:'(

gosh sweetheart I miss you so much. I'm really going crazy here. feel so stupid all alone in the office crying because I just miss you so badly. never cried because I miss someone before. guess you're the first. I really love you so much and not being able to be beside you is really killing me. I need you.

something exciting. well not really. :/

ok so today the DO asked me to send some bravo coy guy to ttsh. i complied and was heading to the medical center. I was thinking to myself what happened to the guy. did he have fever? or maybe food poisoning? well when I got there, apprently he slipped and fell into a whole roll of concertina wire which is so so super sharp and cut his right ankle. didn't look very bad till he showed me his wound. I tell you his wound opened to nearly 1cm wide and about 3cm long and it was deep. super deep. he had a second cut which looked like a smaller version of the big one. now I know how sharp that stupid thing is. anyway sat in the saf ambulance and it stupidly can only got up to 50km/h and if there is an emergent can only go up to 70km/h. I tell you if I were to get seriously injured during training, I'd rather the medics call the paramedics from scdf to send me to he nearest hospital if noti just might die getting there. maybe that is why that officer who got crushed by the rover didn't survive cause by he time the saf ambulance reached anyway hospital would have been one hour later. 

ok this is a pretty random post but I'm just to bored here. there is really nothig to do and not alot of ppl to keep me company. I'm stuck in this stupid place till Friday. sigh. 

I think this is the most exciting thing that will happen to me this week. god I miss Nad so much. so so much. 

stuck in camp

so I'm currently serving the second day of my four days cos duty. it is super super boring cause there's really nothing to do. all I can do is do some daily paperwork, watch tv, and sleep. worse part is I don't have money to order food from outside and I can't get out of camp to even spend time with my wife. sigh this sucks. I can't wait for Friday to come so I can freaking book out of this place. 

stupid leg still not recovering fully. gotta go see the specialist soon. hope it will recover as I do not want this to affect my airforce career. 

anyway don't really have much to blog now cause there really is just nothing to blog about! well off to watch the tv or sleep now. sigh. I miss Nad so so much. :(

haircut

so I just got my haircut and I look like a recruit. had to ask one of my other fellow commander help cut cause my CSM wanted it done by today. dunno why cannot wait till tmr.

anyway went back to camp this morning and basically didn't do much la. just did some atec prep den after that slack all the way. had my hair cut later.

anyway tomorrow my sweetheart will be having her check up and I'll be able to accompany her after I help out with ippt tomorrow morning. she'll be having her ultrasound tomorrow and we would be able to find out the sex of our baby that is if he/her is not shy. by anyway Nadine doesn't want to know the sex. and I dunno if I should find out anot.

anyway I'm feeling super tired as I haven't slept since yesterday cause was up all night had supper den was just lying in bed with Nadine talking to one another. well guess I'll call her and den crash to bed now.

2:39am

ok. just gonna randomly blog now.

I really miss my wife. how I wish I can snuggle up with her. I hate being away from her making her spend the night alone in our room. I feel like crap to know she's alone. I just want to keep her warm in my arms and hug her tight till we both fall asleep in each other arms. god I miss her so much and it has only been five hours ago when I last saw her. I can't wait to see her tomorrow and spend the weekend with her.

anyway next thursday is her check up and ultrasound. hope baby is fine and everything is where it should be. I can't wait to see how our dear precious baby looks like. it's so exciting. haha.

stupid hip still hasn't recovered. hope the doctor can do something about it.

well I guess it's time to sleep now. it's 2:45am, and I love you Nadine. :)

stonning in camp

so like I'm currently stuck in camp doing nothing cause I'm injured and the entire battlion is having outfield. so I do nothing in the office, listening to music and sleeping. I dunno what to blog about now cause my mind is like asleep now as it is really that boring here.

