Tiger beer w milk

Catching hong kong drama is really the best thing to do at night, making my night so wonderful! But, it doesn't seem to be the case today. We quarrelled again, and it hurts me deep inside. He actually defending a girl and argued with me. This feeling really sucks to the max, is this like a karma for me?

I love you, boy

I'm sorry, to one who loves me so deep and been devoted to me. I have been doing things that hurt you again and again. Though you are generous and willing to forgive me again and again, but I just think that I don't deserve your love anymore. I don't know if I have take your love for granted but I can be honest that I do love you. I appreciate every little things that you have done for me and I remembered it in mind.

Though we had uncountable quarrels and you used to hurt me time and again, I never hate you. Nine months aren't short, nor long. But we went through a lot of obstacles to become what we are now. Time and again, I told myself not to give up so easily because I really have feeling for you. Throughout these period, you have changed tremendously but now, the problem lies with me. I miss the way when you kissed my forehead, and hugged me so tightly. I miss the way when we held onto each other hand and never wanted to let go. I miss the way when you asked me to kiss your arm and you will get so happy over it. All the little things that we went through are part of our memories. I don't want to let this nine months become our only memories, I wanna create more memories with you.

I know it was my fault for whatever it is now. I am sorry that I have so many guy friends and causing you to feel insecure. Maybe I am way too greedy that I wish to have everything in life. I don't wanna give up on my guy friends but I never wanna give up on you too. Baby, I really miss you. But I really have no idea how to start afresh again.

I love you, boy.

I'm all about you, I'm all about us.

First time listened to Aaron Carter, I'm all about you, and I fell in love with it straight. It's freaking nice, but Jiale said it isn't. His taste for music is kind of weird. That's not the main purpose though.

Talked about work issue, it will really pissed me off. Damn, Jeff is gone and now come the new ass manager. I really dislike her so much that I argue with her. I guess all the female staffs will dislike her because her attitude towards female and male is totally different. Argue with her during work because she said she doesn't want to give me schedule next week, just because I give two days only. I found it real ridiculous. What if my school reopens and I can't work? Ahh whatever then, since she's the boss, I'm just a slave. Damn it man!

So basically, I'm gonna rot for these whole week. Worst thing, I have no money to go for shopping at all. This really suckz man! Dinner with Jiale just now, we commented on each other as though we didn't see each other for years, but actually for 4 days only. Alright, I'm hungry again, this sucks! :(

First Saturday night that I'm gonna turn in so early.

Formula 1 is on Singapore now and the race seems so exciting, but I ain't taking part in helping out. I'm really broke currently that I have no money for lunch/dinner soon. Met up with Anna in the afternoon to shop around cotton on 'cause there's 30% discount storewide! Sat down to chill and share each other's problem and relationship is really such a complicated and irritating issue.

Sometimes, I really wonder if single will be better for me or getting into a relationship. And, I've been thinking about this issue for quite a long time. I don't wanna be unfair for him and let him wait for me all the times. Relationship isn't like this. We gotta be fair. Dinner with Daryl and slacked and talked about life. Both of us went to meet Benny awhile before we ciao off. Okay, time to sleep, tmr need to drag myself off the damn nice bed to work. Goodnight world.

All I can say is sorry

I'm so in love with RnB songs, it's really so nice and making my night feel so peaceful, though it sounds damn lonely at times. Totally love listening to fm 91.3 at night, the best time to listen! ;-)

Relieved that I didn't work today, felt so tired and shag, for no reason. Gotta start enjoying my holiday to the fullest, but I'm broke, and I don't know how am I supposed to enjoy now. All my hard-earned money had spent on friends' birthday present, that sucks man. Hello, I want kaching kaching please! Lunched with Rachel at Aston's airport, yummy yummy! :-) Then, meet the usual 5A clique at 201 for dinner.

Okay people, I'm likea happy now because my long lost best friend is back in action again and really hope he remembers what he said man! :-) Don't wish to lose this friend again, because good friend are hard to get!

I'm still thinking when to visit my grandparents and current internet connection is pissing me off.
& Chuanhui, when's drinking session? :-) I miss you and Jaslyn and Thaijin.

Ups and downs

Life's really really really full of ups and downs, and it's really called life.

Past few nights was really damn dramatic, and it actually happened to me, in real life. I was devastated to the point that I literally drink beers and I found it tasteless. Guess the bitterness of my heart is really so numb that it can't compare with the bitterness of the tiger beer crystal, heineken and carlsberg. First time in my life that I drank so many different types of beers. The night was really hard to pass, and always etched in my heart. Guilt can never leave me now, forever gonna haunt me till I die.

