Closing

Thank You for these three very very very blessed years in TP. It wasn't smooth sailing all the time but I have with me encounters and memories with the best people, experiences and moments irreplaceable, and if I were given a chance again to choose, I am gonna walk this path still.

I think its appropriate to say this now even though I am still about 3 months from the official thing... 我毕业了！

You make me feel like

learning

I think I have really pretty friends :) 

Was looking through some old pictures the other day and...I used to be so skinny. Especially my legs, gosh would die to have those legs again. What happened :( I think the only thing that's keeping me from being obsessed is my final year exams. Really wanna swim. 30 laps, 40 laps, as long as it takes for me to walk out feeling better about myself. But just to clarify before someone thinks I am gonna develop an eating disorder again...I DO see the weight falling off my arms and shoulders, off my ass and legs, thank goodness my boobs have been spared MOST of the misery so far, I SEE IT.........

But it still isn't good enough.


Learning to love myself is tough :<

meow

Happiness is a fat white kitty sitting on your lap asking for tummy rubs and then falling asleep because your legs are suddenly the most comfortable place on earth.
I am breeding a farm of fat white kitties asking for a home on laps and tummy rubs on demand.

Guess that means I am very happy? ^_^

Ok seriously need to continue studying for Accounting and Law.
~*Deut 28:13*~

Mountain

Was standing in the middle of Business School's concourse today but I am positive (what an irony) all I had in front of my eyes was a mountain. A really really really really really tall mountain, so tall I can't tell where it ends.

I don't wanna try anymore. So sick of trying so hard, sleeping so little, making so much effort, but all I see is a C+ for my coursework. (Will not talk about Accounting) I shouldn't even get it in the first place, I deserve a B and I am gonna fight for it but honestly, I don't see how I am gonna be able to do it. Wanted to pull my GPA further by just 0.5 this semester but...

Rather than saying I can't do it, other than simply complaining about my efforts not being reflected on the results,... I am going to believe I can do ANYTHING I want. And even if it means getting miraculously excellent grades, I am going to get it. 

Phil 4:13 till Feb 27th 1630h. Godspeed.

And a little something I found. C: Hope you guys all had a fantastic Valentine's. 

good morning,monday

at around 12pm, I would be handing in my last project as a TP student.
so many lasts this year. so many firsts too.

was flipping through my organizer and it has dawned on me several several times that my life in the first 6 months will look drastically different from the bottom half of the year. everything is so...uncertain. yet i am gonna walk peacefully in my faith that it's gonna work out for me. good morning, monday.

Before the earth’s creation You knew me as I was and even then You chose me to be Yours. I am captivated by Your unending love, my heart’s surrendered to Your grace.

I am Your treasure, the apple of Your eye, forever I am precious in Your sight. Never will You leave me; I’m safe and secure. Forever in Your arms I will abide.

to have and to cherish

~*magical*~
Forever smitten with this wedding. Happy sigh.

Cheer

Can't remember why I stopped Cheerleading when it was one thing in my life I was accidentally excelling at, and I think with actual practice and time, I could have became a great cheerleader. Flying, basing, mid-tiering. This is ONE regret I will always hold close to my heart as I leave TP.

It was one thing that I was actually seriously passionate about even when it took up all my energy to make it to trainings after a whole day of school, THRICE a week, and all my tears when we do conditioning, the $^$&#*@ pain to be able to do splits.
I miss doing kicks, stunting, tumbling, dancing, and of course, standing one man's height above ground and then freefalling into the arms of people you have no idea why you trust,but you KNOW that they will catch when you're falling. And being able to be that sturdy 'ground' for others even when they bruise your shoulders and are forever not locking themselves tighter than tight.

Wrong place wrong time I guess?
But other than just blaming it on the kinda environment I was unfortunately placed in, I rather spend it wishing I have had another chance to live this dream again.

I miss cheerleading so so so so much, so much it's kinda hard to explain what it does to me when I think of not being able to do it ever again. Impossibly sad :(

despite it all

1130am - 1130pm on Wednesday 12h

1200pm - 0130am on Thursday 13.5h

0010am - 0300am on Friday 17h

0200pm - 0630am on Saturday 16.5h
0300pm - 1100am on Sunday 20h

I have the BEST group mates one can ever ask for. 

Last presentation of my whole 3 years done in 20minutes on the 6th of February 2012. Such an insignificant date but so important to me all the same because I am going through all the notions of being a TP student for the last time.

:(

Yeah, not so happy to leave though I can't be happier to graduate. Give me a second chance and I will not hesitate to choose this route again. But of course I will walk it better. Much better.

Have been noticing for a really long time now that some people have simply vanished from my life. I am not great at keeping up at relationships, but when I said I will be here for you, I meant it. And even if I am not the friend you expect a friend to be, it doesn't mean I don't be a friend to the best of my ability. *shrugs*

Wanna watch Wicked soooooooooooo bad. But everyone I asked aren't willing to pay for the better seats? :( Sigh. Artsy-person-wannabe fail.