when...

when there's no place for you even at your own house,

when you look back on your life and all you see are the unhappiness and frustration,

when there's no one you can wholly depend on,

when you can see no future,

maybe life is just not worth living.

Blogging on the go

Finally I can blog on the go, and with the convenience of attaching photos!

全家福！

叹

今天，以往那些莫名其妙的忧郁又回来了。也许，我还是受不了别人在我面前炫耀自己有多受欢迎， 也顺便衬托出我的狼狈。也许，我就是不甘寂寞。星期五晚上，当每个人都在狂欢，我却在家里对着电脑发牢骚。

活了23年，我连基本的存在感都没有。我是真的不知道我到底活在这世界上是为了什么。这世界就算少了我这个累赘，也没有什么不一样，反而可能会更好。我想我就算人间蒸发，也可能没有人会发现吧。

在和我的爱犬玩乐的时候，我竟然哭了。家，从我很小的时候，就不是一个我很向往的地方。回家，也只不过是每天的规则。我很清楚我在家里是一点地位也没有。 但自从买了一只狗，她每天就是等我回家，和我玩耍，也终于让我有了想回家的念头。而我，也从她眼里看到了开心和快乐原来可以那么的单纯。这些，也许是我永远也体会不了的。

从小到大，我所学到的，就是读书 = 钱， 钱 = 幸福。所以当我在A水准考到不懂什么狗屁成绩的时候，我在家里也渐渐抬不起头了。从那刻起，我的生命就像一堆烂泥，怎么踩，脚还是一样会脏， 怎样努力的往前跑，也始终跑不快。

说真的，我对生活还是有那么一点憧憬。只不过，我真的不知道我是为什么而活，或为谁而活。工作，就是为了赚钱。赚的钱，也不懂往哪儿花。

累了，我真的累了。也许，生活的多姿多彩，不是我活着的时候可以经历的。我就是注定孤独，注定盲目的追从别人对我的一点点期盼。生命，也不如一张黑白画。

work officially starts.

its been a while since i posted here. i guess with fb and twitter, maintaining a blog seems to be more of a hassle now. and maybe it's a good thing i'm not posting anything here! cos everytime i post, it's probably cos i'm emo-ing.

and so, US was great fun! i guess i wasn't such a good travel companion, but i never once regretted spending all my savings on that trip. it's not always that i could travel to such a faraway place given my family finances. absolutely love the shopping there! i dun think i have bought anything other than my work shoes after i came back from US cos everything seems so "bo hua" here! told myself that if i can afford it, i'd probably want to travel there once every few years!

it's probably unfair to summarise my 3-week US trip in a paragraph, but oh well.

came back to sg, slacked for a good few weeks, had my commencement, and then started work!

commencement was overated i guess. i still dun feel the same kind of attachment that i felt when i was in rj, and so never truly enjoyed myself or even felt a tinge of sadness that i'm leaving the uni.

and my bro and i bought a shetland sheepdog and i bombed my first few months of salary on her too. but she's such a dear. one can never describe the feeling of having a dog wagging her tail and getting hyperactive everytime she sees you, especially after i wake up or come back home from work. i'll definitely stop to play with her everytime. she's such a great addition to the family, cos i dun think i've ever been loved and treasured this much by anyone else in the world. it's like, her whole world revolves around waiting to see me, and just waiting for me to play with her. she actually reminds me that i do have my worth in this world.

and of cos, work has started. the first 3 weeks have just been training, and so i haven't felt the full blow of the workplace horrors yet. for now, i love the company, i love my fellow analysts, even though at times i dun think i can fit in that well, and i love how things seem so well paved out for us. i guess i still need to put in a lot of effort to manage my career, to make sure i get ahead and be sufficiently proactive. doesn't seem easy at all, but i do hope i will throw away all my irrational fears and start on a clean slate in my workplace.

i dun like the fact that i'm simply going thru the whole motion in my life just for the sake of it. maybe it's true everyone needs a purpose in life. i haven't found mine, and am probably not in a rush to find it. but i feel so superficial and shallow in front of everyone else in my company. i dun have a story to tell about myself, i dun have significant life experiences to take pride in, and i dun have the drive to push me forward. i dun think my family has been a great help in this as well, if anything, they seem to be more of a de-motivator for me. but maybe i should be thankful too. i'm a confused individual.

and i've always craved for people to understand me better than i do, it's sad when my colleagues describe me as "friendly", "cheerful", etc when i'm probably not even half of that. perhaps i'm just so two-faced about my portrayal to others that i'm closing myself up. it's probably not easy to be such an introvert in such a situation, but i guess, maybe it's still good to continue with the act and not revert to my reserved and introverted self, cos i know these characteristics won't get me anywhere.

i just hope i'll be happier.

off to the US!

came back from jakarta two days back and i'm flying to US soon. life is great for now!=)

got a scare cos i woke up this morning and felt so sick. had diarrhoea, body aches and a sore throat. when i went to see the doc, my fever was 38.2 degrees celsius. thank goodness i came back and slept and felt much better after having some medication. lets just hope my sickness doesnt come back to haunt me.

i really dunno if i've brought enough clothes, but oh well. it sounds easy enough to get clothes from there, so wth.

EXCITED OMG!!

