Sunday, February 26, 2006
siann tmr ish physics common test... i don even kno wad mr kerk ish teaching sia... WAD AM I GONNA DO?!?! im gonna fail, fail, fail my physics common test ler... see i realli realli canot afford to fail my physics common test... cos i oredi did veri badly for my chemistry common test... u see ah... if EXAMPLE i gort 30/30 for my physics common test... den hor if add up both my sciences... i will only get 39/60 for my science... see so damn bad... and of cos you kno tat i wont get full marks... im nort even sure whether i would pass my physics... fuck man i realli haf 2 study... or else i will be dead... and ms lim said tat we'll b getting de progress report round 2 weeks ltr... shucks i did damn badly for my science, chinese, maths, history/ss... blah blah blah... damn stupid idiot... good for nothing idiotic pig...!!! yah den ytd hor... me rush art rush like siao... cos ytd went 2 chinatown wid my parents... dey sae wanna go out de... so we jus follow lor... den suddenly ade go and call me... saying tat dis tues we haf 2 take over de company for 2 and a half hours... omg wad are we supposed 2 do?? was thinking of marching plus treasure hunt leh... lol mus b enthu! and b crazy! lol siaoz... yah den ade and wankee called and we 3 conference from 11 to 12:30 bahz... lol so funni... me sit at balcony dere... in de dark talk talk talk... den peng tai told me 2 call him at 11... but i rmbed tat we haf 2 think of a proposal leh... sorrie peng tai!!! =x nxt time den call u... hahaz... yah frm 12plus started to do my art... haf 2 paint it oso... haizz... if im not wrong... i slept at 3 in de morning... of cos everyone was sleeping... but who cares? i do my art at dis time de... haiz y am i avoiding him..? he seem nice to me... but......... nevermind... yah so worried bout de ranking in class... den my sis gave me some questions on surds... i found out tat i culdnt do most of it... im dead... and i better start working on it too... or else im realli gonna b de last ler... its driving me insane!! better go study physics... i realli need 2 pass!! i haf 2 pass and pass wif an additional 6 marks... in order to pass my 2 sciences... gimme luck~ haiz no use lar... it depends on my own hard work........
im filled..... with stress
5:38 PM
Saturday, February 25, 2006
hais long time never update... shit man... now its rotting... because im not tat kind who updates like my sis... guess she's mad? i don care lar... i jus blog when i want to lor... haiz lots of thing happened during tat week... zzz i rmbed tat time when we stayed back after sch... cos i realli don feel lyk going home tat day... so jus stayed at sch for sometime... we played truth or dare... yup wif guohao, sam, sis, pf... summore ppl... i was de first to kena... WA i picked dare... cos truth damn boring de rite? everyone chooses tat de... but heck lar... dey told me to go to de chem lab hor... and shout sth across... which was damn damn damn far... i walked over dere... and started to shout... but sth happened... a cher came out from de science lab and started staring at me... i pretended not to look over dere and walk past her quickly... shit make me in trouble... hope don regonize my face... den... played sam kena her turn... she picked truth... we told kalis to pick a question for her... guess wad he asked sam?? he asked... how many bras do you have at home? i was lyk... thot i heard wrongly... i... HUH very loudly... den hor pf kena... we asked kalis to pick a question again... guess wad he asked?? he asked... wad kinda brands do you use for ur kotex... aiyah donno how to spell... waulao eh i din kno he's dis kinda guy... hahaha nvm lar... man im so damn disappointed in everything i did when i started sec 3 at 3/6... firstly my maths i realli did slack alot... now i realli regretted it and hope i can start dis sec 3 life over again... u kno my E maths rite? first paper i fail till it looks like a bloody paper wif so many bloody stuffs all over... y didnt i study hard?! y didnt i listen in class?! y did i keep talking instead of listening to mdm chang?! fuck man i realli regret it... i realli do... and for my A maths... seriously starting to learn tat lesson ish lyk making me jump off a high rise building!! i cant believe tat it wuld b so damn hard lor... all those simultaneous equations... all changed to those fcuking hard formats liao... wad am i gonna do?!?! i realli realli realli regretted not listening lor... instead of not listening... i had received 2 bad things... 1, i talked to yilian too much and and she culdnt listen to cher in class ler... i feel so bad now... den 2, i failed my A maths... wtf man no retest... no nothing... at least E maths gort retest and i passed... but i copied yilian's paper... tats y i passed... u wanna kno how much i gort for my A maths? i gort 6half out of 30 or 35... ccb lar... i realli canot believe it... wads de use? it's over and i canot do anything to change tat marks... and i will jus haf to work damn hard for my maths... and ESP to both my maths... i realli cant afford to talk in class anymore... as u kno 3/6 ish a class... tat realli has all de good people in it... it's like a race... i can see everyone right infront of me... and im de only 1 lagging behind... wad am i gonna do? it seems like im de only one who ish gonna get rank 37/37... if not my rank would be 30+ i wont be 20+ or even de unbelievable... 