:'(

gosh sweetheart I miss you so much. I'm really going crazy here. feel so stupid all alone in the office crying because I just miss you so badly. never cried because I miss someone before. guess you're the first. I really love you so much and not being able to be beside you is really killing me. I need you.

something exciting. well not really. :/

ok so today the DO asked me to send some bravo coy guy to ttsh. i complied and was heading to the medical center. I was thinking to myself what happened to the guy. did he have fever? or maybe food poisoning? well when I got there, apprently he slipped and fell into a whole roll of concertina wire which is so so super sharp and cut his right ankle. didn't look very bad till he showed me his wound. I tell you his wound opened to nearly 1cm wide and about 3cm long and it was deep. super deep. he had a second cut which looked like a smaller version of the big one. now I know how sharp that stupid thing is. anyway sat in the saf ambulance and it stupidly can only got up to 50km/h and if there is an emergent can only go up to 70km/h. I tell you if I were to get seriously injured during training, I'd rather the medics call the paramedics from scdf to send me to he nearest hospital if noti just might die getting there. maybe that is why that officer who got crushed by the rover didn't survive cause by he time the saf ambulance reached anyway hospital would have been one hour later. 

ok this is a pretty random post but I'm just to bored here. there is really nothig to do and not alot of ppl to keep me company. I'm stuck in this stupid place till Friday. sigh. 

I think this is the most exciting thing that will happen to me this week. god I miss Nad so much. so so much. 

stuck in camp

so I'm currently serving the second day of my four days cos duty. it is super super boring cause there's really nothing to do. all I can do is do some daily paperwork, watch tv, and sleep. worse part is I don't have money to order food from outside and I can't get out of camp to even spend time with my wife. sigh this sucks. I can't wait for Friday to come so I can freaking book out of this place. 

stupid leg still not recovering fully. gotta go see the specialist soon. hope it will recover as I do not want this to affect my airforce career. 

anyway don't really have much to blog now cause there really is just nothing to blog about! well off to watch the tv or sleep now. sigh. I miss Nad so so much. :(

haircut

so I just got my haircut and I look like a recruit. had to ask one of my other fellow commander help cut cause my CSM wanted it done by today. dunno why cannot wait till tmr.

anyway went back to camp this morning and basically didn't do much la. just did some atec prep den after that slack all the way. had my hair cut later.

anyway tomorrow my sweetheart will be having her check up and I'll be able to accompany her after I help out with ippt tomorrow morning. she'll be having her ultrasound tomorrow and we would be able to find out the sex of our baby that is if he/her is not shy. by anyway Nadine doesn't want to know the sex. and I dunno if I should find out anot.

anyway I'm feeling super tired as I haven't slept since yesterday cause was up all night had supper den was just lying in bed with Nadine talking to one another. well guess I'll call her and den crash to bed now.

2:39am

ok. just gonna randomly blog now.

I really miss my wife. how I wish I can snuggle up with her. I hate being away from her making her spend the night alone in our room. I feel like crap to know she's alone. I just want to keep her warm in my arms and hug her tight till we both fall asleep in each other arms. god I miss her so much and it has only been five hours ago when I last saw her. I can't wait to see her tomorrow and spend the weekend with her.

anyway next thursday is her check up and ultrasound. hope baby is fine and everything is where it should be. I can't wait to see how our dear precious baby looks like. it's so exciting. haha.

stupid hip still hasn't recovered. hope the doctor can do something about it.

well I guess it's time to sleep now. it's 2:45am, and I love you Nadine. :)

stonning in camp

so like I'm currently stuck in camp doing nothing cause I'm injured and the entire battlion is having outfield. so I do nothing in the office, listening to music and sleeping. I dunno what to blog about now cause my mind is like asleep now as it is really that boring here.

I miss my wife. I wanna be at home with here but I'm stuck at this stupid place and I couldn't see the doctor because I was suppose to see him in the afternoon but they are closed for the day in the afternoon. so seems like I have to go tomorrow morning. oh wells shall continue to rot now.

iPhone

well anyway guess what. I just got my iPhone 3GS. and the best part was that I did not need to queue six freaking hours for it. when to singtel shop on sat and because of some miscommunication earlier, we managed to jump the queue and we got our phone within the hour. thanks to the wondeful management at singtel. and luckily we didn't have to queue cause as we were getting our phones. it started to rain heavily and I wouldn't want my wonderful pregnant wife to get stuck outside inherent cold cold weather. luckily sheis pregnant and I'm injured if not we would have to wait very long.

anyway I'm now at home with seven days mc because of my fever and the missus is bored because I can't leave the house and there is nothing much to do at home. I wanna go out with my wife.

sentosa

so I'm blogging while wifey is working. I'm keeping her company. anywAy I don't really know what to blog I still haven't put up the pictures from the wedding and other cameras. well the wedding was awesome. it turned out well and everything was great. it was a tiring day but my bride looked awesome. when I first saw her my mouth dropped and it kinda stayed down the next few days cause she was just so awesomely beautiful.

