blessed

Did a mistake today but I believe it can be forgiven. Was really too tired and ended up took mc and didn't go for work but still dragged myself off to school. I can never skip one lesson at all, if I skip, I know I'll be doomed. Thanks my best boy friend for the wonderful gift on earth, that definitely cheer me up! I feel so blessed! :)

Alright, sometimes I really don't understand why people always think I must have boyfriend and always asked me if I have boyfriend or not. Hey, I can be single too. People always have that perception that I'm close with guys means I have boyfriend or I'm flirt. But, we are just purely friends what. :( 

Alright, one more week to submission due. And it's amazing that I'm actually talking to ec now, like woah? 

life as we know it

Totally love 91.3 when they keep on playing nice songs. :) I'm feeling extremely tired this whole week, but not as bad as compared to last week. One more week to sustainable tourism argumentative bloody screwed essay dateline and I haven't start typing out a shit yet. I'm screwed this time, screwed big time. And two more weeks to marketing mid sem exam, what's this man? Everything just comes together and I can't breathe at all.

Had tuition at simei and the student was quite naughty tonight. Bought her one mechanic pencil and she was so happy! I think I've fucking spoilt her already. She's taking me for granted now, I guess? She kept complaining that she's tired and she just lie on my lap. I was so shocked but she continued doing so and she keeps playing with me, and she even...kissed my cheek? This time it's one step further, she took my phone and started playing game. Oh man, how to teach kid man? Mom said I seriously can't be a good tutor at all, and I agreed unwillingly. 

Had dinner with Benny, after nearly a year of not meeting up. Had dinner at sushi tei and he paid for it. Now, shall owe him one meal and guess, will be meeting him next week for dinner.

Alright, shall head to bed now. My pimple is the outcome for my late sleeping everyday. Image gone this time. 

live while we're young

Let's crazy, crazy, crazy till we see the sun. One direction's songs are just so catchy and nice! *thumbs up!* 

Alright, gonna say that today is the most screwed up and upset day of the month! I just can't end my month with a happier note, what's this man? Took off day to settle some stuffs and gawh, this sucks.

Went to meet Yihui for late lunch/early dinner at Raffles and went to zalora warehouse sales, kind of pathetic though. Bought one top at $10! Quickly went down to plaza sing to meet Joyce to pass her back her polaroid and off to school! School was still alright, 'coz I was busy writing down notes. 

Just one more week to individual 30% assignment, two more weeks to mid-sem tests. Life's just hard, as usual. 

Changed the picture for my 21st birthday event. So disappointed that there are still many people hasn't make their decision whether to come or not, what's this? So basically, my theme gonna be pink rose cause of all flowers, I only love pink roses. And just nice pink roses suits my characteristics well, haha! 

Pink rose is a sign of gentleness, joy and grace! And most importantly, sweetness. Hahahaha, I don't make up the story, it was all the fact. :) Alright but for my closest friends will definitely know that I love pink like hell, like c'mon, who doesn't know I love pink right? Alright, shall go and read up my sustainable tourism. :( 

week-end.

To summarize my weekend in as short as possible. Stayed at home on Saturday afternoon and read through a little of sustainable tourism before the fun night starts.

And take a look at my sustainable tourism book, it can make you sleep in few minutes.

Went over to Andy's chalet at downtown, and it was fun fun and fun. We got Andy drunk and he vomited, I kind of feeling guilty. Gave him a bottle of red wine as gift and they drank it on that night. I drank four bottles of hoegarden, a few sips of chivas and a small cup of red wine of mine. Had headache but it was still fine. 

Then finally met my long-time-no-see friend, Don. I'm so sorry, Don, for asking you to accompany me to play games w my friends at chalet. We left the chalet around 3am and cabbed down to 201 to meet Benjamin. :)

And Don went to download btt apps on my iphone and I think this fella went to screenshot the score 'coz I saw it at my photos.

Slacked around at 201 and bumped into Irwin, Yongqiang and Vincent. Decided to go to Ben's house to rest awhile since it was already 5am. Up to his house and his sister and friends were still watching running man on tv, like omg, don't they feel sleepy and tired? They were still laughing away. Supposed to take a short nap but the next min we opened our eyes, it was already 1pm. So went home to shower and take a rest before meeting Don again to accompany him to book in at Pasir ris. And he looks nice in his uniform.

