i'm just gonna blog a quick one.. coz i've got stuff on my mind.. and i usually need to vent stuff like this on my blog.. haha..

(i'm going to be vague)
so.... some things have been bugging me.. some smses.. i mean.. i feel bad rejecting.. i think i just got to learn how to say NO to some things in my life -.-

thanks for hearing me.. i super didn't know how to approach the topic.. and i was afraid as to how you'll react.. but i'm glad you took it fine.. and at least it is a load off my chest..


another ANNOYING thing is my acne is bloody irritating!!!! argh.. they are like back coz i've not seen my dermatologist for the longest time.. and weather doesn't help -.- it's like all those salesgirls keep pestering me to like look at their products.. be it facial wash or whatever nonsense.. it's really getting on my nerves.. i mean.. ya so what if i don't have a complexion of a baby's bottom?! leave me alone can? you think it's nice knowing i have to live life with a face like this? argh! somehow with all these things happening.. they keep reminding me so much of my days in secondary school.. where people teased the hell out of me.. calling me names.. branding me as the "pimpleton" or the "pimple plantation".. grrrr.. call me petty.. but i really really dislike it!
(paiseh.. just super annoyed -.-)


on the flip side..

i really thank God for blessing me with new friends.. especially mx.. it's really nice to know i can talk to her and hang out with her.. haha..

tonight i went for prayer meeting.. and i think it's an eye opener.. i think it's quite alright.. i've got nothing against it.. just felt tad awkward coz it's my first time there.. so didn't really like pray out aloud.. but it's nice with charlene and min xun (:

it's a comforting feeling.. don't really know how to express it.. but i enjoyed it..

i'm a really happy girl today~

God really works in His little ways to help us all..

thank You!!!

after the 1/2h ride.. i was famished! hahaha.. so we headed down to shokudo! either the food was reasonably nice.. or like i'll always say... hunger is the best condiment.. lol.. i wanna try them all!! :p

so yay~ exams are OVER!!!

and lil ol' me, as promised, is gonna paint the town PINK!!!

like GSS is here please!! anyone wants to go shopping with me?! hahahaha..

AINI!!! hurry come back! i wanna shop with you too! hahaha..

feels good that i've got a whole load off my shoulders... it's definitely better when i know that i've got so many activities on~ yay! i've been waiting for this day please.. FINALLY i get to what i like doing.. and more importantly... i get to spend time with my friends!!

*~~*

let's see what i'm gonna do this week...

i'm so going to sleep in today.. haven't been doing so for a long time man.. and in the evening.. i'll most probably be catching the flyer.. haha.. got free tix coz of the tv my parents purchased for our new nest..

tues.. GYM! damn i've got to lose those fats! and more importantly.. gain those abs to sing! haha.. in the evening it'll be daddy-and-me time.. with Indiana Jones!!!! oh man! harrison ford is still so charming! it'll be my 2nd time watching though.. haha.. i watched it last week.. it was goooood!! haha.. was quite shocked that we didn't get lousy seats.. heehee.. (though the guy in front of me stinked -.- i bet he removed his shoes.. EEEK!) and to those who grew up with Indy, like me... should go watch it k?! haha.. really worth it..

wed.. i may meet up and shop a little with mx.. not too sure just yet.. then dinner with the choir girls.. then choir sectionals..

thurs.. shopping with BUDDY! i haven't spent time with you for so long babe!!!

fri.. still vacant for now.. haha..

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yay yay yay! i love the holidays! (i still dislike the crowd though)


MUMMY!! this goes out to you~

thank you for cooking me meals when gloria's not around.. for waking up early just to ensure i fill my tummy for both lunch and dinner.. not forgetting doing the laundry and cleaning.. i appreciate it loads!

you've always been a wonder-mummy to me..

i don't know what else to say.. but thank you!!! love you!!

grats to DC and DA... they are both winners to me.. it was one season worth watching..


why do i feel like crap?
did my emotions disappear into a void?
or am i just frustrated?
whatever..


anyways.. let's get this over and done with..

one more paper..
about 12h to freedom..

i just wanna let my hair down.. and paint the town PINK!

thanks cresencia.. i enjoyed your company.. all the way k? see you tmr!!!