10+ i realli haf alot of work to catch up... realli realli alot...... and yeah im damn disappointed in my chemistry oso... i failed! failure... fucking failure lor... even my sis passed her chemistry... i gort 9half out of 35 arh... bloody shit? i asked ms lim wads de lowest mark... guess wad she said?? she said lowest ish 8... so i asked her.. am i de 2nd lowest... and dere u go... yes... haiz seriously lor in chemistry... i don get wad de cher ish saying... shit fucking hell... wad am i gonna do?? im so damn seriously stressed out now... mayb i shuld realli shut my fucking mouth... am do my fucking work... -__-" srry i get too stressed out on dis kinda things... don get me wrong but i don realli like scolding all dis damn useless words which wuldnt even help get good grades at all lor... haiz im so freaking lousy! im so freaking stupid! im a idot who doesnt kno how 2 concentrate on studies... den physics lor.. i don get wad kerk ish saying even thou i try 2 listen 2 him... haiz mon oredi physics common test... if i don do well... i realli donno wad im gonna do liaoz... shit lemme tell u wad im realli realli worried now... i oredi failed my A maths, chinese and chemistry... shit! den i realli got to buck up ler... if not my rank would realli drop to de last... tats when i will reali realli cry liao... realli lor... every1 in 3/6 hor... all like win me de... im dead... so dead... i realli hope i aint de 30s+... haiz... yah lor den hor 2dae... cos on thurs i smsed ms lim telling her tat i wanna change my place mah... she replied me saying tat we'll talk abt dis during de reading period outside de hall lyddat... den i was like... nooo way den i smsed nevermind ler... nxt morning we went hall den blah blah blah... dey say start reading period... i turned to my left cos i thot ms lim go liao... but at de same time i thot someone was looking at me... i turned... and i saw ms lim looking over... omgomgomg den i was like shocked ah... she "said" cos i cant hear... but can see... she said grace, come... i was like shaking my head... den keep saying nevermind... but she say... now... diaoz so i jus go dere lor... she told me 2 sit beside her... den i was like... nevermind lar cher... den she thot i was paiseh cos dere were people dere mah... den she go de staff room dere... diaooz den i jus sit beside her bah... hahaha so paiseh don think i can forget dis... think =x i forgot how long liao... i jus lyk sit dere... don wanna talk much cos damn paiseh... LOL! yah... haiz i wanna concentrate on my chinese, science; physics and chemistry and of cos... my maths... thinking of getting a tutor... or mayb asking cher or classmates... can save money xD die die die tmr haf 2 stay up late every night... cos ill b doing art from at night to 3 or 4 in de morning... -_-" so worried........ so worried........ haiz too many competition liao.........
end of me
12:31 AM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
i hate my life.
10:17 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2006
waaa dis week hor... ish lyk everyday confirm come back home late de lor... round 4~6plus de leh... waulao so damn stressed... mon haf to stay back for maths remedial.. tues haf 2 stay back for cca lor... den wed haf to stay back for either chemistry or physics remedial... thurs hor... forget gort wad ler lar... den fri haf cca!!! pianggzz... all my schedule all filled up ler... sad hor =(( den anyways we haf a total defence skit on mon... OMG last time i jus went up on stage... den dis mon haf 2 go up again... shit so scared... me and my sis ish to carry yilian... cos she's so-called "injured"... we're de human carriers... haiz... i donwan to b short! hahah jkjkjk no offence... okok den hor 2dae art... i wan complain alot of things... actualli nort sort of... de cher will call ppl go out de... 1 by 1 to tell us our mistakes or wad lar hor... she called my name den i go out... at least there's 1 nice thing she said... tat ish... "there's improvement" yeahhh ahahah finalli passed my art... 1 piece nia... den hor nxt time de art i realli donno how 2 draw... wad symbols... shit man i haven plan it out yet... die liaoz confirm fail den cher's face black as usual... den 2dae she catch me tuck out my shirt again!! u kno wad she say? she said "my dear girl, pls tuck in ur shirt.." waulao eh... so wad lor... aiyah donwan say art... makes me mad... REALLI DAMN MAD!!! haiz... 2dae pack maths file... as if i was packing a million worksheets or sorting a million worksheets... found out i din do alot of my A and E maths exercise... OMG i haf 2 go copy frm others ppl lyk sec 2 express maths... last min go chiong chiong chiong... den i wos de last few to go home der... okok at de skit tat time... me kerk called me... xia si wo... i thot he wanted 2 realli talk to me... cos tat time i shout from far y he ask me to go over... he said "i want to talk to you.." okok mus rmb dis few things to do... mon go find kerk and ask him de homework thinggy... cos he wil nort b in sch for 2 days... mus bring TYS!! and call our ppl 2 do oso... den bring file on thurs along wif 3 worksheets tat we done... LOL! i think tats all if im nort wrong... *cross fingers*
