Materialistic?

into the distance i see my 350bucks wisp away on colourful wings..floating, dissipating..alas, it's gone~

not too long ago (10th) i received my monthly allowance but now it's back down to a meagre 100dollars from 7..
it's not really me to be complaining about finances yet such a calamity has set off the alarm bells ringing in me..perhaps the christmas season is an excuse, and this is but a false alarm,but i can't kid myself..christmas isn't about pampering oneself.

i swear that i had to strap myself down from getting that 169dollars C.K. T-shirt..sigh..

isn't it funny?
nowadays we seem to pay more for less material, and yet we're termed materialistic..

sigh..it's been more than a week since i last blogged, and so much has come to pass~

My ex has been calling me, and just telling me how sad she is, wthout telling me why..wondering how she really is cos she isn't one to speak her problems cos it troubles her too much and no one solves her problems for her..i guess my way of sweeping problems under the carpet isn't suited to her type of problems, and i really wanna help but she just cries and stays silent apart from the periodical "i'm sorry i shouldn't've called"s..

just wanna wish her some peaceful solitude and perhaps i'll get the chance to tell her how much i've missed her and how much i haven't, as well as tell her that nothing in life is certain..On top of that, it should be noted that being alone is sometimes better than being in the company of certain characters~

if she ever reads this, she'll understand that there's nothing to feel bad about and lonliness is but an experience too~
an experience that i'm not sure i could live without~as it's said that without lonliness, one never understands the true meaning of company~

hey girl just take a step back and look around you~ smile if you feel like smiling, but please sulk and cry if u have to~ cos it's unhealthy keeping those kinda emotions inside~and please dun be silly and feel shameful about it~

KennyKoh.Now you have one big serious problem~love is all around. and to Love someone doesn't require you to have the love reciprocrated. in fact it's a big problem if u EXPECT the love reciprocrated. cos that isn't real love is it?
what's the point of giving something and expecting something in return?

Peace to everyone on earth.

god bless~