2017

What are the things that you have achieved/ done in 2017? Hmm flashback mood on:

Let's turn on the music first, 

In January, I did specialized posting, if not mistaken dermatology and orl-hns. I needed to go to dermatology clinic like every single day for 2 weeks except Friday. I learnt things from books and clinic, I got to see severe psoriasis involving the scalp, hands, legs, back and abdomen, ichthyosis vulgaris, a condition in which the skin looks like fish's skin when the skin doesnt shed off the dead skin cells, leprosy, wartz, and other cases that I thought I only can see them in the book. During orl-hns, I guess I really enjoyed this posting so much. I loved the environment in this department. At that moment, I think of being an orl-hns surgeon sounded cool too. Well, that is what happen when I feel belong and attach to the department's environment. 

Born in February makes me a February baby. In early February, after orl-hns, I then did ophthalmology followed by anesthesiology. Ophthalmology was the killer among all postings in specialized posting. I did so bad in exam. Seriously. And I think I didnt enjoy that posting so much. Because of the environment I guess. And the topics were quite difficult. Plus my one fault for not revising religiously. Anesthesiology, hmmm like other postings that I enjoyed, I did wanted to become an anesthesiologist once. My birthday falls at the end of the month. This year was different that previous years, because Shahrin's mother did sent me birthday wishes kbai.

Moving to March, I had my exam, then went to Hospital Melaka for forensic posting for a week. This was not my first time seeing cadaver's body being dissected one by one. My first experience was during my third year, when I was in paediatrics posting. While waiting for occupational therapy patient, as I heard announcement "white code" my friends and I ran to the morgue. And since there was no houseman around, we got to assist the doctor dissecting the body. For the first time ever, I got to touch a human's brain. In Melaka, we got to see few forensic cases. Apart from that, the doctors also taught us about suicidal, homicidal, abuse, rape and drown cases, how wound of different characters looked like, and how to estimate the duration from the actual time of death from maggots. 

Okay right after I finished with forensics posting, I flew to Seoul, South Korea. It was my first time being there, and second time being abroad. It was early spring so the flowers were not blooming yet. It was really cold. I bet if we go there in January I wont able to go out because of the coldness. I cannot stand too much cold. What I missed the most, of course the weather, though it was cold, I like it because my make up stayed still till the evening and my skin looked brighter, not oily and hmm the korean food, its wayyyy different from Seoul Garden especially the kimchi. I would like to be here again one day. 

My April begins with Family Medicine posting. I was posted to Klinik Kesihatan Balok. Again, at that moment, I wanted to become a family medicine specialist. I heard that the passing rate of family medicine is quite low. Out of 10 candidates, usually only 4 passed. Whoever passed within 4 years at the first try consider lucky/genius. Seriously. To become a family medicine specialist, one should know at least everything of everything. Sounds complicated. Absolutely. I ended my April with seeing Shahrin after 6 months didnt see each other hihi. God I missed him so much. 

Then came May. In May I had my last posting as a 4th year medical student which is Community Medicine. In this posting, we needed to carry out a mini research within 5 weeks, hmm its more realistic to call it survey rather than research I think. Hmm I already forgot the topic, but we proposed quite few topics before finally being approved by our supervisor. To thank the participants we did hold an event where there were talk on obesity, health screening and sukaneka for the kids. Ha the most memorable thing in this posting is that we were posted to Jerantut for 3 days followed by Kampung Bantal for 2 days. We need to cross Sungai Pahang to go to Kampung Bantal, about 1-2 hours journey by boat. Like a child who never sees the stream, we did main air, simbah menyimbah antara satu sama lain hahahaha. 

Whats happened in June? Hmm exam, puasa, and raya. Ha as I passed my last posting which is Community Medicine, I then did elective posting, a requirement to get into final year of medical school for 6 weeks from July till August. My team completed a book for vascular surgery. Nothing much to be told throughout the posting since I just did my job, staying in mahallah, sometimes went out for air. 

Finally, at the end of August, I began my final year with surgical posting. I already wrote on my surgical journey thought its not much, in my previous post. Not going to repeat that. I DID GET TESTICULAR CANCER FOR MY LONG CASE!!! The case that Ive never clerked before. Luckily the examiner gave me 51/55. Thank you Dr,even I gave you such a rubbish answers. 8 weeks in surgical posting, ended in October. During interposting holiday, we went to Cameron Highlands, it was my first time and gonna be my last time too. Looks good in picture but hmm too crowded with people and biasa je kot. Kbai. But I like the weather hihi.

