Take my world apart
I need You
I am on my knees
I love You
Take my world apart
Broken on my knees

Why?

Disclaimer: Just ranting out something.
I will not take any form of responsibility,
if the persons mentioned here decides to reads the entry.
Btw, Singapore practices FREEDOM of speech. So I get the right to get my opinion.
Since I am the one affected.
Thank you.

Don't know why my teacher is treating me like that.
What did I do to offend her?
Got first for test in her class. She not happy.
Helped her out in speech day. She not happy.

Oral reading.
Listen to her insults on something that couldn't be corrected easily.
At least I can read right.
Maybe should tell Mdm Fauziah.
She told me last year to tell her if any teacher touched on that reading problem of mine.

When I got back my results.
She didn't say anything to me.
Except,
Bend down and pick up the paper for me.
Then when she read out the marks and said that I got first.
Couldn't see any smile on her face.
Could see some form of unhappiness.

Guess she wants someone to get first.
Praises him for oral reading. Insults me like hell.
So what if that person speaks with an American accent?
So what if that person dosen't use Singlish?
So what if that person sucks up to teachers?
I know I don't 1) speak with an American accent, 2) use Singlish and 3) suck up to teachers.
But I deserve some respect:
Respect as a student and a servant.
Respect as a person and not a slave.

Didn't pick up litter somewhere outside the class cos I didn't notice it.
Got called out in front of class first thing in the morning.
Then embarassed me in front of everyone.
Next time I shall bring a magnifying glass ok?

Then today English lesson grouped me with that person.
While the rest got grouped with their close friends.
Unfair.
Can see the smirk on her face.
Then now I gotta write the whole assignment by myself.

Hey. I don't deserve this!

When the world can't stand around me,
To You I still hold on...

Thank You Lord

This is a poem I composed. Dedicated to Someone that is bigger than the universe, yet closer to my heart than anything else.

When I am down,
You picked me up,
from sin and shame,
from life's problems.

When I am down,
You draw close to me,
let me feel Your presence,
let me run to You.

When I am down,
I cried in Your presence,
You collected these tears in containers,
and stored them in heaven.

When I am down,
You hold me into Your arms,
and my soul delights,
for I know You heard my prayer.

When I am down,
I know that I have You,
bigger than the universe,
closer to me than anything else.

When I am down,
I will praise You no matter what,
and I would like to tell you,
thank You Lord!

Diahorrea! =((

Had diahorrea today. Can die. =((
Went to the toilet like for 4, 5 times a day.
Took medicine liao.
Now feeling much better.

Remember to pray for me k?

Feeling better

In school now...
Having food and nutrition lesson now... last 5 minutes =))
Managed to chase Daryl off by suaning him....
Oops he sort of came back again.
So sad hor...
Haha. =))

I am feeling better now la. Thanks for your concern.
Psalm 30 and 32 really changed my heart.
Thank God.

Today school quite sian. Nothing to do one.
Slack slack slack.
Then slack till exam. Fail. Haiz...
Always the case.
Must start studying le...

Teacher coming... Oops
Gtg le... bye
=))

When can I let go And just cry?

Haiz... mood swing today. Major one in fact.

First thing. Some people are treating me like I owe them a million dollars. Look I'm not showing off here or demanding any pity, but after everything I done for these people, helped this people? Then I become their dog? They thank other people for their help instead. I don't demand acknowledgment, but I just hope they know where their limits are.

Why is it when other people cry, people comfort? Why is it when I cry, people insult me more?

Second thing. Everyone has their own weakness, both physically and mentally. Why does my chemistry teacher need to say my weakness out to another class? I know she wants to illustrate an example, but its infringing my privacy and ruining my self confidence. Furthermore, she did not even ask or tell me! It's like, I'm still studying in the school! And with one more year! If everyone knows, furthermore a class I am in charge of, how can I have the face to face the people?

I have enough of people suaning people. Hey look! You overlook my weakness and I'll overlook yours. Why isit everyone laughs when someone gets insulted and yet when that person gets insulted, he or she gets angry. I know he or she may be laughing with you on the outside, but you know what is on the inside?

Even my cell group. Last time on the MRT train. There are people there. I know you all wanted to make a joke, but at the EXPENSE OF OTHER PEOPLE? There were many people looking at me after you all said that and made me very embarassed. What did pastor Kong say? What did the Bible say? I could not record anything from the Bible about Jesus in His ministry, insulted other people's weaknesses.

Respect. I don't demand high respect. Just the respect as friends. I am seriously not your servant. I am seriously not an open topic for people to insult about.

The Bible tells me to FORGIVE and FORGET. I shall.

Life is...

Haha. Seems like a long time since I last updated. Life has been pretty much the same lor. I'm as lame as usual, but revealing my true self more and getting rid of my "psuedo" self, or fake self.

I'm still struggling with maths!!! Especially when the teacher is going too fast and rushing due to syllabus. It takes weeks for me to absorb concepts for one chapter. Yup, that is how slow I am in maths. Sigh...

Exams coming in two and a half weeks! Really fast lor... Hopefully can get my target of getting at least B3 and above for all my subs, including maths. I will not be discouraged by my term assessment results. =)) Have faith...

Oh ya, today is my church's live recording rehearsal for our once in 5 years Live! worship album. Woohoo! I want to go! Boohoo... But I still can be involved by praying and worshipping God at home, right Pastor Zhuang? I have a feeling that it's gonna be a great worship album...

The new MSN 7 rocks socks... and ya, I'm signing off soon (bear with me)... Got better features. Go download (note to Yingiet): http://messenger.msn.com.sg!

Yup, that's all... So hopefully can have time to update soon... Cya!

Impact

12 simple words that can change your life. Go to the world and preach the Gospel to every creature. The Great Commission according to the Amplified Bible. In the New King James Bible, "Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptising them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit." This is the basis of Christianity, to go out into the harvest fields and save the lost. And make not only believers, but disciples, of all nations. Praise God!

Extravagant. Worship.

"Lost in You alone,
is where I wanna be."

This verse from a song by City Harvest has alot of meaning behind it. Truly where I want to be is to be lost in His presence, to enter into the Holy of Holies. To have extravagant worship, the term Darlene Zschech termed in her book. Worship beyond limits. Worship to the Most High God, creator of the universe.

Many bad things happen in my life,in school, family and even with my cell group. They are imperfect people and I'm sure many bad things happen to them too. I pour out everything to Him, trust Him for who He is and come out refreshed, renewed and strengthened. Scientific research shows that Christians actually live a few more years than non-Christians as we have someone to pour out our sorrows to. Praise God for that.

"I love You, I love You, I love You,
and my heart will follow wholly after You."

Yoz! Sorry for not updating.... Been rather busy with school stuff. Haha. Passed 2 pathetic subjects for term test. Thank God I still can go to church and cell. Haiz... Gotta study more le. Tomorrow school again. Sianzzz...

Just to lighten things up. My church is gonna have a live praise and worship album! Recording is on 13-14 April and the CD is gonna be released in July. Praise God after a five year wait. Haha.