Ohh.. the month's coming to an end, and I haven't even posted once. School's started, for a week already. First day of school and I can't take it. Perhaps it was due to the long weekend. Hahas. First week and I'm feeling shagged everyday after school. Hais. How am I to survive this semester? I'm feeling quite aimless now. Don't know what to do, where to start. Argh! I'm doomed. Maybe a miracle could work? =(

I'm here again. Hahas. Sorry guys. Been wanting to update my blog but didn't have the mood to type anything. Was way too 'busy', and of course, lazy. Hahas. Sighs. So I guess I'll write this now. Hmm, actually also not really the case. 'Composed' this while I was on bed earlier on and couldn't get to sleep. Hahz. But I reckon that there's definitely much more stuff I had in mind and wanted to post it up here. I have to confess that I have a bad memory. Yah, a really bad one. Hahas. Therefore I'll just type whatever crap that I can remember for now. The rest I'll add on when I can.

Die. No mood to continue all of a sudden. Lols. Argh. Forget it. Post this first and continue another day. I'll go play now. Hahz.

Damnit. It's already so late, (hmm or should I say that it's very early hahas.. >.<), and I can't even get to sleep. Argh. Been lying on my bed for hours, but my eyes are still wide open. Crap. Keep tossing and turning around. Hahas. Damnit.

Perhaps I'm too deep in thoughts? Maybe it is because the weather's too hot now? Or probably it's the effect of the cup of coffee I had just now for supper? Uhh! Why?! Whatever reasons, I do not know. Hmm, or do I? Bah. I just cannot get a single bit of rest. Tried hard to fall asleep but to no avail.

It's suffocating me. I'm struggling every moment for every breath I take. My body can't take it no more. It's crying in pain. Protesting. Hahas. =/ But why?! It seems like there's thousands and millions of questions bombarding my mind now. Intruding this innocent piece of 'property'.

I can't find any answers to these questions. Just wondering. Guessing. Coming up with false images. Delusions. It's neverending. There's no source of light. Many. None. Lots of demanding questions. Yet no real answers. There's no truth.

I'm gasping for air. Trying hard to breathe in the night's cool, fresh air. While filtering the lil' bits and pieces of unwanted particles polluting it. Defending myself from the 'pollutants' surrounding me.

I need help. Desperately finding one to save me from this dark and lonely place. My soul's devoured by the darkness. No means of escape. Trapped. Losing sight of everything.

Who would be the kind soul? To be there, when I'm almost gone. Give me a hand, pull me out from this blackhole?

Perhaps no one cares. No one's there. Nothing thrives around. Only me. I suppose I'll just find peace and solace in this horrifying land.

Can I?

p/s Alrights. Back to bed now. Just some nonsense to entertain myself for awhile. Good nights. (And good morning to some of you too.) =D

Sianz. Hmm, watching Channel U's '我猜我猜我猜猜猜' now. Today's participants are quite interesting. Hahas. But.. I'm too lazy to elaborate. =/

Got the semester's results already. Bad. Flunked everything. Whee. With people just rubbing things in. Great. Things just can't get any better I guess. Hahas.

Hmm, pretty much expected such kinda results anyways. Shit happens. That's what I've always been telling myself, since don't know when. Hahas. Yeah. Shit happens. Sighs. Just gotta work harder next semester, in Year 2. Strive harder to be the 'me' in Year 1 Semester 1. Hahas.

Sighs. I'm so bored. Been watching the drama shows on Channel 8 these few days. Kinda like the ones at 7 and 9p.m. Have been listening to Power98 since I switched on this laptop. Now I'm blasting the headphones. Hahas. Hmm, today's number one song is 'Lonely' by Akon. Like what dear and me have said, this song has been out since a long time ago. Hahas.. but it's only aired now on the stations. Nice and cute song for all to enjoy.

My back's aching. Hahas. 'Cuz the lappy's on the floor. Still waiting for miracles to happen to my computer. Hahas =/ Haiz.. no life now. Listened to a few songs like 'Mirror Mirror', 'If I ain't got you', and of course, many others.


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Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
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Sighs. My computer has been down for a couple of days now. Can't get anyone to fix it. Started off with viruses and spywares. Then a few days ago the whole CPU couldn't even start. Damn. Problematic. It's a long story anyway.

Today I just thought of installing the modem in this laptop (which I'm using now). Hahas. So finally I'm able to come online. Woot. It's been a long time. =D hahAs.. But.. I'm still bored. No games, no nothing. Miss my radio. At least I can still listen to Power98. Hahas.

Arghh. Shall go off now. No idea what to do. Sighs.
Tatas. Nite everyone.

Argh. Fuck. Screw the drilling and stuff. Can't even sleep properly. zzz Fuck. And now I'm having a headache. Woot. zzz