TRULY MAD AND CRAZY

the last two weeks have been crazy. here's a record of what i did:

17-18th April: E50 case studies

19-20th April: edit CP part A

21-22nd April: chiong for intro to psych exam

23rd April: exam + edit CP part B

CHIONGING CP:

24th April

2pm to 1030pm (8.5hrs): marcus's house

11pm to 1am (3 hrs): continue chionging at home

25th April

5am to 12pm (7 hrs): chiong at home

1pm to 430am (15.5 hrs): marcus's house

26th April:

11am to 10am (23 hrs): marcus's house (FINALLY FINISH CP)

CHIONGING E50:

27th April

8pm to 11pm (3 hrs): joce's house

28th April

7am to 1230am (17.5 hrs): school

29th April

1am to 3am (2 hrs): continue chionging at home

5am to 7.30am (2.5 hrs): chiong at home

8am to 9.30am (1.5 hrs): chiong at xm's house

10am: PRESENTATION

nice huh... slept so little but i think adrenaline plus coffee kept me going for the entire week...

now, i need motivation to chiong my e50 reports...

network

went for something like a networking session at my future workplace ytd, and yes, i must say i didn't make the wrong choice. at least from whom i talked to and interacted with last night, everyone's really nice. of cos it's just ONE session, but at least they were very willing to share their experiences and totally understand the point of view of a graduating student.

we stood around networking for more than 3 hours, and seriously, my feet were SOOOO painful after the whole thing (i was so tempted to sit on the priority seat on the mrt omg). i managed to talk to my boss' boss, and she seems nice! of cos it was kinda awkward having to approach people to talk to when some of them are so much older than you, but still, we were forced to do it, and it wasn't half as weird as i've imagined it to be.

drinks were free flow, but i didn't drink much (or even finish my drink) cos i didn't eat much. didn't want to repeat my whole chijmes experience. but yep, great time! but err...now i need to make up for lost time.

CP IS A PAIN!!!

disgust

a thai girl fell onto the mrt track a few days back, got ran over by an oncoming train, and ended up losing both her legs.

yet, there are people saying she deserves it for standing so near the yellow line, that she caused the jam etc etc.

seriously, where's your sense of compassion?? where's the love??

seeing the world

i'm surprised i haven't talked much about my grad trip to US here. it's probably like the biggest thing that will happen to me after graduation and before i start working.

before i went to copenhagen for my summer program in june 2009, i was quite against the idea of travelling to the western part of the world because i thought i wouldn't like the places and also cos it'd have been unaffordable. but travelling to europe was such a good experience, didn't really actually mingle much with the locals there, but i got to see another side of the world, which was really an eye-opening experience for me. now, i really think it's important to explore more parts of the world and not be a 井底之蛙 here in singapore.

and so, we've booked our tickets to US and also settled the internal flights within the country for the 3 weeks we will be there. here's the itinerary:

19th may: fly to NY

24th may: fly to orlanda

1st june: fly to SF

10th june: fly back to singapore

just talking about it makes me so excited. i think having travelled in europe makes me feel that travelling in asia is so boring. no other place can make me so excited anymore i think.

and i'm going to fly to quite a number of places within the next few months. a "working" trip to guangzhou for 2 days next week, jakarta in early may, and then US. it's going to be hard on my finances, but oh well, there's always a chance to earn it all back when i start working! i shall give more tuition these few months. heh.

on another note, it's quite scary that i'm seeing so many problems from my body these few years. i think it's a warning that i haven't been taking good care of it and haven't been exercising.

it's going to be over really soon...

feels so surreal now that graduation is nearing.

16 years of education.

16 years of preparing for the workforce.

16 years of making sincere friends.

16 years of being judged by our results.

it's all going to be over in a matter of weeks.

to be honest, i'm not fully prepared yet.

but for the next couple of weeks, i'll still be rushing for deadlines, churning out reports after reports, and preparing for presentations to companies.

dun think it'll be the best end to school life, but i have no choice.

i wanna go around school to take photos, but i doubt i'll have friends who will be willing to do that with me. heh.

reflection

i dun usually blog so much in a day, but hmm i'm in a writing mode today so i guess i should do some reflections too.

i've always argued with some of my friends that being naturally pessimistic and slightly on the brink of depression are characteristics that i can't change about myself. i've never been convinced by anyone or any scenario that one can switch to being optimistic and generally happy just because one wants to. i can't seem to be able to control my thoughts, and even if i can stop myself from thinking of negative thoughts at some points in time, i can't help being generally unhappy and frustrated with life.

for me, life's challenges have always been mental. i'm seldom satisfied with whatever my life paths bring me to. in fact, this lack of satisfaction always makes me feel inferior about myself. its like, there is nothing much in my life that makes me feel proud of myself. there have been significant experiences that i take pride in, but nothing from the things that i treasure most in life.

i've never liked portraying myself as a strong woman who is work-oriented and independent. but to me, it is a mask that i put on because i dun ever want to be looked down upon. i've had my fair share of being ostracized just because i can't speak good english or because my family background is too humble for people's liking. and through my experiences when i was young, i slowly developed this fear of social experiences or public speaking. and i have to admit, i am a confused individual, cos on the one hand, i put on the mask of being strong and independent, but on the other hand, i always have this irrational fear of facing people and talking to them.

i am slowly learning, though my progress is too slow for my own liking. i still retreat into my own shell whenever i see that my confidence may be shattered by my own irrational fear. i immediately put on my protective gear when i am able to find an excuse to escape.