First night was havoc, I sang song for them and made noise to make them stay awake. I used Dennis's money to bet on blackjack. I was hungry in the midst of the sleep, I woke them up for breakfast, really such a good bros. Benedict and Royston took special care on me for the entire night, not allowing anyone to harm me and they cheered me up when I was really down and gonna cry soon. They stopped me from drinking, they stopped me from getting hurt in heart. It's something I have to go through, I know it.

Second night was more havoc. They smashed cake on Benjamin and he's like such a poor thing. His revenge succeed. Wanted to drink more but they really stopped me in the way that Benedict was really angry with me. No choice, he's my bro, afraid that he's really angry with me and ignored me. No picture was taken throughout the two nights. Still, I do enjoyed the nights despite feeling real down.

The down stage wasn't over yet. Now, I have the urge to drink again. Okay, heineken gonna be my best friend soon. Damn, I don't want to have beer belly though. I really hope I can sort out my feeling and mind. No one shall get hurt, or, the hurt should be minimize. I know now, all his friends are angry with me and really dislike me, but I am still me, nothing gonna changes. Unless, I've decided that I shall be the one that get hurt for everything.

First, you tell me this. Then, you tell me that. Now, I don't believe anything at all. Sorry, nothing at all.

I'm gonna live on my own, stand on my own feet, depend on myself. Because I know if I too rely on someone, one day, I'll fall badly. And, that's what happened now. Really feel like drinking now, because emotions just can't controlled. I know that all these problems are just some obstacles and downs in life, will definitely pull through it. I know I will.

Drink tmr then.

Chalet with Jiale and his friends for the past two days, was fun and happening. Had it 'cause it was complimentary for my sip! ;) 

First night we went prawning and fishing at hai bin punggol. I didn't catch any prawns and all was caught by him. Then, he went to try fishing and he caught two freaking big fishes. I swear it was damn sad and disgusting when we put the dead fishes on the bathroom and washed them.

Second night, had our bbq, and main course was the fish that we caught. Thanks nihon for helping me to cut the fish! Went to fishing again but totally no luck at all, ultimate tired by then.

Two nights chalet just ended like this, was really fast and no matter what, it still created memories for all of us. And, I cherished the time I spend with him, really.

Went home and meet the poly cliques to celebrate Chuanhui's birthday at city hall.



Dine at The Pizza Place and I swear, the baked rice was god damn awful! I finished half and I threw it away. Never had such awful food before, damn! There goes my hard-earned money. Bloody hell.

Alright, having lots of problems recently. I know I need to learn to think properly what I really want.

I'm sorry, my love ones.

Thanks for everythin'

Thanks for it all, really thanks. Though you hurt me times and again, you show me that you really love me. Thanks, for everything that you have sacrifice for me. I don't know if it worth it all, but still, I appreciate it. I don't know whatever I do now is a right thing, but guess it's all fate?

 



















































Dad and mom went malaysia during the weekend so I went out to stay overnight. Thanks Chuanhui for accompanying me throughout the confused and upset night and Weiting for allowing us to slack at her house on sat! I'll never forget the night when we drink and eat 20 pieces nuggets in the middle of the...morning 4am. Had lots of laughers and fun with the girls, really love it all! Girls are girls afterall. Muackz! ;)

Gonna be in chalet again for the next two days with Jiale, Daryl & Songjie and it's going 12mn now and I've yet to pack my bag. Alright, hope it's gna be a good day ahead! Love everyone!

I want you to know that it doesn't matter. Suddenly damn in love with already gone by kelly clarkson.
Perfect doesn't keep the love alive.

Working lunch tmr and dinner with sec school peeps. Night blog.

T.G.I.T

Thanks god it's tuesday.

My plan is always screwed up. Set my alarm at 10.45am so that I have enough time to go bank to upgrade my debit card but, I actually off the alarm and slept back. So, yeah, I was late in meeting the girls again! Hehehehehehe.

Slacked and kena persuaded to go Jas's house to slack and dinner wasn't bad! :) Back home before 1am, safe! Mom and dad going m'sia on fri, gonna convinced her to let me stay outside. Hehehehe, drink!

Say hello to goodbye

How come time seems to pass so fast? How come time just couldn't stop for a little well when it's happy time and it seems like stopped when you are feeling really sad. Well, life's just so weird.

I always dragged myself off the bed when it comes to work. I always rushed like dog when I going to work. It's always and always. Work was still alright today, still manageable and not really happy because of the new ass manager. But never mind, jeff is quite good enough and crap with us. Cried when text with baby because I felt really guilty when I realised I don't dare to go wild wild wet and played because I hum. I'm really so sorry baby. I will think of more activities to cover up for the losses of the wild wild wet. :/ But actually I think the travelling time to prawning will be more than enough.