In November, I was posted to psychiatry posting. At the first place, I never knew that I would fall in love in psychiatry. And again, I wanted to be a psychiatrist. This is my current ambition for now, though it was quite confusing at the beginning. I didnt know how to stop talkative patient from keep on talking and how to make a quite patient speaks. 

The posting was just ended a week ago, in December. I got the exam's result yesterday. Alhamdulliah I passed. But I'm quite sad because I didnt managed to get distinction. I'm quite confident with this posting actually, but turned out I did bad in my exam. For long case, I got panic disorder with agoraphobia, clinic cases that I'm not so familiar with. My mistake for not clerking clinic cases frequently. Too much focus on ward cases like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and also major depressive disorder. I hope I do well in the next posting which is internal medicine. 

So good bye 2017 for good. 

I'm really looking forward for 2018 because good things are about to happen. 

With that,

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 

I WISH YOU ALL A SMOOTH SAILING JOURNEY IN 2018! 

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Tiap kali naik kereta dengan abah, mesti dia akan dengar lagu 70/80's. Setiap kali. Tak kisahlah siapa pun yang drive, aku ke mak ke dia ke adik ke, mesti lagu lama juga yang dia nak dengar. Kalau abah tidur baru boleh tukar channel lain. Ya ampun aku dahlah tak suka sangat lagu lama. Tak enjoy langsung dengar. Macam eii apalah salahnya abah ni dengar lagu sekarang, asyik lagu lama je. Pernah je dia dengar, pastu nanti mesti complain apa ni banyak o o o pastu jerit-jerit, cuba dengar lagu lama, tenang je dengar. Hek eleh mana tah tenangnya, aku dengar hmmmm tak boleh go lah yang penting. 

Sekarang ni berlambak lagu baru keluar. Tapi tak semualah yang bebetul menusuk kalbu menikam jiwa. Ada yang boleh layan ada yang tak. Lepastu kalau tetiba radio main lagu zaman aku sekolah, amboi kemain semangat nak nyanyi, pastu mesti teringat zaman muda-muda dulu. At that moment, tetiba aku jadi faham kenapa abah nak dengar sangat lagu lama, sebab kita tend to dengar balik lagu yang kita membesar dengan. Baru-baru ni aku start buat collection lagu, aku burn letak dalam album; Awesome Mix Vol 1-3 (dah ada 3 volume). Satu aku bagi Shahrin, lagi 2 ada dengan aku. Almost semua lagu zaman sekolah dulu. Dalam album first, ada satu lagu baru, second dua, tiga takde langsung. Yang ketiga ni lagu Yuna & Hujan. Minat gila kot dulu masa sekolah. Tapi takdelah semuanya aku suka, yang jenis jerit-jerit tu memang outlah. Aku suka jenis yang slow, macam tengah cakap hahahaha. 

Masa tengah burn tu aku terberangan, nanti-nanti bila ada anak, tetiba anak terjumpa collection album aku pastu excited nak mainkan lagu yang ada dalam tu, walaupun masatu entah lagu jenis apa entah yang ada di pasaran. Aku download daripada converter youtube-mp3. Waktu cari kat youtube tu aku just wonderlah kenapa ea lagu sekarang baru keluar viewers kejap je naik beribu-riban, lagu-lagu zaman indie ni dah bertahun kat youtube pun nak dapat 500k pun payah. Oh yelah dulu zaman aku sekolah dulu bukan semua rumah ada internet, ada pun tak semua jenis yang laju. Yang connect dengan telefon tu lagilah lembap nak mampus, pakai jaring tu ha. Sekarang almost every kids dah ada smartphones sendiri, internet takyah cakaplah punyalah senang nak dapat. Kalau smartphones takde internet zaman sekarang ni kira noob betullah tu. Baik campak je baling anjing lol. K gurau. Tapi betullah apa barang guna smartphones kalau takde internet, yedak?

Aku frust gak ah masa download lagu tadi sebabnya Muda by Hujan yang aku dengar zaman sekolah dulu lirik dia lain. Dulu aku dengar "alangkah indahnya dunia jika kita semua, tak akan membesar" tapi sejak bila tah dah tukar jadi "alangkah indahnya dunia jika kita semua, melangkah ke depan". Hmm maybe sebab lirik yang first tu tak relevan kot. Yelah memang taklah kita semua stay remaja sampai bebila kan. So betullah decision diorang untuk tukar, tapi still aku frustttt. Lol. 

