somewhere over the rainbow
way up high


wasted 2 mornings to go to school to learn functions. bleh.

forgot what i did yesterday except that i went to orchard for a while.

so after math today, pig, atm and i went to jurong point by mrt. i slept in the train because it was so boring, and i finally bought a bag. i still need one for school though. :( after that we went to marina square and ate pizza hut! played blackjack and won 30 cents. :)

went really high later and started crapping about everything, from unphotoshopped xiaxue to proclaiming 'roffle', 'el mao' and 'lawl'. :D my g/a/b/m, it was so damn funny. guess i haven't been laughing much and be happy.

pig dragged us to the esplanade where i then quipped smartly that we should take a photo of someone holding a durian while standing next to the esplanade. i bet i'd win a prize for the photo. :D

then we went to the roof terrace where it was damned hot. regardless of that intolerable heat, there was a couple making out, and i happily interrupted them. :D maybe because i was still high.

took the mrt home again. i can't wait until i can drive, i hate public transport.

whee. went out with atm today- she treated everything except starbucks, and i only paid 2 dollars for that. yay. :D

so we went to tampines mall, century square, white sands and parkway parade in 5 hours, lol. wanted to buy a bag though. maybe go bugis or jurong point tomorrow.

anyway, atm and i were at parkway when we wanted to take a cab to paya lebar mrt. when we hailed the cab and boarded it, the driver scolded 'k*n lao *b'. my g/a/b/m! i was so scared. :( i don't like people who scold vulgarities, haha. :D

my holidays are disappearing every second. NOOOOOO.

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE, LOZERS.

YAY! so yesterday i went to bugis with adeline, victor and xiaomei. we watched x-men 3, which was really good. the special effects were awesome, but the plot is a bit confusing. when did wolverine like jean grey? after the movie, we shopped for a while and went to the national library (i think we kind of got lost though) then. something happened. don't really want to talk about it, but lots of thanks to the 3 of them who helped me. to those who are concerned and knew what happened, thanks. i'm okay already, everything's alright. :) i still can go out during the holidays, so yeah.

chm wrote this for my remarks in my report book: 'Jolene is one who will speak her mind in class. She needs to learn how to communicate in a more tactful manner. She radiates confidence in class and is mathematically inclined.'

basically he said that i'm rude. what an ass.

tomorrow's the last day of school! i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait.

ah anyway, to those who are going to perth on saturday: have fun! :)

speaking of perth, lily koh told us that literature students get to go to england next june! omg i wanna go to england. whooooooo.

to skip piano or not to skip? that's the question.

liming and i thrashed bing in stress yesterday and he had to treat all of us to drinks! mwhahhahahah. okay, actually liming thrashed him, i just won him once only. :X

our class turned into a full fledged gambling den yesterday. was playing mahjong halfway when i suddenly couldn't stand the noise anymore. left for the toilet and ended up gossiping outside, lol.

poor xiaomei was sick yesterday so he didn't come to school. :p anyway, he wants to say that nalina sang well today on stage for expressions, compared to that 5|-|1T|-|34|) who couldn't sing even if his life depends on it.

went to the tea chapter today. we drank almost 10 cups of tea i think, and the cha ye dan rocks! wanted to steal some but no one would let me. :( oh yeah, liming and i wanted to sit with bobo, but the fatso there didn't let us. stupid fatso.

i think i gossip too much. oscar wilde thinks so too.

maybe i just like talking a lot, because i like talking about everything. i don't think i'm talkative though. do you understand what i mean?

'It is perfectly monstrous the way people go about nowadays saying things against one, behind one's back, that are absolutely and entirely true. - Oscar Wilde

i couldn't sleep yesterday night.

my grandfather had health problems early in the morning and my uncles sped down to johor to bring him and my grandmother to KL in the afternoon. so we were really worried for the most of the day because he was in hospital and he had low blood pressure/low sugar level. at night my father received the news that he's okay already.

something kelf said got me thinking. he doesn't know our grandfather well because of communication barriers, i'm a different case. should i have gotten to know him well earlier on when he is healthy and still has an intact memory? we hardly go back to johor, perhaps twice or thrice a year, and even then i don't really talk to my grandparents much.

i guess it's too late anyway.

get well soon grandpa.

so i only got a2 for english. :( happy with the summary though- 23/25. 22/36 for social studies. still not satisfied with the overall results, but what can i do?

on thursday we went to the library for chinese, and 3G ended up there too. atm, pig, eunice and i ended up reading that book along with the rest of the people. learnt a lot from that book. :X

watched many episodes of Devil Beside You on youtube yesterday. :D it rocks. jiang meng is so handsome and charismatic. wheeee. :D

going on a movie spree next week! yay!

whee. i'm back from malaysia and back to school. how unfulfilling.

anyway malaysia was fun, and amos is super adorable. :) he calls me 'jiejie' in that cuteeeee baby voice and sits on my lap while smiling. i also found out that kelf reads colin and kero, LOL.

