Next level

Every1 is growing very fast. Sangat cepat masa yang mereka ambik untuk ke next level. Oh damn!! Aku rasa cam ketinggalan je. How could i?? I need to improve a lot. I need to bounceback. I need to be very consistant in order to achieve my goal. It is not an easy to be someone who is succesful. We need to face a lot of obstacles, challenges, problems and many dofficulties in order to the journey of success.

Hey there, i need to really2 catch up, bounceback, passionate, put my soul together while working to show the good result to others. I would like to achieve my own goal too. They can do it, so do i. So, what im waiting for? This new week will bring a new episode of me. I need to find the origin FADHILAH. I think im very comfort right now. But i didnt realize that they are put all of their effort to be success in a time. They are keep on growing. By hook or by crook i need to grow my own team too. I need to lead them. Being a leader is easy in word but difficulties will come in order to take the responsibilities.

Be positive. Have a right and strong mindset. Focus. Have a clear goal. Have a great working habit. Motivate urself. Tawakal to Allah. Insya Allah,  there is a way to success.

People might look down on what im doing. Different people has different mentality. I wont blame them coz they do not know. The result is at the end of the journey. Dont judge the book by its cover coz you dont know what is the secret inside it.

Till then,bye3

suka suki

Bukan senang nak senang

Dan tak susah nak susah

Cuma kekuatan dalaman membuatkan aku terus berdiri

Mereka ternanti-nanti

Apa nanti aku bisa berlari

It is not an easyAs A, B and C

But for sure it will be sweetest moment when u're achieve ur own goal

Hidup perlu punya matlamat

Agar aku tidak sesat

Supaya aku tidak merempat

Tetapi laluannya tidak tentu selamat

Onak dan duri

Suka dan duka

Ketawa dan tangisan

It is part and parcel in life

Teguhkan tekad

Kuatkan semangat

Supaya kebal tika dilanda ombak

-fadhilah2327/281112-ktn

Update

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hi peeps. It has been long time i didn't update my blog. Quite busy in building my career. Im working with myself. If i feel very lazy that day for sure my income will be affected. If im very passion on what im doing insya Allah the result will come afterwards. Cuma aku perlukan tahap kesabaran yang tinggi, usaha yang gigih, semangat dan ketahanan jiwa yang tidak berbelah bahagi serta keghairahan untuk berjaya dalam bidang yang diceburi. 

Fadhilah,1 perjalanan itu bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Kita perlu lalui dan rasa kepahitan hempedu supaya kita dapat rasa betapa manisnya rasa madu.

Till then. Bubye

Bukan Orang Suci

Mestinya kau mengerti saat pertama kali

Kala kau peluk diriku

Jangan pernah biarkan diri terhanyut nafsu

Aku bukan orang suci

Bukalah matamu

Berpaling dari diriku

Benarkan semua mimpi-mimpimu

Jujur pada hati 

Masih banyak cinta menanti 

Jangan kau harapkan aku

Lupakan semua rayu 

Jangan kagumi aku

Kerna ku tak cinta kamu

Mohon kau tinggalkan aku

Tak usah kau harap lagi

Kerna cinta untukmu palsu

Tak perlu lagi sesali

Ia tak pernah terjadi

Saat ku lepas dirimu

Pernahkah kau sedari

Aku tak pernah berjanji

Untuk setia padamu

Assalamualaikum wbt


Hi peeps.
Hopeefully everyone in a good condition,situation,health,emotion and everything lah. I am about to resign from the SL1M Program. Hurm. Bukan "about" lagi dah tapi memang dah hantar surat resign pun. It is not about the company. But to be frank it is more towards myself's problem. Well,im having conflict with myself.hahaha. Dahsyat giler bunyinye kan??


I have been at CIMB almost 3 months. And today is my last day. I am quite sad to leave this company because my boss and my colleagues are very nice and they are happy go lucky. Well, being a trainer is like you are being a teacher to the contact centre consultant. Tapi nak buat macam mana kan. Tangan tu gatai sangat nak mintak keje tempat lain. Tak thrill katanya asyik memfotokopi nota untuk batch yang baru masuk. Hello,kalau ikut skill memfotokopi memang sure dah boleh bukak kedai.hehehe.


Next week my new life begins. The new chapter in my life. New environment, meeting with new people again. The whole process will start all over again. Phewwww. Penat oke.hahaaha. But, i have to admit that i did the decision. So, just face it,rite??hehe


When i got the placement in Kuantan, Mr.Ahmad is going back to PD. Sungguh tak berjodoh.haha. For the sake of our life, everyone is moving on. Either me myself or En.Ahmad, we never stop each other. You can do whatever you want as long as you know the limits. Being apart is the most difficult for me to adapt. He is getting more busy. Sabor jela.


