Thurs...miserable long n tiring day it is...haha...it is the day of the week when we walk ard in school like zombies. It was actually better cos' we ended at 4pm but usually we ends at 5pm.

I was supposed to meet wq 5.30pm at lot1...but due to the early dismissal, i HAD to wait for him again! haha...looks like i am destined to wait for him! :P
I bought Xiao Zhu's CD! haha...i bought the China version la..so only $9.90! :D
I went to the lib and borrowed a few eng books..hmmm so long nv borrow eng books..really got many new and nice books! Oh yah...finally my mum bought me the bag i wanted badly~!! Haha..Thanks Mummy~! Love u..muacks~!!

Watched "Phantom of the Opera" when wq came...it was a nice movie la..but it got me really confused and tired at the beginning. The whole show had songs...haha the characters communicate thru singing! The songs are really nice too and it was actually quite a sad show that made me cry at the end. :( Sob sobzz....

I called SH later & we toked for abt 1hr on my hp!!! Omg..~! I'm gonna die~!!!
haha but really miss toking to her..she is still the same..very perky! :D I'm gonna meet her soon~!!

Hmm..jus finished my assignments la..have to go slp soon..it's already 2.39am! Have to wake up at 7.30am & get scolding by WITCH~!!Arrghh~!! It's NEw year eve too..hehe hope everyone will enjoy it! HAppy NEw year to ALL!~ :D

P.s: Thanks alot wq~! Sorry abt the misunderstanding too!

I met Alvin for dinner today...it was alright at the beginning. We went lot 1 to have KFC and jus chatted normally. I still have the feeling that he is my bf when i meet him..hai jus soooo natural that feeling and i could sense the same for him too. When he sent me home, we sat down & talked. He gave me christmas present with a card. The present was a paper weight with the words "I didnt believe in love at first sight before i met u" and inside the card he wrote "I miss u..waiting for u to come back". I was of course touched la..natural ma..haiz...I know both of us still has feelings for each other & actually, he still loves me alot. I dunno abt myself..i know wat is the right thing to do. I really gave him so many chances & this time i really can somehow sense that he changed ..but many doubts and fear also. He stopped gambling..he said he "woke up" suddenly after i told him i wanted to brk this time. He really regretted wat he didnt cherish and realise his mistakes...:( I dunno la..but words are easy to say...i dunno why whenever we are not together, we kinda miss each other and will seem to cherish each other...but when we are together, things change n turn haywire without us knowing it! He said that he has been dreaming of the same kind of dream abt me for days...and he didnt dare tell anyone cos i used to tell him that by telling others abt wat u dream, it might not come true.That's wat my mum says and she believes that whenever u dream of something bad, u have to say it to others to "break" it. Haha..
He said he kept looking out for me whenever he is in school, whnever he has lunch breaks...he kept reminding his friends to inform him if they see me...He always tells his friends he miss me..haiz.. i dunno la..hear all these sure v sad n touched. He said he can never find another girl..he dun wanna find another girl.

I miss him sometimes too..but i know i shouldnt go back cos who knows wat might happen again? It is tiring..i have had enough...gave him many chances. I tot ii was ok until i met him today..tears came pouring out during our conversation. It was hard to tok to him..making him understand why i dun wanna be together with him. Being so stubborn, he didnt wanna listen and he didnt wanna understand..kept saying why cannot be together. I told him he should jus concentrate on his studies, his part-time job, his badminton and graduate to go NS. Dun think too much...if we are meant to be we will be together one day. We can be friends for now..can see each other..even better than we hurt each other and brk la. Meanwhile we should let our choices be open and dun lose any other opportunities ard. But i know its easy to say that but for myself...i dun wanna "gu fu" anybody. I jus dun have the confidence...haiz..since it is so hard for me to remove alvin from my heart. I also told him maybe it's because we only broke off for like 2 months and it's such a short time to let things go...so obviously we tend to miss each other..then after this short brk, we see each other we think we still love each other alot alot..of course we loved each other alot alot...but we had almost a 3 year relationship..of course difficult to end!

Sometimes i even think i might not be able to marry in future haha...:P
Now i feel that i dun have the right to get in a relationship...i dun wanna let down any other person. I dun wanna be with alvin and then later probs arise AGAIN..and brk again..n hurt him again too. It's pointless...i dun wanna hurt another guy too...hai...Sometimes i think i am not "fit" to be in love..maybe the prob lies with me???but i am always the one brking off with the guys...they are the poor victims maybe???Will i end up being single for a long time?haha but i am someone who cannot remain single too long i tink..so USELESS right?I get lonely easily...then i ever cried due to sianzness and loneliness!!!Haha i know i am mad or silly...:P

I feel really fortunate that numerous ppl ard me are caring for me..they are mostly there for me when i need them! But i cant repay all of them..hai..i feel v blessed! thanks alot my friends~! My family and buddies! Haha like a thank-u speech -_-"
Anyway, Xun say new year 2005 is coming..so must throw away all the unhappiness that happened in 2004. Aiyah..where got so easy???
Aiyah i so tired now...dunno wat else to blog already although i know i hven really blog all in my mind..Eyes so tired now..tmr 9am to 5pm!!! Arrrhhh..~!!

I realli look forward to Fri..new year eve! going to Xun's house for gathering and order pizza for dinner! gonna take alot of pics!!!

I've been so fed up wif a fren. I'm sure some of u might already know i'm referring to but i think i'll not mention his name. The sight of him these days or even a call or sms from him makes me really irritated! I know i'm bad...I just dun feel like toking to him or meeting him. I can't stand him borrowing money from other friends all of the time! He used to not pay back but even though now he returns the money (Cos he is working), he shouldnt borrow and borrow as if that's a routine thingy! It's not the money prob, it's his character! Why can't he wait til he gets his pay to get the things he yearn?Instead, he would borrow money from his friends to get the things he want! I thought he didnt dare to ask for money from his parents but I was so unhappy when i knew he used up his parents' money but still borrows from friends! Everytime he gets his paycheck, he would return all he owed and left with nothing again. Then, the cycle repeats! Damn! All the things he get are sooooo unnecessary..he spends even if he has only 10cents left!(if u know wat i mean)
He is also damn free! Arrghh~! Whenever he is free, he would ask me or another friend to acc him for lunch or have a drink or coffee at Lot 1. He thinks we are so free to acc him whenever he is free?We have lessons and are tired lor..since he is so free, why dun he go home and rest? Or jus be alone!

Forever boasting abt himself...wants to be the EXTRAORDINARY! Thinks he's cool and special...!
Forever toking abt the same old stuff ....RELATIONSHIPS! Like then like lor...why must he be soooo indecisive?!??!Always circling ard the same thing! Asking for advice and telling ppl abt his "little love cycle" or prob...he dunno how to deal with them. Aiyah i dunno wat to say already....haha

I think it's rather bad to tok bad abt others eh...:Þ
But i really really fed up lor...i might even say it to him one day!

I was SUPER tired this morning...didnt feel like going to sch cos' IT WAS RAINING!!!
Anyway, was late for lab..but the teacher hasnt started too. I was rushing like hell to reach the lab lor..cos of the rain, i had to walk under the sheltered way and that is very long~!

After sch, went to eat lunch with erma, collin, aaron, kokhow and huaming. Ha yah..realised all the others except for Erma are guys right?I think they are really funny...at least we dun feel so stressed or uneasy with them as compared to the rest of the girls of the class.

Then, went to book com to complete our histo prac datasheet. Erma was doing the rest of the qns la..while i was browsing thru net. Haha..cos i already did some qns the night before. When we were on our way to hand in the assignment to the WITCH, we kept worrying wat to say to her in case she ask us abt our project haha..but when we reached she isnt in her room. So, we jus left the assignment on her table..heng ah!

Haiz..it's the time of the month again..& i feel so terrible~!!! I hate it when it comes..haha..so irritated and uncomfortablE~ GUYS WILL NEVER KNOW~!!! :P Usually i already feel v bad, but this time it is worsen cos' i went jogging yesterday!!! I wanted to go home so badly after school...huaming even said he can bring down tonic from his house for me if i wan!! OMG~! Haha..of course i dun wan to trouble him la. (Erma..help me!!) haha..:D
On my way home, there was this fat indian lady who was rushing to somewhere...and when i walked down the stairs she somehow squeezed beside me so roughly and pushed me abit. I was soooo pissed! Hai...so irritated..she dun even know how to say "EXCUSE ME"??? Then, she walked past another girl and bumped on her shoulder too..and that girl scolded "FUCK OFF" haha..she orbi wor~! :P
Once i reached home, i bathed immediately and without combing or drying my hair..i slept til ard 6pm! Feeling better right now but not VERY well too la..i need a pillow behind my back wherever i sit. Haiz...I will feel like an old lady ONCE EVERY MONTH! Why dun some girls feel unwell and some can even faint or cry of the pain?Haiz..HATE IT!

I had planned to go lot 1 after school to return my library books and to look ard for any CDs to buy. Then, i would have went to visit my colleagues at the polyclinic and bring chocolate for them. Hai..but ruined liao la!! :(
I think i dun have the time to visit them this week...

