Ups and downs

Life's really really really full of ups and downs, and it's really called life.

Past few nights was really damn dramatic, and it actually happened to me, in real life. I was devastated to the point that I literally drink beers and I found it tasteless. Guess the bitterness of my heart is really so numb that it can't compare with the bitterness of the tiger beer crystal, heineken and carlsberg. First time in my life that I drank so many different types of beers. The night was really hard to pass, and always etched in my heart. Guilt can never leave me now, forever gonna haunt me till I die.

First night was havoc, I sang song for them and made noise to make them stay awake. I used Dennis's money to bet on blackjack. I was hungry in the midst of the sleep, I woke them up for breakfast, really such a good bros. Benedict and Royston took special care on me for the entire night, not allowing anyone to harm me and they cheered me up when I was really down and gonna cry soon. They stopped me from drinking, they stopped me from getting hurt in heart. It's something I have to go through, I know it.

Second night was more havoc. They smashed cake on Benjamin and he's like such a poor thing. His revenge succeed. Wanted to drink more but they really stopped me in the way that Benedict was really angry with me. No choice, he's my bro, afraid that he's really angry with me and ignored me. No picture was taken throughout the two nights. Still, I do enjoyed the nights despite feeling real down.

The down stage wasn't over yet. Now, I have the urge to drink again. Okay, heineken gonna be my best friend soon. Damn, I don't want to have beer belly though. I really hope I can sort out my feeling and mind. No one shall get hurt, or, the hurt should be minimize. I know now, all his friends are angry with me and really dislike me, but I am still me, nothing gonna changes. Unless, I've decided that I shall be the one that get hurt for everything.