I have finally told my boss about my intentions to leave the company. It wasn't easy at all and i took a few days to master up the courage. I gave myself a dateline until last fri & only told him during lunch because that was the only time we were face to face. Otherwise, I really couldn't bring myself to tell him all of a sudden.

As expected, he was quite surprised & kinda lost for words. It was the first time I see his face that sad and of course I was very sad as well. Others may not understand why the hell we can be so sad, but I truly do not just treat him as my boss. He is like my godfather too. I was so blessed to have a chance to work with and for him. He really took great care of me & made my last 2.5 years really smooth-sailing. I was happy at work (until this year) & I really appreciate him giving me all the support, guidance and development that not all fresh graduates could get! I had the chance to manage a whole office, although it's a small one, but i learnt how important office operations is. Although I didnt have any experience in that, he believed in me and had many little talks that lasted really long..haha I admitted I was not looking forward to all those talks. But no matter what, I believed it did help me alot during these 2.5 years.

I've seen the company grow from 3 headcounts to about 11 and now back to 3. This downturn is really painful..:( I do not want my boss to feel that I am leaving him at this downturn. I really cannot take it anymore going to work everyday without a soul. No colleagues to talk to...and nothing much to do. Just rot my hours away everyday.
Many may think that I am fortunate to have the office to myself at times. But it is really a waste of time. I am still young..so I hope that I can venture more, explore more and learn more new things and also learn from a bigger organisation. I cannot be always under the wings of protection of my boss right?

I have made a decision to leave & it cannot be changed. I hope that one day in the future, I may still have the chance to work for him.

What I am currently worried is that he may have a problem to handle everything in the office. Being 50 years old already... I have to pass ALL the operations, administrations and most importantly my client's payroll project over to him. I really worry...I will definitely go back to help him whenever I can.

Finally, I hope the company can pull through the downturn and become stronger and grow again. I hope I will keep in touch with my boss and be on good terms with him.

Tomorrow will be the first day of training..We have also yet to find a replacement.
That is gonna be tough but i hope we can make it on time!
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The weather is damn hot today...sweating every single minute! Cannot stand it!
This is a very lazy weekend for me..

Yesterday I slept until 1.30pm! Yes...that was late I know! Haha but I slept really late and I cried alot on Friday night. Was supposed to reach kun's house at 1pm on sat but then becos I woke up late I had to prepare and rush down by cab.
Luckily it was still ok and I had lunch there before going down town to pick up my altered jeans. I also brought my dress to alter for the big day on 18th April! haha..:P

Oh~ Before that we also went to STAGE to meet Stella and her friends. I wanted to go try the XS size for the PK. Initially I just wanted to try but in the end, I soooo super like the 'Partyboyz' PK that I bought ! Omg~ It's really expensive ok? gotta control control! but cos I've always wanted one PK so just buy la...have to buy it sooner or later too. :P

After that, we were quite bored alrdy and both tired. I was also afraid if I start shopping I would spend alot of money! So we went home...to slack...and continued watching my [命中注定我爱你].
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I slept abt 4am and woke up at 10am! Only 6 hours of slp! I didn't wanna wake up but my backache gave me no choice. Yea..it was the time of the month again..~ boohoo~~~ Terrible backache every first day. :(

Went to have lunch with my siblings at westmall Mayim (yummy~ very full)..then my sis went to buy new mobile phone! She couldn't even make phone calls or pick up calls using her old phone~~ dunno wat's wrong. She bought Samsung F480 brown color. Cool~~ I used to love that phone alot..but didnt wanna waste money la..I also realise my current phone is good too! :D
Will change only when it is super spoilt!

Came home and continued to watch DVD with my parents...until dinner time...and I am still super duper hot..sweating like mad..urggh~!~!!

Gotta go shower soon!

If this happens to your OWN family, someone dear to you...do you think you can just let it off like you suggested to me?

Some people has difficulty understanding my english...I can understand why, so no point discussing abt this. I don't need a kind soul to help me..I think you do need a kind soul instead to improve your english.

Of course I agree I don't know EVERYTHING, but I do know some things for sure.

Firstly, I don't bother how you two ended the relationship.
Secondly, she put her "leg" in it not on purpose & the guy led her to believe she should continue to stick her leg in. Time and time again she wanted to get out! The guy has told her he has feelings for her OK? I am not saying that she is innocent and you are not innocent too...I am just trying to make you understand that it's the guy's fault. You are not to blame fully as well because I know you love him deeply. I feel it is totally not justified when the guy doesn't get a single bit of punishment!

Please be gracious also! When she did not even start commenting anything about you, did not fight back and just accept all these quietly. You are the one "attacking" her all the way. As friends and family, how can I just let this go?