Eh..have to go complete some assignments liao..tmr after sch still have to stay back for project..WTH!
Hai tmr got OC lesson also, hope there wont be any speech or presentation to be done tmr!

Does anyone of u have another extra blog, which is private & u have it all to yourself only??? Actually i find that having a public blog like this one isnt really a place that i say EVERYTHING inside me. We jus like the attention we get through the taggys & interaction between friends hhaa..for me at least la(dunno abt the rest). Hmm..I think most of the time i crap alot here & become very lazy to blog in the private blog. If i blog in that private blog, nobody will see..hahaha...no la..sometimes when i really have the urge, the rush to go blog my inner deep feelings from the very bottom, i would go there lor.

Sometimes i think that i am entertaining ppl here hahaha...:D I am sure i make people laugh sometimes through writing abt my wierd classmates, my stupid experiences, how i am irritated by that WITCH, and some funny thots i have sometimes...etc etc.. but i realise I can't really tok really really bad abt ppl here hahah, like slandering their names ..cos i am not Eminem -_-" duhz~
Almost telling wat i did exactly for the day..haha like going to the gym & jog...going down to swim or tan..going for lunch or dinner with family or dad...BORING right??

Hmmm....anyway, ( I know a bit shift of topic la) I ever thought of becoming a psychologist or a counsellor or a community worker (is tat wat it is called?haha). Felt like helping ppl wif problems...making them feel better...make them change to someone who is happier...jus make a difference in their lives la (of course something good la)-___-"
Haha i know i may not look or sound soooooo er...."Wei Da" haha...but I would feel really happy if i could do those. Even helping the elderly, toking to them...(that is if i can communicate in all the different dialects -____-""")...greeting those elderly when i see them exercising downstairs in th mornings...
HOWEVER, I think I've ended up becoming someone who likes to talk alot & share alot with others...haha so TALKATIVE & 38 right?! I think ppl will rather think I need someone to talk to most of the time rather than listening to others.

Oh my...whatever la...now already in this lab tech line...haha....sounds rather pathetic to me now.
Am I gonna work in the lab everyday from 8am to 5pm, confined in that limited area or space with WHITE all over the place. Working wit chemicals, organs, blood, bacteria, urine & even stools everyday...not able to meet more friends, increase my circle of life. Just work peacefully & be contented in that quiet & peaceful space til' who knows when...:P

Aiyah...enough of bullshit! Haha...TaTazz...
Off I go......ZooOmmmm..........

Went to watch "Kung fu Hustle" with Joel yesterday at PS. The showtime was 725pm & i reached at 7pm but he was still at Taka that time! Haha..actually i should be partly responsible too..cos he was there to buy sushi for me. I bought drinks & waited & waited until he finally reached at 735pm. Luckily, it was still showing the trailers when we went in. The show was incredibly FARNIE & CArtoon-like...haha Stephen Chow quite handsome actually! I couldnt stop laughing at the part he got stabbed by many knives!hahaha...and then got bitten by the snakes..so SUAY lor..:D I tot that it was a really creative show..enjoyed it alot!

Joel got me 2 christmas presents cos' he said he tot 1 wasnt enough...-_-" Haha..anyway, that's the only present i got for this christmas..Hope u guys got alot of prezzies ba! :)
It has been a long time since i last met Joel & he really grew bigger in size (cos' he is Addicted n MAD over Body-building)...I tot he was obssessed! Haha...:P He's still the same...forever tokin abt strong n built bodies.

Then, i went to meet weiqiang...& i waited for abt 1 hour before i finally met him. I sms him when i boarded the bus til i reached the place. At first i was quite pissed with him but later realised that he didnt recieve alot of my previous msgs until one. I couldnt believe it! It wasnt his fault la..i jus so suay...:P XX asked me to go play mahjong...i almost went lor....!

I was watching the heart charity show jus now cos' there were Sly & Taufik!hahaa...:P They appeared for awhile to sing some songs only...quite boring la..but Sly was really pathetic la..he really dunno how to tok live on tv. Always stuck for words & others have to fill in the blanks for him & he would stick out his tongue..aiyoh so obvious!

Anyway, tmr is school again...sianz...weekend realli so fast de..got so many WItch's assignment to do also..all becos of her~!! Tmr have to see her for like 4 hours...!!! dying...
I have to go exercise either tmr or tues liao la..getting fatter n fatter n fatter!
I cant wait for January!! I wanna rebond my hair~!!!! I need to buy contact lenses~!!! I wanna buy bag~!!! I wanna buy new year clothes~!!!!

It's actually 520am now & I jus came back not long ago. Went to Newton for dinner ard 730pm with Jason,xx,rs,hock & wenqiang. I had gastric pain so i didnt really enjoy the food la...but we had Kang kong, Sambal octopus & Stingray..haha yah, all are spicy food..so it might have made me feel worse haha but i jus like spicy food! Then, we went to "brewerkz" to sit down n chat. When we reached there, we saw ys & his gf! Haha..it was a surprise & he always said that his gf is v anti-social but i didnt think so. We took alot of crazy pics..hahah..realli funny!

Qianni & yuan were working and we saw Huibing too. She gave me a shock when she appeared beside me all of a sudden & she had already worked there for 3 years! She was quite chatty & we chatted as if we were very close friends who have not seen each other for a long time. Haha...
The food there were really super ex...i didnt eat anything la..jus shared some beer.

After that, we went to town to stroll...it was quite boring la..
The streets were full of debris and cans...those spray cans..it was terrible!!!It resembles the deserted roads in the movie "Resident Evil 2" & there were mad ppl who sprayed at strangers and they are like the "zombies" in the movie. I tot it was very rude to jus spray at anyone...and those are foams...they make ur hair and clothes wet n sticky! I was sooo terrified to walk along the pathways that me n rs walked along the roadside with all the cars zooming so fast beside us.

We went to cineleisure...didnt know wat to do..wanted to watch movie..but it was unable to suit everyone. Shenkiat also came to brewerkz halfway la..his hair changed alot and many ppl tot he looked like jay chou, esp with that hairstyle! There were even a few girls who walked past him and said "Hey...he looks like Jay chou leh~!!!" hahaha...Cool~!

Anyway, it was rahter boring la and everyone was tired! I also saw ting while crossing the road...and i think she was with her NEW BF!Again~!!!! haha..but this one looks nice..haha matured..got bike wan...a bit short la..but think quite fit!

Eh...took Nr3 home...and now i am here...wanted to meet weiqiang..but i dunno where he is now...i'm so tired...tmr still going to watch "kungfu hustle" with Joel...

Sianz..this year never recieve any christmas presents hahaha...

I know i am a super "GOSSIPER", but i jus can't help but blog it all out here..so, pls bear with me guys!(but i know most of u like to hear gossips right?)

Well, pale is starting to irritate us these days & it gets really annoying! She starts STICKING OUT HER TONGUE occasionally...like a dog....and showing it to u! During lessons, she would turn ard, fidget and make noises, which distracts u alot! She claims that she is very bored....duh -_-". She would scare us from outside the toilet when we are coming out..and she thinks that's funny....-_-" When she is bored during lectures or she is irritated wit the lecturer, she would let out a Huge n LOud SIgh.."HAIZ!!!" (doesnt care abt the rest). She would ask stupid qns, n tok nonsense in class...seeking alot of attention which she doesnt wan it but she is doing things that got the irritated attention of others!

Hmm...i realise my buddy classmates are also rather wierd. There's one girl called Pat, who loves having SUPER DUPER straight hair & she went to rebond it even though it was already as straight as before. She likes to apply alot of hair gel to keep her hair NEAt & also STIFF, and she separates the back of her hair half half, almost symmetrical. She would pull it so hard that it seems like it hurts alot to me..haha and she would place it neatly on her shoulders. She is really very skinny & her dressing is very "HIP" & even looks very Sexy! Haaa..but it jus doesnt suit her..eh...jus wierd la..she likes to wear mini mini skirt n stylish caps...and high cut shoes.

There's another girl called O who always wears mismatched clothings with the wrong shoes too! She likes to wear dangling earrings & long skirts with T-shirts & covered shoes..ay...it jus seems really really wierd! Her hairstyle also wierd haha..

Another girl called Wen & she is a very daring person cos' the clothes she wears tells it all. It's not that they are revealing but the matching and the colours and patterns look really wierd. Not those that ANYONE would wear everyday to school. Her clothes are colourful and some have polka dots..and she likes to wear shorts like the clown's. haha...supposed to be cute la..very jap lor..eh..but to me..still wierd haha~!

Enough of gossips la, today is christmas eve & i'm goin to have dinner at NEwton before going to Brewerks, where Yuan is working. I jus wanna go there and take a look at the place and chit chat with my friends la. Hopefully it isnt packed with ppl!
Hmm..gtg n prepare guys...ciaoz..takecare all n have a merry merry christmas~!!!Muacks~!!!

