*Torn between Reality n Dreamworld*

Monday, May 23, 2005

*.:Weird experience:.*

Erm..well.......saturday, i went out with my cousins, aunties, uncles and my mum to go watch Star wars 3.....i hate to admit it but i find it kinda boring......i mean anakin Skywalker is a dumb idiot...hu went to da dark side to juz save his love's life....cos he was miserable without her..well tat i understand but he was still stupid.....den in da end...he didn't save her life...stupid sia.....anyway....den at night....i heard sounds coming from my room..when i slept..i actually thought tat was a ghost in my room.....how ironic!!!! -.-!! and i didn't get much sleep cos da sounds will damm annoying...den sunday morning..i found out tat there was a rat in my room.....cos it kinda messed up my whole room.....it broke my figurerine *SP* den after at 6 plus..i saw it...it was kinda cute actually from my point of view though......but i was bloody scared..so i called my maid and well...she caught it..hahaha...den she let da rat go...poor rat......but thank lord no more noise...i can finally sleep in peace..have been so bloody tired nowadays....with da stress and all..hahaha.......

me
|12:05 AM|

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

*.:Disappointed and Hopeless:.*

*sighs* today was horrible......i had all my subject papers come back...omg!!!!!!!! first of alll it started with good and after tat, it all started to go down da drain... *sighs* first of all i got my biology!! well tat was good i got like 40/50....den i found out i failed my physics.....and its not tat i failed by alot..i onli failed by one mark......WTH..... HOW CAN I FAIL PHYSICS? That is so unacceptable.....how in da world am i gonna tell my mum now??? and den..i was like super pissed off..and someone had to make it worst....******!!!(dun wish to name) tat person had to go say wat i complain so much but i passed da overall......WELL excuse me!!!!!!! u try beinging in my family and u see how u cope with da stressss.....den had pe..den Mr karamjit told us abt our Ss marks....Omg!!!! he told me tat i failed by one mark...omg!!!!!!!!! den he told us how to do da paper..and stuff..which i didn't care much abt cos i failed....whats da bloody use??? =( den after tat we had geography.........den mr rama said he would give us our paper tml.......den he gave us back our english paper....MY GOD...i passed my paper 1 and oral..but i failed my paper 2 badly....but i passed overalll..by juz a few marks...but tat won't do.......how am i suppose to pass n levels...at this state...sighs!!!! after i had Ss and i got my paper back.....and guess wat??? i juz passed...WAH lau..mr karamjit scared da hell out me.......i sighed in relieve......=( den had my maths paper and it was okie accept da fact tat i let mr koo down..of not geting an A1...sighs....*sorri mr koo* after tat when i was walking home.....Jonathon asked my overall marks was....if i had counted this marks for my n levels......ANd guess wat i Got...11 WTH!!! tat is seriously unacceptable.........I need 10 and below...... i am seriously screwed....realli badly...=(

me
|6:25 PM|

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

*.:Confused and Sad Mind:.*

*sighs* Things are starting to get worse on me. I mean i am happy tat my exams are over but that da thing...i dun feel happy. I mean..after tat happy thought...i would always have something that would make da day bad..like da part tat i found out tat i failed my Dnt paper!!! omg!!! so now tat i know....which means..tat i supposely will juz pass 2 subjects....my combined humanities is like no hope liao..den my english...i better not get tat far..there is nothing to say abt tat...=( *sighs* my friends tell me not to think to much abt it but i can't help it....i mean wat will my mum say when she finds out..she would say tat i juz lazy and won't do well..its not tat i am lazy..i have already tried my best i mean....u try taking everything in la...including da stress.... i just dun see why i have to cope so much stress!!! its a miracle tat i dun have depression!!!.....well, tml i gonna get back my exam result..and its like not a pretty site...its either i am gonna cry...=( i feel so helppless now..... .:confused and sad:. Will neva be as good as my parents wan me to be......somemore, my uncles is like saying u must do well..or not u can't cope with da world....WTh?? O_O sighs..tat it i am not saying anymore....=(

