Changes

I think I have changed slightly over the holidays, whether it's considered a good or a bad change, I can't really tell.

I think I have become less competitive. Not to say results don't matter, but I feel that I'm thinking less about the A+ or A from each class now. Mind you, this is at a point where school hasn't started. Who knows whether I'll revert to my old self in future.

I've also discovered that I love doing projects. Not school projects, but real-life ones like planning an event, etc. Taking part in Dominoes of Dreams also made me realize that one does not need an express position of power to lead. No, it's not of "made me realize" but "affirmed my belief", ever since JC. Another thing I've realized is that most people, probably over 80% of them in a leadership position lead incredibly poorly. Good leaders are really hard to come by and when they do, be sure to hold on to them. Then, there comes how leaders are classified. There are three types I think: people-oriented leaders, task-oriented leaders and all-rounded leaders. Then again, leaders aren't that important. It's the team that makes or breaks a project. A leader is just there to facilitate, to encourage, to inspire. I really can't wait for school to start, when I start working in small project groups again and the time when I really do start on SMUConnect (if it happens).

About her. After perhaps a month of being busy, I have thought about her less. But when the thoughts do come, they collapse through my mind like a tsunami over little houses at a coast. I feel numb for a second (just like now while I'm blogging about this). Maybe we were in a relationship, maybe we weren't. But the memories were unforgettable. Will I be able to take back that part of my heart that belongs to her now? Can I love wholeheartedly again?

So many questions, so few answers.