Saturday, August 20, 2005

i am positively seeing my bank account balance amount getting more negative as each day passes.

1st there were the 3 tops from sports bazaar that i got on wednesday, while walking around w shalynn. an aeropostle white tee that the 'stall owner' (whom i happen to sorta know...) brought back from US; a coral pink/white/orange spag top that's striped diagonally, vertically and horizontally from surf bay; and an off white spag top with lace patterns from surf bay too. my wallet immediately felt 42bucks lighter the moment i left the bazaar. the surf bay tops were freakin' cheap! like $7 per piece when the usual prices were $39.90!! the white tee was not so easy on the pocket, but oh well, you dun find that sorta brands here in singapore :)

2ndly, i bought another top today. from topshop. i wanted a coral reddish pink tank but decided that a blue one would do good too. marcus got me a 10% discount w his card. yay! was so tempted to get this shirt white flirty skirt, green racerback with crochet backing and lime green bohemian spag w beads and crocheted straps from this shop at far east level 1....but! i resisted.

did some shopping w marcus today after ms saedah's lesson. we talked abit bout wat happened the night before jnh. i said some stuff that i shouldnt have, and apologised for saying what i did. i trully believe now, that amazingly, i haf selective memory. wat i said pissed him off and i remember most of wat happened that night, except for what i said. we talked bout other stuff too, mostly about us, and abit bout the pple ard us.

please dun get mistaken about the jealousy thingy. there is no jealousy thingy. i dun even know what all that irritation's about too. sometimes i wanna ask myself, do i even know what i want to get out of this? apparrently, it appears to some pple that i'm confused and have zilch idea bout what i'm doing or hoping to achieve. on the contrary, i thought i was pretty clear bout it. hmmm.
i am trully a fickle-minded person it seems. sadly enough.

met mummy outside scotts in the evening and we shopped a teeny wee bit at perfect in black before darren came to find us. so relieved that the whole woo-haa bout PIB lending pageant pple 1 or 2 sets of clothes has been settled, but not without numerous anxious and urgent calls and smses among janice, richard, fiona and myself. and all this took place while i was having music this morning...

had thai express for dinner. the next time i'm there, i'm gg to eat the super spicy noodles. the one w the 3 chilli signs on the menu! felt quite bad for getting him out of the house for a couple of hours just for dinner and not do anything after that cos i din wanna reach home late tonight. the good thing is that aft dinner i collected my last cheque from bloodcafe! another good thing was that mummy darren and i had dessert at xu liu shan...1 strawberry sago + 1 honeydew sago + 1 aloe vera guava juice drink + 1 mango jelly and mango cubes in mango and coconut juice drink....sinful!! haha.

union ball is in 1 week. that's 7 days of full stress and fullblown freaking out for every single person in ball comm i should think. HELP.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

1st day of sem 2 '05/06 already. i totally cant believe how quickly 3 friggin' glorious months of summer hols are over! just like that. oh well, there's still december in bout erm, 4 months time. right.

doesn't feel like the usual refreshing sense of going back to school after a long break, especially cos i've been gg to sch at least 4 times a week the past 2 weeks or so cos of camp, matric fair, meetings, rag yada yada.

had dinner w the band girls on friday at the hawker area beside esplanade. been longing to go back there ever since the clarinetists' supper there. so naturally, i was really looking forward to the company and the dinner! huixian is finally back from europe :) so happy for her that she had such a great time! had to leave right after dinner and din really get to chat more w them. sorry girls, next time it wun be like that, promise! ooh, hx brought back a minature wooden clog and chocolates for us. the shoe is so pretty, i've already got a place for it on my table!!

Rag on sat was quite fun. a number of us stayed over from friday night. there was even Vader supper at fongseng! shalynn james yewmun jiahe kimhai peihuan jialiang me. kim peihuan and i stayed over at sha's room @ pgp. talked till nearly 5.45am before i fell asleep and woke up at 6.30am. was completely zonked out the whole of saturday during rag and after that. literally had front row seats this yr for rag since jieying and i were standing near the V-VIP area watching the performances. realised that alot of my friends/freshies were performing - grace tye, grace tiang, lydia, leo, xilin, winson, sue ann, and somemore that i've forgotten.

there was a special centennial buffet lunch prepared at the new university hall and the food was good!! heard some interesting news. but dunno how true it is. amazingly managed to survive till dolus bbq at nana's new condo. although i was late and left early, i really enjoyed spending time w those boys and girls: xuan, melvin, melissa, jas, nana, thomas, markie, rochelle, ivan, ernest. everything's just back to good ol' simple friendship without the agony of tension and awkwardness and whatnots.

although we said we'll remain good friends after all that has happened, is it honestly possible for that to happen? i really wonder at times. especially during those moments when it seems that none of us suddenly have anything to say, during those times when holding a decent conversation that covers anything but conversational topics seem practically nonexistent. this is completely not what i was hoping would happen. when i said "status quo" that time, i really meant it. is it just me or is it you or is it both of us who are screwing things up like that? i really dunno.

dun you feel that tinge of tension in the air nowadays? i do. i really do.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Chuan is 18 years old! happy birthday to you brother! did last-minute shopping for his bday present 4 days before his bday on sunday. walked around the man-u store at tanglin, sports stores in taka, and finally ended up in the scent department of taka. decided on salvatore feragamo for men since it smelled relatively good. relative cos i was never a big fan of men's fragrances. thanks to darren who came along, without whom i'd prob have taken double or triple the time to decide on anything at all.

promised chuan we'll go clubbing together once he's 18. but alas, sch and exams and yada yada..he's gotta wait till after As then...

bday lunch w mummy and chuan was really delicious at hyatt's new buffet. the spread was completely amazing and not to mention, filling. stuffed so much during lunch that dinner was only an iced chocolate drink @ Dome Suntec.

met up w missy for dinner at out of the pan on monday night. i was so late, felt so bad. been dying to go back there after that 1 dinner w joel there.

mel recommended online birkies. so i dropped by the birkenstocks' store to test the sizes and check out the prices. it really is abit less ex online. i hope there aint any misc charges. like the white gizeh model pair. just that everyone seems to have that model in the same colour. and shalynn has that pair too....! oh well. i've got till friday to decide.

had dinner at scotts foodcourt w darren and gelare for dessert after that. afterall, its tuesday!!! man do i love tuesdays :)

funny stuff haf been happening. just thinking about it....haha. kh openly hinted on sunday that he wanted dinner and kept asking bout who i was with where blah blah. alright. he asked the same thing today too. except that he asked d too. oh man...dun quite know what exactly he's trying to do, but oh well...let's see. he called us a few times too and tried to ask more over msn. haha.

cors sux awfully bad. i'm still worried that entrepreneurial marketing would require too many points, am still worried that i dun get comm studies: new media and society. sheesh.