I think thats all. see you when i see you



Adios.

En.Ahmad lagi

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hi peeps. Bila dah meroyan macam ni la jadinya.hehehe. Ada je entry yang nak ditulis.

Well, it has been one year. A lot of things that i had learnt. Lelaki ni kadang-kadang susah jugak nak faham. Tapi ada je lelaki yang senang nak difahami. Setiap orang tu kan lain personaliti, identiti mahupun jati diri. Sahsiah, background family, education, friends and environment are part of the factors that affected our behaviour. Even perempuan pun pelbagai ragam, lelaki pun sama jugak,=)

Jatuh bangun, ke atas ke bawah, susah senang, semuanya dah rasa. Harap-harap kami akan menjadi lebih matang dengan apa yang telah berlaku. Serta ke arah yang lebih serius lepas ni.

Pic 1

Pic 2

Boleh detect kot the differences between the two pictures above.Hahahaha. The first pic was taken on October 2011. Muka pun senyum lagi pabila dipaksa ambik gambar. The second picture was taken where we were on our way to my fren's wedding. Yang ni muka paksa rela bila ambik gambar. Senyuman tu antara nak ngan tak nak je.


Mak dah macam tak sabar nak terima menantu. Tak tau kenapa.huhuhu. Kenduri kahwin perlu dirancang dengan teliti. Menu apa yang nak disajikan kepada tetamu, door gifts, tema, pelamin, make up, baju. Wahhhhh. Bukan senang tau. Moga-moga  segala-galanya dipermudahkan. Dan harap-harap aku akan dapat laksanakan impian mak aku tu,hehehe. Sabar ye mak. =)


Till then. Adios.

Aku & Dia

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Rasa luas sikit pemandangan sebab update blog guna laptop,huhuhu. Selama ni malas nak bukak laptop 2 yang update blog guna hp je. Ecececece. (Bajet hp canggih lettew).

Well, for the past few weeks, i'd been attending my friends' wedding. Jodoh dorang sampai awal. Nak tunggu ape lagi kan? Dah cukup duit, dah ade harta sikit, kahwin la. Tak kan la nak tunggu sampai kucing tumbuh tanduk kan?hehehe. 

The most popular question yang selalu di tanya adalah......."Bila turn awak pulak?" Oh damn. Garu-garu kepala yang tak gatal sambil menjawab "Insya Allah, suatu hari nanti". Suatu hari yang tak pasti bila. Nikah-kahwin bukan perkara main-main,beb. Kita nak hidup dengan pasangan kita tu untuk seumur hidup. Tanggngjawabnya pun semakin berat. Rasa tak termampu lagi untuk memikul tanggungjawab tersebut. Tapi, sedikit demi sedikit, aku harus bersedia juga untuk menghadapi sesuatu yang aku tak kan jangka. Bersedia untuk tidak bersedialah jawabnya,;)

Dahlah.... Dah malas nak membebel panjang. Ini adalah beberapa majlis perkahwinan yang aku attend,;)

Zaini & his wife

-us-

kami lagi,;)

Jaida & I

Kenduri kahwin di TSK

With Ekin, my new fren,;)

Alhamdulillah. Semuanya dah selamat. Waiting for my turn soon,hehehe

Random

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I'm home right now. I came back to Temerloh without any plan.I thought i wanna stay at KL this week but,i think i can't cope with that environment. Unless if i stay with my close friends, probably i will be more comfortable.


Staying with new people is something that i hate of. Im kinda flexible person but i hate when someone is like controlling my life. Asyik nak dengar cerita dia yang dah diulang hampir 10 kali, it is very irritating and annoying. What can i do??? Sabar dan terus bersabar. Semoga dia terus diberkati serta dijauhi dari hasad dengki yang bersarang dihati.


Tomorrow, my ex boyfriend invite me to his bro's wedding. Well, to be someone who is very flexible and sporting, it is not a big mistake to go to that wedding even though i know the fact that im going to meet his girlfriend there. Who cares after all. I hope that she will be more proffesional and mature enough to handle that situation.

Till then.bye........