i do think i am improving. this blog is not half as emotional as my previous blog or even my entries a few years back. and i'm slowly trying to cope with the severe inferiority that hit me occasionally. i guess the lack of a love life is creating a lot of emotional roller coasters for me as well, but i'm slowly coping with it too. i guess if the time is not right, then so be it. it's not like my life's over because of that. in fact, i've been mentally preparing myself for being single and unwanted my whole life, and perhaps, that's how my life is meant to be. if it is, then i'm just making myself miserable by changing it, isn't it?

i guess time heals all wounds. the large gap you left when you decided to abandon our friendship is slowly closing up. i've never felt so hurt by someone's departure from my life, but that's just life. life brought me to a trough, and i'm hoping it will bring me up again. perhaps it is like sitting in a ferris wheel, when you're up there, you're too scared of heights to fully enjoy the scenery; but when you're rotated to the end of your ride, you blame yourself for not admiring the scenery when you were up there.

as i step into my next phase of life, which i will within the next few months, i know i will be judged by a separate yardstick altogether. it isn't a world i envy, but at least i know i have the capacity to fight for a better life myself. and to me, the best thing is that i can define the "better life" myself. i've been judged by my school results all my life because that's the "price" i have to pay for being dependent on my parents. now, i just want to be on my own, seeking my own life, making my own decisions without feeling accountable to anyone. it is perhaps tough, but definitely worth the try.

i guess i should stop complaining that my life is imperfect and stop envying the lives of other people. every single person should take our own unique path and reach our own destination, and in the process, admire and cherish the scenery that's right before your eyes. it's easier said than done, but i promise, i will try.

this describes my feelings most of the time

saw this on vivien's blog and i totally agree.

tremble

not the first time i'd experienced my hands trembling after doing work for long hours. oh man i feel like my body is ageing much faster than i thought.

but i kinda dun have a choice but to continue typing my report. i'm less than 20% done at the moment.

糊涂

for the very first time, i didn't bring my wallet out and i was alone. and so my dentist kindly allowed me to go home, grab my wallet and go back to pay.

omg what's happening to me?!?!?!

school

ONLY 5 more reports and 3 more presentations before graduation. jiayou!!

humanity prevails

i was reading the stories on the japanese earthquake and am so damn touched by how they are all so strong and gracious even when facing such a disaster. i teared on the bus as i was reading the following short stories.

* ディズニーランドでの出来事

http://twitter.com/unosuke/status/46376846505426944

ディズニーランドでは、ショップのお菓子なども配給された。ちょっと派手目な女子高生たちが必要以上にたくさんもらってて「何だ？」って一瞬思ったけど、その後その子たちが、避難所の子供たちにお菓子を配っていたところ見て感動。子供連れは動けない状況だったから、本当にありがたい心配りだった

At Tokyo Disneyland:

Tokyo Disneyland was handing out its shops’ food and drinks for free to the stranded people nearby. I saw a bunch of snobby looking highschool girls walking away with large portions of it and initially though “What the …” But I later I found out they were taking them to the families with little children at emergency evacuation areas. Very perceptive of them, and a very kind thing to do indeed.

* 国連からのメッセージ

http://twitter.com/akitosk/status/46302222346223616

国連からのコメント「日本は今まで世界中に援助をしてきた援助大国だ。今回は国連が全力で日本を援助する。」 に感動した。良い事をしたら戻ってくるのです。これがいい例なのです

Message from the UN

Secretary General Ban Ki Moon: “Japan is one of (the UN’s) most generous and strongest benefactors, coming to the assistance of those in need the world over. In that spirit, the United Nations stands by the people of Japan and we will do anything and everything we can at this very difficult time.” I was moved at his words. What better example that good things happen to those who do good.

* 渋滞した交差点での出来事

http://twitter.com/micakom/status/46264887281848320

一回の青信号で１台しか前に進めないなんてザラだったけど、誰もが譲り合い穏やかに運転している姿に感動した。複雑な交差点で交通が５分以上完全マヒするシーンもあったけど、１０時間の間お礼以外のクラクションの音を耳にしなかった。恐怖と同時に心温まる時間で、日本がますます好きになった。

At a congested downtown intersection …

Cars were moving at the rate of maybe one every green light, but everyone was letting each other go first with a warm look and a smile. At a complicated intersection, the traffic was at a complete standstill for 5 minutes, but I listened for 10 minutes and didn’t hear a single beep or honk except for an occasional one thanking someone for giving way. It was a terrifying day, but scenes like this warmed me and made me love my country even more.

* 揺れている最中でも・・・

http://twitter.com/gj_neko26/statuses/46394706481004544

聞いた話でびっくりしたのが、とっさに「入口の確保」と揺れてるにも関わらず、あの状況で歩いて入口を開けた人が居たのが凄いと思った。正直、シャンデリアも証明も何時落ちるか分からないのに、凄く勇敢な人が居た事に感動した。

During the earthquake

We’ve all been trained to immediately open the doors and establish an escape route when there is an earthquake. In the middle of the quake while the building was shaking crazily and things falling everywhere, a man made his way to the entrance and held it open. Honestly, the chandelier could have crashed down any minute … that was a brave man!

* バス停で・・・

http://twitter.com/yunico_jp/status/46168394755612672

バスが全然来ない中、@saiso が、バス停の前にある薬局でカイロを買ってきて、並んで待ってる人みんなに配った！

Bus stop mini episode:

It was freezing and bus was taking ages to arrive. “@saiso” left the queue to run to a nearby pharmacy. He bought heating pads and gave one to everyone in the queue!