*Jingle Bells..jingle bells..jingle All the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..................................*

Well, went to Tiong Bahru plaza wit Erma right after sch. Since the show starts at 7pm & we ended sch ard 4 something, we spent ard 2 hours walking ard the mall! We even went to Popular for 30 mins & the $1-shop for ard 15 mins haha..~! We also went into Music Junction for maybe abt 20 mins or so la. I bought a packet of "Twisties" which we stood outside some place to finish eating. It was sooooo terrible haha but we managed to chit chat alot haha..we are always able to tok non-stop(Esp mE!). Then, we went to the cinema ard 6.30pm & redeemed the free tix at the table & realised that everyone watching that show in that particular cinema are all winners of the contest. Since it was free-seating, we took some time to decide where to seat haha..really troublesome ah even though we have choices. :P Free-seating made alot of ppl excited abt it..haha although i dunno y.

The show was really Farnie!!!!Go watch it (Esp if u watched "Meet the parents") but even if u didnt watch it, u will still be able to enjoy it! The sound effect wasnt very good & we had a hard time hearing wat they were saying. It blacked out in the middle of the show & that was really my first time experiencing black-out during a movie. The staff came in to apologise & it took abt 5 mins to resume. After the show, we were "Forced" to remain seated to watch a trailer of the show "Wars of the World". It was a really short trailer lor..haha but it was already enough to tell me I'm definitely gonna watch it!!!! It's a Steven Spielberg production & Tom cruise is in it! Haha..:D

Hmm..we went home after the show cos it was already v late & there's still lesson tmr. Yuan called to ask me to go Lot1 but i didnt wan to..Firstly, cos i was tired. Secondly, cos i didnt wanna meet him and thirdly, i got no mood. He jus dyed or highlighted his hair la & i think the highlight is either BLUE or PURPLE! I'm sure he's gonna keep toking abt his hair if i meet him...& of course abt the girls ard him that he is interested in! Duh~!!!!

Anyways, tmr if Christmas Eve! We still havent decided wat to do though! So boring! Still got school til 12pm & i think i would go home first ba...sure meet at night wan..so i might get a tan..:D If the sun is good that is. Sianz............................
I was a little unhappy with SH cos' she didnt reply to tell me whether she is able to meet me today or not. She told me she would confirm with me like 2 days ago...& i had to ask Erma so quickly this morning when she gave me morning call. Hai...forget it..i dun think i will meet her liaoz la..:P

Oh yah~!!! I saw "Famous" today!!!!! Hahaa...we were walking towards each other at a corridor & he smiled and said "Hello" to me! I jus smiled & said "Hello" back v softly,acting normal hahaha...But once i went into the lab, i was like:" Erma!!!! Haha i saw Famous leh~!! He said harlow!!! So handsoome!!!Haha...So long never see him!" Haha i know i am insane..actually i dun really LIKE or LOVE "Famous"...it's jus that he is the youngest & most handsome lecturer in SP so far. Somemore, he is so friendly and always smiling to us when he sees us..hahah!It is somethng that make my day in school more "bright" la in a way.

~*-___-"GaStRic PaIn-___-"*~

I have been having gastric pain all day since morning right after i gulped down the mee soto with chilli to rush to the next class. Erma & I were doing report & didnt have the time to eat la..the queue was so long too..and we've onli had ard 10 min. I dunno why it made me have gastric pain or maybe that wasnt the main cause of it. I was feeling quite alright but after school, i went to causeway pt to meet my mum for lunch ard 3pm. Didnt have appetite la and felt a little pain, we shared a bowl of rice n seafood soup & my gastric came back more seriously this time. I sat beside my mum's working booth in "Guardian" until i felt better! HAha...Then i went to the lib at CIvic Plaza & read some books & rest at the same time. When i reached home, my sis & Jerry asked me to have dinner at Serangoon area, so he drove us there & after eating, gastric pain again until now! Wat THE heLL!!! Haiz...actually I've had this for years..since v young & my mum is quite worried abt me. She used to ask me to take some pills everyday but i was tooo lazy n didnt do it la. Now she is urging me again...and actually I'm feeling a bit scared abt it la cos i think u shouldnt think too lightly abt ur health. SO, Sista...go get a FULL BOdy CHECKUP soon~!!!

Anyway, I borrowed another 3 chinese books! Amazing?haha I didnt know i would be so addicted lor..so NERDY now..:( Haha..
Btw, i received some feedbacks from Jerry & weiqiang that i ruined the love story i was blogging abt in the previous entry at the end haha...! I'm so sorry..i didnt know it will affect the readers hhaha...I'm jus too lazy..:P Ooo..and i also saw some really cute bags at metro there..and some clothes...i think i'm gonna do some shopping soon!!!

I sms SH this morning & didnt expect her to reply me but SHE DID! I was glad to see her sms la..i asked her to meet up sometime this week to catch up & she said SURE! Hmm..i guess she mus be very busy with her family...maybe we are meeting on thurs or fri ba. Heng i initiated, if not i dunno when we will get to see each other again. I dun wan our friendship to jus fly away becos of her marraige! :D

Anyway, I was v irritated with some things these days. When i took the MRT, inconsiderate ppl jus couldnt care abt others who has nothing to hold on to. In the crowded cabin, some ppl can even lean against the pole, leaving nothing for the rest to hold on to and everyone else will be swinging here n there with the risk to fall anytime!
Another thing is, outside my condo...some ppl jus couldnt care less abt others who are struggling outside the gate to press the intercom to get inside. They jus scan their keys n walk in themselves when they see them there...Arrghh~~!! Today it happened again..an indian man was in front of me and there was an uncle at the intercom n the indian man jus walked in liddat! So, i smiled to the uncle and let him in lor..I dunno la but his smile really made me happy at that moment.
There is also an old cleaner who always cleans the area under my block. He is this cute old man haha who has a very friendly and cheerful face. Every morning when i see him downstairs i would wanna say "Morning" or "Hi" to him and he is realli happy haha..i dunno whether he is realli happy la but i am happy when i see him smiling at me! :D

I grabbed my bro's fone during dinner jus now & read thru' his msgs. He has so many female friends sending him sms & his outbox is also full of his msgs to the girls. There are abt 5 girls in total!!! Wah...i didnt know he is so POWER also leh! Normally i see him blur blur gong gong..haha but he actually got his own style ah! Among the 5 girls, there is one girl who is one year older than him...and their sms to each other so flirty n sweet de,but they are not together! Wah...my bro claims that she is his godsister...haha my FOOT! :P He said he didnt like any of them...but he treats girls very well..! Later he get into love trouble then i cannot help him ah..:P

Hmm..today no mood to write report leh...i have one BIG BIG pimple coming out on my chin..!!Arrghh..so painful n irritating! Hmm...why is that person not online yet?I go play game lor..:P

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Woke up really late ard 2pm..went swimming wit my bro ard 4 pm til 5.30pm. The water was v v cold & we swam a few laps before going to the Jacuzzi. I was still lousy at freestyle..Arrrhhhgg no matter how much i swam i also cannot master that stroke. Anyway, we were mad at the Jacuzzi..haha! My bro asked me to massage the bottom of my feet cos' it is ticklish! He dragged me to try lor & it really was very very ticklish, i couldnt keep it there for more than a few secs..haha i know we are crazy..(go try it and see if u can endure :D)

Chat wit Rs last night & abt some inner thots...it was a realli long conversation & we are glad we did it. He is really a beri understanding person, wish him all the best in watever he does ba! :D
We are planning to go for buffet dinner wit F9 on Christmas eve but have yet to find the place. Anyone else wanna come?hehe..:)
My friends are also planning to go for a graduation trip ard May i think..but dunno where to go..i also very broke leh..but it sounds realli fun! Eve...wanna come anot?HAa..cos i am like the only girl leh..v poor thing..maybe try askin Jess or waner or even my sister.

Went for dinner with my family jus now...my mum was realli tired..heh she was sooo cute lor. She said she couldnt bring home any slimming cream these days so both of us are gonna get fatter n fatter! SHe hugged me so tightly to squeeze our tummies together hahhaa...i know we sound perverted! -_-" Anyway, they ordered a BIRD dish...!!! There were ard 6 birds..er i dunno wat birds are they..but the look of them..i couldnt eat it...very scary! I used my chopsticks to touch it & jus tht it made me feel so gross..haha~!

Gotta go sch early tmr do report...but so happy dat tmr's lesson ends at 2pm and it ends with FRaser! :D Eh..My CLS (chemical life science department) really sux! We have to do our attachment in the holidays, thus there isnt any hols...and our FYP is a whole year while some others courses only half a year & some even has FYP time slots in their timetables! We have to squeeze time in between our lectures to rush thru our FYP! They have lesser modules to study also..arrgghhh~! Why is that so???Stupid course...Haha..it's not as if we will definitely earn more than the others when we work or wat..! :P So stressed de...sianz..Might not even get a job that is related to wat i'm studying now.