Had a quick snack/dinner with him at white sands and off he went to book in while I went to airport to send Daphne off to Japan for her attachment. 

I think I am way too emotional already. The minute I saw Daphne cried when she saw us, I cried too. It kinds of remind me how badly I cried when Jiale went off to Brunei for his osip and also when Chuanhui left to Mauritius. It was too heartbreaking and omg, the feeling sucks badly. But Daphne is much more stronger than me for this.

So headed off to xinwang for late late dinner with Yihui at terminal 3. 

In fact, that was like my first proper meal of the day. I guess my stomach/gastric is screwed big time.

Shared this awful dessert with Yihui and nah, it's not only the dessert is awful. Everything was damn awful, the chicken rice, the iced lemon tea and the iced milk tea. I kind of hate xinwang now.

Took the last two polaroids with Yihui and I really don't wish to compliment myself but I have to, 'coz my angle and aiming and photography skills and everything are just so nice and accurate. True that. It's like omg!, it's beautifully taken. 

Alright, so decided to train back to tampines since I lazy to cross over the bridge and walk home from esso. And basically the saddest thing to meet Don after three weeks is...he said I became rounder and rounder. Alright fine fine fine. :( 

Ahh, sustainable tourism assignment needs to hand up next week, this is hell hell hell. G'night all, shall go and read up my tourism and ... start on the assignment. Uni really isn't like poly anymore. Okay, fruitful weekend spent! 

workaholic

It's finally Thursday, one more day to weekend and this week was quite well-spent! :)

As usual, work at nea and give chinese tuition on the day that I'm not working at nea. I'm glad to say I'm quite happy working at nea 'cause I have bunch of nice colleagues and they treated me quite nice! They even treated me some yogurt cake which tastes so damn heavenly. Or maybe, food can bribe me easily? 

Had tuition today and the kid is really naughty and comes out with many patterns. I've yet to think of ways to make her listen to me and the only method is to threaten her with more homework. It's never easy to deal with kid, really. 

Met Philson for dinner after tuition and he was late, like as usual but I forgave him since he drove. So settled down at eighteen chef and he drove me to find Joyce to borrow polaroid! 

And this fella dragged me to watch him, wangxu and their friends play basketball at north park. I stood there like an idiot 'cause I don't wanna sit down on the dirty ground. And the two of them accompanied me to get din-per for my bro.

And yeah, I cut my hair to shoulder length. :)

finally, all of us.

Yes, finally the eight of us meeting up for a proper dinner, and celebrated Chuanhui's 20th. I can see that everyone is smiling so happily, omg love them all. Settled our dinner at Dome at Singapore Art Museum and Chuanhui was surprised by the cake. 

Wanted to go Switch to chill since it was just opposite but it was too crowded so walked down to prinsep street. Ended up, we went to cathay for forlick instead. Played the songs guessing thing with Thaijin and Silas throughout the night. 

It's been really long since all the eight of us meet up and have a nice dinner spent. It's a rare time to spend so much time with them 'coz all the guys are in army and girls are working full-time. Well, guess the next meet up will be for Silas's birthday. 

Totally love my girls! :)

The fillet doesn't taste nice at all, waste of my money but slowly loving Caesar salad. :)

And last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY BELOVED DEAREST CHUANHUI! You know how much I love you and you know how much I cried for you when you went off to mauritius for internship. Hahaha, so you know how much you stand in my heart! :) Thanks for listening to my problem all the times and be there for me! :) This year birthday doesn't seem to be very surprising cause everyone is busy but really hope you don't mind and will enjoy the company. Love you, girl!

hell week

Thursday was my off day and had plan for dinner with Rachel, Haowei and Yeeheng. It's been so long since I met Haowei and Yeeheng. But as usual, Haowei is still as nonsensical like how I knew him 11 years back. Come to think of it, time flies fucking fast, really fast. 

Both Rachel and I were fucking shag that we decided to go her house to slack awhile before head home. Played daidee and Haowei is really like some gamble kia, cannot stand him. 