* ディズニーシーにて

http://twitter.com/kfstudio/status/46390032776437760

ディズニーシーに一泊した娘、無事帰宅しました！キャストのみなさんが寒い中でも笑顔で接してくれて不安を感じることなく過ごせたそうです。防寒のカイロやビニール袋、夜・朝の軽食と飲み物、おやつまで。ディズニーの素晴らしさに感動です。頑張ってくれたキャストさん、ほんとにありがとう！！

Thank you Tokyo Disney Sea

My daughter who was staying at DisneySea just made it back home! Many, many thanks to the staff who worked very hard in the cold with ready smiles that made her to feel safe and secure during the entire night. They brought her food, drinks, snacks, heating pads, and anything necessary to ensure she was comfortable and secure throughout her stay. I was touched by the Disney staff’s warmth and hospitality. Thank you so much!

* 日本人の良さを再認識

http://twitter.com/VietL/status/46376383592677376

この地震が、きっかけになって、失いかけていた日本人本来の良さが戒間見れた気がする。犯罪はする様子はなく、助け合い、律儀、紳士的。普段日本人は冷たい人が多い…。って個人的に感じてるんだけど、多くの人が今回で「絆」を取り戻しつつあるように見えて、それがなんか感動して、泣けてくる。

Reminded of the goodness of the Japanese people

This earthquake has reminded me of that Japanese goodness that had recently become harder and harder to see. Today I see no crime or looting: I am reminded once again of the good Japanese spirit of helping one another, of propriety, and of gentleness. I had recently begun to regard my modern countrymen as cold people … but this earthquake has revived and given back to all of us the spirit of “kizuna” (bond, trust, sharing, the human connection). I am very touched. I am brought to tears.

* 段ボールに感動

http://twitter.com/aquarius_rabbit/status/46213254376210432

ホームで待ちくたびれていたら、ホームレスの人達が寒いから敷けって段ボールをくれた。いつも私達は横目で流してるのに。あたたかいです。

Card board boxes, Thank you!

It was cold and I was getting very weary waiting forever for the train to come. Some homeless people saw me, gave me some of their own cardboard boxes and saying “you’ll be warmer if you sit on these!” I have always walked by homeless people pretending I didn’t see them, and yet here they were offering me warmth. Such warm people.

* 外国人から見た日本人

http://twitter.com/kiritansu/status/46335057689980928

外国人から見た地震災害の反応。物が散乱しているスーパーで、落ちているものを律儀に拾い、そして列に黙って並んでお金を払って買い物をする。運転再開した電車で混んでるのに妊婦に席を譲るお年寄り。この光景を見て外国人は絶句したようだ。本当だろう、この話。すごいよ日本。

What foreigners are saying about Japanese people

At a supermarket where everything was scattered everywhere over the floors, shoppers were helping pick them up and putting them back neatly on the shelves before quietly moving into line to wait to pay for them. On the totally jam-packed first train after the quake, an elderly man gave up his seat for a pregnant woman. Foreigners have told me they are amazed witnessing sights like these. I do believe they actually saw what they said they saw. Japan is truly amazing.

* メディアの動きについて

http://twitter.com/V10CENTAURO/statuses/46388641001508864

ツイッターやＵＳＴでの状況共有と、それに連動するマスコミの動きは、阪神淡路大震災の時とは比べ物にならない質の高さを感じる。もちろん過去の辛い経験から得た教訓を、みんな活かそうとしている感動。

Information network this time around

The information sharing efforts on Twitter or USTREAM, together with the quality of coverage and crucial updates provided by the mass media this time around is incomparable to what we got during the Kobe earthquake. I am deeply impressed by Japan’s successful efforts and ability to put to practice lessons learnt from past tragedies.

* 絵師さん

http://twitter.com/izumi823/statuses/46387948681297920

絵師さんたちがこの地震でみんなに元気付けようと必死に美しい絵や励ましのイラストを描いていることに感動。みんな自分にできることをしたいと思っているんだね。

Touch of art

I saw artists and painters trying to keep things upbeat by painting or drawing beautiful or encouraging drawings for the evacuees around them. I was touched at how everyone was doing their very best to help.

* BBCの報道

http://twitter.com/bozzo1985/status/46228470614855681

本当に感動。泣けてくる。⇒BBCめっちゃ誉めてる。地球最悪の地震が世界で一番準備され訓練された国を襲った。その力や政府が試される。犠牲は出たが他の国ではこんなに正しい行動はとれないだろう。日本人は文化的に感情を抑制する力がある。

BBC Reports

The words of BBC’s reports are so moving they make me cry. They were praising us with words of admiration! “One of the worst earthquakes in recorded history has hit the world’s most well-prepared, well-trained nations. The strength of its government and its people are put to the test. While there have been casualties, in no other country could the government and the people have worked together in such an accurate and coordinated way in the face of such tragedy. The Japanese people have shown their cultural ability to remain calm in the face of adversity.”

* 父親の行動

http://twitter.com/s_hayatsuki/status/46386255767937024

1階に下りて中部電力から関東に送電が始まってる話をしたら、普段はTVも暖房も明かりもつけっぱなしの父親が何も言わずに率先してコンセントを抜きに行った。少し感動した。

A little story about Papa

We live in an area that was not directly hit. When my father came downstairs and heard the news saying that our area had begun allocating electricity to the hard-hit areas, he quietly led by example, turning off the power around the house and pulling the plugs out of their sockets. I was touched. He usually NEVER turns off the lights or the AC or the TV or anything!

