Wednesday, March 19, 2008

It's St. Patrick's Day!!! ok that was 2 days ago on 17th march. nobody celebrates or gives a hoot about st pat's day here in singapore, but it sure was a festival worth remembering....i didn't celebrate st pat's day last year while on exchange in california, but seeing how people there celebrated it was fun. the weather in berkeley in mid-march last year was absolutely brilliant, the sun was out, the winds were still around, from my window at I-house, i had a direct view of the frat houses opposite and their drinking parties that started from NOON till night. haha. it's amazing to see people just lie on the grass and literally roll around and frolick in the sun. sadly, nobody does that here. i can't imagine walking past the fields in housing areas or the grass slopes of NUS and finding people sunbathing there with their school books beside them.

man......i really miss Berkeley. what i'd give to go back to berkeley :(

it wasn't easy to get a break like this from school stuffings. the last weekend was a total nightmare, the psychological assessment report really freaked me out bad. statistics really isn't my cup of tea. it's not that tough actually, i used to like stats, but it's confusing when there's not enough time to fully understand what you're doing to the data in SPSS. i so need to relax, for real. and not have school work at the back of my mind. i want it out of my mind. which is why retail therapy with xuan after class on monday was great...we both reaped rewards..dresses!!! ironic...i'm asking bing not to buy anymore clothes and not to shop online anymore, and i just did the opposite haha.

i wanna go for coffee....havent done that for a while. long while actually...and just chill over tea-time or something like that. and just talk talk and talk about everything...but we're all so busy, it's killing everyone. DANIEL tan....when are u coming back? conversations with u are interesting and u always have all these weird michigan-ish stories to tell me. u're not doing summer school right, so hurry come back!!!!!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

this week is nearly over, and so marks the end of my 9-day cny holiday. a 9 days break is quite ridiculous really. but it's a lucky break thanks to 1 lecturer who decided to go back to hk for the new year and to friends who took notes in the other class!

sara came over on for 4 days, on monday afternoon, hannah and i have been waiting and waiting and planning and planning for these 4 days! it was all good, cos sara enjoyed herself, and that's what's most important :) pictures later.

right after these 4 exciting days of walking shopping picturetaking and eating (according to wilson, we ate more in 3 days than what he ate over the entire winter break in spore), i met up with another old friend. it was impromptu and totally last min, but good ol jem came out anyway.

it's amazing to even just think about how we've come so far (since the busstop outside our houses in february 2004) to feb 2008. i hadn't even started uni then, and now i'm in my last sem and jem's already graduated. we started off feeling more than friends, then it got stagnant for a while, we met up every year when he came back for summer break and now 4 years has gone past us. but till now he's always still a very special somebody. it's complicated. slightly. mildly. i don't know why. i think i think too much sometimes. or maybe i don't think enough.

although he's a friend that i only meet up with a couple of times each yr for the past 4 years, there's always this indescribable feeling of nostalgia and warmth that he emits. he's most certainly without a doubt one of the most honest friends i know and maybe it's that honesty that makes him one of a kind :)

jem's changed abit through these years while he was in melbourne. at the same time, alot about him hasn't changed, in a sense he's still good ol' jem :) sensing how he's grown over time makes me wonder if i have too? have i matured over this same time period? have i improved in some aspects? have i become a better person?

this is weird. there's so much i wanted to say bout jem. but now i can't find the words to any of it at all. i'll keep those for next time :)

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

it's sha's birthday tomorrow, we did a 'surprise' birthday thingy for her today. not as big a surprise as the last 3 years though. an assortment of cakes from mezza9 was ordered from hongkong and we picked'em up without her knowing. i most certainly wasn't expecting so many slices!! and it was only 4 of us at dinner! haha. thanks james for the treat though!

on a less happy note, it's starting again. i can sense it. it's like a perpetual grey-skied world. sounds alot like dysthymia to me. how ironic, dysthymia is in one of the chapters in my child abnormal psychology text. it was really quite fine the entire day, from lunch with hannah and lea at the marmalade pantry @ hollandv (the wild mushroom and truffle oil quiche was good by the way), to reading about declarative memory at the orchard lib, all through dinner with the girls at sanur. but somehow, after dinner, the mood sank.

why...

why...

maybe it's the thought of how we'll all be pursuing different, separate routes in just 8 months from now. it's depressing.