Thank you

Dear En.Ahmad,

Thank you for everything

Thank you for making my dream come true

Thank you for making yourself available to make sure that i can joined the camping activity with my relatives

Thank you for mambling and keep on nagging about myself (mcm mak nenek)

Thank you for spending your time with me

Thank you for cheer me up even though i have to pretend that im happy(hypocrite)

Thank you for make me realize that i need to be more patient in whatever i do (dh sedar lama cume kadang kala emosi menguasai diri)

But.....

I know that i can't trust you 100% (You know the reasons rite)

Whatever happens it is reflected on what you have done before

What you give,you will get back

The things will become worse if you are keep on doing the same thing

Please learn from your past experiences

Do not keep on blaming others if you notice that you are the one that start the games

I just follow your games by using the same rythms, patterns and shapes

If you stop yours,i will stop mine

I hope that you will not regret on what happens

So, see you when i see you.

Adios

From,

Your most beautiful,adorable & gorgeous girlfriend

Eid Mubarak 1433H

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Semoga semua amalan di bulan Ramadhan diterima oleh-Nya. Ramadhan telah berlalu meninggalkan kita. Syawal pula diraikan dengan penuh kesyukuran. This Ramadhan gives such a big impact in my life. I had never expected that i can survive while going to the Outward Bound School (OBS) at Lumut,Perak. It was such a memorable experience. By knowing someone else with difference character,attitude,appearance, it gives me a chance to relearn what i had learnt before. Eventhough, i had gone through all of the experience but the most memorable was i had the sea sick when we were riding to Pulau Syawal by boat. Lucky enough i didn't vomit. That is the most challenging part for me.


Last friday, we knew our department for another 3 month for internship. I had been placed at Contact Centre, Kerinchi. I took it as a challenge and it gives me a great pleasure to mingle with a great team that take care of the agent. I don't know my work's scope yet. Hopefully i can face any obstacle in future. As for sure i didn't expect that im in the banking line. It is very different from what i had learnt during my university years. I need to be familiar with the terms that they used.There is a lof things that i need to learn in future if i wanna stay in this banking  line.

my new frens, watch mulu.

New

Assalamualaikum wbt

Moga anda semua diberkati oleh Yang Maha Esa hendaknya. Salam Ramadhan buar semua yg mengenali. probably,it is not to late for me to wish "Selamat Berpuasa" to Muslim.

Starting this fasting month, my new life begins. Adapting with new envieonment, meeting new people that u never know is not something easy. We need to start it sll over again. Yes. It is a tiring process. But, we had no choice. hehehe. Recently, i had compeleting my studies. Even though my result is not something that can be proud of, but, Alhamdulillah i managed to complete it within 3 years.  Just waiting the upcoming September for my convocation. Weeeee


1 more thing, I would like to express my gratitude to my lovely dad (Opsss lovely la sgt kn?)hehehe because he gave me something that i never expected. Tq so much,ayah.

I think that all for now. till we meet again. Jangan nakal2 puasa yang yok pagi2 bukak periuk. daaa

Wedding

Assalamualaikum wbt

Lama dah rasanya menyepi dari ber-bloging. Probably, im quite busy. Oh nope. Im totally busy. But, now need to focus on my final exam. Hey, miss me ha? hehehe. Ok. Let us move to the main topic here. Tahun ni ramai kawan2 aku dah nak menamatkan zaman bujang mereka. Ramai yang dah bertunang, ramai yang dah nak kahwin, paling dekat 29 Jun ini. Owh DAMN!!!! hahahaha. Gelap dunia aku. Kahwin itu adalah satu fitrah manusia. Semua orang akan melangkah ke arah tersebut suatu masa/hari nanti. Cuma masanya cepat atau lambat.

Aku? My mum had asked me that question. When is your turn? My answer is simple. Just wait. Insya Allah ada, :) Cuma perlu bersabar untuk sedikit waktu. Yelah. Hal nikah, kahwin bukan satu perkara yang mudah. Cakap memanglah sangat senang, untuk melaksanakan dan memikul segala tanggungjawab sebagai suami/isteri memerlukan kita untuk mempersiapkan diri sebelum melangkah ke arah itu. Bukan hanya mental dan fizikal tetapi emosi dan juga sumber kewangan yang kukuh serta perancangan selepas berkahwin itu lagi penting. 

Bila dapat tau sorang, sorang kawan yang akan dah bertunang dan akan naik pelamin, im very happy. Terasa yang kami semua dah besar dan akan punya keluarga sendiri. Serius tak sangka. Hopefully, perkahwinan anda semua akan kekal sehingga akhir hayat, dengan izin Allah, :)

Owh ye. On 3rd June, i attended his buddy's wedding. That is my 1st time i attended the military wedding. Penuh adat istiadat. The bride is very sweet with her dress. Serius cantik,:) Let's the pics talk,=)

the brides

meet new fren -zai-

-maaflah,sy berada di belakang time ni-huhuhu

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last but not least........