* 整列する日本人

http://twitter.com/HASUNA_Natsuko/status/46331839136276480

日本人すごい！！こんな時にも山手線ホームできれいに整列してる …涙。有楽町駅を上から眺む。 http://twitpic.com/48kn1u

Japanese people don’t shove

I'm looking at Yurakucho station from above. I see people standing in line, not pushing or shoving to get onto the Yamanote Line (probably the busiest line in central Tokyo), even at a time like this!

* パン屋

http://twitter.com/ayakishimoto/statuses/46403599743451136

昨日の夜中、大学から徒歩で帰宅する道すがら、とっくに閉店したパン屋のおばちゃんが無料でパン配給していた。こんな喧噪のなかでも自分にできること見つけて実践している人に感動。心温まった。東京も捨てたもんじゃないな。

The bakery lady

There was a small bread shop on the street I take to go to school. It has long been out of business. But last night, I saw the old lady of the shop giving people her handmade bread for free. It was a heart-warming sight. She, like everyone else, was doing what she could to help people in a time of need. Tokyo isn’t that bad afterall!

* 日本ってすごい

http://twitter.com/tksksks/statuses/46403815397801984

日本って凄い。官僚も民間も、皆で助けようとしてる。トラックの運転手も有志で物資運んでるらしいし、東北の交通整備をヤクザさんがやってるという話も聞いた。最近、日本に対して誇りを持てないことが続いていたけれど、そんなことない。日本は凄い国だ。素直に感動してる。日本国の皆さん頑張ろう！

Japan is a wonderful nation!

Both the government and the people, everyone is helping one another today. There are truck drivers helping evacuees move. I even heard that the “yakuza” (gangsters, organized crime groups) are helping to direct traffic in the Tohoku region! There have been many recent developments that have made me lose my sense of pride in my country, but not anymore. Japan is an amazing place! I’m just simply touched. Go Japan!

* twitterすごい

http://twitter.com/bobiko009/statuses/46403721046933504

Twitterの方々の情報とかが一致団結しててすごくたすかります。みなさま親切です！！こういうとき、なんか、感動します。最近は近所とつきあいなかったり冷たい世の中だとか思ってたけどそんなことなかったね。

Twitter is amazing!

The information shared to us all by the twitter community has been amazingly consistent with each other and has been so helpful. Thank you Twitterers! I’m very moved. People recently talk about social networks replacing traditional social life and making people cold and unsociable in real life. But … I guess that’s not true at all.

* ドイツ人の友達

http://twitter.com/sikkoku_otsuyu/status/46392832893796352

ドイツ人の友達が地震が起きた時に渋谷に居て、パニックになっていた所を日本人に助けてもらったらしく、その時の毅然とした日本人の態度や足並み乱さずに店の外に出てやるべきことを淡々とこなす姿にひどく感動し、まるでアーミーのようだったと言っていた。

From a German friend

A German friend of mine was in Shibuya (downtown Tokyo shopping district) when the earthquake hit. He was panicking when a Japanese passerby saved him, taking him into a building. My friend was blown away at how calm and disciplined this Japanese man was. He went out of the building with firm, unfaltering steps, did everything he was trained to do and came back. My German friend was deeply impressed by the Japanese people’s actions during the earthquake, saying they looked like a trained army.

* スーパーでの出来事

http://twitter.com/endless_6/status/46395420523503616

スーパーで無事買物出来ましたヽ(´o｀； でもお客さんのほとんどが他の人の事を考えて必要最低限しか買わない感じだったのが感動しました（涙）

At the supermarket

I just came back safely from the supermarket! Man, I was so touched at how everyone there was mindful of others, buying only as much as they needed and leaving the rest for the people behind them.

* 御殿場で

http://twitter.com/Raaaaayuu/statuses/46392890313801728

実際日本すごいよ。昨日信号が一カ所も機能していない御殿場市でもお互いにドライバー同士譲り合ってたし、地元のおじいちゃんおばあちゃんが手信号やってくれてたりで、混乱もなく本当感動した。9時間運転してたけど前車を煽るようなドライバーはもちろんいなかったし、みんな譲り合い精神。

Gotenba traffic

Japan is really something! Yesterday, not a single traffic light was functioning in Gotenba City. But drivers knew to take turns at intersections and give way to others when needed. Local people were using flags to direct traffic at intersections. I drove for 9 hours but never saw a single car trying to get in front of another. Every single driver on the road contributed to the traffic situation and as a result there was no confusion at all.

* 「みんな」

http://twitter.com/n_yum/statuses/46388003706380288

タクシー運ちゃんと電車駅員さんとおばさんと話したけど、みんな遅くまで帰れなかったりしてすごく疲れているのに、苛立つ事なく、言葉遣いもふるまいも丁寧で、逆に気遣われてしまった。｢みんな大変だから｣という"みんな"って意識があることに感動するし、私も受け継いで大事にしたい文化。

“All of us”

I spoke with an old taxi driver and some elderly staff at the train stations. All of them had been working non-stop and had not been able to go home for a long time. They were visibly very tired, but never once did they show any sign of impatience; they were gentle and very caring. They told me “… because all of us are in this together.” I was touched at what the notion of “all of us” meant to these elderly people. It is a value I will treasure and carry on to my generation.