Friday, November 09, 2007

received an email from a very important friend today. and nothing can possibly describe how touched I was (and still am) by her. girl, u know who u are, and I'm really grateful that u took the time and the effort (that was a long mail..) to pen those thoughts. I appreciate every bit that u said, and I will work on it.

*thanks girl*

it's 1 week to the end of the sem, 2 weeks plus to exams and 3 more deadlines to go. it's already the end of the 1st day of my long 4-day weekend (thurs to sun) and today really wasn't productive at all. tmr will be the start of my 3-day weekend, and i will make it a good one for catching up with work.

it's more blessed to love and appreciate what u have, instead of what u hope to have. this isn't against having hopes and dreams and goals. cos those stuff are important for one to have direction(s) in life. but satisfaction is in the eyes of the beholder. it's not always what u expect of others, what about your expectations of yourself?

random stuff coming outta my head at 3am, but i really do mean what i said. i can't always want others to make changes so as to increase my level of happiness/satisfaction. i wanna be the one to be able to make changes...it's my life afterall.

to a certain girlfriend, it's been nearly a decade since we became friends. and knowing that we've become so much closer really warms my heart :) thank you.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

i figure that the best measure of the best or worst times of your life (so far at least) would be the degree of your emotions. i mean, it is noble and all, definitely, to contribute greatly to society and for the greater human population. but to do all that, and not have a sense of satisfaction or a tinge of happiness? how great is that?

guess that's called putting others before the self.

not trying to be a narrow-minded egocentric prick who perceives herself - physical, mental and emotional wellbeing - to be above all else. that's awful. but i'm really just asking to be happy. is that too much as a wish? definitely not at the expense of others and i don't need sacrifices of any sort. but why are things so hard?

so difficult to look at,
so difficult to conceive,
so difficult to understand,
so difficult to accept and live with.

consider the numerous testimonies heard about how college days are the best days of your life. i say this is bull. totally. my uni days (years, rather) HAVE been the most enriched with experience most certainly. but the best? far from it. on the contrary, i'd say it's nearly the direct opposite.

what has possibly gone right during these years?

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

met up with missy last week before the year ended. the last time we met was when the sem started...dinner at the hong kong cafe was her treat, thanks girl! we bought dresses that night too...buy 1 get 1 free haha.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

suddenly i miss US so much. went through the work-and-travel pics earlier for the millionth time already, but it never seems to be enough. sigh...i miss them, the thais, dear and fai, sheryl and joey, IVY, sherine, jamie joyce karen reina, jose william sean, the taiwanese, my travel mates isaac nick yongchang thomas esmond brit marc, the rest of the guys lionel ss ambrose and all...

seems so long ago and yet so near, and it's been more than 4 months already. i miss cedar point. though work there was a nightmare, though the managers are screwed up and bias, though we got angry at the supervisors so often, though we first froze our legs and fingers in spring before burning up under the summer sun, it was fun.

i miss the 16 roller coasters, esp the millenium force and the dragster, oh and definitely the raptor too...i miss cooking chicken fingers and fries and hotdogs and making a million burgers and baskets under stress...i miss ranch sauce (singapore don't have!), i miss b&j's at USD2.50 a pint...i miss elephant ears with cinnamon sugar...i miss the cheesecake factory...i miss san fran and LA and vegas and boston and nyc and chicago and dc...i miss pink's chilli cheese dog...i miss the funnel cakes that sean used to give us for free...i miss dippin' dots...i miss ryan's insane buffets...i miss..i miss..

longing for all that not to end is not possible, but i'm really thankful i experienced all that, the pple and weather and food and places and work. experience brings along learning and more importantly, appreciation.

today is marcus's 23rd birthday...last day of the year. Happy Birthday Marcus :)
yesterday wong ss turned 22...and later shalynn is having her belated 21st celebration. this december nicholas and i turned 21; ambrose and ss turned 22; marcus turned 23. time flies...so fast...too fast.

Friday, December 29, 2006