-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Sick.. again
haiz.. Yet again i am stuck at home and not being in skool. Fcking hell! i hate being sick. stuck at home.. so boring!! haiz..
Monday, January 24, 2005
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Routine..
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
I want this : http://www.hlj.com/scripts/hljpage.cgi?BAN926794
Routine..
Haiz.. i hate my life.. Reason:
I dunno!! i think i expect too much from both myself and myself.. i see no light in my life's journey.. Bleah!
I feel so tired of going through pain! I am sick of going through worthless turbulance from my Mom!! Why isn't life equiped with and (esp) key which i can just press and restart this game called 'life'.. sorry for being blunt.. but.. i hate being alive.. There is nothing special happening.. no suprises.. just sour challanges that was once a thrill.. Passing through all my 'hard' challanges so easily.. got through N level (whom sylvester studied harder then me but didnt make it through).. passing through O levels (trailling my nemesis by 2 points {he got 16 btw} whom studied almost everyday when i dint).. got through pre-u 1 (when azhari and alexi studied harder then me but got retained).. so? why am i still here? writing all this.. hurtful feelings crusing my mind.. screwing all my happy memories.. turning them sour.. i hate myself.. unreliable.. undependable..why do i think more things then others? calculations? perspective? things so simple yet so hard to solve.. thoughts.. another routine..
I always look forward to my death.. why?
tats all.. i am all gloomy and dark.. haiz
ta!
I want this : http://www.hlj.com/scripts/hljpage.cgi?BAN926794
Routine..
Haiz.. i hate my life.. Reason:
- Why?
- Same thing over and over again
- Getting sick for no apprent reason
- Things i thought will happen, didn't
- There is just nothing to look forward to
I dunno!! i think i expect too much from both myself and myself.. i see no light in my life's journey.. Bleah!
I feel so tired of going through pain! I am sick of going through worthless turbulance from my Mom!! Why isn't life equiped with and (esp) key which i can just press and restart this game called 'life'.. sorry for being blunt.. but.. i hate being alive.. There is nothing special happening.. no suprises.. just sour challanges that was once a thrill.. Passing through all my 'hard' challanges so easily.. got through N level (whom sylvester studied harder then me but didnt make it through).. passing through O levels (trailling my nemesis by 2 points {he got 16 btw} whom studied almost everyday when i dint).. got through pre-u 1 (when azhari and alexi studied harder then me but got retained).. so? why am i still here? writing all this.. hurtful feelings crusing my mind.. screwing all my happy memories.. turning them sour.. i hate myself.. unreliable.. undependable..why do i think more things then others? calculations? perspective? things so simple yet so hard to solve.. thoughts.. another routine..
I always look forward to my death.. why?
tats all.. i am all gloomy and dark.. haiz
ta!
Monday, January 17, 2005
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Match report by James (if i am not mistaken)
SCC 2 Tornados 2
In the first match of the season, the young Tornados proved that they
not only matched their opponents from illustrious Singapore Cricket Club
in skills but could outplay them tactically in long spells. All the four
goals came in the second half when the match picked up tempo.
Tornados' full back, Zabid put the Tornados in front in the 50th minute
via a penalty corner. Tornados' left half Joffre earned the corner after
a rare foray into the oppoenent's circle. In the 55th minute, Tornados
right winger, Ali Akhbar beat 3 defenders with his speed to score
Tornados second goal giving the Tornados a 2 -0 lead. The match was
marred by some very dubious umpiring decisions that went against the
Tornados. Short corners were given one after another against the
Tornados . The inevitable had to come when the SCC lads scored off two
of these short corners. The young Tornados had to learn to live with bad
umpiring decisions and focus on the game. They must also learn to defend
in greater numbers.
Overall, the young Tornados put on an impressive display and this augur
well for the rest of the season.
Tornados Team: Gary Li (Goalie), Gopalan (Capt), Zabid, Norazam, Salim,
Joffre Ng, Haswan, Norfarid (Vice Capt), Vinod, Ali, Hafiz, Nasir and
Khairudin.