* 日本の強さ

http://twitter.com/dita_69/status/46309373458382849

サントリーの自販機無料化softbankWi-Fiスポット解放、色んな人達が全力で頑張っててそれに海外が感動・協力してる。海外からの援助受け入れに躊躇したり自衛隊派遣を遅らせたりしてた阪神淡路大震災の頃より日本は確実に強い国になってるんだ。みんな頑張ろう。

A strong Japan

Suntory Beverages has set up free vending machines. Softbank Telephone services is offering free Wifi spots. Everyone in Japan is putting everything they can into helping one another. Japan is also now receiving aid from abroad. Compared to the Kobe earthquake, when Japan took too long to contemplate accepting foreign aid or dispatching the self-defense force to join the rescue effort, Japan has definitely grown into a far stronger nation. Be strong, everyone!

* 朝礼

http://twitter.com/kyoheimai/status/46374747755388928

今朝の朝礼で「何があっても決して不安な顔は見せずに売り場に立つ以上はおもてなしをする気持ちを忘れずにお客様を安心させてあげてください」ちょっと感動した。がんばるか。開店です!

Morning Ceremony

At the shopping center I work at, every morning we have a ritual (common in Japan) where we stand and recite, “No matter what the situation, I will never show anxiety before my customer; in all customer-facing situations I will treat my customers with respect and do everything I can to make them feel comfortable and at ease”. Today, these words were all actually kind of touching. Well, so the day begins! Here we go people, open shop!

* 井上さん

http://twitter.com/frankyonn/status/46401442583552000

井上雄彦さんがものすごい勢いで笑顔のイラストをいっぱいあげてて感動する。励ましとか勇気とかメッセージって、こういうことなんだなーと思う。 ＲＴ@inouetake Smile42.

Mr. Inoue

Mr. Inoue has been churning out drawings of smiling and laughing faces at an amazing pace! Things like this remind me again of what it truly means to give people a message of strength and courage.

* 学び

http://twitter.com/chaos_chaotic/statuses/46388646038876160

TLの拡散希望を見て思ったことは、阪神淡路大地震から学んだことがとても多くツイートされていること。当たり前のことなんだけど、やはり人間は、学んで考えることができる生き物なんだと改めて思い、感動した。

Lessons Learnt

What caught my attention on twitter is that a lot of the tweets were about the Kobe earthquake and how what we have learned from it has been put into practice this time around. I know it goes without saying, but I was once again reminded of how humans are indeed creatures that possess the amazing ability to think and learn from experience. It’s a great thought.

* ローマから

http://twitter.com/tsubakianna/statuses/46387133396688896

ローマにいる友達からメール。ローマの人々はニュースを見ながらこのような状況でも冷静に対処する日本人に感動し、尊敬の念を覚えながら、非常に心配しているとのことです。

Message from a friend in Rome

My friend in Rome emailed me. He said that people in Rome are watching the news and sharing their amazement and their heartfelt respect at how, even at a time like this, the people of Japan are able to remain calm and systematically respond to the situation. People in Rome are thinking of us and are very concerned for us.

* 声をかけること

http://twitter.com/RUMI88LoL/statuses/46342599149240320

昨日、裏の家の高１になるお兄ちゃんに感動した。 家に１人で居たらしく、地震後すぐ自転車で飛び出し近所をひと回り。 【大丈夫ですか―――！？】と道路に逃げてきた人達にひたすら声掛けてた。あの時間には老人や母子しか居なかったから、声掛けてくれただけでもホッとしたよ。 ありがとう。

A strong voice

Yesterday, I was impressed and touched by the actions of my neighbor’s 13-year-old-boy. He was home alone when the earthquake hit. But instead of hiding, as soon as the earthquake quieted down, he jumped on his bicycle and road around the block repeatedly shouting at the top of his voice, “Is everyone alright? Is everyone okay?” At the time, there were only women and children and the elderly in the homes. I cannot describe how comforting it was just to hear a strong voice asking if I was okay. Thank you!

* 助け合い

http://twitter.com/sorry_no_user/statuses/46332985133375488

警備員の友人何人かが町田〜相模大野で夜間警備のボランティアをしていたので手伝ってきた。年齢問わずいろんな知らない人同士が助け合っていて心強かった。ちょっと感動してトイレの隅で泣いた。

The beauty of helping one another

I went out last night to help some friends who were volunteering as security personnel between Machida City and Sagami Ohno City. I saw total strangers, both young and old, helping each other along everywhere I turned and was heartened with an overwhelming feeling of encouragement. I was so touched I hid behind the toilets and cried.

* バイクでよければ

http://twitter.com/hikaru_star/statuses/46332900928532480

僕は感動しました。バイトの先輩が1人でも救うために寒い中紙に「バイクでよければ送ります」と書き駅前で掲げ鳶職のお兄ちゃんを所沢まで送ったそうです。世の中まだ捨てたもんじゃないなって思いました。本当に尊敬です！！自分もなんか人の役に立ちたいと生まれて初めて思いました。

I just have a bike

I’m so touched! My colleague at my part time job, wanting to help even just one extra person, wrote a sign saying “I just have a bike, but if you don’t mind hop on!”, rode out on his motorbike, picked up a stranded construction worker and took him all the way to Tokorozawa! Respect! I have never felt so strongly that I want to do something helpful for others.

