Intro
some pple thynk, im crazy.
some pple thynk, im paran0id.
0uh well, d0 y0u thynk i d0 give a phug?
i've wasted part 0f my life.
been wasted juz n0t sumtyn typical.
0uh peri0d! this is... my life
s0 shut up & read!
thynk with your brain pple, n0t with y0ur arse.
everydae, every moment, juz every part of y0ur life,
shyt happenz.
p0intyn-0ut-my-mid-finger.
sweet.
From Lovely,
MyssNotNice.
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Tuesday, May 26, 2015
She let her emotion go.
I just shouted my heart out today, at my Supervisor. 😂😂😂 I don't know I should be angry or laughing my ass off. Freaking first time I ever shouted at her and in the office.
I don't give a fcuk anymore lah siak.
Moving on. Face what the future holds. Sabar, sabar and sabar. In Sha Allah.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
12:22 AM
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Thursday, May 14, 2015
& the story goes...
This Date.
I downloaded Blogger app on my phone.
Thought of start blogging again after everything stop 3yrs ago.
I hope this shyt can bring myself back again.
Wana start from where I've stop.
Life been pretty well. Even better after the breakup. Got addicted to Facebook and Online Social Games to occupy myself while trying to forget about him, which I did. FB and gaming has changed my social life. I gave up and stop socializing. Why? coz all these people are really not real at all. Ok it's not all but mostly. Not everyone you can call them friends. Trust no one besides yourself.
Everyone is getting married. Do I look like I care? well, I guess my parents they do but Im not. I believed Allah has prepared better things for me. He, the great planner. Nak kawen bukan senang, bukan mcm beli ikan dekat pasar. Bukan tak laku, bukan memilih sangat. Perkahwinan tu kan mendirikan sebuah masjid. If the base is not stable, it will easily collapse. Kalau blom prepare, mcm mane nk ready jd isteri/suami org? Im not searching for a husband, Im waiting for my bakal Imam. Kalau ade, adelah. Kalau takde, takdelah. For now, Im still learning to be a better Muslimah. In Sha Allah.
It's hard to trust guys now a days. Like I mentioned earlier, I've given up socializing. Social media corrupts the world easily. An Info gets easily escalated whether it's real or fake. Things can go viral that fast. This shows how fitnah can get escalated that quick. Astaghfirullah! Like my sister's fb post that says "Being famous in fb/social media is like winning in a monopoly." Technology somehow corrupts human. Sometimes I wish wana live where nobody keeps looking at their devices and communicate in real. Now thats LIFE.
End of June marked the last day of FMSS. Almost 4yrs with the company and Im half hearted whether to continue with daytime call ctr or take a gd rest and finding other daytime job. Had enough of shift work. I need to enjoy public holidays after almost 8yrs working on shifts. In Sha Allah, mudahan Allah murahkan pintu rezekiku and mudahkan segala urusan di Dunia dan Akhirat nanti. Amin.
ur face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
ur voice, it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that u're gone
But though u're still with me
I've been alone all along...
- My Immortal, Evanescence -
It's been 3yrs.
I wonder what you're doing right now...
Do you still remember me?
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:00 AM
Y Y Y
Saturday, April 14, 2012
here the story goes...
i miss jotting down my thoughts...
i miss letting go my anger...
i miss writing down my sadness...
im simply miss blogging...
after 3 long years.
i guess this is me... the real me...
juz me, myself and I...
living in my own world.
i prefer it to be this way. im happy. :]
4 months ago...
life seems unpredictable...
...BIG SIGH...
dated 31st Jan 2012...
im officially broken up with hym.
after 3yrs 5mths 19days... we are DONE.
jyeah... lyk finally. wasted.
i had enuff living with heartbreaker.
i had enuff living in insecurityness.
i had enuff living in ur shyt lyfe.
my intention all along was to change YOU
but im the one who is changyn in the end.
4 months later... [now]
im trying real hard now to be me...
the me whom i used to be.
i miss the old me. crazy as usual. haha!
met few new ppl in FB and i've changed.
i start to solat now and trying to complete the 5 of it.
InsyaAllah. all i need right now is HIM to forgive me...
afterall what i've done.
HE knows better. only HE could understand me.
the one and only whom im hoping to, trust and believe in...
im not tryna be a preacher.
juz dat i need those faith to still go on in this lyfe.
im fightyn myself for the life in hereafter, for the Jannah.
InsyaAllah... all i need is your guidance.
i know YOU listenyn to me ya Allah.
YOU know what i've went thru and only YOU know.
i wana change to be a better person, to be a better me.
im slowly leavyn you and erase those fond memories with you.
i've forgiven you and now im trying real hard to forget you.
i met beautyful and nice ppl in FB.
itz parts and parcel of lyfe. every each human will be tested.
i live everydae and accept anytyn datz happen to me.
i've got those lil crushes and loves... but i juz leave it to HIM.
u can't control or change ppl's hearts and feelynz.
u juz have to accept any feelynz dat u're having.
whether im in love, hurtz, anger or in pain...
some werds or feelynz is better to be left unsaid.
as long as HE knows... itz more than enuff.
i prefer it to be that way...
only to YOU i seek for forgiveness, guidance and heal my pain.
aku hidop hanya tinggal untuk mati.
selagy nyawa dikandong badan...
selagy itu aku berusaha dan berikhtiar...
mencari keampunan darimu ya Allah.
duniawi da takde makne lagy...
berilah aku pertunjukmu kejalanmu...
tenangilah dan lapangilah jiwaku...
jauhkanlah aku dari bisikan dan godaan syaitan.
sesungguhnya aku takot dgn neraka jahanam mu.
lindungilah daku... lindungilah daku...