~*Xue mei, wo bu shuai*~

That's the title of the book :D I took abt 5 days to finish this book & it is abt school love stories. I think the author is from Taiwan. (I assign fake eng name for the characters) The main character is a guy called Jake & he has a gang of gd buddies (Ken, Tom, Ben & Shawn). He has an elder sis (Sally) & Sally has a gd friend called Kate. Sally used to have another friend called Tiffany. (I think it is v v confusing..u dun have to read it la i jus wanna blog abt the story for those who MIGHT be interested but u have to be patient HaHA :D). Sally & Kate opens a gift shop of their own & they need to go for night class, so Jake works at night. Sally hired a part-time girl to work with him at night and she is a very pretty girl called Crystal. Jake used to like Tiffany but Tiff has a bf & she married him overseas n he was v v sad. Crystal resembles Tiff & so he was very attracted to her too but he dunno whether that is real love.

Anyway, he and his friends met a cute n sweet girl called Kit when sch reopened & Kit is 1 yr their junior. She wasnt familar abt the sch system so she followed them wherever they went but actually she likes Jake. Jake was irritated with her cos she was always "Sticking" to him...she would also wait for him after sch if she ends earlier n as time passes..he also waits for her but he tot he treated her like his young sister. Kit confessed her love for him one day & he was shocked & asked her not to tok nonsense. He was still irritated n annoyed with her but she still continued to follow him n pester him & he got used to it and somehow felt comfort with her. When she wasnt ard he felt wierd as if something is missing. Gradually, he fell for her but didnt have the courage to confess it cos he was still not v sure...in his heart he hoped she was his gf...but he also dun wanna have the risk of losing her one day if he had her. (Cos he already lost Tiff in the past)

Ok..let me switch my story to Jake's friends. Crystal likes Ken & wrote a love letter & asked Jake to pass it to Ken. Ken likes Kate, who is actually older than him obviously. He rejected the love letter cos he didnt wanna hurt Crystal at all...on the other hand, Tom likes Crystal. So, he decided to ans the love letter using Ken's name cos he jus wan Crystal to be happy. When the truth was out, Crystal was v hurt....(got details la..go thru alot lor.. but no need to say)...in the end, Tom wif Crystal..Ken with Kate. Ben likes Crystal's friend..aiyah that wan not impt. Shawn likes to chat online with ppl..and there's this girl called Jill who he had been chatting with for 2 years plus but they've never met cos the girl didnt wan. Finally, she agreed to meet & she is actually wheel-chair bound. She didnt wan to burden Shawn..(then alot of details again...) but in the end they got together too! :D

Ok so back to the 2 main characters...
An accident occured & something crashed down towards Kit. Jake rushed to protect her and got cut in the eye...got blind. @_@
Kit looked after him EVERYDAY..eventually she moved over with him to look after him & one day she told him she wanted to quit school to tkcare of him. He does not know when he will see again..1 yr?5 yrs?10yrs?or not again? He needs a cornea but alot of patients are on the waiting list and he needs a suitable 1. He didnt wanna burden Kit and waste her youth n time...so his attitude towards her began to change & he managed to brk her heart n she disappeared.

After a few years, he recovered cos his dad found a suitable cornea thru his friend in America. He wanted to look for Kit again but he couldnt find her for 2 years (she went to Tokyo to live with her grandparents). Kit has a v unique n fragrant smell on her and when Jake was blind, that was all he needed to smell to find peace n happiness. Another year in sch, a new girl resembles Kit but her perfume made Jake wanna puke!haha..:D In his heart, there's only Kit..
Then, he found out that his sister (Sally) has been in contact with her for some time but didnt tell him! In the end, Sally agreed to bring him to her & when he saw her, she was BLIND. Haha..actually she isnt blind la..but they put up a show and told him that Kit donated her cornea to him.

Aiyah i dun have the energy to write already la..haha the end is jus a very very happy ending for EVERYONE except for his sis, Sally. Sally's bf died in an accident a day before their marraige & she is single all the while. This story is very touching lor..i cannot express it thru here hhaa..it is trying to tell us to grab the opportunity to find ur happiness, express ur love...etc etc..

haha hope u guys are not bored :D

~*KTV MADness*~

Haha call me mad but i dun mind..I went to Kbox ALONE today & sang from 2pm to 7 pm ALONE! I think i've sang over 200 songs haha & went to the toilet only once in between. I was feeling rather uneasy at first cos' my room was located near to the staff room & everyone has to walk past my room to get to the toilet too. So, alot of ppl looked into my room & the waiters kept opening the door to clear my glasses, ask for any orders, ask for billing and lastly to remind me when it was time for the last song. I tried to dim the lights but haha..it didnt help at all & if i off it, i cant really see the remote.

Anyway, it was freezing cold today & I was shaking n trembling while i sang haha..! I sang soooo many songs..i just chose all the songs i know la..and when my time was up, there were still songs left in the system which i have not sang! Haha..surprisingly i didnt get sore throat..I tot i would die and lose my voice after this session. I drank 2 glasses of COKE n 1 glass of Lemon Tee..so much SUGAR! OMG...haha..after singing, i went to BLK 8 @ Teck Whye to C my friends play soccer. The wind was soooo strong and i still felt super cold even when i got my jacket on. My hands felt like ICE haha..the weather was jus like a natural Air-con. I finished reading the last 2 chapters of the chinese book there & i shall blog abt the story after this entry (It's really NICE).
Then, we went for dinner when the lights were out at 9pm..i was very hungry cos i only ate half bowl of fried rice this morning til then.

I didnt wanna bath haha..cos i didnt sweat at all the whole day & felt really lazy la. But i bathed in the end hor...(i'm not so dirty afterall haha)! I'm supposed to write some pages for the project report by Monday for compilation but i suddenly realise i didnt have any lib books for ref. I am so stuck right now!..Arrrgghhh~!!! I will go write after blogging la..:P

Why these days keep raining wan???I planned to go downstairs to tan this morning but when i got changed, the sun hid! Haha..! Hai..then when i changed back to normal house clothes, the sun came out..practically playing Hide-n-seek with me. I got fed up la then didnt have the mood already...then it rained!So, that's why i went Kbox instead!

My 4e1 fellas plan to celebrate christmas eve at Phoenix Hotel & stay overnight there for one night but it costs $208nett. So, we have to find ppl to divide the cost, however, I'm not really interested la..cos spending christmas indoors in a hotel dun really sound fun.

Hmm..my hp batt is spoilt & i have to get a new one asap! Anyone knows where definitely sells Panasonic GD88 hp batt?(not too ex ah!) Xx said that Queensway got sell leh..i might go try la..but that place so inconvenient to go..very lazy also..haiz..~!Hmm..i go blog abt the love story liao..:)

~*Miss u YW*~

I was chatting wif YW jus now & I really missed the days when yw, me & Erma were together in YR1 Sp. Although we were jus one small neglected clique, we were v happy n fun! All of us had diff characters, personalities & style & it was quite amazing to see us as gd friends! We used to speak in Eng for Erma to understand but Erma is already so good in Mandarin that she can also understand when we communicates in Mandarin! We chat abt ANYTHING & had alot of fun in school. Yw is such a cute and fun-loving gal..so petite n yet she keeps complaining that she is FAT! She has already slimmed down so much & getting prettier n prettier each day! So happy for her now that she has got a really loving Hubby to dote on her & also she has learnt to appreciate him more...(cos they broke up once). :D
When she was with me n Erma, we used to go shopping sometimes but now Erma and me never go shopping leh...:( Very seldom maybe ba...
I rmb we also used to chit chat alot during Maths tutorial class haha...and we often got our names called for toking to much!Hahaha...:P

Anyway, yw tot alvin & I are still okie & was surprised when she knew we no longer contact. She kept asking me why n wat happened but i was too lazy to explain everything! She said that Vin looked v happy n normal in class, so i think he has moved on too..and tat's a relief for me la :D

Eh ..nothing much to blog abt...i might go tanning tmr morning..by my house poolside hahah~!

~*Sudden thotz*~

I've been reading my sista's&jerry's blog regularly & I almost couldnt stand it haha cos there are jus too many ants crawling across the monitor! :D Wonderin' y? Cos' it's jus extremely SweeT..Too much "sugar"!

