, or am pretty much huggable. HAHA. Whatever it is, for whatever disputes that we had, family will always be there, as blood ties will never be broken.

And another thing about raya, its a time for asking for forgiveness and forgiving. Some are artificial and some are real. Only god knows. But whatever it is, I am asking for forgiveness for those i have wronged and at the same time, i have forgiven those who have wronged me. Forgiving is one thing, forgeting is another topic. HAHA.

Till then
Signing out
Finny

PS: Peace is all am searching now. :)

Seafood and running combo

Shall update for last week's event.

Saturday itself, had an impromptu Johor outing. Accompanied the mother. I have no single idea where we were heading to, plus i was the so called only "kid" in the van. Haha. The whole van consists of uncles and aunties. So when uncles and aunties get together, questions were aimed at me.

So the first question directed was, "what secondary level are you"? Do i look like a freaking 16 year old. Haha. Idk whether i should be sad or happy by that remark. Upon answering the question, they moved on to the next one. "Got boyfriend already, when getting married"? Well my only answer was to give my biggest smile ever. Haha. Then one of the aunties started her lecture. It started with.. Girl very good no BF. Nowadays all guys useless one. If you think you can handle yourself and be independent, then don't get married. If you can find the right one, the one who can listen and understand you emotionally, physically and financially, then you can get married. And the lectures go on. haha.

I think my ears got alot of wax after hearing their lectures. LOL. Anyways, reached the destination. And then i realised we were at the Johor Premium Outlets. Nothing much there cause I wasnt in the mood to shop. So then headed off to Angsana. Bought some kerepeks, and kurma for puasa. Thinking that this was the last trip and that we are heading back home, i dozed off in the van. When i woke up, we were at a seaside. And infront of it was a restaurant. The name of the place is Senibong i guess.
The seafood was okay not very fantastic. While eating, the mind was pretty occupied by how the heck was i going to run tomorrow. Confirm berat. The scenery was nice as it was by the sea. It was an awesome first experience. Wouldn't mind going back there again though. Reached home aroung 9++. Watched some TV and packed the marathon stuff and headed to bed.

The next morning........
Not a good sign at all. At 2Km, my ankle gave up on me. Severe cramp and i couldn't feel anything starting from the ankle to the feet. Gradually the cramping was gone and i continued the run. And i still couldn't believe it that i finished in 1 1/2 hours. I was planning for at least 2 hours to finish. So yea. Kudos to me. :)

Thanks to the Seafood galore at Senimbong the day before and the 3 hours of sleep plus the perangai ankle, its a miracle that i got to finish the race. Haha.

Am so looking forward for the events ahead.

Till Then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: I want a house at Sentosa Cove. Pretty please.. :)

Feelings Diagram

I don't know what to write, so i draw.. :) Its been a while since i created a diagram. Feelings are feelings, something that sometimes cannot be explained so, i have constructed this 2 scenarios for a very very brief meaning. :)

Scenario 1
 

Scenario 2

Anyways, its been a while since i seen and heard this video. And I just want to say thank you for everything. :)



Till then
Signing Out
Finny

Stuck thoughts...

Haven't had the mood to blog for awhile. Always the same reason again, have been pretty busy with family and work. Alhamdulilah everything is going well. Loads of of things happened. In summary these are the few things that i have done.

Lets see, I completed the 42km Night cycling event. First event through out my life but needlessly i did. Kudos to me. Yay! On another note, we never had breakfast outside, but we broke the record and ate breakfast at MacDonald's, followed by by the avengers movie with the family.

Have been procrastinating on blogging, so this happens. I have no idea what to write when so much things has happened.

Hmm, whatever it is, we, as his servants can only plan everything and HE is the one who decides whether it happens or not. We maybe heartbroken, distraught and disappointed, but HE has greater plans for us. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. With time, we gradually understand why certain things don't make out/happen to us.

Am glad I have stopped questioning myself why. :)

Changing the subject, this song has been on repeat mode, and i really love glee's version of it.


Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: :)

Owling

Been missing for awhile. Missed certain events, but what to do, family comes first.

Anyways, mum has been recuperating. Alhamdulilah. Have been busy with work too, currently parallel running two systems at once. Life has been hectic for the time being. I crave for a holiday though. Please come soon, so i can clear my head, not thinking about work.

Anyways, this may sound very late, but hope you will forgive me and apologies for not being there for the get together. Hmm. Again wishing you a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ASRI!! Wishing you all the best in everything, in love, life and career. XOxo Finny.

On another topic, i should be sleeping by now, but i guess am getting ready for tomorrow's night cycling event. The first time for me to be on night shift mode. So lets hope that i could make it and don't doze off while cycling. Lol, Ambitious but am all out for the experience only. :)

This song has been on replay mode though, okay am not a pedophile. Cheesy but i suka.



On a mature note, this song reminds me of banglas hanging on the phone, but the lyrics are a totally different thing. Meaningful.



Till then
Signing Out
Finny

PS: Its better to choose the less complicated path for now.

To those strangers whom I used to know

Basically when the saying goes, "I guess that this is the end of our relationship BUT we could still remain as friends".. Thats total BS.. hahs.. Loving the cover for this song.. Meaningful lyrics.. :)



You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

PS: :)