School Holiday - Term 1, Part 1

School holiday started! Weehoo.

I don't get this school holiday hype before, until my kid started schooling. But we don't really have a plan lining up but we promise ourselve that we will at least bring them (Rania especially) somewhere for fun.

We started with a trip to Pantai Remis last weekend for kite flying fun fun fun!

Kids with daddy. Daddy don't really know how to deal with the kids when they missbehave. Believe it or not, though he is the sweetest ever to me, he can be quite strict with them. I foresee that growing up, he can be really hard on them that they might think he's unapproachable. I am trying my best to capture all the things he did for them as a prove that he loves them so much but daddy just being.... Ermmm daddy.

Daddy and grandpa showing off their skills to the couldn't-be-bothered-much kid. Hehe. Cute.

Our kite flying! So much fun.

Imaan the kite! Hehe. Imaan has no clue what happened or even where we were! At the end, she was bored, cried, drank her milk, then slept through out the outing. Haha.

The end of our 1st school holiday outing!

January Birthday Party : The Party Bomber.

Me and my friends, we love to party and I think it is a good thing to do. We make it compulsory to celebrate birthdays together so that we can spend time together and our kids will bond with each other.

Of course the way we party changes with time. But that's not the only thing changing, the participants change too.

Year by year, we keep on adding additional VIP members into our club and this year we have 3 all together.

So this year, as usual we kicked off 2014 with January babies birthday party with the additional 3 VIP members.  Still we decided to do a sleepover party like how we always did in the past. We figured, how hard it can be? We all survived all these years partying girls only with our eldest babies.

Guess who is the most diva among all?

Believe me, none of my photo without her with that screaming look.

And you might see the all nice and smiling faces in front of the camera. If only you know the background noise behind the clicks.

I guess no sleepover for us for the next 2 years.

Reward System for Toodler

"Finish the food then you can play your toy"

"Eat your vege then I'll let you watch cartoon"

"Read the book. I'll let you buy new toy"

Sounds familiar? I do that to my kids too. You know.. bribe (read : reward) them to do something.

But it was never a success. At least not in the long run. 

So when I read about Star Reward System implemented by Shilashower on her blog, I was like... stupid me why don't I think about that before? My kid always ask for a toy. Most of the time I just get it for her for no apparent reason. Sometimes I ignore her also for no apparent reason. So I thought the star reward system is cool and would work on my child.

This is how it works.  For every stated expectation met, she'll get one star and every 50 collected, she can redeem those for a treat she like.

For Rania, she was a bit too attached with her iPad whenever I was not around. So lately I didn't allow her to bring the iPad to my mum's (she stayed there while I was at work) and I get her to bring her workbook instead. But everyday, she will come back without any pages completed. Turned out she was watching cartoon all day long and when I asked her why she didn't do the exercise in her workbook she said it was boring. (T_T). So to get her to study and off the TV (or any media), I told her about the reward system. But since I'm not as creative as Shila, I just go and buy a stamp and stamped it at any workbook pages that she completed without error.

It was a major success! She like the idea a lot and I think she also like it when her workbook is filled with the cute stamps and all the credits she got for completing the pages error free. She woke up and  went straight to her maths workbook and quietly sat down and do her work without being told to do so.  She even brought the books of her choice to school and do it while other kids were napping. Wow. If only I implemented this earlier, my daughter will be enrolling to college by now. Haha well a mother can dream right?

In just few days she managed to collect all 50 stamps and guess what she want  as a reward?              

Complete with laser and such. Haih.. I thought I gave birth to a daughter 6 years ago?

Motherhood (times 2)

I have a confession to make.

When we had Rania 5 years back, we had a maid from the very 1st day. So, I don't have much experience with newborn. In fact, I don't remember anything about how to take are of newborn! The maid and my mum handled Rania during my 2 months maternity leaves and I was so busy... well, being depressed. It was not until Rania was around 3 months old that I can finally accept the fact that I have a daughter and developed a strong feeling towards her. Before that.. She was just a little baby and I have very little memories of how was it feels during the first 3 months.

Different story with this one currently!

Imaan is so attached to me that it is impossible for me to do anything! When she cried, nobody can calm her even my mother give up. That's huge you know because my mother is so good with babies. She can only sleep if i craddle her. She is so clingy that she always wanting to be held. By me! I experience the whole motherhood feelings (the beauty and the ugly) times two with Imaan.