went to east coast park on monday. yay cycling! there was this railing place and it faces the sea, and i sat on the railing facing the sea, lol. it was so cool and relaxing and fun, the wind just blows in your face and yeah. felt really good then. :)

horribly disappointed with all the subjects i've gotten back so far except for emath and amath. it seems like i can't score outside of math. just hope that my english and literature can score A, or else you can see my L1R5 shooting up above 25.

went to xiaomei's house today. i like the pictures there (not the house, HAHA), there was one of paris i think, and it's pretty. oh, and his stairs are so clean that they are slippery. :( because your stairs are so slippery, i shall divulge a dark secret of xiaomei. he has pokemon stickers stuck on his bedroom wall.

please please please let my english be an a1. pleaseeeeee.

i want to watch the da vinci code! can a 16 year old bring me to watch, please? if not, we have to resort to watching at princess. :( hope the movie is as good as the book.

midyears are over


yay! no more mugging and books. now all i have to do is to wait for results, which isn't exactly the best thing ever. anyway- amath: 92.5%. :)

went out to bugis yesterday with atm, xiaomei, c1 and c2. had lots of fun! omg, it's so cool going out without paying from your own wallet LOL. we went to watch mission impossible III, it was quite okay and tom cruise's handsome, heh. oh, and we 'bought' this huge bucket of popcorn which apparently none of us could finish. in total we spent over 150 dollars if i'm not wrong (and atm we didn't pay at all HAHA). thank you xiaomei. :D

today was a waste of time. we just spent most of the time talking and fooling around in class. i like the talking though.

oh, and i cannot believe that the da vinci code movie is nc-16. wtf? i don't care. i want to watch it. :(

going back to malaysia tomorrow, until sunday. text me please, or i'll be bored.

oh i'm pissed alright. grrrr.

today's grand prix was excellent in terms of events, BUT THE RESULT IS WRONG. nooooooo.

next week will be better.

tudi, this just makes me feel better- your montoya didn't complete the race. :D

wtf. i almost broke down for elect geography today. i can't believe that i was so tense and nervous. :( guess there's a first for everything. literature was okay anyway. 4 down, 3 more to go.

chatted with ms lee on the train. she's extremely cute and child-like ahahah. apparently she sits beside chm (i wonder who's misfortune is it) and they share tips on how to torment students everyday.

atm paid for pizza hut today. :D so kind. then we saw this le coq sportif bag. it's pretty. :)

i think i think too much. i mean, chen xi read my palm on wednesday and told me that i think too much. she also say i may fall out of love at least once, lol.

amath was easy, but social studies is a different thing. 2 down, 5 more to go.

met sy at the bus stop today! she's still as cute as ever.

kukubird is going to pillar xiaomei on wednesday and i want to film it down. :D

no, you'll never know how i felt. that burst of mindboggling, mixed up emotion just shot through me. i felt so much at that time that i couldn't think nor breathe properly, i had to leave, i had to, before i broke down. even if you know what i felt, you won't understand it. you say i don't understand your problems, i say you create too many problems for yourself. if you think it's a joke, then please. it's not funny. i don't even know if it'd be the same again. because if you don't understand me, then we have nothing to talk about. because if you think it's my problem, then i won't shed any more tears over it. i may be over-reacting, but if you don't understand my point-of-view, if you can't put myself in my shoes, then don't say anything. the thing is, i don't care if you hide things from me. i respect your privacy, definitely, but when i asked you and you denied, i took it as the truth. i shamelessly defended you in front of other people, and it turned out the joke was on me in the end.

today we got lectured by ms z regarding our tests. apparently our class sucked at social studies, but thank g/a/b/m that i freaking passed. so it's just 52%, but i passed. i know i could do better though, that's why i feel dumb with myself. i just answered the questions from a one-sided view and didn't think about the other. it hurts when you knew you could do it yet you didn't succeed, it hurts when you didn't try your best and it hurts when you know all of this, but you can't reverse it back.

everybody is probably studying their guts out for midyears. in fact, i'm making a satisfactory effort to study too, but for what? i know i don't like to study because of results. i don't give a damn that it's apparently my job to study because i'm a student, because i'm not a student by choice.

i study to prove that i can do well. i study to shut them up, i study to gain my freedom and i study so that i will have a better secured future, apparently. i know that the piece of paper that will be awarded at graduation is essential if i want to get a decent job and earn decent money. i'm aware of all that yet i think it's all totally bullshit.

they say we study to gain knowledge. i say we study to survive through the exams and the parents.

can you tell i despise exams?

if i didn't say those words myself, don't assume that it's true. you should know me well enough, if you doubt me then that's your problem, really. and if you loved me, you wouldn't do things that i dislike. do you know how much it hurts? every word you don't say is killing me.

wheee. went to kfc to study with atm (nice haircut) today and met a random nice woman. hahaha. atm also sponsored a kfc meal, yay. :D oh, and we saw this couple ate a chicken from both sides. it was disgusting. not sweet, but disgusting.

after kfc we went to tampines mall to meet my parents, then we played hide-and-seek with xiaomei who seriously violated the rules. booooo. you lose.

anyway, i have folded 3 more hearts today, so i have 99 in total. wheee. how random again.

punching bags, pillows and water beds ROFL.