me
|9:25 PM|

Friday, May 13, 2005

*.:Oh Thank Lord:.*

WOw.....today is Friday da 13th!! OoooOoo....Spooky!!!! hahaha..=) anyway, had Dnt paper today...its like da first time i actually calulated my timing...half hour for each section..hahaha!!! tat was so weird....and i can't believe i did it.....instead of other days, i had to do it on friday da 13th..omg!! its like da most unluckest day..becomes da most weirdest day for me..hahaha!! weird huh!! den i had da Ne quiz for nation building!!! and i am like a senior builder...Wahaha!!! tat was lame...but kinda weird...=) den after tat it was home for me...hahaha!!!!!=P den i relaxed abit....den watch smallville..den now i am super tired..can't seem to keep my eyes open..this few days...last paper is physics which would be on may 16th..same day as Debbie's bday.....why her day always so unlucky for me arh..???=x anyway...even though i won't get to celebrate with ya!! i would always luv ya...friends for life ya..=) HAPPY EARLY 16 BIRTHDAY DEBBIE... may da lord bless u with wealth and health...=) okie..enough of this...i think i am gonna go sleep now...bb =)

me
|10:30 PM|

Thursday, May 12, 2005

*.:5 matchs in personallity:.*

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic

You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.
A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.
To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.
You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.

You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #4 Match: INTP

The Thinker

You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.
Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.
Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.
A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.

You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #5 Match: ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?

me
|10:45 AM|

*.:What my birthdate mean?:.*

Your Birthdate: April 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.

Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.

You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.

You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.

A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

me
|10:23 AM|

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

**hectic but relaxing**

OMg!!! Finally!!! i can relax after studying like one siao zha bor.......lucky..i have two day apart for my last two papers...as usual..i dun need to go school tml...which of course is a happy and content thing.....but i can seee myself further down the road...and it looks like i am not doing any better..i can tell u tat...first of all..my combine humanities is like out of da question..i no hope liao......den english..at least got hope!!!! maths is okie...but i won't get an A1 like mr koo expect me to get...i mean...its hardd!!!-.-!! den science, if i fail..i think i will juz take my life..i mean...its like i need my maths and science to get A1 but i guess..by da looks of it..it won't happen!!! sighs....last two paper is Design and Technology and Physics....omg!! i can't believe...Design & Technology is 2hr and 30 mins..omG!! so long..........well..nothing much la..juz gonna stop here lo.....ciao..pplz..=)

me
|10:12 PM|

Sunday, May 08, 2005

*.:Seriously overstressed:.*

Anyway.....i finally get to study...and it was like a few hours onli!!!! den i also finally found a way to get my favourite song out of my com...so i am happy and content...jus realli overstressed, i mean i talked to vicky abt it....and it was okie....nothing much actually happen today....onli tat it was mother's day...it was juz abt it..la.....so yea..i think i am juz gonna stop..so yea..bb=)

me
|11:25 PM|

Saturday, May 07, 2005

*.:Overstressed:.*

Well...today was weird, i woke up like super early and i didn't know wat to do so i stayed in bed untilll somewhat at 11 plus...den i got bored so i got up and on my com and surf the net abit..den i studyed biology for awhile..den i check da com and downloaded a few songs.....but i downloaded this song got the world is black by Good Charlotte and it worked but one problem..i cannot bring it out of my com!!! i so happy but den it was thrashed by tat stupid problem..sighs!!! so the onli thing i can do is listen on my com..sighs!!! realli big..=.=!! anyway..mother's day is tml....and i got like a glass globe filled with stars tat i personally made myself and a card......it was actually last minute so i was like rushing.......bought a few books by Dan brown and charmed...so yea!!!! den at night went to four season's hotel for dinner..and i didnt understand da menu...so i was like asking my mum..wat was this and tat.......so i end up eating carbonara.......pasta with garlic/mushroom cream sauce with bacon bits......now i guess i am gonna stop...nothing much to say...nothing interesting...i juz realli pissed off tat i can't listen my favourite song outside of da com...oh well..i would just have to get da cd.....sighs..okie i stop now...bb