Allah itu maha adil kan?

Anyway, me with my endless "3 months leaves" plan went kaput because this time around we don't have any help and it's ramadhan. So there's no manicure or saloon session I dream about. Forget about spa session as the longest time I had a relationship with my bathroom is 5 minutes. (T_T). Shopping? I don't even have time to be in front of the computer. When Imaan was asleep, I was so busy..umm sleeping as well!

So yesterday, we planned for a bit of raya shopping plus fancy iftar. Since no one is available to babysit Imaan, we brought her along together with Rania and ohhh boy it was so tiring! She refuses to sit on the stroller and crying when we tried to baby-wear her. And she did not sleep like OMG Imaan 2 months old usually sleep all the time why you no sleep??? Pffttt! Also Rania, being a 5 years old was so busy playing with a balloon and running here and there in the the huge Midvalley crowd. I was so scared that she might get lost somewhere or being taken by a stranger. Pengsan I tell you! In the end no baju raya or whatsoever for them because really.. I can't function like that. But of course mummy managed to grab a shoe and 3 tops from MNG (OMG they're having a huge sale!). Hehehe. Mummy has a PHD in grabbing her own things and pay for less than 5 minutes. Hehe.

So the conclusion? No more outing with them both after this. No more.

My outfit of the day:
Peplum kurung top that I paired with my faithful blue jegging. Bag from Kate Spade and shoes from Jelly Bunny. Plain Green Tea hijab from Artsy Attic. Imaan as accessory.

Designer Diaper Bag, perhaps?

During Rania's times, I don't really bother to have a diaper bag. Well, we used to have one.. I think it's a bag with so many compartments that I use it as a diaper bag. It's purple in color and the material is some cheap PU. But most of the time, I just throw all Rania's stuff into my handbag and we're good to go.

Well, not anymore.

There's no way now that I'm gonna throw Imaan stuff inside my babies. I did it once and I swear my body was sweating and I cringe every time I walk so no no no.

Anyway, earlier I thought of using my Le Pliage bag as a diaper bag for the fact that they do have waterproof interiors and it's roomy not to forget they're durable too. I'm not worried about pockets, I could just place a bag organizer inside and I could find a changing pad on its own. I'm almost 100% certain I'm going to use it instead of buying something new (explains why only now I'm in a hunt for a diaper bag) but then I was hooked when I went online googling about diaper bag and I found this Kate Spade Flatiron Nylon Sophia Grace Baby Bag. I am now contemplating between the stripy or the shocking pink.

I'm in love with another bag from Kate Spade too. The Cabana Tile Harmony Baby Bag. Not so fond of the shape but I like the nice pattern design and the bright color it has.

This one from Coach is also nice. Loving the fact that it is not so "Coach-y" like and the leather handle.

Or maybe I can blackmail the husband about the pain I have to endure giving birth to his kids an ask for this one, perhaps? Hehe.

It's a Burberry Madison Diaper Tote.

So guy, should I get a new diaper bag? Kate Spade or Coach? Stripy or Pink?

Day 40 : The confinement is over (for me)

I know it should be 44 days but since it's only less than 3 weeks before Ramadhan so I give a bit of discount to my confinement days and decided to go jalan-jalan on my 40th day. Haha. Don't worry we left the baby at home and we only went to PWTC for Standard Chartered Kuala Lumpur Marathon race kit collection, (and a bit of shopping at Jakel PWTC) not much of jalan pun.

So the thing that I missed the most while serving my confinement was my outfit of the day post at Instagram. Selfie, I know. Just deal with it ok? Bahaha. Cannot help it. I just love to dress up. It's a girl thing ok? Shhhhhhuuhhh.

Anyway, I decided to celebrate the ending of my confinement with ThePoplook blouse that I bought while I was heavily pregnant. It is so gorgeous I cannot let go haha lucky can fit. If not I would've cried blood. This was the 1st time I put it on (okey tipu, i tried it with my huge tummy last time then got upset it didn't fit. Haha. It's hormone I swear!). Okey move on, I really love the blouse for the fact that it hides my post-natal tummy perfectly. I have a feeling that this will be my overused tops for a while. Hehe

As usual, my hijab is from fanacouture. Well actually most of my hijab are from them. Their hijab cutting is so nice and I love their design (also the fact that the owner is my friend bahaha I'm biased like that.) Go check out their web alright?