-us-

MAY, please be nice to me

Dear mum,

I really2 miss u.

I miss u a lot.

But, probably i miss your cooking,=(

I really2 wanna go home.

It's hurt me a lot.

I wanna be with u all the time,=(

Dear En.Ahmad,

It's quite long time that i didn't meet u.

Till we meet again.

But, im not very sure when can i meet u.

Well, my life has turn upside down.

A lots of thing to settle.

A lots of thing to do.

Hurm.....

Dear my lovely roomate,

Im sorry if I didn't spend much time towards u.

Well, it's our final semester.

I quite busy with my project & classes.

Im sorry if i didn't sweep the floor, tidy the bed.

My table also always in a messy condition.

Im really sorry about that.

Dear MYSELF,

U have to be strong.

U have to be fit.

U have to be patient.

U have to accept the fact.

U have to understand's others.

U have to respect others.

U should have a positive attitude.

U should have a pure heart.

:: Tidak semestinya peluang hanya datang sekali ::

:: Mungkin itu bukan rezeki ::

Assalamualaikum wbt.




This is my final year project. If someone interested to join this convention, do not hesitate to call or email or details to me at fadhilahabdul@gmail.com or you can call me at 017 - 9758063 (Fadhilah).


There will be such a fun and enjoyable convention. The speakers that we invited are expert in their field. Want to know more?? Please call me as soon as possible. The seats are LIMITED. 1st come 1st serve!!! 

Coretan kecil

Setahun peristiwa tersebut berlalu

Namun, ia masih jua menghantuiku

Walaupun 1000 tahun silih berganti 

Kenangan itu tetap abadi

"The past is Past"

TRUE. 

Tapi parutnya masih kekal disini

Masih berbekas dihati

Meninggalkan kesan mendalam disanubari

Hati dan perasaan itu sukar diganti

Walau ramai yang masih menanti

Aku masih lagi berdiri disini

Terpaku dan terus menanti

Menanti sesuatu yang tidak pasti

Kau meninggalkan aku

Suatu ketika dahulu

Membuatkan aku jadi berbulu

Dengan kamu

Hakikatnya

Hanya Tuhan yang tahu

Isi hati aku

Hanya Tuhan jua yang tahu

Isi hati kamu

"What goes around comes around"

Set Fire To The Rain

Lagu berhantu yg m'jd halwa telinga disebabkan oleh bait-bait lirik yg mempunyai makna yg sgt mendalam

I let it fall, my heart

And as it fell, you rose to claim it

It was dark and I was over

Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong

But my knees were far too weak

To stand in your arms

Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew

All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true

And the games you play, you would always win, always win

But I set fire to the rain

Watched it pour as I touched your face

Let it burn while I cry

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

When laying with you

I could stay there, close my eyes

Feel you here, forever

You and me together, nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew

All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/adele-lyrics/set-fire-to-the-rain-lyrics.html]

And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win

But I set fire to the rain

Watched it pour as I touched your face

Let it burn while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt somethin' die, 'cause I knew that

That was the last time, the last time

Sometimes I wake up by the door

Now that you've gone, must be waiting for you

Even now when it's already over

I can't help myself from looking for you

I set fire to the rain

Watched it pour as I touched your face

Let it burn while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt somethin' die

'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh

Oh, no

Let it burn, oh

Let it burn

Let it burn

Dia & Aku dan Kamu

Dia.

Dia kenal siapa aku.

Dia tahu perangai aku.

Dia tahu nak "handle" aku.

Tapi..

Aku tidak yakin dengan diri sendiri.

Mungkin disebabkan oleh peristiwa semalam.

Aku jadi takut.

Aku jadi bingung.

Aku jadi kalut.

Aku jadi hilang arah seketika.

Dia suka membebel.

Dia suka berceloteh.

Dia suka bagi ceramah yang panjang berjela.

Dia buat aku ketawa.

Dia hilangkan gundah gulana di jiwa.

Tapi...

Aku sendiri tidak pasti.

Apa yang akan terjadi.

Walaupun pada saat ini.

Hati tidak berbelah bahagi.

Namun Yang Maha Esa punya kuasa.

Yang penentu segala.

Aku tetap mencuba.

Supaya apa yang diusahakan berjaya hendaknya.

WAKE UP

U'RE GOING TO BE LATE.

