Just a mere thought

Tag from K.Neny

Sometimes silence is the best cure..

When one day feels like forever..

Concentration

I dunno what actually drives me...
Pressure..
Recognition.. or worse..
Lack of money

I can easily concentrate doing my work now compared to 2 months of leisure, 22 hours-play-2hours-work kind of time before. Since I can't turn back time, I might as well treasure this concentration that I have right now. It's just amazing. I can stop thinking about the neverending KPT issues straight away and start the MATLAB codes.. It is as if I have the turn-on-turn-off switch in my mind.

or it might just be the calm before the storm..
I wish I can read the future.. urghh

but anyway, it's wonderful how life is..
and thanks to Allah for everything..

Gundah gulana..

Situasi kitorg sekarang ni amat menyesakkan nafas. Bukan kami sekeluarga je, tapi semua yg nk extend belajar. Sampai hati betul orang2 KPT ni.. Dh tak tau nk cakap apa lagi dh, dalam hati mengucap banyak2.. Allah je yang tau betapa la susahnya nk harungi hidup kat sini, tetiba masalah besar pulak datang bersilih ganti.

Kalau tiada jalan keluar, terpaksa la balik tanpa degree!

Sadness..

should we indulge in it?

I was reading a post by my sister and an arrow just plunged my heart. It hurts to see her getting hurt. Well I wrote quite a long comment on her post, but I think it wouldn't even help with the matter of her heart. Even though I talked to so many people about love and relationship before, I never really put myself in their shoes..so when they were heartbroken, I just spoke without really empathizing. However, when it is my own sister; I can't help but feel the pain too.. it must be troublesome for her to undergo such a situation..but i hope if their relationship is strong enough, it would probably pass the thunderstorm.

I've had my shares too.. it feels like something is ripping your soul out of your body, and there's nothing you can do about it. I remember taking long strides to classes without really thinking of what happens around me. It was disastrous.. but it will pass and time will prove it.. It is hard at the beginning, but once you have the appropriate medication to mend your heart psychologically, it helps for the future. I think if you have been heartbroken, it will give you some perspective on your problem. And it will help in the future. Sometimes, we never really understood the situation and start taking action without thinking. Or worse we didn't analyze the situation at all.

What I learned from my marriage life so far is, your partner behaviour always reflect yours. You are as good as your partner is. So when there's something happens, I love to look at what I did in that situation and it really helps to clear things out..

To my sis, no matter what happens, take it as an education through life. If you don't experience it and learned about it, you will not have the strength to face them in the future. We love you.


This is the lyrics of the song, she played on her page and i do think it fits perfectly for all of us:

Edcoustic : Muhasabah Cinta
Listen and download here



Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dariMu
Kupasrahkan semua padaMu

Tuhan... Baru ku sadar
Indah nikmat sehat itu
Tak pandai aku bersyukur
Kini kuharapkan cintaMu

Reff. :
Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalun berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku

Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini

Ya Ilahi....
Muhasabah cintaku...

Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalun berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku

Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini

Tuhan... Kuatkan aku
Lindungiku dari putus asa
Jika ku harus mati
Pertemukan aku denganMu