I miss my wife. I wanna be at home with here but I'm stuck at this stupid place and I couldn't see the doctor because I was suppose to see him in the afternoon but they are closed for the day in the afternoon. so seems like I have to go tomorrow morning. oh wells shall continue to rot now.

iPhone

well anyway guess what. I just got my iPhone 3GS. and the best part was that I did not need to queue six freaking hours for it. when to singtel shop on sat and because of some miscommunication earlier, we managed to jump the queue and we got our phone within the hour. thanks to the wondeful management at singtel. and luckily we didn't have to queue cause as we were getting our phones. it started to rain heavily and I wouldn't want my wonderful pregnant wife to get stuck outside inherent cold cold weather. luckily sheis pregnant and I'm injured if not we would have to wait very long.

anyway I'm now at home with seven days mc because of my fever and the missus is bored because I can't leave the house and there is nothing much to do at home. I wanna go out with my wife.

sentosa

so I'm blogging while wifey is working. I'm keeping her company. anywAy I don't really know what to blog I still haven't put up the pictures from the wedding and other cameras. well the wedding was awesome. it turned out well and everything was great. it was a tiring day but my bride looked awesome. when I first saw her my mouth dropped and it kinda stayed down the next few days cause she was just so awesomely beautiful.

well I really would like to thank eveyone who tunrned up and gave their well wishes.

after the wedding we went to Carlton to stay and the nice front desk guy at first thouht we just came from prom cause nad still had her make up on. but we told him we just had our wedding and he very nicely upgraded our room to a bigger one. headed our to loof after we checked in and chilled there awhile. went back later and just slacked in the room till breakfast where we went down to have the buffet. it was nice and we enjoyed each others company just eating and talking and being happily married to each other.

well anyway my application to air force have been approved and I'll have to head down for an interview on the fifth. hopefully I can get it as it would be awesome. so I'll pray I do get it as I would be able to fly and at least do something I like rather then get stuck in 1sir.

anyway back to playing psp while waiting for nad to end work. den off to vivo to catch wolverine which we were suppose to since my birthday where we wasted two tickets by falling asleep.

wedding day

so today is my wedding day. i'm not sure if i'm suppose to be nervous or excited or worried but i'm sure very happy.=)

anyway here is basically what i did on the eve of my wedding day. well first i went to my grandma's place to pay a visit to her with my aunty and her family from overseas. stayed there awhile and later headed out with my cousin for lunch. went to katong to eat the laksa and apprently my cousin loves it. haha. esp the chilli.

anyway after lunch went to pick nad up to collect out wedding outfits and bouquet and stuff and sent her home well i went to do some shopping for the supposed stag night i'm suppose to have at night with my cousin and friends. went to giant tamp to get $76 worth of stuff to eat and drink. haha.

after that we went back home for dinner. which was steam boat and so as usual i cooked for everyone. pretty nice time and den started with the drinking and last min prep. my cousin came over with the car and we went down to decorate it. looked pretty nice and felt quite good about it. but we did not get to put the hello kitties as there was some miscommunication between me and her fam so didnt go over to collect it. but kenneth went down to collect it on my behalf later so we will put it on later.

anyway there are still like one issue that is not done that is the guest book which we have to go buy tomorrow which will be like so super rush but i hope it'll work out fine. i'm sure it will.

anyway continued on the drinking. stay at the garden for about a few hours drinking and talking till abt 1 plus when we decided to call it a night. i went in the room to send an email to nad and when i came out my best man had clogged up my kitchen sink with his vomit. super funny and disgusting so we made him clean it up and after doing so not 5 mins later he went to throw up into the toilet bowl. at least this time he made a better choice.

anyway now here i am blogging. i havent really came up with a proper vow and speech yet but i guess i 'l just say what's in my heart. it may not be the best speech but i hope i wont get stage fright or something and just freeze up. maybe tml i'll just write some pointers down and work with it.

honestly i cant wait to get married with nad and start a fam with her and i'm actually looking forward to it. ppl tell me it's not gonna be easy and it'll be difficult. but i am excited and am going to do my best to make it work out right for her and us.