I've been left alone AGAIN while they went to enjoy "National Treasure" at Cine haha..actually I'm fine with it really! They are forever this sweet uh? The ans is YES & even if they quarrel, it's jus over some SILLy Minor matters..ya Duhz..-___-"

Frankly speaking, I'm gonna miss my Sis Badly when they get married but at the same time, I will feel v happy for her too! I think I will be crying with my Mama on her wedding day and my mascara will be smudged to make me look like a panda instead. I'm so glad that my sis & also Jerry has finally found their True & Dying love haha, which is so difficult to find i think! She & Waner jus can't wait to get married & start a family & ppl like me is here worrying whether i will find my true love & whether i still fear the fact of giving birth in the near futurE!!hahaha...:D I'm lousy i know..:(

Hmm...there's a saying which says dat u hav to experience alot of relationships to find the ONE but i guess that really depends ah..for me i might never find one?haha...or have I or am i going to find it soon?But it's kinda tiring esp right after my previous TIRING n DWELLING relationship.
I think the most impt thing in life is happiness la..& I've been going online everyday to chat n chat these days. Always have the urge to quickly log on after sch if i am free. My msn nick being "rather not getting it than having a risk of losing it after u got it"(actually read it from a chinese book), I kinda agree wit it too...but thinking in another way, isnt it better if u get it n experience the goodness of getting it and have a RISK of losing it but not necessarily lose it in the end, than not having it at all?!Haha...think i'm confusing myself now..:P

Are there moments or time when u feel like hugging someone jus to feel secure n safe n comforted?...I sure do feel that way sometimes & jus by hugging my Mum sometimes made me feel v good :D Actually hugging my Daddy also not bad la muahaha~! I used to hope for an invention which can act like a companion..which u can tok to(of course he must be able to understand), which has feelings...haha i think i'm thinking too much! Right now, I jus feel happy n comforted dat there is always someone there for me when i need him(he claims so..haha but dunno how true)..Thanks & u know who u are! :P

Aiyah btw, I hope i dun dream so much from today onwards cos my mum jus got me a bead bracelet that's suppose to protect me n prevent me from dreaming so much. Haha! :P

-_End Of Crapping_-

Hey i'm here again...i know i am very long-winded.(",) I cant seem to finish blogging haha!

I jus hate studying during Dec!!! I wonder how will i b celebrating christmas...i like christmas cos it's all jolly n beautiful...and it's like a season for love n warmth! Hai but i have to get back to sch on monday!!! There might even be quizzes n assignments if i'm really that bad luck! How come singapore doesnt hav the 4 seasons???I've ever experienced winter..haha i know it will be super cold but it sounds like fun too..my fav season would hav to b autumn although i've neber experienced it before too.

Btw, I was walking home from the lrt station yesterday n i was looking down on the ground as i walked. I nearly stepped onto an army of ants that were carrying a stick or something on their way across the pathway. Whoa..i "Siam" ah...haha i tot they were really united n hardworking! Kinda respected them at that moment hahaha!!!! I tot if i accidentally stepped onto them..i would feel really sorry for them :(

I saw Alvin(from dunearn, not from SP) and Fadz(from SP) at the platform after sch. I naturally went to tok to Alvin cos at least i knew him better than Fadz. Felt a little awkward cos didnt realli know wat to tok to him abt and with Fadz looking from time to time..haha it was even more awkward. I acted as if i didnt know he was looking haha..then when our eyes met, i jus smiled very fakely haha!(dunno whether he realised) Oh and there was this really really short n petite guy who kept glancing this way and we took the same lrt. He was wierd..haha...heng he alighted before me.

Alvin also said that he miss the sec sch days...then we toked abt teachers n stuffs. I always think wat i would do when my grp of guy friends go NS. I dun wanna drift from them..but things really changes..frankly speaking, my closest friends are them..so when they go into ns, I'll be super lonely! Haha then maybe go look for shuhui everyday to play with my GODSON!

Hmm...i used to collect my friends' baby photos and kept them all in one photo album. All of them looked really CUTE & I wanna arrange them in another huge album next time. I really appreciate them giving me their precious baby pics..but some of them wan an exchange from me before they give it to me!Haa...:D It's amazing how i still rmb who's baby photos are they although i didnt write their name behind the photos.

aiyah...currently mind block again..ay wanted to write something abt Christianity but really dun dare ...afraid i might offend someone who reads my blog.

~*LonG Day but Free of the "WITCH"*~

I just came back from school and was totally drenched from the idiotic rain, which has already stopped now. Showered and wanted to eat some leftovers from last night but ended up eating the bday cake. It was the longest day of this week but it was ok since there wasnt any lesson from the WITCH. We had 3 hours of lectures total from FrasEr~!!! He is really sooooo funny and i enjoyed his jokes and laughed til there were tears in my eyes! :D I think he can change to become a comedian or a public speaker! He tend to drift away from the topic and talks abt funny things he experienced or his thinking...and they always end up being SUPER FUNNY! How i hope all of u can attend his lesson and have a good laugh!Hehe~!

Anyway, his main joke today was on "SHIT" & the TOILET! He said that there were many names for "SHIT" such as "jobbies"(i wonder if i spelt it correctly), "faeces", "poo poo", "stools"(scientific term) etc etc. There's also many different shapes and sizes he described and those shaped like TORPEDOS that zoomed down into the sewage when u flushed it down.

There's also some hotel toilets which have an area for u to wash ur butt after doing "business" and it looks like a water cooler with the water shooting out upwards. Some ppl might think of that as a water cooler instead and he said he had one friend who said, "Oh there's a drinking tap in the toilet but it's too low for me that i have to kneel down." Haha i think it's not v funny here la ..u really HAVE to see Fraser tok..with those expressions and actions! :D He is so much better than that WITCH! I felt quite tired after his lessons..haha cos i've used up so much energy laughing!

My bag was so heavy after buying textbook from the popular & Erma was slanting to one side when she carried her sling bag hahah~! Hey, she finally got her Levis Jeans! Haha! I think i've might change the topic i wanna say next week to the dreams that i always have when i slp at night. Hmmm...

Two of my frens said that i look slimmer today!Haha..it might be because of the clothes i wore (at most probably it is) but imagine how happy i was when i heard that haha~! One of them even said he wasnt sure it was me when he saw me from behind. (ay but it also means i was very fat???)-___-" They asked whether i'm on a diet and asked me not to slim down la cos i look nice now..but i wanna slim down! I hope i can continue exercising frequently.

Rs saw hui at Clementi today & i was excited so i asked him alot of qns haha~ However, they didnt tok at all but jus said "Hi" cos he was going up the escalator while she was on the other direction. Through him, hui dresses more matured now (black top, black skirt) but the hair is still the same(highlight). She isnt as slim as she used to be ba.. of course that's due to her giving birth..i really fear that day..haha maybe i will wanna choose caesarean method. Hmm i wonder whether she was surprised and shocked or embarrassed to see him. I mus really ask her out ONE day..haha
Hock also not goin to ChinaBlack tonight & went to acc Xx in town instead. They asked me to go down too la but i was quite tired la..was starving and there's "MARS" to watch somemore. Two guys only..haha a bit wierd..:P

Tmr 9am to 12pm..short day but no brk at all. One shot 3 hours! Haiz...balanced out by one hr Fraser and one hr WITCH. Then i hope time wil stop..cos i dun wan the weekend to be oveR!!!
I am so broke now..haiz...but feel like watching "National Treasure" or "Oceans 12"...Bleah...

~*~Happy BiRthday To u Jerry~*~

Jerry's family came over for steamboat and it was a surprise cos he didnt know abt it. When he reached home, he was very happy of course haha~! Too bad i was in the bathroom, didnt get to see his reaction. I was lookin forward to the steamboat but when it started, i didnt have much appetite & ate very little only, didnt even finish the rice. Anyway, Jerry's family was really Nice & fun to tok with..haha the things they say are quite funny n interesting too. His mum is very cute ah..haha like a small girl in the heart. His bro was also like a small kid when he took out my hamster to play :P (oops dun tell him ah Jerry!) later i die liao~! His bday cake was SUPER chocolaty and it made my hair stand when i ate too much hahaha~! I didnt get him anything for bday..haha but already have something in mind today...

Anyway, I was v tired on the way to sch this morning & we went for project before one lesson. That lesson (Oral Communication) is one that i really dislike!!! Alot of presentation in front of the whole class is needed.. and it already started today by taking individual turns to speak for 5 mins abt anything u wan! I can never do well for presentations and i will always stammer n get realli realli nervous! Haiz...i jus dun have the courage ba..haha ME and erma were soooo nervous lor and even hoped to skip our turns. There wasnt time for the whole class today n we tot we escaped but the teacher said we will continue next week! Omg~! Anyway, I've decided to tok abt ERMA! hahaa..And i will be saying something like this :

~*^_^HaPpy BiRthDay Rs^_^*~

Rs finally turned 19 when I've already turned 19 months ago...haha~! :P Wanted to go celebrate with him by having dinner with F9 but he ate at home with his family. Didnt buy him any prezzie..eh no money leh..haiz..so sorry leh~! If i have money i also have no idea wat to buy for him lehz.Think he had fun although he needed to be in sch to be busy over his project. Today's also Owen's bday! Haha..he mus feel honoured to have the same bday as Owen!

Went to sch for project only & i wore flip-flops cos i didnt expect WITCH to turn up. I was shocked when she appeared to inform us abt our project dateline, but luckily i was seated at that time. She saw the buddy class ppl wearing slippers and questioned them so loudly..eh then i asked my grp members to sit closer to me to hide my legs! Anyway, felt like cleaners n aunties(makcik) cos we were scrubbing the floor, cleaning table tops and cleaning cupboards...there were stains everywhere and we were complained by FRaser. Scrubbed and cleaned like mad using bleach and it smells disgusting!