Reached home and rushed my marketing project till 3am. I can no longer explain the tiredness in me, it's just way too tired. Woke up at the bloody early 6am and prepared to get ready for work at 8.15am. The whole of today was really hell, practically nothing went smooth for me. It was really hell. Lingju asked me if I can work on tues and thurs and obviously I can't 'cause I already told her before I got in. So fuck, now I'm on pending list. I feel so fucking insignificant. Once I know the news, I swear my mood went down. Dad called and asked me to work full-time instead but hey, I can't cope with my studies at all already and I'm dying, really dying now.

I fucking hate myself for falling asleep in sustainable tourism class on wed. I felt like a loser when I see the other students are listening v hard but all I ever did was falling asleep. If only coffee really helps. Well, I guess no one understands how hard I'm struggling now to cope everything. 

Was kind of late for work today but can't be really bothered now. Rushed off for consumer beh lesson and again, it was hell. But luckily I went to get a cup of coffee and tried to stay awake. Alright, I totally have no time left to slack and relax anymore. Projects and individual assignments are piling up already, and mid sem tests are just in few weeks time. Alright, that's it.

I doubt next week gonna be a good week too. Perhaps, Saturday will only be the only better day.

better you

Oh yeah baby, I finally getting my off day tomorrow. I sure I'm dead beat these few days and nearly going berserk soon. Working at 8.30am to 6pm, and lesson from 7pm to 10pm, isn't a joke. I didn't had my proper dinner and screwed my stomach up.

Today is my third day of work and I'm glad to say that I'm pretty happy working there. It's been so long since I'm happy in a company. Probably 'cause they are nice colleagues and Jiale is there working with me too, and I have a friend, I ain't lonely. It was hell when I had to wake up at 6am and get myself prepared, then squeeze w those annoying adults in train. I'll definitely behave like a typical Singaporean and grab the seat as fast as I can, then I'll sleep. Always had breakfast in the office once I reached office. It's pretty fun whenever I can meet people from all walks of life! I guess I just love customer service job instead of facing the wall and do admin. Rushed down to school after I ended my work. And I'm doomed, I fell asleep in class during sustainable tourism and I've a strong feeling that I might do badly or even fail this module.



Been in love w David Choi's songs recently and yes, I know I'm slow to notice this guy but the songs are really nice. Better you, The way you are and By my side are my fav songs now. Alright, gonna meet Rachel, Haowei and Yeeheng for dinner tmr and I shall try to do my marketing project in the afternoon.

Alright, been leading a boring life. Shall blog when there's interesting update of my life. Oh yeah, and my mom just asked me about Daryl again and seems like she likes him alot. That's funny. G'night all!

no more, no more.

What a weekend.

Was struggling to wake up on a saturday morning and meet Thaijin to go for the beverage interview. The great thing was that, we earned 40 bucks. It isn't alot but it definitely worth it. Dad came to clarke quay and fetched me home. Chengwei was waiting for his girlf to end work so decided to try his luck to meet me under my block to catch up w each other life. The funny thing was I thought he was some construction worker from far.

Rest awhile at home before dad sent me to school in the evening. Han's was crowded like mad so decided to buy bread as my dinner and brought it to class. Lecture was god damn boring but I've no choice but to listen hard. Received Don's message and managed to chat w him on the phone during my short break. Good to hear some news from him. 

Grouped up w Rachel and Regynna for marketing mgt and they kept telling me that taking three mods this sem is hardcore. So yeah, I'm gonna die this time. 

Yihui came all the way to wilkie edge to find me for dinner/supper, so decided to dine at astons since it's the only place that was open at that time. And...home sweet home. Been watching don't stop believin' these few days and find that it's a pretty nice drama. So yeah, I only left w tonight for enjoying the drama till late night and next week gonna be the work&school life for me. Goodbye, all my freedom and happiness. 

Doomed

It's Friday, yet I don't feel the #TGIF that others are feeling. Maybe I'll feel it when I officially start work next week. I know it's gonna be too heavy for me to handle but oh well, life needs to lead meaningful right. 

Thurs, an off day for me. Date with Jueying to shop at F21 and H&M this afternoon. Supposed to accompany her to shop but ended up, I'm the one who buying stuffs. Bought a legging, cardigan and top. Happy gal! :) But now I realized that the legging seems to be a lil too big. Nvm, there's always another woman in the house. 

Met Shirlene for dinner at Orchard but ended up we bought breads 'cause we are too full to have our proper dinner. And wrong, after that I had porridge at Hans and I swear my stomach gonna explode. I was just so damn full till I wanna cry. And I still can't get over the bracelets over at h&m. I'm still thinking if I should go back one day to get it before I really regret but it doesn't seem to worth the price. Should I, Should I not, Should I, Should I not?

