The battle day

The battle day. 24th October 2016

Every lady has their own story of the battle day. I agree if they said it was the unforgetful one..

I had regular contraction pain since past 4 days before the delivery. Since this is my first experience feeling how the contraction was, i went for check up quite multiple times (anxious sangat!), my cervix was already soft and thin but the os still around1-2cm. Dr Y asked to go back first and come back again on 23rd for induction due to prolonged latent phase if still not delivered.

Mama asked not for early induction since the contraction pain is still mild and there was no show or leaking yet. So yea, i decided to go for check up n induction on 24th.

The battle started at 2am on 24th oct. I started having regular contraction pain in every 5 mins. Yes, for the whole night i cannot sleep. I was ready to go to the hospital by 6am. After breakfast with hot milo cream crackers and kurma, Z brought me to the hospital (wisma perbidanan dan sakit puan - currently known as puteri ayu medical centre )
the pain was increasing in intensity. I started to sweat. Fuh. The contraction was up to 100 from the CTG. Yea, it was a real pain! This kind of contraction i even can push my baby out without the pitocin. It was real. It was real. Phew. But but but another thing made me worry was baby's heart rate. I assume my baby's baseline heart rate is normal on tachy side - around 160 like that. (Cause baseline heart rate from CTG previously was about the same) but thennnnnn, suddenly CTG showed regular deep deceleration. Fuh. That is not right :(

Dr Y came after 1 hour like that. 'Okay nasyitah, the cervix soft but the os still around 2-3cm, we proceed with ARM ok..'

And then. 'Nasyitah! Thick meconium stained laaaa' sweat sweat sweat. Cause i know what she is going to say after that.

*thick meconium stained liqour (tmsl) means the baby already poo poo inside the womb*

Ok, prepare for caeser now!

Yes. The word. I never expect for caeser. Never. Antenatally uneventful. Estimated baby size okay 2.9-3kg. Latest AFI sangat adequate 13. Baby's movement more than 10 kicks in 2 hours. Kicking here and there like nobody business. And my due is on 25th! I still got one more before the due! And nowww my baby is distress inside. 😣

First came up in my mind was the complication with tmsl. Comes the chest xray of pneumothorax. Comes the direct suction NRP. Comes the branula and blood taking. Comes the ventilation. Comes the cynosed limp baby who not respond with the stimulation. Allah. So much possibilities. Tears. Tears. Tears.

Dr called up Z to come inside. And she showed him the liqour. He was stumbled. I saw his worried face. He looked at me. I know. He was trying to be strong. For us. He keep saying everything is going to be alright. But i know from his eyes, he was broken inside. Seeing the worst situation that we never expect on the battle day. On our battle day.

Emergency lower segment caesarean section

The steps for caeser running in my mind. Ok on OT table. Ok then bend your body forward. Ok then spinal. Ok then drape. Ok then start. Start the incision.

It took about 15mins for Dr Y to bring M out. She even has to use forcep cause the liqour was very scanty. The anaes tried to calm me down. (I was shaking throughout the operation)

And. The baby came out. Yes i know. But i cannot hear the crying sound. Allah. Suddenly Dr Y screaming, suction! Suction! Suction now! After few mins, my baby M cried. And for the first time, i love the crying sound. Alhamdulillah. It was a relief to hear that cause it means baby M is breathing well..

Welcome to the world my baby. Tears.

Alhamdulillah. Everything went well. Dr Y came and telling baby M is doing well. No grunting. No oxygen needed. No desaturation. Sucking well. Not started on antibiotics since he was stable.

Alhamdulillah.
No other word that i can say.

Alhamdulillah. Allah protects every minute of my battle day.
The right timing. The right action. The right decision.

Alhamdulillah.

Baby M is my strong baby boy. Since during pregnancy, he can bare with my hectic schedule, inadequate sleep and rest, the 'vibration' when i was running here and there to prepare caeser, ready for resus. And now, he was struggling to bring the life. To bring the happiness to us. Mummy loves you so much baby M.

Smile.