Went to Lot 1 lib cos wanted to take a look at the chinese love novels and found a few of them which looks interesting. Read one in the lib for about an hour or so..it was really nice to read..haha..i borrowed 2 books finally, also for my mum to read la. Was waiting for Weiqiang to come while reading and he really took a long time to reach!-_-"
Went to eat dinner but he didnt eat..-__-" Then went to bt batok to acc him to have his haircut.
He looks better after the haircut haha..:P

Went to West Mall AGAIN cos i needed to go to the toilet to settle my "business"!Walked ard before heading home...that friend B called me when i was on the bus! I didnt know it was him cos there wasnt any number(his fone is private no.)I really regretted answering that call!!! He toked to me abt nonsense n rubbish! Told me that he got nothing to say at first and that's y he kept toking rubbish but when i said why call me when he got nothing to say, he said he got alot of things to say actually....CONTRADICTING!!! He even tot i despise him having tattoo and him being expelled! He was disappointed that the 100 over anti-depressant didnt damage his brain and kill him or let him at least suffer from amnaesia! OMG!...He is really MAD! I'm a bit worried that he might come to SP one day to look for me instead cos i plan not to answer anymore anonymous fone calls and gonna block him in msn...

Tmr's class starts at 1pm but i have to go ard 9.30am for project ...haiz...then lesson end latest 3pm and might have to do project again after that! I hope WITCH has forgotten abt the meeting tmr cos i think we will be DEAD if she meet us! Tmr's only lesson is language lesson leh...ORaL communication...it sounds really boring..haiz..hope the teacher is fun and friendly. Dun be like the previous wan...see already also no mood -_-"

Anyway, 16th if Jerry's bday and we are celebrating it tmr. My sis and mum really very sweet to him lor..haha they actually planned a steamboat tmr with his family members coming over too..but without him knowing it! Since Jerry's not working tmr, my sis gonna bring him out eary to go shopping or watever. Yeah tmr got steamboat eat haha..but meaning i have no time for jogging after i come back from sch..and i'm gonna eat alot hahaha~!(guilty)

THese days really kinda fed up with N..haiz...dun feel like botherin him...no mood to listen to his complaints...so childish~...cant stand him sometimes! Always having the same probs...dunno how to think also..think also tink wrongly...haiz! I hope he grows up soon la..think his skin too thick liao..-_-"

Think not going to the SIM bash this thurs..cos fri have morning lesson ...I'll be a walking zombie if i go..and maybe a walking panda also.haha~!Eh saw Xindu at the platform & found out that he is also going to the bash...wat a small world..Hmmm sorry eh Jess...gonna "bang seh" ya girl! But hope to see her at Sentosa this weekend la! Hehe..Sentosa_maniac liao..:P Hope it doenst rain! Can the "sun God" do somthing???

Anyway, saw Esther Lok from Dunearn at lot 1 today. She changed a little la..haha slimmed down alot and her face was super red..!! She was still very friendly and we chatted a while..then she went off. Oh also saw Huiwen at Westmal today..she is realli one cool gal with a cool personality..like her style sometimes but she a bit hunchback la.

Aiyah die la..dunno why now so hungry..but cannot eat leh..brush teeth already...gonna endure la.tmr got steamboat!!!Muaahaha..~!

The dinner was gross jus now..it tasted really nice at first cos i was super hungry, but it tasted gross after that. I didnt finish it, got no appetite.

Hmm..I washed my hamster's cage today..it was soooo smelly!!! My hamster so ke lian now..haiz..i noticed there was another thing sticking out near the ear...not jus that one that had been growing all the while. It was disgusting..hai i dunno wat to do...hais..
I made a small box using paper to put his food haha so it looks neater..but my hamster so naughty and toppled the thing...:P

I feel that the first week is going to be over soon...have to buy alot of textbooks which are quite ex! Teachers are already mentioning the quiz dates!...haiz..making me go crazy again! Thurs should i go clubbing?Haiz..fri got morning class leh..sure die wan. Cannot tahan the tiredness!

Arrr..lazy to go sch tmr..ok la..have to leave already..my dark rings really getting worse n worse!!! haha can enjoy steamboat soon~! Then have to exercise like hell haha...:P Ciaoz~!

~*1st Day of Sch*~

It kinda SuX! First lesson was the Witch & although it was jus a briefing, she used up the whole hr to tok rubbish, which i dun think anyone is very interested in. She really has 2 sides of personality, she was sooooo SWEET in the class but so BITCHY n BAD when she meet us for discussion. It was DISGUSTING to jus look OR listen to her..Jiayi said that her hair stood everytime she listened to her voice! She was smiling all the way while she spoke & looked so happy!MAd woman!

We were praying not to have her as our class tutor n HENG AH!..FRaser is our class tutor...LOVE him SOO much..haha! He is such a funny person! It was his lesson after the Witch's & he was saying some funny incidents he experienced & i laughed til my tears almost came out! :D Tmr whole day his practical but he said there's not prac for the first week so by right, we dun have to go to sch tmr. However, i still need to go for that DAMN project...haiz..sux!

After his lesson, it's back to seeing that Witch again..arrr! She started practical on the first day..damn! I tot we might end ard 2 something but she released us at 430pm! She was enjoying the whole session, kept showing n showing us slides on the microscope n joking along...which was pretty lame! Noone was interested too...i tot she was silly. She would tok on n off abt her own things like her neighbours n etc...i dunno why she's like that!

Anyway, went to Jurong east Popular after sch and bought a few stationaries...was searching for the Fann wong book but to no avail. Then, i walked ard lor cos felt that it was quite early also..then went to the chinese books section. Saw a book which really attracted me..hehe and stood there reading for like 4 chapters(very short la each chapter)! It's realli nice..haha not those novels that aunty likes to read la...this is more for teenagers..love story. The title is "ri chu shi, qian qian xiao shou", which means "Hold that little hand during sunrise" if it is directly translated.Haha...next time i might go back and buy it!:P

I recieved a msg from Kokhow asking me to acc him to watch "Polar Express" ..haha i was surprised n tot it was weird too...i suspected him to be "playing" with me. I asked him why...n i heard that it isnt a nice show. Then he said he can watch "Oceans 12" too..but i tot it isnt even released yet..haha i told him i got no money..and i recieved a reply from Huaming!!! haha i knew it..he said that kokhow was paiseh..haha strange..dunno wat's there to be paiseh abt..and they kept apologising...am i so petty??:P

I am so hungry!!!!!!....Waited for my mum to buy back dinner from 9pm to 11pm! Feel giddy too..hahaa....Ahhh they are finally home...go makan first..tata..~!!

~*Wat a Fast Day*~

Work up ard 2pm & had lunch with Rs at Teckwhy hawker..haha my fav fish beehoon! Very yummy! Then, we walked ard lor..haha noting to do..bought facial cleanser n hair dye from Watson. It drizzled after that..it was a cold day...

Dyed my hair hah..but actually it doesnt seem to hav any difference...sux! ..Went to meet weiqiang at lot 1..haha i was terribly late...so paiseh cos it was the first meeting although we seemed to have chat for a v long time online. I thought it was quite awkward when we first met..hah didnt know where to go..kept walking n walking..then went to West mall cos lot 1 was too packed with ppl..very irritating!

I realised he isnt wat i tot he is...tot he was super quiet..difficult to get along..haha..but he was actually kinda lame...talkative..full of craps!!hahaha...paiseh eh..~! :P
I was laughing most of the time..n rolling my eyes ..haha This guy like cannot live without his jacket hahah...:P I mus say the pics he take are really nice..Anyway, reached home ard 12am..hai sian to go sch tmr..jus the tot makes me so sian...

I have a friend B, realli not close with him at all..eh..i used to think he is weird..recently knew he got expelled from sch. He got nothing to do n doesnt wanna work! I dunno wat he does not..but he told me he has some mental probs..and he is sensitive to the word "MAD"...he recently jus got out of the hospital cos he took 100+ anti-depressants at one go! I couldnt believe it..i asked him why n he said cos of personal reasons. Even asked me whether i will go n visit him if i know he is hospitalized. Eh..so wierd..I dunno wat to say to him la..

Tmr gonna reach sch at 930am to discuss abt project but dunno whether there will be any outcome after the discussion haha...night everyone!
goodluck all Sp fellas!

~*4e1 Class Gathering*~

Went downstairs to tan awhile by the poolside with Rs yesterday morning but the sun wasnt helpful and it rained drizzled in the end..SHiT! Haa..then we went Jacuzzi n I went Sauna. I stayed inside the Sauna longer this time until the heat started "killing" me..hahaa...i was looking like a cooked prawn when i came out of the sauna room! My mum cooked porridge, so we went upstairs to have our lunch and watched TV.

Went to the class gathering quite late cos was not very interested to go at the beginning cos Jess didnt feel like goin & i would be the only girl from our clique going. I met with Hock at Jurong east to go together & in the end JEss also went la..so we were the three latest ppl. When we reached Paragon "Spagghedies", the rest have already finished eating & we stepped out of the place jus after stepping in for a few secs!Hahaa...then we stood outside the restaurant and took abt 30 min to decide where to go next!WTH! We are always so indecisive n it was very awkward also cos i'm not close with many of them except my own clique. So, jess n i was sticking together most of the time. Then, we waited for Ian outside Paragon for like almost one hour or 30 mins, so we took pics while we were waiting. Took a v v long time to decide where to go next AGAIN, and ended up splitting into 2 grps. One grp going to sit outside "SPinelli" to chat while the others grp going to shop in heeren. I didnt wanna shop so i chose to chat lor..ahh also sat with my clique ppl..so pathetic! After they finished shopping, everyone was outside "Spinelli" chatting...and then it started to get more comfortable la.