LATE FOR WHAT?

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PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!

A LOT OF THINGS TO SETTLE DOWN.

PHEWWWWW.

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DAA,=)

Gadget

Assalamualaikum wbt

Aku bukanlah giler yang teramat pada gajet-gajet yang sedia ada di pasaran. Pada aku, tidak terkejar rasanya dengan aliran teknologi yang tumbuh bak cendawan selepas hujan. Bulan ni launch gajet baru, tup-tup next month, gajet baru plak yang ada di pasaran. Haish. Mau kering poket kalau asyik tukar-tukar gajet setiap bulan.

Tadi otw back to USM, at all of sudden terfikir nak ada satu gajet baru. Dan terlintas di fikiran dan-dan tu jugak untuk memiliki Samsung Note. Hehehe. Tapi kena "HOLD" dulu kot. Sebab tahun ni banyak sangat tempat yang nak dilawati. Ececece. Bajet banyak duit jer kan? 

-credit to google-
~Samsung Note~

Iphone 4
-credit to google-

Hanya mampu melihat. Untuk memilikinya, SABAR. Hehehehe.

Tentang Rasa

Aku tersesat

Menuju hatimu

Beri aku jalan yang indah

Ijinkan ku lepas penatku

'tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Tentang cinta yang datang perlahan

Membuatku takut kehilangan

Ku titipkan cahaya terang

Tak padam di dera goda dan masa

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

-credit to google-

I do love this song. Someone gave me this song. This is one of the theme song for cite Vanilla Coklat. Aku tak de la fanatik sangat cite 2, tapi ramai giler orang suka kat cite tu. Apa-apa pun,layan jerrr...

Daa,=)

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Apakah perkara yang paling merungsingkan perempuan? Hehehehe. Let me tell you the secret. This is from my observation and my own experience.

1. Berat Badan

Dialog yang selalu di dengari adalah seperti berikut ::

 "Saya dah gemuklah".

 " Saya dah ada dua dagu".

 "Macam mana nak kurus,ye?"

"Hurmmm. Beberapa kilo lagi nak cecah 60kg".

"Alamak, macam ana ni? Seluar dah xmuat". 

Phewww. Begitulah ye. Berat badan sangat sensitif bagi kaum Hawa. It's very, very sensitive. Kalau korang tegur seseorang dengan mengatakan bahawa "awak ampak berisi lah". Sah-sah malam tu dia tak boleh tidur. Lepas tu mula lah risau dengan pertambahan berat badan. For me, as long as u don't torture your body, it is fine. Tak kisahlah gemuk, berisi atau kurus, yang penting kesihatan lagi penting dari segala-galanya. Time sakit, dah sah selera makan akan berkurangan, semua makanan rasa tak sedap. Sebab tu time sihat, jangan sekat time makan. Makan apa sahaja yang anda mahu TAPI mesti  ada hadnya.

2. Jerawat

Masalah yang ini pun rumit jugak.

 "Oh,muka saya dah banyak jerawat".

"Stressnya dengan jerawat ni".

"Muka saya dah tak cantik sebab banyak bekas-bekas jerawat yang tinggal".

Fuhhhh. Jerawat akan tumbuh jika kita tersalah makan atau pada masa kita berasa sangat stress. Biarlah jerawat tu nak tumbuh, nanti ia akan hilang.Huhuhu. I had the same problem too. Tapi saya just ignore it. Biaq p la aihh ia nk tumbuh. Tak cacat pun kalau jerawat tu tumbuh. Yang penting, cari produk yang sesuai dengan kulit kita sendiri. 

3. Kekasih HALAL

Yang ni kritikal.

"Saya tak ade steady boyfriend lagi la"

"Hurmm. Sapelah nak kat saya ni?"

"Mane ek nak cari calon-calon suami?"

Memang susah sangat nak cari lelaki yang betul-betul sayang akan kita. Susah giler kot. Lelaki yang berkualiti sekarang ni sangat-sangat LIMITED. Tapi kalau dah jodoh, tak kemana kan? Percaturan yang telah ditetapkan oleh-Nya pasti lagi hebat. Oleh iu, BERSABAR lah wahai HATI. Moga nanti yang lebih berkualiti akan menyapa hati-hati kalian,=) Tak payah lah cari KEKASIH HARAM. Cari KEKASIH HALAL terus. Tentu selamat dunia akhirat, dengan izin Allah. 

4.Umur

Yang ni lagi kritikal. Hahaha.

"Umur dah 25 tapi calon pun xde lagi. Ape kes? Xlaku ek?"