me
|11:53 PM|

Friday, May 06, 2005

*.:dread:.*

SIgh!!! today, i had english compo and geography!!!!!! I know i did badly for both..i mean in english i barely even know wat da crap i was writing....i think i got my compo mixed up..sighs!!!! letter writing was okie accept i missed out some of da helpping lines...sighs!!!!!! Geography was worst.....i barely studied for it.....ecotourism??? Tourism 21??? wat da crap?? i didn't study those..omg!!!! i did badly...sighs!!!! so much sighing!!!! what to do what to do!!! gonna study like crap after this.....must study dun care......must pass n levels dun care...Dnt also i sux in it..sighs!!!!! oh yea..after tat kim kok and his gang..okie sorta a gang...said they were going to kbox yesterday...den they changed their mind for like 1 hr...on going to watch a movie..den they change it back..so i couldn't come...how sad...hahaha!!! i can't believe i pity myself...omg!!! monday is maths paper 1 and english paper2........i asked mr koo.. what if i failed maths on monday...he told me it was so easy tat if i failed i would pity myself..hahaha!!!! anyway..i guess i stop here..i need to study..so cya..=)

me
|10:10 PM|

Thursday, May 05, 2005

*.:hmm:.*

Omg!!! today i had oral...and i was like freaking early..okie okie!! i wasn't tat early....but the stupid thing started like at 10 plus or something..while we came like 9.30 -.-!!!!..anyway...i onli have english oral today...dun take chinese!! i have clb....its something like lower chinese...so i take my classes at Acs Barker......and i did pass my chinese..fINAlly!! hahaha..yea!! it was realli surprising though...for da pass 6 years..i have been failing chinese like crap..and finally i passed it..but it ain't normal chinese..but hu cares, i pass didn't I....i got like 52 over 100 or something like tat...didn't bother to remember and count....anyway..english oral was weird....i have no idea..they had this idea of asking us about older generation and gifts....*i know u guys have no idea wat i am talking abt? rite?* well...for reading i had this passage about two old citizens were like in a local park and they were like waiting for the queue to end so tat they get to collect stuff tat the younger generation had donated...den one of them talked abt this silver locket thingy...den for picture conversation!!..was practically like the passage but just tat its in a local park with alot of old citizens in a queue.....which was so hard to describe!!! might i add...tat u couldn't even see properly........den for conversation...my teacher asked did i eva had a unusal and weird present??? well.. hello!!! wat kind of present is weird..when u get them..is actually u already wanted it like for so long.....so i juz told her about my mp3 player....dumb!! i know..but wat u expect me to say..i got nothing to say....after tat..i juz hang around at da *GO* for awhile.......den walked home with Vera, Nessa and kim kok....haha!!! met nadzirah at da bus stop...den she told us abt her funny story......haha!! tat a way older man asked her if he could get to know her...OMG!!! tat was so bloody funni....of course!! she said no..so yea..=) anyway..tat's abt it la...i must get started with studying geography.....can't seem to start studying....too lazy..OMg!! wat is happening with me??? omg!!..sighs..anyway..i am off...

me
|4:40 PM|

Monday, May 02, 2005

*Wah...so near so near to death..*

Sighs!!! Exams are coming and i can't find the time to blog, nothing much happen this pass few days..all we did in school was study and study and study...second final year...musn't retain.....all the teachers say it is important..and tat we are the onli sec 4 normal class..i mean..it gives us all the pressure...dun u think its a little to stressful to put all the things on us!! like its our second final year and tat we were useless..oh come on..it doesn't mean we are in sec 4 normal, tat means we are useless...hello!!! eva heard of a normal technical student get a degree.....??? we are juz lazy and can't take in much infomation like da express can..we can still study.....anyway..i guess this is gonna be short..i got nothing much to say..so anyway..bb

me
|10:22 PM|