The guy choose to remain a coward. Do you think he dare to face the two of you together?
You are all in his own little play, being his own little puppets... 3rd party can see things clearer.
Since he can do such a thing to both of you, telling you both side of the story...do you think he is afraid to lose any of you? He simply doesn't know how to cherish!

Thirdly, since you do not know the truth (which you admit), why do you think you have the right to slander the other girl? She DID NOT do all those things to hurt you in the first place!

I can tell you I feel blessed for her that she was not chosen by him! I wouldn't congratulate her for goodness sake!
Seriously he doesn't deserve both you girls!

By the way, you said it yourself now that it has ALL BEEN THE PAST, why bring it up NOW?
You are the one who keep mentioning and bringing it up in your blog! DO you think it is OVER? I doubt so..!..if you just let the thing go, do u think all this would continue?! Can you think before you type anything?

And for your information, organisms can exist ANYWHERE, whether you like it or not. Virus is a kind of harmful organism.

Glad you admit that you are a nasty bitch.

Be sure you can just laugh it off!

P.S: But finally, I still hope you can wake up! Both of you girls!

Oh my god~ can someone provide me with a super duper strong and effective disinfectant to clean my blog thoroughly from inside out, top to bottom?!?!?!

Well.. at least my blog is still able to function as per normal (for now..)

I'm sure most of you know the difference between "happy" & happy. Hmm..
And also the difference between INTELLIGENT bitches & DUMB bitches. I agree only bitches call other ladies bitches, I believe there is a bitch in every female! YES, it's TRUE..but I am at least happy (NOT "happy" - know the difference right?) that there are difference between the two categories of bitches I mentioned earlier on.

I wonder why sometimes people cannot understand and wake up when truths and facts are revealed to them. Actually it is normal too, because often people refuse to face reality!
Not only that, they rather stay in their imaginary fairytale & continue to poison the innocent. They tend to overlook the real culprit! Normally, it takes a while for them to WAKE UP! HELLO!!!!! WAKE UP YOUR POISON IDEA!

When something goes wrong in a relationship, the 1st person who is most responsible for it is the one that couldn't keep his/her own partner by their side. The 2nd person is the one that side-tracked from the relationship without thinking of the consequences. The LEAST blame (if any) are the other general reasons that could occur when a relationship has been broken ..

Sigh... but sometimes there ARE people who would never wake up no matter how loud is the alarm clock, becuz they are simply DEAF or they REFUSE!

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Idiom of the day: Birds of a feather flock together

Yes... I have finally decided to leave my current company. It is indeed not an easy decision, but I guess there is a higher possibility that it will do me good than staying put in the current situation. Even if my boss is willing to sustain me and pay my salary until the recession recovers, I don't think I want to "rot" here until the economy gets better. Who noes how long it will take?
I would not want to be "hanging around" & slack everyday in d super silent office with NO colleagues! I am still young & I need exposure & an energetic work environment. More importantly, I need to learn more things in depth & have colleagues to interact & work with~!

I gave myself until this Friday to break the news to my dearest boss. It is very hard for me to open my mouth about this issue! It has been bothering me for a week~~ headache!

The office is always me and the boss while the consulting manager is always out. I face him everyday, yet I don't talk to him much... & I feel tense with him around because I have not much to do and yet have to act busy. I am typing non-stop on the keyboard everyday cos of MSN chats, blogging & going to forums. I'm sure it is loud enough to be heard but yet he did not approach me. I even played facebook games for about 1 hour in the office!

Being a small local set-up company, I can make alot of decisions & give suggestions. We are very flexible with anything & it is easy to take leave. I seem to in-charge of all the big and small issues regarding to the office. I may seem to know alot of things but they are all on the surface. I really appreciate my boss for giving me all the opportunites to get in touch with all the basic things although all on the surface. So now, I hope I can go in-depth when I go into a new company.

Speaking of the new company, I will be joining a Medical Group and their corporate office is located at Jurong east. Much nearer to my house and knock off at 5pm on weekdays although I need to work on alternate saturdays. I have always wanted to work in healthcare or medical or pharmaceutical company as HR. :D
Job offers always come all at the same time..it is really a headache and you need to make decision too. After I got the offer from this company, I got an offer from Army Recruitment too as Recruitment Admin I think..then I had interviews from NUH and DANO, which I turned down.

For those who wants to change job now, there is still hope!

Well....wish me luck in telling my boss about my departure~~ I will 100% cry!
Sigh....we are damn close last time lor... he always say I am his right-hand lady.
Omg~~ This is gonna be tough! I always felt he is my "second" dad.. I know he really cares alot and dotes on me. Will definitely help me whenever I have any problems.

