mother's day 2021

 

The immensity of his presence and his brother's absence.

Today is not an easy day. 

Not for so many, and for all different reasons.

What i will say is TIME is precious. 

I am lucky Leif is alive.

I am lucky to still be alive.

I have learned far too many lessons to live life—no matter how short or long it may be

in any other way than as fully as possible.

leif at Four

four years old

He made me a mother for a second time and because of a doctor who fended for him from the beginning

of his pregnancy to his entrance into the world, he is here with us today.

It is a privilege to watch this boy grow up and I wouldn't change one minute of his time. He is kind, sensitive and funny! 

On this day four years ago, he shined his light and made my world brighter.

We love you Leif! We are so thankful you are in this world! Happy Fourth birthday!

summer 2014.

Grateful for each day I have with this boy.


/video by Justin

/more here

one.

This boy turned one last week. One!!

I’ve been trying to find the words to describe what it’s been like raising him and watching him grow this past year. Words to describe everything he means to me.

But words, words don’t even come close.

I’m beyond grateful that I get to hold him every day. That I get to watch him grow up. That I get to be his mom.

And that’s about all I can type for now without bursting into tears.


/ Photos from his birthday

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When I walk, I walk with you. Where I go, you're with me always.


-Alice Hoffman



/ Mount Mansfield, Vermont

5 months.

Today my love.

You are 5 months old.


Incredible.


/ Photos by your papa

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Leif, this is sunrise.

This is the river.

Those are ducks.

That's a heron.

These are your hands.

And your fingers.

That's your mouth.

They are your grandparents.

They are your step sisters.

He is your brother.

His name is Liam, and one day, I will tell you his story.

3 months.

I can't believe how quick life is happening and that this little guy is already 3 months old.

leif.

Leif Everett Lucarelli was born on January 18 at 12:27am. He looks like his father and brother, and is just the sweetest little boy.

My time away from this space has been filled with so much gratefulness and wonder and love. There are moments when I can still hardly believe that he's here safe in my arms.

I'm sorry that things have been quiet around here and for my lack of responses. I've been adjusting to life back on my feet and breathing in every moment with the newest member of our family. Thank you for your support and thoughts and emails. I'm slowly getting back into the swing of things and I can't wait to share more soon.

/Dr. B placed Leif on my chest and in that moment I breathed, really breathed, for the first time in a long time.

We did it my darling.