anyway i better go to sleep now. i just cant wait to see how super beautiful my bride, my wife will be tomorrow. such a nice ring to it being able to call nad my wife. =D

one more week

it's one more week left till our big day and it's really getting exciting. well most of the prep has been done left some minor minor stuff like the fitting and collection of the cert. and i have to touch up on the paint in the room took which was kinda damaged during the installation of the wardrobe.

anyway my birthday just passed and it was alright. the best park was that i get to spend it with my dearest nad which just makes everything worth it. even though i didnt really get alot of presents and even though not alot of people remembered (thanks to those that did) it still was meaningful.

morning went to tmall for breakfast with nad at swensens. it was a nice surprise as she woke me up and didnt wanan tell me where she was taking me. it was really sweet of her taking me to breakfast on my birthday. after that went over to nad's house to do some betrothal stuff where i was suppose to ask nad's parents for her hand in marriage. anyway i didnt really take long so yea gave the gifts and stuff and went back home for dinner. which btw was my fave homemade laksa. =)

afternoon sweetheart came over and we went out as i wanted to get psp. which i did not in the end as it was too ex. we were suppose to watch xmen- origins at 11pm and so we went to bed at abt 9pm hoping that we could take a little nap and we were supposed to set alarm so that we could wake up. the next thing we knew it was 1am and we totally missed the show. =( so depressing right.

anyway the rest of the week didnt really do much in camp. slacked ard abit and went to do some recce. pretty much that was abt it. went drinking ytd with the guys at brewerkz and timbre and later headed over to nic's house to chill and sleep. proceeded to meet nad and 7ners at parkway the next day for breakfast and went back to my place to take a nap. haha. slept till pretty late. OH BTW I FELT THE BABY MOVE AGAIN!!!!!!!!! S/HE KICKED MY HANDS, CHEEK AND LIPS!!!! you do not know how happy i am and it is just awesome being able to feel your very own flesh and blood kick u while in his/her mother's womb. =)

anyway we headed back to her place for her brother's birthday party, and well stayed to play taboo with the rest of her fam while her bro went out with his friends to celebrate somemore. so now i am currently at nic's place most probably gonna head back soon. need to accompany nad to church later and we still have a wedding to attend. hope i dont fall asleep later. =x

week's update

well there is nothing much to type. had soc training today and earlier in the week went around the training areas to recce on the places. there are some places in singapore that i nv knew existed lo. haha.

anyway just completed playing gta chinatown wars. pretty fun. haha

well i hope everything back home is fine and that maybe the wardrobe would be done soon. Nad would be shifting her stuff over soon and we gotta start packing our room. i cant wait for her to move in.

anyway will be booking out tomorrow from nee soon camp as i have some stupid test which i must do well with flying colours to pass. so irritating

anyqway it's getting late so i shall end here for today and go get what little rest i have left.

new room

so anyway i am like totally clearing my room like i'm gonna empty it so that i can repaint it and put in the new furniture. already gotten the bed and my dad is going to get the carpenter down to make the wardrobe. i still have a long way to go to clear my room. but i'm making some progress. i realize i do have ALOT of things to clear.

it's gonna be hard to get rid of my entire FHM collection. from issue 1 to now. but i can do it. for my own sake and my family's sake. new phase of my life. gonna get rid of most stuff from my single life.

went to ikea yesterday to get some idea and colours on how we want the wardrobe and what colour to paint the room. i cant wait for our new room to be ready. we can start sleeping there already.

anyway it has really ben hectic planning for the wedding. still trying to get the photographer and Nad and I haven't even went to look at our outfits. there's also the invitation cards that have not been printed and sent out yet and we still have to get the solemnizer. it is really not easy planning a wedding on such short notice.

well it has been almost a week since i came back from brunei and i would have to go back to camp soon. well i hope i would be able to get sometime off to plan for the wedding and clean up my room. it really is in a mess now.