Ameen Ya Rabbal Al Ameen.
mungkin stgh org akan fikir...
akulah prempuan yg bodoh tuh...
buat sesuatu tak fikir dulu...
ikotkn sgt dgn perasaan tuh...
inilah dia... bak kater pepatah melayu...
ikot haty, maty. ikot rase, binasa...
haty punah, jiwa bisa...
mudah sgt terpedaya pujok rayu,
mudah sgt termkn kata2.
once bitten, twice shy... third tyme happen... datz it.
terhina sunggoh rase diri ini.
tknk mengharap, tknk berharap...
hidop jgn terlalu mengharapkan sgt...
kelak nanty kecewa sendiri...
kiter sedeh ke, kiter marah ke...
orang laen tkkn tao dan tkkn amek tao...
kalao ader, aderla. kalao tkder, tkderla.
aku pasrah, aku redha. aku terima segala-galanya.
aku hidop hanya menunggu ketibaan Izrail.
there are thyngs we dun wana happen but haf to accept.
thyngs we dun wana noe but haf to learn,
and ppl we can't live without but haf to let go.
juz let it go... let it flow.
here i go... so dishonestly...
leave a note... for u my only one...
and i noe... u can see ryt thru me...
so let me go... and u will fynd someone...
listenyn to: YellowCard - My Only One
deep inside, itz still bleedyn.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:40 AM
Y Y Y
Thursday, January 19, 2012
crushes
lyfe's simply... not so good.
well... at least i try to look great. yeay!
i've been addicted to FB juz to stop thynkyn abt hym [the bf].
get to noe with some awesome frenz... some r an ass...
u noe... i hate it wen i comment on their status/posts
and they juz either gone or totally ignored. pfffft.
i unsubsribed one of them.
i got 2 or maybe 3 crushes and they're younger then me.
so... i was lyk... okae... i dun go for young boys.
itz juz sumtyn to occupy me and... why not aite?
since im totally pissed of havyn bf lyk i am not.
reasons why i had crush on them...
simply they did not forgettyn to SOLAT...
to which i respect them the most... unlyk moi bf.
jyeah... im comparyn. if he loved to LOOK at girls
then why i can't... ryt?
and they regular update their status...
which most of my newsfeeds is abt them.
sumtymz i feel lyk im a stalker. HAHA!
nah.. i subsribed hym back. lolx. he's soo cute.
leavyn my previous job is wat i expected the most...
followed by leavyn you... to lead a better n happy lyfe
i duno what im holdyn on...
sumtymz im happy being wif hym...
sumtymz im not... im jealousy... yes! no doubt.
and thatz wen the arguement starts. hmmm...
im tired talking abt hym...
4 more hrs to go and im taking moi sweet nap now. gdnyte world.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:55 AM
Y Y Y
Monday, January 16, 2012
itz been sumtyme...
out of sudden i went blank wen i look at tiz. lol.
i've forgotten my html sak...
ohmaigawd! itz been 2years i've abandoned moi blog.
lyk... i misssssssssssssssssssss sooooooo much
jotting down my thoughts la can!?
theres loads of ups and down of lyfe... ya know...
who the FUCK still usyn BLOGSPOT!?
it seems everyone is usyn TUMBLR now a days
and i dun freakyn care! coz i make this blog on moi own!
all this... the skin, the snowflakes and the edits, everything!
my family is doin great.
both moi sibling had married! yeay!
and i already became an aunty. hahaha!
mak busu! hows that sound lyk? yikes!
he's name is Muhd Nor Alyassa Zia and 8mths old.
my sis and bil stayin wif us but... movyn out soon.
juz around our area... hmmmm...
i'll be lookyn after my parents then.
i left my previous job and lyfe's gettyn much better!
haha! im on permanent night shyft la sayang!!!
enjoyin lyfe... 4 days werk and 3 days off.
masok keje check case and by 2-3am no calls, membuter.
balek from nyte shyft... gi breakfast.
balek ruma... tdo again.
now tell me who's not enjoyin lyfe ryt now?
well in the middle im active in FB.
FB can be such an ASS at tymes.
one tyme i get excited comments and likes others post
and another tyme im way too pissed coz not been entertained.
-___________________________-
im bored. im plain bored.
im still attached. shocked? yeah... im still wif hym.
itz been 3yrs and 4mths. wad do u expect?
exactly! more and more heart breaks.
should juz leave hym and i could lead a better lyfe kan?
3yrs is not a short period of tyme beb.
sayang... terlalu sayang. tapi... ntahla...
i've lost hope and faith but i duno y i still holdyn on.
kesian? i dun really know. hmmmm.
nk ckp ader mcm tkde. nk ckp tkde tapi mcm ade.
i've changed?
nah... im still me. :]
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
12:52 AM
Y Y Y
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
*clearyn leave.*
i love my life right fuckyn now minus the boifren. :]
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:47 AM
Y Y Y
Thursday, April 29, 2010
there she goes...
i wana blog again... :]
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:25 AM
Y Y Y
ouh dat MyssPG!
she called >> nazilr0n. (ouh-figure-dat-out!)
h0r0sc0pic >> pisces lady.
i
age groupz >> in her late 20's
her nickzz >> ezan, Pg™, MyssGothic, ScaryEmy. AleXana.
fav genrez >> punkRawkEmoGoth.
pastymezz >> st0nyn and gets paran0id.
inside her >> em0GothHead,swit,l0vyn,irritatyn & ...
i wanna be de'Gal, wh0 0lwez smyle...
& brightened up y0ur day...
th0' she c0uldn't brightened up her 0wn.
n0 matter h0w hard 0r t0ugh life is...
n0 matter h0w hurtf0ol n sad i am...
i will 0lwez smyle...
& smile lyk i mean it. :]
ouh Pathetic,
MyssPg™
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