hell week

Thursday was my off day and had plan for dinner with Rachel, Haowei and Yeeheng. It's been so long since I met Haowei and Yeeheng. But as usual, Haowei is still as nonsensical like how I knew him 11 years back. Come to think of it, time flies fucking fast, really fast. 

Both Rachel and I were fucking shag that we decided to go her house to slack awhile before head home. Played daidee and Haowei is really like some gamble kia, cannot stand him. 

Reached home and rushed my marketing project till 3am. I can no longer explain the tiredness in me, it's just way too tired. Woke up at the bloody early 6am and prepared to get ready for work at 8.15am. The whole of today was really hell, practically nothing went smooth for me. It was really hell. Lingju asked me if I can work on tues and thurs and obviously I can't 'cause I already told her before I got in. So fuck, now I'm on pending list. I feel so fucking insignificant. Once I know the news, I swear my mood went down. Dad called and asked me to work full-time instead but hey, I can't cope with my studies at all already and I'm dying, really dying now.

I fucking hate myself for falling asleep in sustainable tourism class on wed. I felt like a loser when I see the other students are listening v hard but all I ever did was falling asleep. If only coffee really helps. Well, I guess no one understands how hard I'm struggling now to cope everything. 

Was kind of late for work today but can't be really bothered now. Rushed off for consumer beh lesson and again, it was hell. But luckily I went to get a cup of coffee and tried to stay awake. Alright, I totally have no time left to slack and relax anymore. Projects and individual assignments are piling up already, and mid sem tests are just in few weeks time. Alright, that's it.

I doubt next week gonna be a good week too. Perhaps, Saturday will only be the only better day.