It's weird to start blogging after approx 1 year going missing.

So here's my life during that period.
Sat for As. Worked 2 jobs; dad's restaurant and Dr Ho's Eye Care Clinic. Received results. Disappointed yet satisfied (how ironic). Applied for various universities. Accepted into NUS Science. Majoring in Life Science.

And during this period, there's vast changes in my surrounding and social circle. Undeniably, people change and life goes on.

It just hurts to see those who were once close to you, drift apart and become total strangers with you. It hurts even more realising that you are no longer important in their lives anymore.

Again, life goes on.

Nevertheless, I'm glad I still have supporting friends who never fail to stand by me. I owe them my life as without them, I won't be the person I am today. Thanks Amirah for constantly being there for me :)

Moving on to University life.. Honestly, I never knew I would get this far. It's a huge world for me now. Independence is the key word.

Will see how my life goes on from here.

Till the next post (which i don't know when..)!

Salam Ramadhan. Selamat berpuasa!

People change.

For a reason.

Maybe

Sometimes, when you held for so long.
And that you can no longer hold on anymore,
maybe it's just right to just let it go.
Maybe, it will turn out good someday.

And maybe, one day, everything will get back to it's right places.
Cos sometimes, it's just not worth thinking and worrying about.


Well, just maybe.

Step Up

So Amirah comment that I blog little.
BUT I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO BLOG ABOUT!
Or at least, I'm just lazy.

So anyway... went to watch Step Up 3 with Syafiqah today at Bugis.
It was awesome!! HAHA!
Worth the $6! And we went round and round and round Bugis.
And Syafiqah is so in love with highcut shoes! Coincidentally, Step Up 3 showed a freaking variety of those shoes. And she went "Goo goo ga ga" all over it.
Anyway, thanks awak for the time dedicated.

And tomorrow, gym with Princess Mia (yang tak menjadi).

Ok, still lazy to blog.
After As lah k?

Let's go Downtown

I was never so sure about how I feel...


Ok, it has been quite sometime since I last blogged.
Prelims 2 caught me upstruck. It start so fast amidst the extreme occasion of Hari Raya celebration and preparing for Prelims.
Well, the end of Prelim was marked by a celebration with my dear classmates and my other 4 buddies ; Nad, Rat, Nas and Yan. Heading to Downtown East to bowl was a pretty good way to destress. Bumped into Izzat, Yiling, Karan and Irfan at the bowling alley. God, I was excited when I saw them!


I wanna watch movies! And will be watching Step Up 3D tomorrow with SZA! Although it is abit too late... well they are showing it at SHAW! Heheh :)




And to my dearest guy bestfriend, Sufyan Amirhamzah
Happy Belated 18th Birthday!
Thank you for everything :)

...Until today

I vividly remember that,
I used to wear baju kurung with sports shoe and my brothers will tease:
"Fatin, you running after the train is it?"

That cold feeling

He said:

You know Fatin, that should be your goal then. If you give up on your dream
so easily, that is not what we call a goal. A goal is something you know it's
hard to achieve, but you will work hard towards it to get what it means. That's
the whole point of life.

And i was already at the verge of breaking down.
It made sense.

Things hadn't been good for the past few weeks.
And I wonder why.
Strength were thrust upon me by my close friends. (Thank you )

But sometimes, when we are not able to uphold it, it just crumbles down.

Bottomline is,
I've tried my best in getting the best out of this mess
in which there isn't any definite cause.
Although it hurts to see such distant,
I hope it's for the best.
Cos' I've surrendered to the Almighty to lead me through this
unprecedented phase.

It hurts so much,
I need to move on.
Thanks for everything.

I hate that cold shoulder

Mystery Absence

As you notice, it has been quite sometime since I last blogged.
Reason being is, i just can't be bothered to update about my life, there's particularly no interesting events to talk about or I just can't find time to blog.

Then I decided, Hey, let's not end off with a mystery.
But don't worry, this shouldn't my last post.
Maybe a break would be a better word?

So how have I been?
Life's been pretty dull. But exciting at times.
How isn't it dull when every single day is occupied for mugging for my upcoming prelims.
Well, I still think I won't be able to do well in it cos I don't feel prepared at all.
No matter what it is, it's the A Levels we're preparing for.

My life took a twist when things become more clearer and I realised that,
I'm no where near anywhere.
And that anything I could think off was just a fantasy.
A fantasy that only breaks me in the end.
And when I hoped for something better, it appears otherwise.
I guess it's not my time. Or, it would never be.

So I've came to a conclusion that,
I should just keep it to myself.
Although I know I would be tired of doing so,
at least it just don't set off the wrong idea.

I hope I would be able to

see you again