Yellow card: Norazam
Green Card: Joffre Ng
Manager: James Chew
Assistant: Jahauri
Match report by James (if i am not mistaken)
SCC 2 Tornados 2
In the first match of the season, the young Tornados proved that they
not only matched their opponents from illustrious Singapore Cricket Club
in skills but could outplay them tactically in long spells. All the four
goals came in the second half when the match picked up tempo.
Tornados' full back, Zabid put the Tornados in front in the 50th minute
via a penalty corner. Tornados' left half Joffre earned the corner after
a rare foray into the oppoenent's circle. In the 55th minute, Tornados
right winger, Ali Akhbar beat 3 defenders with his speed to score
Tornados second goal giving the Tornados a 2 -0 lead. The match was
marred by some very dubious umpiring decisions that went against the
Tornados. Short corners were given one after another against the
Tornados . The inevitable had to come when the SCC lads scored off two
of these short corners. The young Tornados had to learn to live with bad
umpiring decisions and focus on the game. They must also learn to defend
in greater numbers.
Overall, the young Tornados put on an impressive display and this augur
well for the rest of the season.
Tornados Team: Gary Li (Goalie), Gopalan (Capt), Zabid, Norazam, Salim,
Joffre Ng, Haswan, Norfarid (Vice Capt), Vinod, Ali, Hafiz, Nasir and
Khairudin.
Yellow card: Norazam
Green Card: Joffre Ng
Manager: James Chew
Assistant: Jahauri
continuation of dread...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Balls.. i hate this.. too many projects.. anyway.. i really dun give a hoot.. But, still must be completed.. sooner or later.. (maybe later). hahahaah
anyway, my team draw with the css club.. hockey i mean.. ceh.. but fun! (at the expense of me trying to fight the pain of my chest while runnin)
Now currently i am going to do my lit paper 1 and 8.. kinda like doing my work in the middle of the night.. Skool is kinda nice actually.. however.. seeing mos of the kelas fallin sick includin myself is really worring.. must isolate the virus!! haiz
Dun get me thinikin abt crap.. or i'll just fall ill...
Work work!! ta!
Balls.. i hate this.. too many projects.. anyway.. i really dun give a hoot.. But, still must be completed.. sooner or later.. (maybe later). hahahaah
anyway, my team draw with the css club.. hockey i mean.. ceh.. but fun! (at the expense of me trying to fight the pain of my chest while runnin)
Now currently i am going to do my lit paper 1 and 8.. kinda like doing my work in the middle of the night.. Skool is kinda nice actually.. however.. seeing mos of the kelas fallin sick includin myself is really worring.. must isolate the virus!! haiz
Dun get me thinikin abt crap.. or i'll just fall ill...
Work work!! ta!
Sunday, January 16, 2005
A nice day.. screwed nite.. a killer week.. fatal weekends..
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
A nice day.. screwed nite.. a killer week.. fatal weekends..
Oki.. i am half asleep now.. i am yet to recover form this 'illness'.. it dosent seem to go away.. i will just feel a couple of sharp pains in my lungs.. if i think too much.. haiz.. i know its lame but.. very true..
Haiz.. well.. i'll just continue tmr.. ta~!
A nice day.. screwed nite.. a killer week.. fatal weekends..
Oki.. i am half asleep now.. i am yet to recover form this 'illness'.. it dosent seem to go away.. i will just feel a couple of sharp pains in my lungs.. if i think too much.. haiz.. i know its lame but.. very true..
Haiz.. well.. i'll just continue tmr.. ta~!
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Out of contention
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
I am back home now.. haiz.. Well, i went to skool. Duh! but i got a stupid severe chest pain. It really hurts!! damn! it was like someone pressin down on mi. I was like couldnt breath. I sat in the councling room or watever it is called, and waited for mom.. then got to a clinic.. the doc said i was too stressed up.. and i ws like huh? and gave me a worried look.. he up on a bed and srap all sorts of wires to do an erg.. scan my heart beat and breathing rate.. he said i was fine but alil too tired and stressed up.. haiz.. i got a day mc and also excuse from pe.. haiz
Btw, skool lessons suck!! ergh!!! well, onli the projects are the one i hate.. haiz
Anyway, i am going to rest.. ta!
