~*Fall of the KING*~
Saturday, June 27, 2009 12:09:00 AM
I was so surprised when Mum smsed me this morning that Michael Jackson passed away... I heard something about him on the radio when I woke up but I was still half awake so I didn't know the contents. It is really a great loss to the entertainment and music industry! I feel that he is such a legend and such a great performer. His songs are nice, not to mention his dance moves! Despite all the negative news about him these recent years, I still feel he has his charm and is a true SUPERSTAR. I was still looking forward to his comeback concert but didn't expect this to happen. He is only 50 years old..still a very young age to just leave this world.I believe tons of fans will be sad and heartbroken..I wonder how my brother feels too. I know he really likes the two MJ - Michael Jackson & Michael Jordan. Never would I imagine him dying at this age due to cardiac arrest! This proves that nothing is predictable...so, PLEASE BE HAPPY EVERYONE! ENJOY YOUR LIFE NOW! DON'T HAVE ANY REGRETS!
~*Mass Resignation*~
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 2:25:00 AM
The title says it all...but it was not planned..Actually about 8 ppl in the company wants to leave but only 4 has successfully tendered. I just received news from another colleague she wants to throw the letter this Thursday. Lol~~ The company really needs to reflect..but I know they won't! So let it be I don't care..~~ Now my needs is to find a better job asap but not to rush because dun wanna end up in the same plot again this time. Pray for me~~~!!I will update more when I am free..~ I will try to have little little updates from time to time when I have some to spare too.
~*The Talk (Part 1)*~
Wednesday, June 10, 2009 11:25:00 PM
I finally had "the talk" with my manager on Monday afternoon and it lasted from 4 something to around 6pm. I thought my mgr would somehow guessed what I wanted to say, but to my surprise, she told me she was not expecting me to talk about resignation but thought I wanted her to give me more job scope. When I told her I wanted to resign, her first reaction was "WHY?!"I said I don't feel happy and I can't blend into the culture in the company. As usual she explained to me and she couldn't understand why I have this problem because she has been here for 10 years. I said everyone is like machine and there's no interaction, and she explained cos' everyone is busy with their work and they only work during office hours but will still chat during non-office hours. Yes I understand this, but this is a little too extreme for me. I felt everyone is not the way they are but they are forced to be like what they are becos of the company's culture. She also kept saying I am still new and I don't understand the company. Yes, I admit I don't understand the company but I am quite sure I will never understand them and I can't see myself staying long here happily. SHe said I am telling her I want to leave during the period when they need me the most because the company will be undergoing restructuring process. I know, but I mentioned to her because I know, I felt I should tell her earlier before more things are passed to me. If not, by 4 or 5 months later it would be even harder to leave and pass the things back or even handover to another person. I do not want to waste both parties' time and by staying here for long would not do any of us any good. They wouldn't want a staff who doesn't have the "heart" to sit there all day and get paid. She asked if I found a job and I said to her "No..that's why you can imagine how badly I want to leave? And somemore I know there is a sum of money I need to reimburse the company. I have made up my mind so now I just need to check the amount of money I need to reimburse."I know she must be very pissed with me..but I don;t care. I told her I am being very very honest with her and hope she won't be angry with me. I am the one not suitable for the company. She kept telling me I should adapt to the company and not the company adapting to me. YEs this I can understand very well, so I am the one having the problem and not the company la..so i just leave lor! agggh!I mentioned about the working hours and I felt that it is very unfair. She kept saying HR has to set a role model and stay late in the office but I told her this is the first time I heard of such thing and my other HR friends are not required to do so. I also didn't know I have to stay util 6 something everyday when the working hours stated clearly in the contract says our official hours end at 5pm. Then, she told me she couldn't have left that out and she is quite sure she would've told me during the interview. I insisted she did not say until so clearly and only told me I canot leave on the dot and if finish work maybe just leave at 5.30pm or so. Then she said she mentioned NORMALLY have to, then I rebut her by saying NORMALLY is not EVERYDAY! Then she said I dun understand the company! Haha...nothing to say then say this! I told her I wouldn't have signed the letter of appointment if I know about it as a regulation and somemore it is not written in the letter. I also felt the lunch hour is too short because we had to stay until 6 something. If we really end at 5pm, I can accept the 30 min lunch. THen she said she did not hold a gun and pt at me