My holidays are ending! :(

Despite my parents' initial insistence in wanting me to work, they ended up letting me do what I want whilst still giving me allowance. Ha ha ha. I think I'm incredibly averse to the idea of growing up and shun the fact that I need to embrace it early in our ridiculously competitive society. Yet, I can't bring myself to care.

The thought of needing to work after only three more years leaves me struggling anxiously to grasp on whatever childhood I have left. My holidays consist of mundane activities that one would peruse in one's free time. However my peers are all scrambling for internships and jobs that would enable them to get a head start in experiencing working life.

I honestly don't care. Ha ha ha.

I need to grow up.

I don't know which is worse! Trying to sort out my thoughts and feelings to discern what I want and what I'm willing to do to get what I want, or unpacking all my stuff from hall. I'm avoiding them both. Because I'm awesome.

It has only been a week since my examinations have ended but it felt like a month has passed! Having so much time to myself is almost a drunken experience and I've already promised myself to learn to play the guitar. I can't seem to be able to press the strings properly to play chords though. :(

C finally came back to Singapore a while back during the midst of my attempted preparation for the examinations but nevertheless we still went out after my first paper! :D I love how easy it is to slip back into my friendship with him, as if not seeing each other for a year doesn't hinder our relationship. It really doesn't. There is no awkwardness with him, no pretenses and we can be open about everything to each other. We watched Thor and sang karaoke and it was good, I love singing with him because we always go all the way out without any embarrassment whatsoever ha ha ha.

Now you're back in Canada again and it'll be a long time until you're back but I'm certain our friendship will be as strong as ever! I love you and thanks for always being here for me. :)

D
4:01 PM
yay
4:01 PM
u want anything frmo ang moh land?
4:02 PM
dun ask me to bring u back a man
4:02 PM
i cant

Jolene Yeo
4:02 PM
LMAO
4:02 PM
WHY CANT YOU

D
4:02 PM
cannot
4:02 PM
exceed baggage load already la

YAY MY EXAMINATIONS HAVE ENDED!

jolene is true says:
wha lao if im attached
i confirm announce wan okay
you want me sms you?
HAHAHAHHAHA

X says:
ya
send mass sms
i subscribe
you must sms
I AM ATTACHED.

jolene is true says:
LMAO SO RETARDED

X says:
then that night we must meet up
with that guy
for me s*** and j*** to judge

jolene is true says:
HA HA HA OKAY

X says:
then he must sing 5 songs we pick

jolene is true says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

It is officially the end of my first academic year in University! Time flies past so fast it's crazy, I thought it'd take forever but in a blink two semesters are already done.

Life has been awesome. Choosing to stay in hall is probably one of the best decisions I've ever made because I got to meet so many new people and gained friends who are such an integral part of my life now I dread to imagine how it'd be next year.

My retarded examinations are coming in a week and soon we'd be moving out of hall and back home. All good things will come to an end so we must savour what we have left!

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I just realise that I haven't been blogging not just because of the lack of time I have to myself. It's also because of the fact that I choose to surround myself with my friends so I end up confiding and conversing with them. This will probably change once I shift back home and have no alternative but to articulate myself through text ha ha ha.

And now I must complete my paper before I can start studying! Yet I'm so distracted by events such as the General Elections and the Royal Wedding. Life right now is really amazing indeed. :)

S says:
omg
what happens
if
i meet
someone like seungyeon
DAEBAK MANZ

jolene is true says:
plastic surgery!!!

S says:
NO REAL
i like cute ones
eyes beeg beeg
cheeks chubby
wooosaaa~

jolene is true says:
go find a baby
paedophile

S says:
she'll be my baby
yucks.
cheesy line
pui.

jolene is true says:
OMG HA HA HA YOU DIE

S says:
oi!!!
NO MORE BLOGGGG

jolene is true says:
WATCH ME

S says:
RAWR

S says:
eh
u knw how to drive alrdy right?

jolene is true says:
yep

S says:
time to pick up guys and get yourself a boyfriend!

jolene is true says:
W T F!!!!!!!
you suck!!!!!!!!