Till next time! I got a hungry baby to feed. Bye!

Pantang?

Okey. Although I am not a 1st time mother but to handle an infant after 5 years, it surely feels like 1st time!

So funny that the 1st night we brought Imaan back home, she cried like every 30 minutes I keep on stuffing her small mouth with my boobs one after another but she keep on crying only to find out that she had pooped and the stools all dried already people! Imagine we took her home around 3pm and around 3am we still haven/t checked her diaper. Hehe. Lousy parents. Isk Isk. After she got changed, instantly she fell asleep and finally mummy & daddy get their beauty sleep too.

You see, it is a different experience all together with every child. At least for me.

Anyway, what's not so different with each and every time you have a child is the amount of unwanted advice and remarks you get with people about how you handle your child. We get that a lot. Some people think they know everything & boy they are irritating! Well this time, I'm a bit well prepared compared to when I delivered my 1st. I gather a good support system and warn them that I'll be whining a lot and please just listen to me and tell me I'm right even if I'm wrong. Hehe. It works! Haha. I feel a lot better this time.

Pantang days are the most challenging days for me. Not the pain of delivery and not even the episiotomy wound! To be at home for 44 days freaks me out. I HAVE to go out and I need my ME time (read: shopping). Selfish? Yes sure but I believe I need to be happy 1st for me to function as good mother, heck a good person! So hiding me in the house for more than a month do no good to anybody around me. But sure we need to comply with the universal pantang rules and not wanting to upset my mother, I give in.

20 days now. Another 14 days to go.

P/S:So tell me. What do you do in your pantang days to keep you sane?

2nd Born : Raisa Imaan

I thought I am gonna blog religeously during my confinement but boy I was so wrong!

Oh btw, those who does not know yet, I've delivered a healthy baby girl on May 20th, 2013 9.49pm. It was an induced labor because my doctor was going for a long vacation with her family on my EDD and I am so stubborn to deliver with her.

It was a painful and full of drama delivery. Hehe. People said 2nd baby easier to deliver, all lies! Hehe. This one I suffer longer time in the labor room. But it went away just like that after I held her in my arms. Clishe I know.

We named her Raisa Imaan. Princess of Faith in arabic. Through out my pregnancy, I wonder how it is possible to love 2 children at once. I thought that I have given my love whole heartedly to my 1st born Rania.. But God gift is the best. I fell in love again and again with Imaan and finding my heart aching for unconditional
love to Rania. Now I know how it feels.

Rania is doing great as a big sister. She helped me a lot. Just sometimes she want me to held her close and hug her to sleep. I am trying my best to make sure she doesn't feel left behind. She is so close to me before Imaan came around and I intended to keep it that way.

Imaan on the other hand drinks a lot. Poop a lot. And sleep a lot. Hehe. What else can a 14 days old baby do? I am looking forward for her to grow bigger because I am naturally not good with babies. Haha. Their constant need for feeding exhaust me and the sore.. don't get me started on that!

Me? I'm pretty much in a good shape. The delivery wound heals so quickly. My energy level back to normal. Just my emotion is like a yo-yo. One minute I was perfectly fine and another minutes I was holding my tears. But nothing to worry about (i guess) hehe. I keep on reminding myself that this phase with be over soon.

I miss my office to be honest. I miss having to dress up to work, i miss the workloads, and the good times with all my friends. 24/7 with kids at home (especially because the smaller one constantly attach to my breast) is mind blowing. Not even online shopping can make me feel better. Haha.

Weight? Hmm I dare not looking at the scale now. Because I eat like nobody business (which is good!) But I do miss my run. I wish I am in a good shape after my confinement so that I can kick start my run routine as soon as possible.

I think thats pretty much covers all about me and the kiddos. Hopefully I will get my mojo back and start to write again. (Been wishing for that for 3 years now)

Till then! Here's some picture of Imaan and Rania.

Happy Birthday My Love! My First Born.

I am not the kind who bond directly with my baby the moment I knew their existence in my womb. Most of the time, I forgot that I am pregnant except when they do their kung fu moves.