to sign the letter that time, so dun complain abt all these. I truly signed it and I can only blame myself. But at that point of time, I really did hesitate abt the annual leave and not the working hours and lunch hours. I thought about all the benefits and the negative points and I thought it is OK because it can compensate and balance. However, when I came onboard I realise everything became negative! It's really not what they told me during interview. She also kept saying she need matured staff to work here so that they can understand and won't e so calculative. She said I am calculative. I am NOT! I am stating the fact! We are not machines! We are not slaves who can be instructed around and just do not rebut and voice out! The rest doesn't because they are foreigners. She also told me she know there is difference between locals and foreigners and that's why she likes to hire foreigners. Then why hire me that time!? WTH! Since she admit this fact, means they really want to "make use" of them? She also said everyday when we come to the office, we take time to settle down, go toilet wash cups..walk around sometimes..chit chat a bit..talk on the phone. So all the other time have to be only for work and nothing else. I told her all these things are the norm in an office, how can you say that? and if you want to tell me this,isn't the company being calculative?THen she say i dun understand the company! Aghghg!! She wants matured staff.. Ok...She told me I left at 5 something on the second day of my work and someone told her and asked why i can leave so earli. Is this the kind of matured staff you want? They became like that all becos of the culture that is being set! I know 30 over years they have encountered many problems, but they are controlling EVERY single thing and this makes things worse sometimes! I believe a matured staff can work very well and be loyal and be willing to stay back to finish the work to help the company happily. She said if the person is late it is unfair for those who came early and if you are the HR and you come late, people will not look up to you next time. Bt the people doesnt come late EVERY DAY! And why can't the ppl who came early leave early? She told me she dun want to be so flexible because she set the rule and the culture she dun wan someone to come in and change it easily. It will affect the whole company and difficult to manage.She is also being v contradicting. She told me other colleagues like to work in this quiet environtment..but i prefer to have music but it will distract others and they won't work well. Haha..the truth is they all told me they dun like to work in such quiet envt. But of coz I didnt tell her wat they said. I asked my mgr whether she thinks her staff is happy. Then she said if they are unhappy they will go talk to her and they will sit down to discuss and improve and make things better. haha one point of time dun wanna change..one pt of time tell me will sit down discuss and improve. My FOOT! They would not!The story is very very long ah..im so tired to blog now...i shall add on in another entry the next time if i can remember more. I still have yet to meet up with my big boss but I alrdy gave the resignation letter. I hope my last day is really gonna be on 7 july. My big boss is soo busy..always not meeting me..haiz..duno wat he is trying to "play". Wish me luck friends!Love ya!
~*Troubles Troubles & Troubles*~
Saturday, June 06, 2009 1:01:00 AM
This is the 2nd consecutive year I encounter a big problem in June, just some time before my birthday. I was thinking why do I need to face these problems everytime it gets nearer to my birthday? I regret leaving my ex-company to join this heartless company but a friend told me that I shouldn't have regrets & should look forward. This current company, being a medical company, I really duno why they are so heartless even to their own staff! Although all the things I heard are from the colleagues around me and I should not believe all the things they say 100%. However, since there are soooo many stories already, there must be some truth in it as well!Being so unhappy here, I really cannot continue to call up people to try for the vacancies. I feel so sick of the job scope because I have been doing recruitment nonstop for this whole 1 month. The turnover rate is really high & the benefits and culture really sucks. They always use their "culture" to explain to you why there are like this today. Although their contract states that the official hours end at 5pm, they expect everyone to work until 6 something at LEAST! (EVERYDAY) We are also on alternate saturdays and having only 30 minutes lunch. I feel that lunch time is the only entitlement and "free" time for the staff, but I dun even have time to enjoy it! I always need to gobble up my food and rush back to work on time. It's not good for digestion! We are working like machines and robots.I have tried to endure and see how things can be improved, but there is no use! They always tell you the problem is in you because you cannot adapt to the company's culture. They lied to me when they interviewed me, telling me that they want me to be involved in staff welfare, to talk to them and find out their problems & the things they are unhappy about the company. The management would then discuss and make improvements BUT