anyway will be going to the restaurant later to try out the food with some of my relatives. hope it will be nice. haha.

back to camp

well i booked back into camp this morning cause i had had cos duty today again. so anyway i spent the weekend with Nad. well we didnt really do much. we were supposed to go to her friend's birthday party on fri but she didnt feel like it so we ended up watching prison break.

yesterday morning basically about twelve plus, Nad and i went to carls jr at east coast and ate the burger that she was craving. slacked there awhile den i drove off to another place where we slept in the car till 5.30. felt cosy with her beside me in the car. i would do anything to spend more time with her and be with her.

anyway thurs accompanied Nad to SGH for her check up. i'm glad to say that everything is ok. just that sadly her next appointment is on the 19th and i wont be in singapore. so depressing.

anyway gotta go to sleep now. gotta wake up at 4.30 to open the armskote cause we'll be going outfield. at least can bring my phone to msg Nad.

Monday blues

It's Monday and I already miss Nad so much. Had steps training just now which was basically walking around the camp for ninty minutes supposedly to train your thighs. I feel that it's a waste of time but this is he saf and they think of the wierdest stuff to do. Other than that we really didn't do much today so I don't really know what else to blog about.

Stupid saf is like pulling me away from Nad every week and it suck balls big time. Nad's not say in the best of health now a days and I can't do anything to help her or even really take care of her. Worse part is during the weekends I get too tired we sometimes don't really get to do much. And now the stupid battlion is going to Brunei. Such a fucked up place I don't even know why we must go. I really gotta start doing something more to make her feel happier, make her feel even more special. Things will work out fine.

Anyway I hope this thursday I can book out to go do some stuff den have off on Friday cause bloody hell this Sunday I'm cos and I have to be in camp Sunday morning. I hope Nad will understand.

Well I don't know why but I'm so tired despite doing so little today. Actually he whole bunk is so I'm gonna go to bed already.

book-out

so i booked out just now at 3.30pm after falling asleep in the armskote waiting for the DOO to come cause he was having some stupid meeting. i could have booked out earlier if only he had come earlier. but oh wells had no choice.

anyway did do much today. coy was cleaning arms so i went arnd the the diff platoons inspecting their weapons making sure that it is clean and dirt free. got my hands all dirty and all. and basically after that was just wating for armskote to clear before booking out.

Nad's with her friends not at paragon celebrating her friend's birthday and i'll be heading down there to go pick her up in abit. mum's using the car and i dont think dad will let me use the lorry. so i guess i'll have to take a train down. i hate taking public transport. super slow and irritating.

well gonna go take a shower now and going to head out. finally get to see dearie. =)

COS

So I just ended my cos duty. Suppose to end at eight in the morning but the whole coy was outfield so had to cover today's cos for the time being.

Well I don't really have much to blog about today. Just very tired. Oh but something freaky happened today. Nad told me that someone died near her work place today in the river where they are constructing the intergrated resort. Imagine that happening near your work place. Thank god she didn't see the body. It's not a pretty sight.

Anyway that's about it for today. Let's wait till I book out tomorrow before blogging some more. Can't wait to book out to see Nad! :)

Slow rainy day.

Well it was quite a slow day today. Most of the time was spent slacking in the mortar office. Was playing the guitar with sharvi, bala, Joshua and David. Sharvi thought me the chords to hotel California and black magic woman.

Didn't really do much today cause it was raining but I did went to donate blood today cause they came to our camp. Went at about ten thirty and was trying to get a few people to join me to donate blood but no one wanted to go so I went alone before lunch. Ok honestly at first I was abut aprehensive. I was abut scared cause I didn't know what to expect seeing that it's my first time and all but I thought that I gotten iv before so I just went ahead with it. First they prick your finger to test some stuff, after that they will bring you to the chair to sit down where they will prep you for the donation. The needle is quite big but luckily they will numb he area first so you can't even feel the needle going in, seriously. Next thing you know, about five minutes later you're done. So yea, donating blood is a piece of cake.