I was in a bad shape after I delivered my 1st born. Not only I felt like I am not ready, I felt clueless and I was too proud to ask for help. I thought that motherhood just rolled easily that every women will transform into a mother once they gave birth. Boy I was wrong!

It took me a while until I understand how to become a mother. Made a lot of mistakes, cried buckets, and I lost count of how many times I felt like quitting but hey who am I kidding? I can't just walk away!

Fast forward 5 years, I've learned a lot. A hard way I must say but masya allah.. Allah knows best. He gave me a child to teach me about life. To change me to be a better person. To make my life even more wonderful than it has been.

I love this child to death. I cried sleeping at night randomly just because i feel so blessed to be given an opportunity to be a mother. Not just to anyone, but to the chirpiest, well-behaved, smart, kind-hearted little girl I've even known. (All mothers feel that way towards their children huh? Hehe)

Happy Birthday Rania Hani! I promise we will rock our years together till death do us apart. You have my blessings, my du'a and my forgiveness of everything you did, and will do in the future.

Point of View

My view lately. Getting heavier is no fun. I salute mothers who miss 9 months of pregnancy. I know I am not and I wont.

Due in another month. I can say I don't do much preparation this time but more on mental preparation. Still remember how miserable I am during my 1st delivery. Young and naive. Haha. I bought a stroller way before my due complete with travel system but never bought any nursing bra or breast pump. That's the level of "naiveness" I was! Haha

Hope for the best this time around!

XOXO

32 Weeks Happy

So, I did promise that I want to at least jot down my pregnancy journey once every trimester. Hehe. Cheating I know. But we need to accumulate things up so we can save time & space, no?

I am happily entering 32 weeks now. Feeling a bit like whale even everybody keeps on commenting how small my tummy is. Whatever. Don't even bother to explain why. Ask mother nature. Or ask my husband because I swear my tummy is so big (baby weight 1.2kg at 30 weeks check up), but I have a little secret on how to dress up so I won't look heavily pregnant. Hehe.

How am i doing? I'm fine but with super low energy. I tell u, there's a BIG different being pregnant while you're in your 20's and 30's. My 1st time being pregnant at 25, I have so much energy but now? What I want to do is sleep all day! So far no blood pressure or diabetes or whatever. All sailing smooth. Alhamdulillah..

Oh did I mention that we are expecting another girl? Which is totally cool with me. I like girls! But not cool since cannot stop production yet. Hubby wants a boy (who doesn't?) and because he's being super sweet all this while...okaylah I'm gonna open for another one. But you have to shoot sharp okey darling? Another girl then suck it up and accept the fact. Haha. Joking joking. =)

Okey gotta go now. Forgot already how good it feels to blog. Missing my yesteryears but what to complaint? Me myself yg malas. Hehe. Till then. Please pray for my well-being. Bye!

14 weeks happy!

Hello.

As the title suggest, yes! I am 14 weeks pregnant. (big grin)

My 2nd pregnancy after nearly 5 years. Everything seems new! I forgotten how miserable and fat I felt the 1st time. It's all coming back now.

When I was pregnant with Rania, I post every single thing in this blog (now safely saved for my own eyes only). Not sure whether I can still do the same this time. Whatever it is, I'll try my best to at least jot down something every trimester.

So, I am entering my 2nd trimester already. Relieved that the annoying stage is over. Had a mild sickness this time compared to the 1st, none at all! Can only eat rice and ikan goreng. Ulam only fancy vege is not allowed. No cake, no other craving but rice all the way.

Nonetheless, successfully gained 3kg thanks to the rice. Looking fat rather than pregnant at this stage. Blaming all on hormones! Hehe. I am allowed to right?




I was 13 weeks pregnant when the photo was taken. My tummy is showing a bit early this time. They say it's normal to show early for 2nd pregnancy. (and my ready buncit tummy help a lot) hehe.

So far, no mc yet. Although very lazy (normal) but not dragging myself to work. Not like the 1st time when I took a whole month unpaid leave. Such a drama that time. Haha.

Okey, will update more later. Tired. Hormone. Haha
Most recent photo of me. Chow!

Movie in 5?

Have I ever mention that I love this one new mall near my house?

