Wednesday, 27 October 2010

Day 27

Worst habits since my loss?

Two:

1) Losing myself completely inside the internet for hours on end without surfacing for human interaction. I can always chart bad patches coming, my internet usage creeps back up when I'm low. Not writing but reading. Immersing myself in other people's stories to escape my own.

2) Comfort eating. No packet of biscuits (or cakes or chocolate) is safe from me since Emma died. It's not attractive and I need to find a way out of it but tiredness and grief do a wicked number on my will power.

5 comments:

Jack and Kyle's Mom said...

It's funny, lately I have been wondering how I can spend so much time on the internet. How day after day I seek out new blogs to read and pour over the latest on the ones I already follow. Your post really hit home with me. I think that is the exact reason I do it - to escape my own reality and an Angel Baby Mama.

Jeanette said...

I do the internet thing too, and the comfort eating. :0(

Catherine W said...

Me too. One and two. Wish I didn't.

Hope's Mama said...

Yes and yes.
xo

Anonymous said...

Ditto on the internet- that and books about baby loss and grief.
My addiction remains sugar- dangerous.
Thinking of you and your family....