But.....like the title of this entry "天下没有不散的宴席"..... :(

Today's entry title is not about myself...Year 2009 really hasn't been a good year for many people I know. Relationship is one of the hardest thing one will face in life. I know it can be complicated and unpredictable, thus difficult to handle at times~~

I know of this ridiculous relationship issue recently, about this girl called Isabelle. I think she really needs to go temple pray ah...so many crazy people appearing around her!!! The guy is called Richard & there is another girl called pong pong, lol...ask me why? Cos pong pong is poisonous.

Isabelle & Richard are colleagues who are seated side by side in the office everyday. Initially they were both attached to their own partners (yes, pong pong is the gf) but both broke up around the same period. Both their breakups were caused by their own relationship problems with their own partners, and NOT due to the two falling for each other and decided to breakup with their partners. They have been working happily since day 1 and are also good friends, which later turned into another special kind of feeling. Both of them fell in love with each other slowly & got closer as day passes (at least at THAT TIME, I THOUGHT Richard really did love her).

Richard didn't want committment at first because he is someone who likes freedom & treasures his friends. He would spend most of his free time with his friends and I think he spends lesser time with his gf. Another reason is also because he has not settled stuff with pong pong, so he wanted Isabelle to wait on...

Isabelle waited until one day, she told him she felt so 辛苦, and he could just ask her to wait anymore! WTH! It made Isabelle damn sad of course..cried nonstop lor like a 白痴!
After some simple explanation & coaxing, Isabelle was OK again & continued to wait on....Seems like Richard didn't meant what he said. (I also don't know which are those he said and really MEANT IT)

Well...it's a long story and I'm kinda lazy to type. I shall not go into too detailed stuff....

Btw, Richard did tell Isabelle he did not have thoughts of patching up with pong pong because he has feelings for Isabelle. But I do not know what he said to pong pong on the other side, becuz it seems like things got better and better between he and pong pong. They are contacting each other more and more, and lies start to hit Isabelle. Isabelle was coaxed once again into believing him..but ONE FINE DAY........(this FINE day came really quick and sudden)


Richard & Pong Pong are happily together again! Yah...HAPPILY I suppose!!! (does it sound v sarcastic? Anyway I do not know also, and it doesn't bother me! lalalala...!!)
Even so...Richard still gives Isabelle some "hope"

I really pity Pong Pong...although she has the body & maybe she THINKS she has the heart as well..but she is blinded by sooo many things...
Does she think Richard tells her the whole truth? Things told to Isabelle is also not 100% truth.
But all Pong Pong thinks is that Isabelle came into their relationship & tried to "steal" Richard away from her. Is that ALL she can think of????

Calling people ugly and getting all her gang of friends (siding her of course, because they are in their own circle of trust) to comment and discuss like a bunch of witches.
Does she think she has the right to comment on people like that? Yes, no matter what, it's free to comment....BUT please look yourself in the mirror first.

What is it about slandering Isabelle when she already has what she wanted?
Maybe she has nothing to do? No topic to talk about? The whole mind is always thinking about this issue? Or maybe ....just MAYBE...there is just NO SENSE OF SECURITY...~~

Phew~~~ I feel so much better now, letting go all my "FART" ..heh~~
I have to say I am not doing any direct scolding...it's just venting out on my own blog..my own world..it's a virtual world right?:P

I understand it's free for everyone to see online.. so there shouldn't be a right for someone to request you not to blog about some other things just so it helps them but make you miserable...ESPECIALLY when you have no other ways and blogging may be the BEST way for you to let it out and feel better.

Conclusion is :

• Richard is an ultimate JERK & Liar!
• pong pong is full of poison & dumb
• Isabelle used to be dumb...but she's clearer about the whole picture...and hopefully she is learning to be CLEBER!

To Isabelle: Just pick up the broken pieces of your heart & piece it up slowly one by one and move on. There is NO turning back in such a ridiculous situation. Be stronger..and be glad that you are out of the DEEP DEEP SH*T~! Let the lovebirds smell & stink happily in their pile of SH*T.

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Hmm..

Yesterday I just found out that my cousin & his gf has ended their relationship of about 8 years! It's really sad to end after such a long relationship, going through so many things together... The saddest part is that my cousin has already proposed to the girl & they were in the midst of arranging all the wedding banquets & customs & stuff.

They are one couple that ALL our relatives think they are GREAT together! I always felt they were super loving & the girl is really adorable and very lovable!....I happen to have some chats with the girl from time to time. According to her, they have some issues also that are rather confusing to me.. I believe she didnt tell me the whole story as well, but I understand.

It is hard for her now..she has to adapt and pull herself together. I do not know how my cousin is taking it butI would not speak to him about this. I'll just act like I don't know.

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Talk about Happier stuff la!... My DEAR sis is getting MARRIED in DEC this year! Yeah Yeah! Wish them a blissful marraige! BUlly my sister, eat my fist! hahhaa..kidding la~~