Everyone changed a little but some of the guys really no change at all..Caren & Pearline are so pretty! Caren can be a model! She is soooo damn tall!!haha..I am a SHorty la..:(
After that, some of them went to Boat Quay Pub to drink while me and yuan went to Lot 1 to meet Rs n Xx for movie "Blade Trinity" while Jess went home to ZZzzZzz....
When we met them at Kpool, an Ah Beng came to tok to yuan and said that he dislikes the way he walks! Haha..i tot that was SUPER childish!!!! That Beng was much older than us la..still got such childish thinking n wanna "Jio meng" ppl. He was shouting at yuan lor..and we were jus looking n i couldnt help smiling!!I know i'm mad..we didnt know how to help him too. Then the beng walked away after scolding some vulgarities. Another beng came over to tok to him..but this time he was a nicer fella. Both are mad ppl!Of course yuan was pissed!!

Hmm...The movie was alright la, not as nice as the previous two sequeals.I was soooo hungry cos didnt eat much since lunch. Went to 302 to makan after the show and met alot of dunearnites la..like hong leong, yan ye that grp...then those who went to boat quay came to makan too. Then, some of them went to xun's house..and i went home to change before going over lor. I was super tired...hai...slept outside his living room sofa. We went home ard 6am..and i just woke up ard 2pm!haha..

Tmr is school already...haiz...guess today's gonna pass real fast! Tonight can watch "Star awards" la..haha...sianz...:P
Gtg n have mua lunch...Hungry Hungry~!

~*Soon School Will Begin*~

Tot of going downstairs to tan again haha but the weather wasnt helpful at all. Ended up singing KTV at home, playing those VCDs my mum bought for me from Chinatown. Actually they are pirated la cos the music was a little weird & also my system wasnt as good as KBox wan. Sang til ard evening and went jogging with my sis.

We planned to jog n come back before going too Lot 1 to return VCD n her lib books. However, when we went downstairs to the gym, both treadmills were occupied. So, we took the books n VCDs n jogged all the way to LOT 1 to return it instead! hahaha...i know it sounds a bit crazy n silly, & i felt that way too la..haha! After returning, we jogged home lor..I was sups year too. I thinnnnk I will do a hip-hop or lyrical to a country song. I don'lt know yet. It'll be kinda weird to be by myself. I always dance with some one with me. One year for our holiday show I did a duet with my friend. That's the closest I've come to dancing by myself.
st I've come to dancing by myself.

~*KTV*~

Went KTV with Jason, Ys n Xun at Chinatown from 2 to 7pm. Realli tired after singing..xun went home halfway cos he needed to complete something important. XX had to go for his itp interview so didnt manage to come too. That place was super cheap and the songs can say not too bad la..worth that price lor. The drinks free flow n got tidbits n a bowl of shark's fin each, $10 nett for one person but min 3 person mus go la. That area also got alot of cheap KTV VCD!..Next time i mus go there n buy liao!!Muaahaa!

After singing, we went orchard to meet xx & walked ard to look n see see. Ys wanna buy present for his gf ma..n jason bought present for his friend too.
Eh..feel quite tired now leh...it's Taufik's bday today! (eh so sian leh)

I wanna go suntan leh...but dunno sunday weather nice anot..Then monday start sch again...haiz..~! I have no programmes lining up tmr...plan to jog and rest a bit. Might be going out at night ba..actually tot of going tanning tmr morning but no company lor..sianz!

Anyway, Rs is realli in a lousy mood today..haiz..i also dunno how to console him lor. I know no matter wat i say also no use wan...i am not in his shoes i wil never understand fully lor. Hope he feels better now..

Hai..these days always got one internet friend chatting with me..a bit sian leh...nothing much to tok to him but he seemed very enthu. My replies are always terribly short..but i dun think he noticed it. -__-" Those ppl who i wanna tok with all reply so little lor..n so slow..then those who i dun realli wanna chat with, they would reply n response so fast!Arrgghh~!!
aiyah i go play game laio..super sianz!!

~*School...Go away~!!!*~

Woke up this morning ard 11 something n watched "Starsky & Hutch" VCd with my bro cos my sis rented it. Although i watched in the cinema before but realli too bored la..at least it's a nice n funny show. I hesitated for many hours whether to go downstairs to have a tan by the poolside but i would have to go alone. That's WHY!!! The sun was very sunny at first, but i waited too long la and it seemed like it's gonna rain.

Jason came over to swim with me..so i waited downstairs til it rained! When he reached, it wasnt raining already, so we went swimming! Haha..it was really cold!!! We were freezing n my hands were as white as sheet! Swam ard 1 hour n went to Jacuzzi too..then went to Sauna for abt 20 mins..i was relaxing n slpin inside haha..almost forgot the time.
We went Bt panjang plaza for dinner at Mos Burger..so long nv eat le..i like it alot!
Then we walked ard the shopping mall n he bought himself a small brown sling bag. I almost bought a pair of flats but was irritated n unhappy with the auntie..so i decided not to buy after trying the flats!haha..i very bad right?

My mum went to Chinatown KTV today n she bought 2 shorts for me and 2 KTV VCD by Stephanie sun & Elva Hsiao.They are very cheap..so happy she bought for me! hehe..got more songs to sing liao..if not i always sing the same songs very sian! Tmr going to the same KTV she went cos realli very cheap lor the promotion. $10 nett each person from 2 to 7pm with free flow of drinks and each person gets a bowl of shark's fin!Haha..But minimum 3 persons la..so going with jason, ys n xx again. Hai too bad Rs cannot go cos he has to go for his Army body checkup with yuan.

I think i will have alot of programmes for the next few days before sch starts la..have to enjoy n tire our myself before going back to the damn school hai~!Today should have gone MS with WAner n her friends, then tmr go ktv, fri night maybe going to Ting's post-celebration at Devil's bar, sat go 4e1 class outing..sun go sentosa for tanning! haha..Heng monday start at 12pm!
Eh tmr have to wake up quite early..gtg~

~*MoRe RelAxEd*~

Phew~!!! Tmr no need to go to sch!! Btw, my grp has decided not to go until sch reopens. haa~
I was so bored the whole day..woke up at 630pm! I went jogging wit Rs ard 1030pm til 1am!..We jogged very far lor..ard cck n even jogged til yew tee! My stamina has improved n i'm happy abt it! Hey guys, i'm not a jogging freak k?Jus eager to slim down lor..got alot of determination right?haha

Wonder whether there's anywhere to go tmr..so bored! I wanna go have fun..tire out myself before sch starts again! Anyway, i heard from the radio that Jolin's concert this sat..Sly n Huang Yida will be the guest stars! Cant believe Sly can be the guest star in a concert so soon! Hai..regretted didnt buy the tix for jolin's concert..i like her also! Maybe her concert tix didnt sell so well..so they needed sly to boost the selling haha..jus a guess.

I have lesser things to blog nowadays..seem to be blogging abt rubbish n crap!Oh, i jus recieved an sms at this moment & it's from Alvin. So sudden wan, say miss me..dunno wat he is thinking too. BORING EVERYDAY!

~*Zombie Me......*~

I'm finally able to blog now...I'm nearly becoming a walking corpse this morning. Went to orchard right after sch yesterday with Rs n shopped the whole day,walking from heeren to fareast n back to heeren again! I only manage to buy a pair of slippers for $8 which i like alot, and a purple tshirt from Flesh Imp. I also bought the Wishing pearl, which Ann n I had promised to buy for each other as Christmas present haha..! Ay Ann..that pearl hor..not necessarily is for love luck wan, it depends on the colour of the pearl when u open it. So let's open it together when we exchange okie?Haha so lame right?:P

Ate Sakae Sushi buffet with Rs n was sooo bloated i couldnt walk properly haha~! I felt fat again ..haiz...so didnt wanna eat anything for dinner. After orchard, i went hm, bathed and went lot 1 to meet Xx,jason n ys for a KTV session at KbOx! We sang from 12 to 2am..they were really funny,esp Jason! Sang super loud..haha..like shouting liddat!

After singing, they ate supper at 302 n we chit chat for a very long time. Then, i was so urgent for the toilet that we searched for it and finally found it la..then went under a block to chat again until almost 6am! Everyone was ready to go for walk n we were heading home! Jason n ys went home on bus while XX walked me home before taking the LRT home. I was sooooo tired but didnt dare to slp cos i had to wake up ard 8am to go to sch again. However, i still fell aslp la..haha..then woke up ard 9am! Not too bad k??But i was so STONED when i walked out of the house...very very slpy! I felt my blood all flowing with difficulty hahaha...too exaggerating!Anyway, here i am back from sch...tmr no need to go to sch yeah~!