Perghhhh. Sentap beb. Umur-umur ni sangat sensitif juga. Al-maklumlah. Hehehehe. Meningkatnya umur bermakna lagi banyak tanggungjwab yang harus dipikul. Lagi banyak beban yang terletak dipundak. Cool jer la. Orang akan mengata jika perempuan tu kahwin awal, orang juga akan mengata jika perempuan tu kahwin lambat. Susah kan?

Memang sangat susah untuk memuaskan hati semua pihak. Tapi tak kan lah selamanya kita nak hidup hanya untuk memuaskan hati orang lain dan seterusnya hati kita sendiri terabai. Jagalah hati kita sendiri dulu. Just be yourself. Terima dan sayang diri kita seadanya. Barulah kita boleh bahagikan kasih sayang yang ada pada orang lain pulak. Me???? I am such a complicated PERSON. Biarlah orang nak kata apa, orang nak buat apa. Bukan tidak ambil peduli tapi............... Biarlah rahsia. Hehehehe. 

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Everyone has their own problem. So, do I. But, my problem is much more complicated compared to others. It is because it is involving people's around me. Ececece. Speaking London. I need to start thinking in English language because this semester i've got many courses that taught in English. Whether I like it or not i MUST think in English, speak in English, write in English, everything in English. I used to use English as a medium of my conversation long long time ago. But now. History remain history. 

Towards the end of my studies, i am getting LOST. Totally lost in crowd. You need to be very outstanding in order to survive in the real world. Hey dude, the real world isn't the same as your DREAM world. It's totally different. That's the fact. Lives is keep on changing. I don't know whether I can survive or not. Pheww. You will never know before you try right? Hehehehe. So, the conclusion is simple. Try everything that you would like to try. But, you should know the limit that you have. And learn from the mistakes that we've done. Me??? I am such a complicated person right now. It's not very easy for me to adjust/ adapt myself to keep on the right track. 

I need my old life. I need my old memories. Memories remain memories. Nothing can change that. It sounds that I feel very frustrated yawww. Hehehehe. Not I am not. Maybe, there's something better for me in future. I hope that I can have such a great life without worrying about the tiny little things. Rasanya semua orang mahukan kebahagiaan. Tiada siapa mahu hidup dalam keadaan yang berduka lara, jiwa dan raga, makan hati berulamkan jantung pisang. Tapi, we never know what is going to happen in future. We can only plan but we should prepare Plan A, Plan B and Plan C as a back up plan. 

Hurm. Life is not complicated. The choice is yours. You will decide which road that you're going to take. Either highway or alternative ways, it's in your hand. Just ask yourself, what do you want in your life. Until we meet again. Daa,=)

Kaki Lelaki

Assalamualaikum wbt

I can't sleep. I know i need to do a lot of things. But, I just can't. I can't think wisely. I can't speak fluently. Eh, ade kena mengena ek antara THINK and SPEAK? Entahlah. For the time being, there's something happen. I don't know how to go out from that circle. Pi mai pi mai tang tu jugak. Adoi. Sesak. Masaklah, if it is keep on going like this. Phewww. Sila perg jauh-jauh. Aku tidak mahu kamu berdekatan atau berhampiran dengan aku lagi. Boleh tak cakap camtu?Hehehehe. Kau bajet kau artis ker derr??? Tetttt.

Let's forget about me. And we move on to the other topic. Kinda interesting [kononnya]. Sebenarnya apakah faktor utama yang menjadi faktor kemusnahan seorang lelaki dalam hidupnya. I mean, kalau dorang dapat benda ni konon-kononnya dorang dah rasa nikmat hidup. Tapi akibatnya. Masya Allah. Wanna know?Hahaha. Let me present to you the disaster of it. Benda yang dah terang-terangan HARAM hukumnya. Aku ni tak de la alim sangat pun. But, sharing the knowledge with others kinda beneficial jugak kan? Cuma berkongsi rahsia lelaki. 

First and for most. PEREMPUAN. Bila dah rasa pasti nak lagi. Ibarat choki-choki. Hehehe. Manis je. Habis madu sepah dibuang. =,='

Begitu jugak dengan yang kedua. Rasa, bau dan warna aku tak pasti. Yang pastinya ada banyak jenis. Yang biasa dilihat van yang menghantar benda2 nih kat kedai sahaja. 

The third thing is GAMBLING. Ala, aku pun pernah jugak tapi main tikam-tikam jer time kecik2 dulu. Opsss. Masa kecik tak tau pun yang 2 adalah judi sebab konsep dia just tikam-tikam jer. Bila dah besar baru tersedar. Yang 2 pun judi jugak. Hurmm.