* 乗り合い

http://twitter.com/pao313/statuses/46332792174411776

浦和美園からタクシー使えると思ったのが甘かった…30分歩いてたら知らない人が車に乗せてくれた（つд；*) 人間の優しさに感動。ありがとうございました。

Sharing your ride

It was stupid of me to think I could catch a cab at Urawamien Station. I ended up walking 30 minutes and then finally was picked up by a stranger who offered to give me a lift. I’m touched by the warmth of human kindness. Thank you, thank you!

* 開放

http://twitter.com/robasuke23/statuses/46326711935172609

昨日、歩いて帰ろうって決めて甲州街道を西へ向かっていて夜の21時くらいなのに、ビルの前で会社をトイレと休憩所として解放してる所があった。社員さんが大声でその旨を歩く人に伝えていた。感動して泣きそうになった。いや、昨日は緊張してて泣けなかったけど、今思い出してないてる。

Rest here!

Last night, I decided, rather than stay at the office, I should try walking home. So I slowly made my way west on Koshu freeway on foot. It was around 9PM when I saw an office building that had a sign that said “Please use our office’s bathrooms! Please rest here!” The employees of the office were loudly shouting out the same to all the people trying to walk home. I was so touch I felt like crying. Well, I guess I was too tense yesterday to cry, but now the tension is wearing off and am very much in tears.

* コンビニ

http://twitter.com/sugarun/statuses/46323030732967936

停電地区のほとんどの店が店を閉めてる中、あるセブンイレブンが店内陳列棚にいくつもろうそくを置いて、営業をしていた。レジが使えないため在庫確認用のハンディで値段確認し読み上げ、もう1人が電卓で計算、もうひとりが懐中電灯で照らす。その状態でレジ２台稼動させていた。感動した。

At the convenience store

While most of the convenience stores near the station were closed because of the quake, there was just one Seven Eleven that was open. The employees had lit lots of candles and put them on the stores shelves. The cash register was not working and they could not take inventory, so the employees worked in threes, one reading up the item description and price, another punching the numbers into a calculator, and the last one using a flashlight to help them work. The store managed to operate both “cash registers” efficiently this way. Impressed!

* 避難所

http://twitter.com/msakatan/statuses/46302864980705280

長女いわく、横浜の避難所に向かう時に、知らない人達と声を掛け合い、場所を教え合っていたそうです。普段は冷たいと思っていた他人の優しさに触れ、感動したそうです。日本人のいざという時の団結力を再認識しました。まだまだ日本も捨てたものではないです。

On the way to the emergency evacuation area

My oldest daughter was making her way to Yokohama’s emergency evacuation area. Total strangers were helping each other out and showing each other the way to the emergency evacuation area. She told me she was moved at how strangers, who can seem so cold at times, showed her kindness and care. I was reminded at the Japanese peoples’ inherent ability to immediately unite in the face of adversity. Today, I have discovered a newfound faith in my nation and my people.

* 呼びかけ

http://twitter.com/akanensm/status/46214540161064960

何時間も歩き続けてたんだけど、至る所でトイレかしますとか、休憩できますとか言うビルや飲食店が沢山あって感動しました。とある企業ビルの人がボランティアで、○○線運転再開ですー！とか、休憩できますー！！って呼びかけてるの見て感動して泣きそうになったマジでw日本も捨てたもんじゃないな

A big, kind voice

I’ve been walking for many hours now. I’m touched at how everywhere I turn, there are shops open with people shouting “Please use our bathroom!” or “Please rest here!” There were also office buildings where people with access to information were voluntarily shouting out helpful tips, like “**** line is now operational!” Seeing things like this after walking for hours and hours made me feel like weeping with gratitude. Seriously, there is still hope for this country!

* ホームにて

http://twitter.com/masa_kisshie/statuses/46323838316843008

都営大江戸線の光ヶ丘方面行きは、非常に混雑しています。ホームにも、改札の外にも、電車を待つ溢れんばかりの人。でも、誰一人列を崩さず、通路を開け、係員の誘導に従っている。ロープがあるわけでもないのに、通る人のための通路スペースが。その不自然なほどの快適さに、ただただ感動するばかり。

On the platform

The Oedo Subway Line for Hikarigaoka is very congested. On the platform and at the gate there are just crowds and crowds of people waiting for the train. But in all the confusion, every last person is neatly lined up waiting his or her turn while managing to keep a passage of space open for staff and people going the other way. Everyone is listening to the instructions from the staff and everyone acts accordingly. And amazingly … there isn’t even a rope or anything in sight to keep people in queue or open space for staff to pass, they just do! I am so impressed at this almost unnatural orderliness! I have nothing but praise for these people!

* 駅員さん

http://twitter.com/tadakatz/status/46274214654787584

終夜運転のメトロの駅員に、大変ですねって声かけたら、笑顔で、 こんな時ですから！だって。捨てたもんじゃないね、感動した。

Station staff

I said to a Tokyometro station staff who was on all-night duty, “I’m sure it has been a tough night for you. Thank you.” He responded with a smile, “On a night like this, gladly!” I was touched.

* おっちゃん

http://twitter.com/sumonya/status/46479563412348928

昨日4時間かけて歩いて帰ってきた主人。赤羽で心が折れそうになってた時「お寒い中大変ですね！あったかいコーヒーどうぞ！」って叫びながら無料配布してるおっちゃんに出会った。これがあったから頑張れたそうだ。もう5回もこの話をしてくるので本当に嬉しかったんだと思う。おっちゃんありがとう。

Coffee

My husband finally got home very late last night after walking for 4 hours. He told me he felt like giving up at around Akabane, when an elderly man who was going around handing out free coffee saw him, gave him a steaming cup and said, “You must be tired and cold. Here, have some coffee!” My husband told me that it was because of this elderly man that he found the will and strength to continue walking. I’ve already heard this story from him five times tonight, so no doubt he was really, really touched! Thank you to my husband’s anonymous helper!