I can't wait for the weekend to come so that I can go spent time with Nad. Maybe this week we can go tanning together. :) army is making me so far away from her it sucks. I so can't wait to ord. Well anyway I'll be going outfield tomorrow and I haven't been outfield for the longest time. Boy izzit gonna suck tomorrow. Well once it's over means I'll be two days closer to meeting Nad.

P.S. Nad baby, I miss you so much. How I wish we could spend more time together. After I ord I promise we will ok. :) Sweetheart I love you so much. You take care of yourself alright.

Tiring day.

So like I'm currently using my friend's iPhone to blog now so I guess it's gonna be a pretty short entry. Currently lying on my bed after a long day. Had a sixteen km route march just now like right after I booked in la. Got super tiring and I had to fall out half way because I wasn't hydrated properly enough. Any way closed the armskote at like eleven, came back up had abut of macs and a packet of instant noodles and took a bath and now I'm here blogging.

Anyway on a side note, my camp will be having a blood donation drive tomorrow and I can finally go and donate blood after so long. Haha. I wanted to donate since 2007 but just didn't really have the chance.

Anyway guess I'll stop here now. Should get to sleep soon if not I won't be able to wakeup tomorrow. Gosh I miss Nad so much and it has only been a day. Brunei is gonna suck man. Nad is just so awesome I love her so much. :)

long long dry-spell from blogging.

well after not blogging for months here i am back.

after blogging u realize u wont have much to talk about. cause it's just abt what u do daily and some random thoughts here and there. but it gets even worse in the army cause u cannot really blog about what u do in camps or even put pictures unless approved by mindef. and usually hose picture u can get off the internet.

well the stuff i ordered are finally here. my gore-tex boots from st logistics came on thursday and so did my book i bough from amazon.com shipping is a killer man. it's like more expensive den the book alone. haha.

anyway i'm supposed to meet up with Nad to go tanning but that girl is fast asleep at the moment so i came home straight from camp first. hopefully she wont oversleep seeing that she slept quite late ytd. well i kinda knocked out on the coy mess sofa while watching the holiday half way. next time i know my fellow spec came to wake me up to send arms.

anyway last sunday before i booked into camp, went for dinner with Nad at mof. ordered quite a fair bit of food and somehow we both managed to finish all. esp since she couln't really eat much cause of her tummy. at least she finally got to have her udon. now left tepanyaki to take her too. just need to find a good tepanyaki place.

well something happened to me over the past few months. started about a month plus before i went to nz. it's something i dont really wanna disclose just as yet. and i still gotta discuss with the "higher authority" before doing so. but it's something i'm quite excited about. and i hope that it will all turn out alright. now just gotta focus on my finances cause it's gonna get abit tough in the near future.

ever since i came back from nz i don't really have the mood to chiong anymore and seems like my weekends are being burnt because of the stupid alert red and stuff. worse of all i'm dreading brunei. i'm gonna be away from Nad for fifteen freaking days and the eighteen days because i was in nz was already hell and so difficult. dunno how am i gonna endure another fifteen days. esp since i'm gonna go brunei. i dunno how i'm gonna use my phone and i'll be chiong-ing and it's gonna so suck. swampy, hot, humid, wet, rainy. gonna be very dirty and uncomfortable for days. i dont really wanna go. anyone has the power to overide my OC's decision for me to go and make me stay back in sg? i dont really like the ary. how i wish i could be in air force or something better. sigh. i guess i somehow gotta find a way to pull through.

anyway this is for u Nad if u are readying, "here i finally blogged. happy now my dear? haha. xp. i told u i really dont know what to write about. this is all i can think of at the time being while u are sleeing at home. xp. btw i'm waiting for u to go tanning. it's a nice beautiful day today so try to wake up soon so we can faster go to sentosa kays. i love u sweetheart. will see you in abit. =)"