Accompanying stupid yihui to study but he keeps using phone (like now), and not studying! Hahahaha, okay. I just went to shit, and I feel so comfortable now. Okay, can't wait for the chalet and all the activities that I'm gonna plan. ;)

My heart's a stereo, it beats for you so listen close.  Make me your radio, turn me on when you feel low. So, sing along to my stereo.

Baby was really damn nice today because despite feeling so hungry, he still gave in to me and accompanied me all the way to nex for men men don don 'cause of my craving. Hehehehe. ♥ He's probably the best boyfriend on earth, excluding when his stupid attitude and stubbornness on action again, he counted one of the few best on earth.

Back to his home and first thing was....sleep. No idea why both of us always sleep, sleep, nothing but sleep when reach his house. Wanted to watch final destination 5 'cause he alr downloaded it but, failed to watch. Don't really dare to watch alone but gonna try downloading now. Leg aching for idk what reason. Baby helped me massage my small thigh but I keep laughing, way too itchy. I guess I can never go for foot therapy. It's really freaking pain now, so as my throat. Damn! :(

Happy moment spend

Finally, thanks god, we have a proper outing but wasn't really well-planned. Nevermind, the most important is to be happy with each other around. I feel the warmth and love from him so much today, hahahaha! Though it was kind of screwed before we met, had a little quarrels, was unhappy with each other but we were back to normal once we met up.

Went singing at chai chee and wasn't awkward at all. He kept laughing at my pronounciation for english words, and laugh at my way of singing songs like, "price tag, need you now, love story and nothing gonna change my love for you". That heartless boyfriend of mine.



Went to bedok point and couldn't make up a decision for dinner. So, we walked back and forth at bedok area. Bumped into sze ching, scared the freaking hell out of me. Was taking photos with the hello kitty but he just kept standing there looking at me, got so pissed somehow. So I gave him that what-you-want face and I ciao off.  

Settled our dinner at banquet, freaking ex and awful. :(

Went over to anna's house since she was baking pop cakes for her sis, and dropped by to chit chat talk cock and slack. Ciao off after that. Gonna meet baby again tmr! Love him! *heart for him!*

Hello September and goodbye August!

I believe Aug must be quite a sucky month for most of us, though it doesn't turn out that sucky as June or July but yah, it's still sucks! :[ I am running out of money again, and again. I don't know what the hell did I exactly spent on, but yah, bank just doesn't leave any money.

Was feelin' so uncomfortable last night but kept on quarrelling with him. Sometimes, both of us are just too strong-headed that no one wanna step back and give in at all. Yes, it's all 'bout the pride but most importantly is, both of us have our own perception that ended up, quarreling. That's the first thing that happened in Sep that made me felt so shit. Next, will be working. Supposed to work at 1pm today but I overslept 'cause I felt real tired. Reached workplace and saw a new assistant manager. She looks like a fucked up person. A said that she keeps looking at us when we are working or talking. Hello, we are human beings. It isn't that we work, we can't talk. And most importantly is, we talked when there isn't any customers. Well done, now you are aiming me. Asked us to do housekeeping since we are so free, then I need to clean the shelves, the fridge, and even sweeping floor that should be done by the dishwasher. I feel so suffocated working there now with all the new managers and management. I know that's working life, but yah, I still prefer the past, with the good boss around.

Joke today. Usually the old boss treated us drinks, he will lets us get any drinks we want, like cupwalker or etc but this new ass manager said, "I treat you guys drink but no other drinks, only 100+". Lame shit, are you the promoter of that drink? I just dislike you now, you keep giving that fucked up look, never even smile to us at all. You are lacking of handling relationship with the employee, ya'knw?

Another joke today. Met Jiale and we went all the way to Farrer Park just for the kopitiam and we went all the way back home. Worst still, the chap cai bheng sibei ex. What a trip. :/ Bought gongcha and suddenly thought that 201 has pasar malam, so bus there and wtf, not even a stall selling sausage or drinks. Our night is screwed and pathetic like shitz. On the happier note, gonna go singing with him tmr at bedok chai chee cc for three hours. At least we can stop thinking of what to do again like usual. ;)

Alright, gonna bathe now, feeling itchy all over my body. Gosh man!
Praying very hard that the rest of the sep will be fun, like seriously and hello friends, OCTOBER IS COMING SOON AND IT MEANS, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! Though I don't really look forward at all because it seems like nothing special.