Granpa I miss you

One day, me and my mum was cooking behind.

We were standing by the stove, and mum went away for a while. 

We were in a conversation, i was busy talking to myself (or rather to my mum, but she ignores me on constant basis, i talked too much) 

Me: OMG! Did you smell something??

Mum: (Inside, busy) What? 

Me: OMG! Like the burning during Ching Ming for ah gong ~!!!

Mum: .... (ignored again.. i think she got use to my weird thoughts)

Me: MUM~~!!! Did you smell this?? or is it just me!!!!

(Mum came out at last..)

Mum: What? 

Me: (explains all over again)

Mum holds up a piece of paper board (used on the stove to prevent oil stains)

Mum: This caught fire, i was putting water on it -_-

-____-

continues..

Me: it smelled alike mar..

Mum: of course, they are all papers.. 

-___-

continues

Mum: Why, you did too many bad deeds?

Me: er...no lar, if ah gong wants to appear, i would be grateful to see him! But r...at least let me know a biiiit in advance, better tell me date time venue, that would be nice hehehe

想说话。。

这样的感觉持续了蛮久的

还以为渐渐的会淡忘习惯

24/7全天一种语言的感觉

我应该会记到永远

想家到还不会，

只是想说“马来西亚”语

卡在中间不上不下的感觉还蛮妙的

中文？？

你确定你说的是中文？？-正版中国人

英文？？

听起来好像少了点。。糖？盐？

马来文。。省略，没人听得懂（听过）

而且，重点是

大家都跟你说日文

在马来西亚应该是太习惯一天多姿多彩的3种语言

来到这里不自觉就觉得一种很不够。。表达？？

一天里面可以就100%日文（non skype days)

too used to rojak..

有点窒息的感觉，喘不过气。。

太得空

什么事都不用做时，才烦。

什么事都轮不到你来控制时，更烦。

打从3月 面试 到8月成绩揭晓，

足足把心脏挂在半空挂了5个月，

有点麻痹了。

从迫不及待，着急不安

等到。。有点反感了

结果就变成事事都无所谓，天塌下来都无所谓的感觉

。。。还真是获益良多

怎么处理自己乱七八糟的情绪

怎么說服自己用平心看待结局

现在回想起来。。

已经回想不起来了

现在看回去，很多细节都很模糊

不过，很深刻的是

当初想要那份奖学金的心态

那种感觉到现在都很明确

当时发生在周围的一切好像都在乱转乱飘

只有那个念头是沉重的，直直的

带着我做完一个步骤， 再做下一个

没有任何犹豫，或是铺第二条路的想法

但，现在到手了

很开心，倒是没有想象中那么开心

反而身边的人比我更兴奋

太平心看待了吗

还是心冷了

现在却竟然会开始犹豫，恐惧倒是还没有

不过以我的性格因该到了机场才会感觉到

什么都不用做了

什么都不用准备了

反而觉得不自在

被告知申请宿舍居然什么过程都不用

别人却忙得手忙脚乱

有点怕怕咧

真的？

真的？

很没真实感

to those i missed....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

I m so ..........(can't think of a word now to discribe my ignorance..) to forget almost everyones birthday esp those in NOVEMBER. Even including mine. Just remember it when Sue msg me from Aus to ask me out on that day..T_T

Really really sorry..Really really sorry. I don't even have the guts to wish some of you face to face since its already past, like.....months ago? and now only i remember. I m so freakin forgetful that i even forgot to set it in my phone earlier on. 

Promise. 

Will remember next year. Set it in my Calender already. 

Won't miss it....unless...argh..i will remember!!!!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday guys....

---dedicating to Chai Ping, Yan Chyi, Xin Yun and more..

Muakz!!! I still have you in mind!!!

MANDARAs....

some pictures to share...^^

Below pictures are taken from my mom's and relatives trip to India's Bodhgaya....in December.

Kind of religious tripp i can say..

And it was when i thought below effects are camera effect, it struck me when i m actually seeing it at Qi Xiang's blog where he was at some religious ceremony.

That's why i decided to post it up..

ok, fyi, i m regarding to the pale coloured ORBS,

namely the MANDARA.

round in shape, and can only be captured under camera's flash lights.

There was only a few in QX's photo, but there were UNCOUNTABLE ammount of them in the photos my mom took from the trip. ACCORDING 2 THEM, those are some unexplainable spiritual thingy which croud around places where religious ceremony are going on, and the place where below photos were took are at a really grand ceremony, crowded by thousands of lhamas and long sessions of prayers were conducted. By the way, its definitely NOT camera effect. cause everyone captured it that night.

YEA........

hard to explain.....hard to believe...

"where got such thing 1....dun bluff la...camera effect.."

says me....

look below....

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Before the ceremony....

the lhamas, oung and adults and a small amount of MANDARAs..

A Pic of my aunt with the lhamas, and the big" orb"--MANDERA

the clear view of the UNCOUNTABLE MANDARAs at the ceremony.

the mandaras and the 'line'----there wasnt any light deco in the sky, nothing above to be tied to, and it just shot out in the mid. btw, they couldn't even see it without the photo session.

haha...the funny part is, there was even a photo from my uncle, where the line shot INTO his head, i saw it, but photo not with me...maybe get it fr him someday...

ER......I SERIOUSLY think that it is camera effect.

by the way, not every mandaras comes in an orb shape but diamond shapes too, which are rare...

now i feel like i m crapping.....

because i m talking bout' something that even I DON'T believe.....

".................."

what the...

okayyy.....i was in this metro bus this evening from KL back to my home, when i encounter this weird fella..

He, is a Malay guy i suppose, or a rather tanned skin chinese guy(didnt look properly), boarded this bus the same time as me, and sat right behind me.

Its just so very normal.
Until he started to SLEEP.

WHICH, he started "hissing", mumbling, and KICKING.

I was asleep before that then. Woke up blurly to find someone kicking now and then behind me..
and GOSH, it lasted till i reach my stop. So damn annoyed and...very curious what kind of DREAM he IS having. kena 'jampi' or sumthing izit???
if u snore, is ok la, but please minus all the action stuff larrr!!!
okay, not that he can control also...but STILLL.. not when everyone is super awake looking at u larr..

Can't Breath...

赶。。。赶。。。赶。。。
赶完一题又一题。。。到最后差不多快晕倒了。。。。graph chart 简直乱涂。。。
今天的general paper 真是考的狼狈不堪。。。。不要太差就好了。。。。。
明天还有 chemistry paper......那个简直就是死定了。。。。。

我认识一个奇怪的男生， 天天喜欢跑过来吓我。 今天他还告诉我说 看我被吓到的反应让他有‘冲动’ 想过来吓我。。。。。。sweat @_@
haihz.....这种人都有。。。不过他也很好笑啦。。。。考卷快到时间了还拼命在那边讲话。。。。