S says:
HAHA
u were expecting smth like : when u gna drive me around, right
hahaha

jolene is true says:
YES HA HA HA HA
so smart
but you still suck

jolene is true:
omg
my macbook is damn hot

W:
as hot as you ^^

jolene is true:
HAHHAHAHAHA

AM 12:09:48 s: Gold Marine Collagen Lift Stretch Mask
AM 12:09:51 s: oops
AM 12:09:53 s: wrong convo

AM 12:09:57 jolene is true: HAHAHAHAHHAHA
AM 12:10:02 jolene is true: WHY YOU COPY AND PASTE THAT
AM 12:10:03 jolene is true: HAHAHHAHAHHA

AM 12:10:06 s: lol
AM 12:10:07 s: shhh

AM 12:10:12 jolene is true: AHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

AM 12:10:39 s: haha
AM 12:10:44 s: im looking at face masks la.

AM 12:11:14 jolene is true: obviously

AM 12:11:22 s: haha
AM 12:11:29 s: i got 2 boxes on my table
AM 12:11:32 s: have yet to finish them

AM 12:12:23 jolene is true: gimme!!!!!

AM 12:12:28 s: NO
AM 12:12:30 s: mine!

AM 12:12:33 jolene is true: wha lao!
AM 12:12:35 jolene is true: you do for what!
AM 12:12:39 jolene is true: not as if got ppl in camp to see!
AM 12:12:41 jolene is true: ^^v

AM 12:12:45 s: prep for korea
AM 12:12:45 s: haha
AM 12:13:13 s: this wont go onto your blog right?
AM 12:13:14 s: haha

AM 12:13:25 jolene is true: OH IT WILL

AM 12:13:34 s: oh shoosh
AM 12:13:57 s: wah liewz.
AM 12:14:00 s: so careless

Time to myself equates to time spent here when I actually can organise my thoughts to hint at some sort of coherence. Then I realise I really do not have that much time to myself after only merely a semester of University.

Many things have changed. The Boggle tournament is over and honestly it's one of the things that impacted me so much that I'm constantly conscious of it. People scoff at it, belittle it and just simply don't understand it. At least, the stress and pressure I faced as we struggled and failed to retain the title will never surpass the ease, comfort and pure fun we have as a team. As friends. As confidants.

I'm actually tearing as I type this ha ha ha.

People always ask me why I'm always happy. Sometimes the tiniest part of me selfishly wants people to see past my cover and to truly understand me but I realise it'll never happen because I'm too good at perfecting a façade when I want to.

People depend on me to be happy, to be talkative, to be cheerful, to be biting, to be sarcastic and to be bitchy. Sometimes when I just don't feel like that, I'll suppress it because just like you and just like everyone else, I don't want people to know when I'm not fine. Yet the irony is I yearn for someone who can do just that.

So when you ask me why are my cheeks wet, my eyes swollen and my nose red, I'll say I watched a sad movie or listened to a moving song.

After all, all that I want always seem to remain unattainable.

My results suck. Of course I could have done much worse, so nevertheless it's still a relief.

Time slips past so quickly and a month of 2011 is nearly over. I need to clasp tightly the rest of this semester in my hand even as it filters through inevitably like sand, hopeless and defeated. We need to make the best out of this.

You don't need conversation to communicate, but I honestly think you need conversation to connect.

X says:
they removed some jaw bones too

jolene is true says:
omg so cool
so your face shape change?

X says:
no la
small bits nia

jolene is true says:
CHEY

HELLO 2011!

The last moments of 2010 were spent attaining my driver's license HA HA HA and going to Malaysia for the countdown! Needless to say it was a fantastic end to a life-changing year hee hee. Now I just need a car. Does anyone want to give me one? :D

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Many people told me I should book more than the 2 lessons I'd already booked after failing the fiasco in November. However as I was really lazy and I didn't want to travel to the driving centre during weekdays, I just decided to stick with the 2 lessons I had. Then I realised the last instructor I got was the first instructor I was randomly assigned for my first lesson, and this epiphany just struck me and I sort of felt that I would pass this time. It seemed like I had come around full circle this time.

For the warm-up, I got this super cute instructor who taught me once and he remembered me! Hee hee hee. He was really nice and reassuring and eased my nerves a lot because this time I was alone there before my test. And I passed! :D

The tiniest part of me was sad that I wouldn't see the cute instructor again though HA HA HA.

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Malaysia was fun! We couldn't go further this year because I'd stupidly book my test in the middle of nowhere. Nevertheless it was still an apt getaway and I really didn't want to come home. But alas, Boggle beckons.

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I'd make a new year resolution but I think I have never completed any but anyway, this year I resolve to not be as judgmental as I tend to be!