Setiap manusia di atas muka bumi yang fana ini pasti akan melakukan kesilapan tidak kira sekecil zarah mahupun sebesar kuman. Yang pasti, aku tetap setia dengan mengatakan bahawa "People change". Tidak kira ke arah yang lebih positif mahupun negatif yang penting manusia itu berubah. Tidak seama-lamanya manusia ingin melakukan kesalahan yang sama. Am i right? They deserve the new life. 

Actually, it's depends on you. How do you cope with it. Kalau berfikiran positif, maka positif lah ia. Jika fikiranmu negatif, maka negatif lah ia. Yang buruk itu datang dari diri ini. Manakala yang baik itu semuanya daripada Dia Yang Maha Esa.

Wallahu'alam..

Bukit Jambul

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Bukit itu telah dua kali ku tawan. Pertama, masa yang diambil untuk sampai ke puncak adalah lebiih kurang 15-20 min. Tetapi semalam. Fuh... Cukup mencabar mental, fizikal, jiwa dan raga. Mana taknya. Dah setahun lebih aku tak training hard. Dah lama giler tak jogging keliling tasik, main gym or whatsoever.huhu. Since last year, i've a new position in rowing. Jadi coxer jer tapi it's not easy,dude. hahaha

Yesterday, my friends and I went for hiking that hill. This is their first time while second time for me. Perjalanan yang sangat-sangat panjang dan lama. Tapi berbekalkan semnagat dorang, aku sampai jugak ke atas. Walaupun hampir dua kali nak pengsan. Hahahaha. Serius tak tipu. Tak cukup fitness dan tak cukup tenaga. Seriously, dorang cuak bila aku nak pengsan. Al maklumlah aku ada sejarah dalam bab-bab pengsan nih,hehehehe.

Akhirnya. Kami bukit itu dapat kami tawan. I just wanna fulfill my friend's wishes. Katanya nak pusing-pusing Penang sebelum grad.huhu. Yela,muganya masing-masing dah third year tu gak. Bilo lagi kan?hehehe. Lagipun sementara CBX 5404 itu ada bersama-samaku di sini, boleh la nak merayap. Kalau xde, jangan harap ler nak lepas ke mana-mana,huhuhu

A million thanks to them because they are taking such a good care to "Budak yang Selalu Pengsan". Hehehehe. Jasamu akan ku kenang. Ececece.

GTG, coz i heve meetoings rite now. Daaaa.....

Part 1

Kami dipertemukan dalam keadaan yang sangat tidak romantik. Aku comot manakala dia pula selekeh. Aku pemangsa manakala dia pula mangsa. Mangsa daripada kes-kes kecurangan yang ada di muka Bumi yang fana ini. Aku adalah antara pemangsa yang cukup hebat dalam bab-bab menggagalkan sesebuah perhubungan. Bukan aku tidak cukup setia namun hati aku sebetulnya belum cukup bersedia untuk menjalinkan hubungan cinta yang serius. Atau mungkin aku yang tidak menerima pasangan aku dengan seadanya dia. Pantang aku melihat lelaki yang berdahi licin. Pasti aku goda dan kemudian akan aku tinggalkan setelah aku berasa bosan. Lelaki hanya berfungsi sebagai penghibur dan tempat untuk aku melepaskan rasa sunyi di hati.Sedikit aku tidak berasa bersalah terhadap mereka. Walaupun mereka begitu sayang akan aku dan masih tidak dapat melupakan siapa aku.

to be continued..

*tidak ada kena mengena antara hidup dan mati*

BARA

Terima kasih En.Ahmad kerana memahami saya serta membuatkan saya ketawa semula walaupun dalam hati penuh dengan bara.

Terima kasih juga buat sahabat yang tercinta kerana telah membawa perkhabaran yang amat memeranjatkan itu dan ia menjadi halwa telinga saya.

Semoga semuanya baik-baik belaka.

Sila jangan cari pasal dengan saya kerana saya tidak mengganggu gugat hidup awak.

Atau awak yang tergugat dengan kehadiran saya semula. Hahahaha.

Sekian,=)

Fever Forever

Assalamualaikum wbt.


Selama beberapa hari aku demam. Arini baru berkesempatan ke klinik. Serius dah lama tak jatuh sakit. Ala jatuh sakit pun nikmat ape?huhuhu. I drove to the clinic ALONE. ALONE oke. Sadis giler bunyinya.huhuhu. Yela. En.Ahmad tue kan jauh. Jauh ke?? Hahahaha. No comment. Tettttt.