well I really would like to thank eveyone who tunrned up and gave their well wishes.

after the wedding we went to Carlton to stay and the nice front desk guy at first thouht we just came from prom cause nad still had her make up on. but we told him we just had our wedding and he very nicely upgraded our room to a bigger one. headed our to loof after we checked in and chilled there awhile. went back later and just slacked in the room till breakfast where we went down to have the buffet. it was nice and we enjoyed each others company just eating and talking and being happily married to each other.

well anyway my application to air force have been approved and I'll have to head down for an interview on the fifth. hopefully I can get it as it would be awesome. so I'll pray I do get it as I would be able to fly and at least do something I like rather then get stuck in 1sir.

anyway back to playing psp while waiting for nad to end work. den off to vivo to catch wolverine which we were suppose to since my birthday where we wasted two tickets by falling asleep.

wedding day

so today is my wedding day. i'm not sure if i'm suppose to be nervous or excited or worried but i'm sure very happy.=)

anyway here is basically what i did on the eve of my wedding day. well first i went to my grandma's place to pay a visit to her with my aunty and her family from overseas. stayed there awhile and later headed out with my cousin for lunch. went to katong to eat the laksa and apprently my cousin loves it. haha. esp the chilli.

anyway after lunch went to pick nad up to collect out wedding outfits and bouquet and stuff and sent her home well i went to do some shopping for the supposed stag night i'm suppose to have at night with my cousin and friends. went to giant tamp to get $76 worth of stuff to eat and drink. haha.

after that we went back home for dinner. which was steam boat and so as usual i cooked for everyone. pretty nice time and den started with the drinking and last min prep. my cousin came over with the car and we went down to decorate it. looked pretty nice and felt quite good about it. but we did not get to put the hello kitties as there was some miscommunication between me and her fam so didnt go over to collect it. but kenneth went down to collect it on my behalf later so we will put it on later.

anyway there are still like one issue that is not done that is the guest book which we have to go buy tomorrow which will be like so super rush but i hope it'll work out fine. i'm sure it will.

anyway continued on the drinking. stay at the garden for about a few hours drinking and talking till abt 1 plus when we decided to call it a night. i went in the room to send an email to nad and when i came out my best man had clogged up my kitchen sink with his vomit. super funny and disgusting so we made him clean it up and after doing so not 5 mins later he went to throw up into the toilet bowl. at least this time he made a better choice.

anyway now here i am blogging. i havent really came up with a proper vow and speech yet but i guess i 'l just say what's in my heart. it may not be the best speech but i hope i wont get stage fright or something and just freeze up. maybe tml i'll just write some pointers down and work with it.

honestly i cant wait to get married with nad and start a fam with her and i'm actually looking forward to it. ppl tell me it's not gonna be easy and it'll be difficult. but i am excited and am going to do my best to make it work out right for her and us.

anyway i better go to sleep now. i just cant wait to see how super beautiful my bride, my wife will be tomorrow. such a nice ring to it being able to call nad my wife. =D

one more week

it's one more week left till our big day and it's really getting exciting. well most of the prep has been done left some minor minor stuff like the fitting and collection of the cert. and i have to touch up on the paint in the room took which was kinda damaged during the installation of the wardrobe.

anyway my birthday just passed and it was alright. the best park was that i get to spend it with my dearest nad which just makes everything worth it. even though i didnt really get alot of presents and even though not alot of people remembered (thanks to those that did) it still was meaningful.

morning went to tmall for breakfast with nad at swensens. it was a nice surprise as she woke me up and didnt wanan tell me where she was taking me. it was really sweet of her taking me to breakfast on my birthday. after that went over to nad's house to do some betrothal stuff where i was suppose to ask nad's parents for her hand in marriage. anyway i didnt really take long so yea gave the gifts and stuff and went back home for dinner. which btw was my fave homemade laksa. =)

afternoon sweetheart came over and we went out as i wanted to get psp. which i did not in the end as it was too ex. we were suppose to watch xmen- origins at 11pm and so we went to bed at abt 9pm hoping that we could take a little nap and we were supposed to set alarm so that we could wake up. the next thing we knew it was 1am and we totally missed the show. =( so depressing right.

anyway the rest of the week didnt really do much in camp. slacked ard abit and went to do some recce. pretty much that was abt it. went drinking ytd with the guys at brewerkz and timbre and later headed over to nic's house to chill and sleep. proceeded to meet nad and 7ners at parkway the next day for breakfast and went back to my place to take a nap. haha. slept till pretty late. OH BTW I FELT THE BABY MOVE AGAIN!!!!!!!!! S/HE KICKED MY HANDS, CHEEK AND LIPS!!!! you do not know how happy i am and it is just awesome being able to feel your very own flesh and blood kick u while in his/her mother's womb. =)

anyway we headed back to her place for her brother's birthday party, and well stayed to play taboo with the rest of her fam while her bro went out with his friends to celebrate somemore. so now i am currently at nic's place most probably gonna head back soon. need to accompany nad to church later and we still have a wedding to attend. hope i dont fall asleep later. =x