Routine..

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

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Routine..
Haiz.. i hate my life.. Reason:

Why?

• Same thing over and over again
  
• Getting sick for no apprent reason
  
• Things i thought will happen, didn't
  
• There is just nothing to look forward to
  

I dunno!! i think i expect too much from both myself and myself.. i see no light in my life's journey.. Bleah!

I feel so tired of going through pain! I am sick of going through worthless turbulance from my Mom!! Why isn't life equiped with and (esp) key which i can just press and restart this game called 'life'.. sorry for being blunt.. but.. i hate being alive.. There is nothing special happening.. no suprises.. just sour challanges that was once a thrill.. Passing through all my 'hard' challanges so easily.. got through N level (whom sylvester studied harder then me but didnt make it through).. passing through O levels (trailling my nemesis by 2 points {he got 16 btw} whom studied almost everyday when i dint).. got through pre-u 1 (when azhari and alexi studied harder then me but got retained).. so? why am i still here? writing all this.. hurtful feelings crusing my mind.. screwing all my happy memories.. turning them sour.. i hate myself.. unreliable.. undependable..why do i think more things then others? calculations? perspective? things so simple yet so hard to solve.. thoughts.. another routine..

I always look forward to my death.. why?

tats all.. i am all gloomy and dark.. haiz

ta!