To all of my FYP's committee, im really sorry. I can't make it. I can't join the 1st meeting due to my health condition. Teruk sungguh bunyinye kan?Hehehe. Hurm.... Tengok la hasil daripada jumpa doktor tadi,=)

klinik sulaiman.

3 serangkai plus ubat batuk.

antibiotik. demam. selsema.

Alamak. Malu.huhuhu. Jelas kelihatan namaku di situ.......huhuhu. Biasela antibiotik kena habiskan. Tapi yang teruknya tekak aku. Kalau batuk tue rasa macam nak tercabut je. Haaaa. Minum la ais lagi. hikhik. Tapi my mum lagi rock, ade ke mak ajak makan ICE CREAM. Owh. Serius tergoda oke,=)

Semalam. Hampir 3 years we've apart but now, i met Mr.MA again. But, as a friend. He's already has his own life and his own carrier. And he also has his NEW girlfriend. Tettttt. Old story. Pic?????? Sorry censored!Hehehehe.

February

Assalamualaikum wbt.


Today. It is already 1st February 2012. Begitu cepat masa berlalu. Begitu pantas ia meninggalkan kita. Pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk bulan kedua dalam tahun 2012. Cepat kan? Dan masa untuk BERFOYA-FOYA akan berakhir tak lama lagi.

Today, i got a message from my BFF. He told me that one of our schoolmate passed away. Daripada Dia kita datang dan kepada Dia jugak kita kembali. Cuma kita tak tahu bila masa kita akan tiba. Aku doakan agar rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman. Al-Fatihah.

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Perempuan dan emosi tidak boleh dipisahkan. Memang diakui perempuan kadang-kadang bertindak mengikut emosi dan perasaan. Kadang-kadang hanya mengikut kata hati. Yela, kalau dah marah tue, memang tak sempatlah nak fikir secara berhemah.huhuhu. Ade ke orang yang tengah marah tapi sempat lagi berfikir secara rasional? Kemungkinan ada. [Tapi bukan aku] Hahahaha.

Aku. Selagi aku boleh pendam sebuah duka, selagi tu akan ku pendam ia. YES. That's ME. Jenis yang akan letupkan segala-galanya bila tiba masanya. Itu yang paling BAHAYA. Tapi jangan risau. Aku bukanlah seorang yang mudah marah.huhuhu. Im SWEET. [Masuk bakul angkat sendiri] Hahahaha.

Opsss. Entry yang lebih kepada menceritakan tentang diri sendiri. Got to go. Daa,=)

:: Weds ::

Assalamualaikum wbt

I just came back from Penang. Semester break is starting from today until 8 Februari. 8 Februari?? U're KIDDING me right? Oh NO. Unfortunately,it is true, DeAr. [Malas GILER nak balik Penang,oke]


Today is my friend's WEDDING. I attended the wedding with my LOVELY friend, Farah Rahim. To night we will be going to Kelantan to attend another wedding. Wah, HOT oke. Wedding 1 Malaysia. Hahahaha. And another HOT news that i heard is one of my best friend will be ENGAGE tomorrow. Uwaaaaa.... To Khuzaimah Akasah, Selamat Bertunang. Kahwin nanti jemput tau.ececece. [Biar Khuzaimah xbace pn blog aku tapi tetap nak mention jugak] hehehehe. Kan aku dah cakap, biasenye orang yang senyap-senyap ni yang akan langsung dulu.huhuhu


Dah. dah. Nak post pic yang g wedding tadi. Specially for u ollsss. Tema PINK oke. Aku tak mampu ler jawabnye. hehehehe. Tapi Syikin sangat cantik. Naik SERI. Pabila mendengar cerita ramai yang dah nak kahwin, nak bertunang, rasa bahagia sebab masing-masing dah melangkah ke tahap yang satu lagi. Sangat bahagia bila ramai yang dah mula ke arah untuk membina keluarga,=)

:: darah2 manis :: 

:: aku gemuxxx :: yg 2 najibah sham

:: mak angkat fahim ::

:: pengantin with baby fahim ::

:: me & syikin ::

all of us. missfie dh blik,=(

p/s :: mak, nak kahwin.hahahahaha [gediksss uolsss]
kredit to Farah rahim yg ambik semua pic ni,=)


Owh ye. Pesanan untuk En.Ahmad pulak, sila-sila lah kumpul duit manyak-manyak.hahahaha.

Daa.