One of favorite songs masa sekolah dulu masa zaman-zaman indie baru nak up. Lagu ni tak pernah masuk radio rasanya. Nilah zaman shawl baru nak up gak. Waktu ni sibuk tudung yuna. Sekarang banyak pesen tudung dah ada kat pasaran. Pilihlah mana yang berkenan di hati. Kalau melayu buat cerita macam Reply series, maybe boleh buat Reply 2008. Lagu indie baru nak naik. Macam Reply 1997 pasal Sech Kies & H.O.T, Reply 1994 hmm pasal apa ek?

Tak lupa juga zaman waktu lagu Indon tengah hot gila dekat Malaysia. Ya ampun gratis bangat. Sekalilah dengan zaman indie ni. K lah bye.

Nanti-nanti :)

Finding iPhone

If I tell you my missing iPhone had been found in less than 24h will you believe me?
Please do.
Read this POST first.

So this post is all about the journey to find Siti's iPhone (my first name is Siti so hihi)

I lost the phone on Friday (18th Dec) around 1.30 p.m. 1.48 p.m was the last time my phone was seen online (thru find my iPhone) and it was at someplace (we named it as X okay?) that I didnt know probably somewhere nearby the domestic airport. The apps only showed me the roof of the building so I didnt know whether it is a house, a shop, a warehouse, or whateverlah. As what I had said in the previous post, I lose hope. I cried a lot. My friend ask me whether I wanted to make a police report or not, I said no. What they can do? Will they believe on me? It is not a case involving crime, it was just my carelessness. I started googling for a new iPhone (second hand of course, I got no much money in my pocket). I thought I was okay. But I wasnt. I cried while writing the previous post. My friends, Beh & Diyana lent me their phone. But without simcard, it was useless. I need to renew my simcard. My mom scolded me for being so careless. I got mad too. How could she. She should calm me down instead of scolding. It is hard to explain the way I felt then.

I wish he was here. I started making myself busy. I didnt eat anything since noon, but I wasnt hungry. Glad my stomach understood. I couldnt sleep. Cortisol secretion increased as I was stressed out. That explained much things.

Around 9 p.m, Asila convinced me (again) to make a police report. I was like are you kidding man? Do you think the police will entertain? They got so much works to do. They probably wont have time for us. Hmm but we knew the last place the phone was at. So what if we try looking for it. Like dapat dapatlah tak dapat pasrah je. At least we try. No regrets.

Together with Asi, Tee Mars and At, we went to our first checkpoint which was Balai Polis JJJJ. I told them the purpose for making the report is to get back my phone. I showed them the map. Like what Ive been expecting, yes they didnt have time to entertain.

One of the inspector said,
"Terus teranglah saya cakap dik, ini bukan kes jenayah, ini kes kecuaian. Jadi kami tak dapat nak buat apa. Kami cuba untuk bantu sebab cik perempuan"
K.

They asked us to go to the nearest police station to X by our own. We had to find the station ourselves. Glad we finally made it.

So next stop was Balai Polis MMMM. I was moved, they wanted to help us as there was proof. Unfortunately, the problem is I didnt know whether the phone was still there or not. The phone was offline. Last seen on 1.48 p.m. It was nearly 12 a.m when we reached the police station. One of the abang polis knows how to read the map which looked so much confusing to me. Luckily X is nearby the station. If I tell you what X exactly is you will be surprised.

"Kenapa cik tak datang buat report dari siang tadi?"
"Saya taktau pula handphone hilang boleh buat report police"
"Cik, ayam, lembu, kerbau hilang pun boleh buat report cik"

Okay X is Kem Tentera OOOO. I seriously was surprised. Like what the heck my phone's doing there? So that's mean someone related to tentera or what took my phone. Let's be husnudzon. Maybe he planned to give it back by tomorrow? But didnt have time to call me? Perhaps. Well, it was a big chance for the person to take a free iPhone. Can I call it stealing by chance? The pakcik polis told us it was not easy to get into the camp. We should come in peace. No accusing. No harm.

"Cik kami cuba untuk bantu. Kita cakap elok-elok untuk masuk. Kalau tak dapat harap cik faham. Susah sikit cik sebab ini bukan kawasan kami"

Oh God please help me entering X, I prayed silently.

