Just a mere thought

Amidst the state of chaos at our house today.. simpy because to pack our luggage to 30kg each and still another 30kg to be packed, I still managed to cook Kashmiri Chicken, Tandoori Chicken and Popia.. It's sooo exhausting, thank God my darling hubby always there to help. I don't know why, I lost my enthusiasm to go back already.. It's strange because before this, I kept on counting the days to fly back to Malaysia. Maybe the time has eaten me..
Anyway, I will be arriving on 2nd September (Wednesday), 3pm (Malaysian Time) and will be staying at in-laws' house till the 10th. Then I fly to Kota Bharu to my parents' house for EId Celebration until 23rd and then fly back again to Bangi..I miss people back home. I think, staying here is always very strange because I can't talk much, German is still a very difficult language to me. I don't miss Malaysian food so much, because my housemates have cooked every single thing that I craved for (this includes sate which Dilla has made, which in my opinion is better than those of Hj. Samuri..). I miss my family mostly, my sisters and friends. Even though so many unfortunate things have happened, I try not to block my mind with sad thoughts and start blaming on destiny. It will be so detrimental.
Even though my mind opposing me to go back because of the unfinished business here, my heart just won't listen. I think right now, it is good to back before I explode and start crying non stop because I don't know what to do with my thesis.
Anyway, happy fasting people.. and pray for us a pleasant and safe flight..