It has TESCO and the most important is cinema! Now we can leave home 5 minutes before movie start, park right in front of the entrance (free parking, mind you), still got plenty of time to buy popcorns, and can dress like Ah Beng no one cares! Oh Oh and they got 3D also. How cool is that?

So last week, (after few weeks of coaxing my sister how cool it is to watch movie there) me and my sister took our kids for Repunzel. Great movie love it love it love it! But what to love more is the fact that the cinema was empty.

See? Not lying.

And that was the 1st time I bought my 2yo to the cinema. I imagine it will be a disaster with her and another 3 of my sister kids inside the cinema but boy oh boy she surely behave and glued to her chair until the end of the movie!

So behave sitting in the middle and playing with her cousins before the movie starts. I heart you baby! Taking care of you is so easy since the beginning. :)

Oh and we had our lunch at Little Taiwan. Love their Loh Shi Fun. So damn yummy. That's the only menu that I can eat by the way. Other foods I found it not to my liking.

Nom..Nom..Nom..

She's doing peace sign yo!

Anyway, had a blast that day and even without husband I can survive. Yeah! But of course because I know I have my sister to count on. I respect mummy who can go jalan-jalan with toodler alone. Me? Duduk rumah je la.. :)

The sister and me. She wore heels that's why she is taller than me. Actually she is NOT! Haha

The three hot ladies. hahaha

This is one of many vain moment we had together.

Do remember this when you are away.

We love you

and good luck!

Kizsports&gym~I love you babe.

Happy kan dia?

Sometimes, I get so busy with my life that I forgot that that I neglected my most precious gift from God.




The other day, I cried my heart out. I stepped into our bedroom only to find out that she had already fallen asleep with an empty milk bottle still in her tiny hand. I did not put her to sleep nor did I prepare the milk warm for her. The milk was prepared few hours before and was on the dressing table. She must have independantly took the bottle, climbed up the bed and drank it to sleep.

She did not cry or even bother us at all. We were so busy ar the momment and we only realised that she was not with us after quite some times.She silently do all that all by herself while us-the parent were so busy doing our own things.

And believe me, that was not the first time.




Have you ever heard that actually before we were born, we actually get to choose who our parent is? Now, I am so ashamed with her because of all the good parents out the she choose us. Us who don't even bother to put her to sleep.. Us who left her early in the morning and only come back to see her again sometimes 5 minutes before midnight..




I feel so ashamed that I cried non stop until my eyes were swollen and red. What did I do to deserve such a sweetheart child? All I ever do was being busy with my damn life. So busy until my not ever two years old child being so independant and put herself to sleep.

She's not even freaking two years old yet! She was supposed to cry for attention before fallen asleep. She was supposed to need her mother's arm and cares that soothes her to sleep.


I love you Rania. I hope you know that. I am no normal mother. I sucks big time. Everything i do so far as your mother was a complete mess. I don't deserve you. You are too good to be true.




But I promise you one thing. From this moment I will not let my busy schedule be an excuse not to be with you. You come first before everything now. Sorry it took me two years to realised that. I hope i'm not too late...




I love you baby.. I really do.

P/S: The trip was obviously because I want to make it up to her ;)

Rania ~ The Little Diva

Ini bukan lakonan... Ini betul-betul...

The Little Diva in making.

Aihhh tak larat nak layan noks.

:)

Testing Testing

Hello.

Disebabkan cuti adalah amat panjang jadi sedang di bazirkan sewenang wenangnya. The husband tgh tgk hindustan while Rania tgh main dgn toy dia sorang sorang. So ambil peluang download segala bagai apps. Ni tgh testing la ni.

Lupa nak cerita laptop saya dah tamat riwayat pagi td kena duduk dek Rania. Nak marah pun takleh dah siapa suruh letak dekat lantai kan? Huhuhu sedihhh... Dahla rosak masa i tgh jobless ni. Grrrreeeaaatttt...

So for the time being update blog pakai phone je la... Nasib baik ada encik I kesayangan. Heheh. Tapi ttp sedih nak laptop baruuuuuu... Camne nak start project penganggur cari duit 101 neh. Aiyookkk..

Okeyla mengantuk pulak. Lagi 1 cara bazirkan masa yang sangat effective. Hohoho





Sila terima gambar kami camwhore masa breakfast kul 12 td. Huhu