I am back home now.. haiz.. Well, i went to skool. Duh! but i got a stupid severe chest pain. It really hurts!! damn! it was like someone pressin down on mi. I was like couldnt breath. I sat in the councling room or watever it is called, and waited for mom.. then got to a clinic.. the doc said i was too stressed up.. and i ws like huh? and gave me a worried look.. he up on a bed and srap all sorts of wires to do an erg.. scan my heart beat and breathing rate.. he said i was fine but alil too tired and stressed up.. haiz.. i got a day mc and also excuse from pe.. haiz
Btw, skool lessons suck!! ergh!!! well, onli the projects are the one i hate.. haiz
Anyway, i am going to rest.. ta!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
The new year!!!
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Lets take a dip into my last year's wishes 1st:
Resolution.. hmm.. mine last year was to change myself to be a more flexible person and able to do all sorts of things.. This year is.. NOT TO BE LATE FOR SKOOL!!! kekekek.. i am always late anyway.. ceh
O ya! update on last few days...
Xmas
Was my last day at work.. and i got my pay!! yay!! a whole 680 bucks!!! Planed to spend it well.. haha!! kinda nice to see a quite empty simlim.. with nothing to do. i walked ard.. sit in the shop.. wonderin what to do.. talked crap with Saleh.. our usual talk-very-loud-chatting and ida tot we were arguing.. haiz.. then jaspal kpo.. haiz haiz... then we closed shop and when home.. *sorry suzie!! i cldnt get to your place coz we closed at 9.. =(
26 Dec 2004
A shopping hannah!! HahHA!! before that i got into a heated argument with my dad.. stoopid stuff.. i was just so darn hardheaded.. haiz.. anyway.. we went out.. gone to seoul garden.. kinda nice place to eat at.. but.. BLOODY EXPENSIVE!!! *curse and swearing in the background*Then i shopped Then hannah shopped for some clothes... hahha!! i insisted on it coz she kept wearing the same thing when we go out together.. (so do i btw).. I got her this black dress.. it looks hot on her but she didnt wana wear it on its own but with jeans on.. haiz(quite upset).. But still kinda cute in it though.. then we went to watch Kung Fu hustle!! ahah nIce show!! then we headed to uncle rehan's for his son's bdae. quite lil bubly baby boy!!hahah!!
the rest of the days i prfer to keep it in my heart.. (kinda lazy to type it down =X)
lets hope i will get my happiness.. boy i am weird..
Ta!
Lets take a dip into my last year's wishes 1st:
- Early 2004
Get a job
Get into a school
- stop playing hockey
- Be happy
- Mid/end 2004
Get hannah's heart
Get a new comp
- Find happiness
donate some money to charity
- Get project G(gardian) going
upgrade my comp
pass my hist with flying colors
buy new clothes and bag
Resolution.. hmm.. mine last year was to change myself to be a more flexible person and able to do all sorts of things.. This year is.. NOT TO BE LATE FOR SKOOL!!! kekekek.. i am always late anyway.. ceh
O ya! update on last few days...
Xmas
Was my last day at work.. and i got my pay!! yay!! a whole 680 bucks!!! Planed to spend it well.. haha!! kinda nice to see a quite empty simlim.. with nothing to do. i walked ard.. sit in the shop.. wonderin what to do.. talked crap with Saleh.. our usual talk-very-loud-chatting and ida tot we were arguing.. haiz.. then jaspal kpo.. haiz haiz... then we closed shop and when home.. *sorry suzie!! i cldnt get to your place coz we closed at 9.. =(
26 Dec 2004
A shopping hannah!! HahHA!! before that i got into a heated argument with my dad.. stoopid stuff.. i was just so darn hardheaded.. haiz.. anyway.. we went out.. gone to seoul garden.. kinda nice place to eat at.. but.. BLOODY EXPENSIVE!!! *curse and swearing in the background*
the rest of the days i prfer to keep it in my heart.. (kinda lazy to type it down =X)
lets hope i will get my happiness.. boy i am weird..
Ta!
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