We followed the police car to the camp. I didnt know what the police said to the soldiers. I didnt hear them. I couldnt concentrate as I was too nervous. Imagine entering someplace that is unfamiliar to you and the receptionists are holding gun with fiery eyes looking at you like you have done something wrong. Scary dont you think? Thanks to pakcik polis we finally had the chance to enter the camp. It was not the first time for me since my dad was once an army.

Upon entering the camp, they just wanted one person to come out from the car.

"Seorang je keluar dari kereta"

So obviously I have to be the one since that's my phone that gone missing. As what I had done in the police station, again I showed them the maps. My phone wasnt far from the point where we were standing. I told them they can trace it using the apps but unluckily it was offline.

"Macam ni tuan point warna biru ni ialah lokasi di mana kita berada sekarang. Yang warna putih ni di mana hand phone saya berada. Tapi ni pukul 1.48 minit petang tadi. Sekarang phone off jadi saya taktau masih ada dekat point ni atau dah berada di tempat lain"
"Cik point biru ni akan gerak kan cik? Jadi saya akan tahu bila saya makin mendekat ke point putih?"
"Ya tuan"

"Sekurang-kurangnya kita nak tengok titik pertemuan antara dua titik ni"

I could read pakcik askar's face. It was written in his face that all this things is such a waste. It is impossible to find the phone.

"Takpe cik, shift saya dah nak habis. Nanti saya tolong cik"

Finally someone said it! God bless them. From the beginning I used Tee's phone as the navigator. I handed it to abang askar who willing to help. I think everyone knows that kem tentera is a restricted area. It is not a public area. So we couldnt go any further from the guardhouse. After 10 minutes of waiting, the abang askar came back.

He said excitedly to the pakcik.
"Bos betul bos saya tuju phone ni dekat pintu rumah A, takde apa-apa. Tapi bila saya tuju dekat pintu B berkelip-kelip bos. Macam mana pun B juga bos"

Unfortunately it was a family house.

"Kalau rumah bujang senang sikit cik kita nak geledah ini rumah yang dah bekeluarga susah sikit cik"
"Macam mana kalau memang betul telefon saya ada dekat situ tapi mereka tak mahu bagi?"

(Dealing with people like this you gotta talk strictly but in a polite way. Remember we come with no harm no accusing)

"Takpe cik kalau mereka tak nak mengaku saya akan arahkan unit jenayah tentera untuk geledah rumah tu"

I was "WOW LIKE SERIOUSLY MAN?"

"Kenapa tak datang dari siang tadi cik dah ada bukti, pagi-pagi buta macam ni baru nak datang"
"Saya taktahu tuan, kalau saya tahu dah lama datang"

(The policemen were already left long before abang askar searched for the house. This is not their area so they cannot be here for long. In simple words, they are just a helper to get me in)

I didnt know how the abang askar talked to them about the missing phone, about the apps that lead him to the house. I really wanted to know how the conversation went.

About 10 minutes waiting, again, the abang came back I hoped with a good news of course. He parked his bike next to my car. Hands in the pocket ready to show me something.

"Cik jumpa dah" (1.56 a.m. on 19th Dec)

Oh God thank you my Lord. You answered my prayer.

"Anak dia kata dia terjumpa dekat terminal siang tadi"

I didnt ask further questions. I was amazed. The apps really leaded me to the right way. I was thinking it is "terjumpa" or really terjumpa? I guess it was "terjumpa" because my simcard was already removed. The phone was switch off though there was still some batteries left. I really wanted to know how the abang asked for the phone.

Have you watched Paper Town?
At said our journey last Friday was like in the movie. It wasnt searching for a missing friend, but for a missing phone. Thank you Asi and all for non stop convincing me to make a report. If not, I wont get to see my precious phone ever again.

It was an amazing journey. Young people like me and friends, like the abang-abang polis and askar were so much amazed with the technology established by Apple Inc. Sure it would be a hot subject to talk about for days.

BUT the apps can only trace the missing phone provided the phone is online (meaning the phone must not be switched off and the mobile data is on)

Once you have used an iPhone, you wont look at other phones anymore (I think this statement is applicable to most of iPhone user)

Till then.

Evergreen

"Senyuman manis dibawa angin"
"Ku tunggu dikau terasa dingin"

Ulang dengar banyak kali sampai pengsan.
Rasa macam back to 2009 masa zaman indie naik dulu.
Ah rindu!