I wanna go slp le la..today's ting's bday..they jio to go china black but i dunno whether i wanna go lor..so ex n very few ppl onli.Haiz..somemore i so tired..dunno can manage anot..She so hiong..fri night still got "post-celebration" at Devil's Bar somemore!
Tatazz...~!

~*Untitled*~

Didnt do much today..woke up ard 11+ & went to eat with my dad at the coffeeshop. It's surprising how we managed to chat so long cos I didnt really like talking to him. We talked over school and work...I told him abt the WITCH while he told me abt a teacher who was also like the WITCH when he was in sch. He said they were loggerheads and there was one time when he wrote abt her in his essay and she gave him very high marks!haha..so he told me i must not be timid..cos it wont bring me anywhere, esp when u are working.

Went jogging again...hmm although my breathing has improved, but my left leg has been hurting these days. Think i should rest a few days liao...Tmr is sch again & I hope the Witch doesnt come. I wanna take off on tuesday to rest! FINALLY!

Think i will go shopping after sch tmr..hmm thinking of buying jeans n shoes or maybe top hhaa..but goin broke leh...hmm but i realli wanna buy a jeans badly.
Maybe jus buy jeans la..
I'm gonna call the vet again tmr..if it is realli very very ex...i might not cure my poor cute hamster..haiz :(

~*Gatherings*~

Went to Bt Timah for dinner with Xun, Jason, Xx, Rs, Kz & Yuan. It was the first time I see xun since he came back from New Zealand & he realli didnt change at all! I was expecting some changes la but not a single bit, however he claimed that he has changed for the better in the sense of his character.

Went to BBQ at East Coast Costa Sands Chalet today. There were alot of ppl lor..Jiaqian they all invited alot of ppl. It was kinda boring actually & i didnt eat much but spent most of the time sitting down n chatting. It was funny when a guy (aiyah forgot his name) said he didnt know who am I, and when he knew my name, he said i was the "legendary" Chuan Yee he has heard abt but never met! haha..then he lifted up his fringe to take a better look...:D I also dunno who he is initially..but also from same sec sch la. It was also the first time i saw Koonteck's Gf. She is really very diff from HP..and very very sporting too! When Koonteck cut the bday cake, they asked her to give him a kiss on front of everyone and they took down the pic. And she jus walked towards him n kissed him on the cheek..not paiseh at all lor..somemore she not very close with everyone!Wooo~!

We took a cab home from there and it was really ex lor..hmm i going broke so soon this month.dunno how to survive...haiz..tmr i gonna go jogging le..Today one of my friends say i look FAT! Haiz..~! so sad...:( I'm gonna buck up !
Haiz..sianz..monday approaching again..sux!

(-_-)2nd Dec'04-It Sucks!(-_-)

It was a TOTALLY different day from yesterday. I was late for project this morning cos was listening to the Idols' interview on Perfect10. Our pjt supervisor (Let's call her "Witch"), came to discuss stuff wit us. She almost pissed me off and i think she almost did that to everyone in the grp except for our "unmovable" Kokhow..-_-" We showed her the slides we tot that has got probs cos the Eosin was stained really very faintly but she explained to us y is that so etc etc.. The whole grp in fact tot that the Eosin wasnt reddish enuff but i kept telling The Witch, so she kept "Shooting" back at me...asking me why issit not red enuff. "Isn't this red?".."The RBCs picked up the stains, why would u say that it didnt pick up?"..."How red do u wan it to be, Chuan Yee?"...Blah blah blah~!!!!! Kept giving me that IRRITATING face...that "Are-U-Convinced or Satisfied" face! Tears almost came to my eyes cos i felt sooo STUCK n nobody's letting out even a sound...and she kept "SHOOTING" me! She is soooo demanding...i can say that I was not the only one who got "Shot". Sometimes i felt so bad when The Witch talked to Erma in a tone that was sooooo irritating too..and sounded like she really looked down on us. Sounds like she was scolding her..haiz~! She n Jiayi would sound like they were having an argument or a fight..but she seemed to dote on Kokhow alot although he voiced out the least n was BLUR most of the time! He could even doze off while The Witch was tokin! but Witch would jus tok softly n nicely to him...Arrghhh..~!!! She said that we go everyday but there's no results..she dun think we know wat we r doing..hai...i really dunno how am i going to continue! So FEd up with this..! Why must she set such a diff topic?Maybe the time to get the final outcome is much more longer n not jus a few months like wat we have?Maybe the amount of reagents needed are more n the cost is more than the budget?Maybe there really isnt a better stain than this commercial ones?If there is, why isnt it out now?Scientists must have come up with somethin better, always improving the things that exist but there isnt! Haiz...no use complaining now..
Anyway, The Witch took up ard 2 hours to discuss (mainly of herself tokin n toking n naggin abt Curry,Chilli-icecream,Construction workers, Brownies n etc....STupid!!!I dun give a damn!)HA!
Everyone of us are soooo TIRED...so Worn out..So DISCOURAGED!..I had wanted to tk a brk tmr, but now i have to go cos she wanted us to do more work n she'll b seeing us again on Mon..Duh...I think i will have to take the off-day next week..hope i can!

After sch, I felt soooo bored n unhappy...haha jus dunno why but v v moody. Didnt feel like going home yet so tot of asking some friends to come out n eat Sushi Buffet n tok. I really wanna tok to someone at that time..but EVERYONE SEEMED TO HAVE SCRAMMED!!Haa...the feeling really sucked!I called n sms Rs but no response...did the same for Xx n the outcome was the same..Did the same for Jason,same outcome. I tot of alighting at Westmall to wait for Jason's reply(it is nearer to his house) so i alighted atBt Batok n waited at the Platform. However, nothing..so took the train to cck. Msged Waner but she was preparing to go to work...called my sis..she wanted to stay at home..msged Yuan but he was out with Qianni in town..asked Ann to come out n sing but the timing wasnt right..Suddenly felt the urge to look for Alvin. Kept hesitating but in the end i didnt. Alighted at Lot 1 n walked ard myself..haha dunno wat to see also..onli went to the basement and looked at the VCDs. Then, walked to the 24hr kopitiam at the interchange cos there is another VCD rental shop.Bought Hotfudge Sundae to eat on the way n rented "13 going to 30". Walked back to "LAser Flair" at Basement 1 in Lot 1 to rent "The Terminal" before leavin for hm. I guess i was jus too bored n boliao..I felt realli sad too all of a sudden. Haha..i think i'm going BONKERS!...WHERE WERE ALL THE PPL ARD ME JUS NOW?

When i reached home, i kept thinking of alvin...realli wanna go n look for him..but at this point if i go n look for him, i will surely fall back to his arms de. So, i watched the Vcd and felt better...bathed n read magazines, watched Tv, and read storybook before blogging here. Hmm..Sat there's a bbq at East Coast...can go relaz. Tmr is jus another GODDAM Day...TatAz..Nite Fellas n hope everyone is feeling better than i am!
Smile :)!

(*_*)1st Dec'04-Singapore Idol Grand Finals(*_*)

Initially, I didn't mind not being able to go to the Grand Finals "Live" cos' I was thinking that watching the TV will be more close-up. However, I suddenly felt the eagerness to go when it was actually nearing that day. I didnt think i would b able to get tix but my SUPER GOOD Angel Rs was soooooo good that he bought a pair of tix for $80 from a stranger! I was soooo happy n i dunno how i must repay him hahaha~! Ann also had some tix from her friends n in the end, we gave the two tix we bought to Erma n her sis, n Ann had 3 tix for me, herself n RS! Erma was also v happy to go..hehe i am so glad she was able to go too! We got the balcony seats, which were really high up, but it was quite near to the stage so it was alright! The walk from Kallang MRT to the stadium was like 20 mins and we were all perspiring terribly when we reached!So SMelly~!!

The atmosphere was so HIGH n everyone was screaming at the top of their lungs that almost casued my ear drum to burst! I loved the arrival of the idols when Taufik came in by a Chevolet & Sly by Harley!They were so COOL! Taufik's performances were really smooth n suave n GREAT! He really deserves to win lor..hehe so proud also cos he from SP also. I didnt know abt the song "Me n Mrs Jones" until he sang it that day and i liked it alot! When Sly performed, he looked kinda nervous cos his eyes were darting ard n his Live performance of "It's my Life" was realli rocking the stadium! However, when i went home to watch the taped version, it wasnt as good,in fact it sounded quite bad..:( "An jing" wasnt Terrific lor but his rendition of "I dream" was nice! It is v diff fromTaufik's version ..it has a more gentler feel. Oh..i also liked the performance by Dick LEe!!

The whole show was jus great la!U have to be there to feel it!Even Rs enjoyed it i can tell..hehe he even told me to ask him along next time when there are nice concerts!So sad that Singapore idol is over...so boring...haiz..haha...do i sound fanatic?By the time I reached home,bathed n went to bed, it was ard 3am n i had to wake up at 8am!