A lonely life, where no one understands
12:12 AM
Saturday, February 04, 2006
hahah jus came back frm a movie!!! guess wad title?? hahah tell u lar... i not stupid too~ wow... damn nice show... mus watch mus watch!!! or else u`ll lose a great oppotunity... jkjk but de 2 guys dere sooo damn shuai wors... hahaha one ish called chengcai den de other 1 ish called tom... omg so shuai... haahhaha but me no chance de lar... so fat and ugly... okok say sch first... 2dae lor all 2gether gort 3 different lessons nia... waa damn slack wors... ahahaah but hor! first 3 periods ish maths sia... waulao now taking both A and E maths... shit man damn stressed... haiz wad am i going 2 do?! guess take choo-choo train ish liddat de bah =x alot of subjects tat chers taught i don even understand a thing!!! IM GONNA FAIL MY MATHS, CHINESE, CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS, HISTORY/ SOCIAL STUDIES AND ART!!!! not sure bout others... i oso not confirmed yet... -___-" haizz 2dae de history test lor... cher go and ask abt de how stalin gain power of russia? wth i onli read up lenin only... WTF! den hor i keep copying haquim de and i let samantha copy mine... actualli we all take some from each other den write write write so gort more answers ler lar... hahaha so bad... den 2dae art lor... de cher go call us 1 by 1 as usual to talk 2 us abt our art or sth lyddat... i wos de 2nd one... den i jus walk over dere den she go say negative things abt my sphere and cube... i wos lyk... "or or or, um um um, arh arh arh" xD den last part hor... i dono wad happened but i suddenly turned speechless... den cudnt say anitin at all... den i jus stare and her and keep nodding my head... but be4 i jus stare at her... she jus smile smile and say... u gort it?? gort questions?? if gort mus ask okay?? i nod, shake, nod my head... =x shit man fcuk man i so fucking embarrased infront of her... wtf sia... den after sch gort guides oso!!! OMG!! zzz but at least haf enuff time bah... we first go play captain's ball... whahaha i scored some goals!! WOOHOO!! =x but i HATE bcos of a reason... my hair will kena messy!!!! anyways WE WON GOLD FOR PNA!!!!!!!!!!!!! *PUT UR HANDS UP AND SCREAM IN THE AIR!!!* gratz wors!!! =DD at least gort mian zi infront of ncc liaoz... hehehe... yah lor... den gort wad total defense skit for all de uniformed grps... sec 3s nia... den hor guides zhou bo de leh... den me ended up being a diverter... =.= i guess u kno whats a diverter lar hor... hahahaz LMAO! after tat we all go jurong entertainment dere to watch i not stupid too with yilian, sis, ade and meeee!! xD cos there de time most suitable... some sort =x omfg de show hor... some parts sooo sad... lyk when tom gort public caning... den he cant sit properly... tat 1 made me cry... and gort anander part... when de tom's dad keep begging de old lady cos tom stole de old lady`s necklace... omg so sad... and de saddest part... which made me cry soo loud and alot of tears come out... ish when de chengcai`s dad kena beaten by those gangsters cos his dad wanna help him... den in de end dead liao... omg tat part soo sad... ='(( haha had fun 2dae... dinner ate shroom burger... lol mon haf cme skit... shit... den tues mus wear full uni... -__-" omg canot complain... den mon cme skit.. im 1 of de extras... y`all confirm cant see me de... xD anyways im soo bloody mad!!!!!!!!! I LOST MY RING!!!!!!!!!! SHIT MAN!!!!! I LOVE TAT RING ALOT!!!!!!!!!
i can't take it, i just can't...
2:02 AM
Thursday, February 02, 2006
hahaah parents wen 2 malaysia for holidays ler!! =x canot say im happie lar... yah dey will b back on sat... and if im nort wrong.. it shuld b at night wor... lol okok sch 2dae... cme cher nvr come wor... hahah den we all slack slack in class... as for me... the ali babas! will still b as crazy as ever... xD... i walk walk arnd... if bo liao den go toilet... =x blahz den physics... hahah 1 period onli u kno!! haha sad hor... canot see ah kerk =xx... wa piang... everytime we go hist or ss lesson de rite... i will yawn at least more than 10 times de arh... realli den... if u yawn of cos u wanna slpppp~ haiz gort hist test tmr... heck care lah fail den fail lor... i don care bout tat shy frog... ROFL! better don let her see dis or else i... *silence*... haiz chem go lab AGAIN but seriously i wont mind de lor... but makes me wanna go zzzing... i don realli erm lyk her lehz... -__-" CHINESE PERIOD DAMN WASTE OF TIME! tat cher don teach us any bloody things... she come 2 our class and scold scold scold... i guess i shuld b prepared 2 FAIL my chinese exams liao... actualli it's oso part of our fault bah... we keep laughing and laughing and laughing... den she keep scolding and scolding and scolding... =.= scold lor still call us stupid... den hor 2dae still gort chinese spelling and as u kno i suck in spelling... of cos ill copy... shhhh but im nort de onli one... still gort alot hahahaaz cant say cant say... den hor when we go back 2 class... i realised tat there ish no maths lesson!!! WOOHOO!!! i wos lyk going crazy hor... haha jump here jump there lyk monkey... =.= hahah shit tmr haf art... diaoooo
When I'm gone
10:03 PM