they are not doing it! They did tell me that we cannot leave on the dot because it's not very nice, but maybe 5.30 or so when we have finish our job. I didn't expect that I need to stay everyday! Might as well change my working hours to end at 6 right?! By right we who are covered under the employment act, should work max 44 hours a week. Any excess hours the company should pay us overtime pay but they do not! Averagely I have been working about 50 hours a week for the past one month! When I told the big boss I do not want to stay back until 6 just for the sake of staying and SHOWING them I am staying late! But the boss also told me it is the culture and HR should be a role model and set good example. WTH..all these bullshit!Even during lunch we have to eat with our own designated lunch partners. We cannot talk too loudly in the office because the boss likes the office to be quiet. The atmosphere is always very tensed and everyone is working in their own world with minimal interaction. I have became very short-tempered since I joined this company and have always talked back to my mother and bf so frequently. It's not healthy for my health and mind as well. I feel so irritated easily and angry with the company and also angry with myself for signing the damn contract!I realy really understand why we have to read a contract sooo carefully because when things happen, you really will regret not reading it carefully. There was a clause saying that NO MATTER WHETHERE I LEAVE THE COMPANY OR THEY TERMINATE ME FOR WHATSOEVER REASON WITHIN SIX MONTHS, I HAVE TO REIMBURSE THEM. The amount I am not sure..and they stated it in a general way including the legal fees to draft this appointment letter and also the agency fees involved to hire me that time. They can just say any amount and I cannot say it is not right because I cannot judge.So I am seeking help from MOM whether this clause is unfair to the employee and if they canot do anything as I have signed it, hopefully they can help by telling me what I can do to minimize the amount to reimburse the company.Last friday was the first time I left the office at 5.30pm. I mastered up alot of courage to make that move and when I did it I was quite happy. Baby also waited for me in the cab downstairs to "Force" me to leave the office early. My manager SMSed me and said "Next time please let me know when you want to leave before 6pm. We are from the HR Department, please set a good example. thanks" I was so pissed with this and I replied "I have something on but I also dun understand why we need to stay back until 6 or 630 everyday. Let's talk on Monday. Thanks"I know she would surely be very pissed but I really couldn't care less. I am prepared to have a talk with her and tell her I am not suitable for this position and would like to resign. Hope that she can let me know their regulations and the amount I need to reimburse them.Let's cross our fingers and pray hard! Please let things go smoothly for me! PLease!~!!! I even went to the temple to make prayers to hope everything goes smoothly for me and let me be happy! PLeasee......I almost forgot to mention that when I scheduled for candidates to come for interviews, there was this girl who asked why we had to stay back til so late everyday. She asked my manager if she finishes her work early can she leave at 5? My manager told her it is quite impossible. So she didnt wanna come for the 2nd interview when we scheduled for her and she even feedback to the agent and my agent also questioned me. I cannot help it cos I cannot change anything and that's the way the company is! When I feedback to my manager, she said she alrdy told the girl not to think about the timing and just work until 6 something. But how can it be when the official working hours stated in the contract is until 5pm? WTH! Maybe they dun have any committments after work or they dun have any "LIFE"! But I am still young and I want to go for courses and go out after work and relax. I dun sell my life to the company and I am not a slave! They only want staff they want to control and manipulate! I hate this company of mine now!!! Why is this happening when my bday is approaching? I asked andrew whether he really want to hire me back since sufong is already there. He said he only planned to hire me back in Oct when he thinks the business will pick up. Sigh.. my family also told me maybe its not right to return there becos I would owe him alot. If I quit successfully, I would be jobless and would have to search for job again. This market is really bad now and I have a phobia of the other companies. Duno why my friends can get good jobs and I can't. Also thinking of working part-time or temp or contract for a while if I need money urgently. If there are more lounges and pubs that needs me to sing I would be happy to do it but i know i am dreaming la..hahaha sis still say can go dragonfly work..yucks! I dun want!Sigh sigh.... Why always need to face such problems and need money also. I want to go taiwan in september and shop til i drop but now i have money problems. I really hope the amount won't turn out to be HUGE. and no matter how.. I would want to pay it off and dun even feel like serving that one month's notice. I just want to leave immediately!
~*Aaron Kwok Concert - 30th May 2009*~
Monday, June 01, 2009 10:41:00 PM