* 献血の列

http://twitter.com/NOBCHIDORI/status/46477518169047040

日本は強いです！大阪難波の献血施設は被災地の方の為に超満員の順番待ちでした。私欲の無い列を初めて見ました。感動しました。被災地の方々、全国でその辛さを受け止めます。諦めずに頑張って下さい！

Blood donations

Japan is strong! At Osaka I saw a LONG line of people waiting to give blood at the blood donation center. This is the first time I have seen such a queue of selfless people waiting patiently in line just to give. It was a moving sight! To everyone in the hard-hit areas, we your countrymen accept your suffering as our own and we share in your grief. Do not give up! Stay strong!

* 節電営業

http://twitter.com/hisyakakukeima/status/46584079558250496

近所のスーパー・サミットに来てみたら、通常深夜1時まで営業なのに大きい看板が付いていなかった。早めに店を閉めたのかと思ったら、外の電気だけ消して節電しつつ営業していた。ちょっと感動

Saving electricity for the North

I went to my neighborhood supermarket and was initially surprised that their neon signs were off. They usually are open till 1AM. I then found out that they were open, but were saving electricity so that more power could be channeled to the hard-hit coastal areas. Wow!

* 買うのやめるわ

http://twitter.com/raai15/status/46546475362160640

バイト先に若いお兄さんたちが軍団でお酒を買いに来たんだけど、その中の一人が｢やべえ、オレお酒のためにしかお金持ってきてないから募金できん。ちょっとこれ買うのやめるわ｣って言って商品返品してそのお金全部募金してた。お友達も続々と募金しててすごい感動した。 すごいよ

Not enough money!

At the store where I work, a huge group of young men suddenly came in to buy booze. One of them suddenly said, “Oops, I only have enough money to buy booze, I can’t donate! Forget the booze, maybe next time!” and instead put ALL his money into the disaster relief donation box. One by one, every single one of the army of youths threw all their money into the box after him. What a heart-warming sight that was!

* いつでも買える

http://twitter.com/7474529/status/46565903520907264

今日、募金箱に金髪にピアスの若い兄ちゃんが万札数枚入れていた。そしてその友人に｢ゲームなんていつでも買えるからな｣と言っていたのが聞こえて私含め周りの人達も募金していた。人は見た目じゃないことを実感した。そんなお昼でした。 この話感動しました。

Goth youth

A goth youth with white hair and body piercings walked into my store and shoved several hundred dollars (several tens of thousands of yen) into the disaster relief fund donation box. As he walked out, I and people around me heard him saying to his buddies, “I mean, we can buy those games anytime!” At that, we all opened our wallets and put our money into the donation box. Really, you cannot judge people by their appearances.

* 絶対うまいはず

http://twitter.com/kyugatimuti/statuses/46594200061493249

僕も秋葉からの帰りにおにぎりとみそ汁配ってる方に会いました、感動しました、チャリだったからダイジョブです他の人にって言ったけどもらっておけばよかったなぁ絶対うまかったと思う

They looked absolutely delicious!

I too saw the guy handing out free rice balls and miso soup on the way back from Akihabara. I was on my bicycle so I told him, “I’m okay, please give it to other people!” On hindsight, I should have taken one … they looked absolutely delicious!!

* お菓子いっぱい

http://twitter.com/moebamuse/status/46379810217406465

すごい。弟たった今ディズニーランドから帰宅したんだけど。新品のお菓子袋いっぱいにもらってきて、客全員分の帰りの交通費負担してくれたんだって。一晩中、何か言えば全て対応してくれたって。やっぱり世界のディズニーランドなんだね。

Another Disney episode

Amazing! My brother just managed to get home from Disneyland right now. He’s got bags and bags of free sweets. Furthermore, Disneyland paid for every customer’s travel fare back. All night long, the staff responded immediately and fully to every request he made. Disneyland is truly a world class brand!

* 困ったときは！

http://twitter.com/ryoshun49/statuses/46605524434821120

昨日青葉台駅で帰宅困難者が溢れる中、車に乗ってる人が「○○方面の方どうぞ！」って行って車に乗せてた。「困った時はみんな一緒ですから！」って言ってた。超感動したの思い出した。

Same boat!

Last night, Aobadai station was jammed with stranded people unable to get home. But there were private cars with drivers shouting “If you’re going in the direction of ****, please hop on!” I was able to hitch a ride on one of them. When I thanked the driver, he replied “No worries! We’re all on the same boat. We have to stick together!”

* 充電されたい方は・・・・

http://twitter.com/yamachin_x1/statuses/46609620210421760

避難所にいたときに、社会人1年生で、研修でこっちにきてた女の子が、たまたま携帯のバッテリーも持参してたらしく、体育館のコンセントを使用する許可ももらい、「携帯の充電をされたい方は、ご自由につかってください」と呼びかけて回ってたんだ。僕はその子にとても感動したんだよ･･

Need to charge your phone?

At the emergency evacuation area, a young first-year intern at my company who had brought her phone’s charger got permission from the facility to use their power socket and went around shouting “Anyone need to charge their phone? Please use my charger!” Just a little thing, but I was touched.