It was damn funny when I went to text kian and asked him why he last time got tgt with me when I was in such look. Hahahahah, and the first thing he replied, "Cause I was young". Basket, but I can't stop laughing. And my own mom couldn't recognize that it's me too till she said she recognize that cute mole on my left cheek. That isn't really nice to hear ah?

And, I'm doomed lah.

brand new start

As mentioned, September is just gonna be a brand new start for me and my life. I'm just gonna start striving hard for everything in my life.

School started officially today and managed to bump into two of my bridging friends. But I've no idea how it's gonna be like for my other two modules. It seems hard and I guess it's gonna be quite a heavy load for me to cope between work and studies but I promised that I'll be doing it well. I was happy to receive Don's msg and glad to know that he's coping it well and been quite positive as compared to other friends. :)

Had a quick lunch w Kian this afternoon before meeting up with Jueying for awhile. He treated me koi, like yeah he owes me one. Headed down to school alone and decided to walk down instead 'cause of the pretty good and nice cooling weather. Alright, just gonna start working hard from now on. It's never too late, right? :)

vocal

 I'm shivering in cold now. Probably 'cause I'm just feeling too shag, that's why immune system starts to weaken. 

It was a tiring day out but every minutes spent was definitely good and cherished. :) 

Went to meet Jueying and Huishan in the afternoon for practicing my singing skills at chaichee cc. We had so much fun singing and dancing and moving our ass together w the songs. Alright, I've decided to practice more on sun yan zi's songs. 

Alright, went home pretty early today, so proud of myself and I guess I'm gonna sleep soon. Just feel so tired. And happy to receive his messages! :) G'night all!

battlefield

Oh yeah, been such a filial girl and accompanied mom to visit grandparents! And mom said I've become more and more realistic when it comes to money. When my grandparents gave me angbao in the past, I'll reject but she said, I don't do the same anymore now. Well, human never always stay the same right? But still, thanks grandparents for giving me angbao 'cause to wish me luck in my brand new life, and my uni life. 

My uncle called me and told me how naughty my cousin is, but it seems like I can't do well to lecture him and change him into a better son. Perhaps, it's just a period of growing up and he's still young to be mature now. But he's really getting out of hand now. Alright, shall try to think of way to psycho him to be back to the guai path like me. 

Alright, nights all! 

stronger

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller, doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes you fighter, footsteps even lighter, doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone.

This song just keeps repeating on my mind. Guess I'm just wanna be stronger, to prove others that I can be stronger despite being alone. Just many things went through my mind and made me kept on thinking and figuring what's right and what's wrong. But till now, I've yet to come to a conclusion about my life. There are just so much things that I wish to rant it out but nowhere is right for me to do so. Life isn't as easy as what others think. It isn't easy to find a friend that you can rant all your problem at, crying on their shoulders when I need, get a pat on the shoulder knowing that things gonna be all right. It's never easy.

Right now, I'm thinking, why the fuck did you even have the rights to come and lecture me when you are way insensible than me. How many times I wish I can scold you awake but no, it's never ever the case. Hey, I'm tired of fighting for this, I'm tired seeing everyone feeling tired because of all these nonsense that ain't suppose to happen. What I've gone through is not what others have saw, because not a single soul know what I'm really going through now.

Ahh fuck with all these bullshit that I can't blog it out at all. Gonna accompany mom to grandparents' house tmr and it's gonna be a long journey. And sometimes, I wonder what the hell is wrong with the youngsters nowadays. My cousin is just one of them, damn.

tired

It was a tiring day today. My good friend, Don, gonna enlists in two days time and I'm so gonna miss texting with him and chatting nonsense all day long. Been meeting him for many days this week, and it seems like our friendship got even better. Ah, but sad that he's gonna enlist real soon.

Lunched with him over at airport and walked around before I meet my other friends. And I'm so happy that I've downloaded ten songs into my iphone and mp3. 

It was just a tiring night. 

helpless

It seems like everything I've done so far are wrong and not being recognized by anyone at all. I'm just feeling tired, really feel helpless already.  

And, Daryl really has a pretty nice vocal. Love his singing.