oh man.. it feels so long since i last blogged..
i'm not going to type really coherently.. coz i somehow.. can't seem to recall much of what happened the past week.. so i'm just gonna type all the random stuff that comes to mind k? lol..


so it was yet another eventful week ^-^ heehee~

and if you've been catching up with the american idol.. it's down to DA vs DC! and let me tell you.. i'm supporting DA all the way!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. though i have a hunch DC will win.. it doesn't matter.. i still vote for DA! haha.. DC's not bad really.. just that DA is very cute.. lol..

how i wish i could sing as well..
choir was alright.. got a lot to catch up on.. which i had better do so tonight.. tmr's the prac already! ah!

thank you ni ni for all the recordings.. i really appreciate it! hope you'll enjoy your stay in china.. see you in two weeks! (:


gloria went back for 3 weeks on sunday.. it's been quite quiet without her around.. i think my poor fifi misses her.. oh wells.. 3 weeks will fly by soon la.. just that i'm gonna have to be the part time helper for the moment.. haha..

i spent the entire sunday with my church peeps.. and it was so fun~ haha.. i can't believe it.. but i helped wash judy's car! oh man.. her car was filled with dust bunnies and leaves.. and sticky stuff which melted.. i so do Not wanna know what they were man.. but and the end of the day.. the car was super clean! haha.. so proud of ourselves ^-^

yesterday was the second time we tried catching the sunset but failed.. so poor thing.. at least the company was fantastic.. heehee.. i should seriously learn how to stroll and talk.. it's actually quite fun~ haha..

so yipee yay.. guilty me.. didn't study throughout my weekends.. and i can't seem to really focus coz half the time i'm thinking that exams are ending!!! hahaha.. i seriously can't wait! it's like all most of my friends have completed theirs long time ago.. and i'm stuck here.. i wanna meet them so bad!

speaking of meeting.. i wanna watch some movies!!!
indiana jones anyone?! heehee..
there's more.. but we'll wait till those are released.. lol..


so many things i wanna do after friday.. haha.. i can't wait!


okie.. time for me to practice my scores...

auditions are over.. and i'm still in quite a bit of shock.. lol...

this girl here.. as most of you know.. is an Alto 2.. at least i've been singing from a range of Alto 1 to Tenor 2 for my past experiences.. however.. now...... i'm a Soprano 1!!!! haha.. i'm actually quite elated.. coz i'm actually a closet soprano :p now my secret's revealed... haha..

thanks to aini who gave me this chance to sing again.. haha..

thanks to those who have given me their support..

now that i've got in.. the next hardest task would be to STAY IN.. lol.. i've got 2 more auditions till my probation ends.. oh man.. i'm keeping my fingers crossed.. haha..

choir wasn't too bad yesterday.. the pieces are nice! (especially since now i get to sing melody :p)
Ms Tham is actually quite a fun person.. heeehee..


and in response to aini's entry:

THANKIES! hahaha.. i can't wait either! hahaha.. but i need your help~ i've never sung sop in my entire life! hahaha.. oh man.. i dunno how to sing my high notes softly.. it's all airy -.- haha


lastly..

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

to all the mothers out there.. may you have a blessed day today (:


i love you mummy!!!

yay i got prezzie today!!! heehee~

such a sweet thought.. i felt it was a good pick-me-up after all the exam stress i'm having now.. heehee~

AH! tomorrow is the auditions!
oh my mama!

i really hope my ego doesn't get burst =/
but no hard feelings if i don't get in la..

can someone please tell me that he/she is in the same boat as me..

why do i feel so rubbish-y..


anyways.. if all goes fine.. i hope sunday's secret plan works out.. lol.. i'm looking forward to it! hahaha..

somewhere over the rainbow~~~!! hahaha...

*gasp* i can finally hear my blog's music! after dunno how long sia -.- enjoy the new song~ heehee!

anyways... so yipee yay~ econs is finally over!

i can't stress how much i studied for it this time round.. it occupied so much of my memory space in my brain la! now can finally format and replace with new inputs -.-

but ironically.. despite the fact that i studied.. i don't feel the least confident when i went in.. and i felt much worse when i came out >.<

and you know.. when i walked into Expo Hall 1.. i saw all our tables were made out of thin wooden planks with metal base(oh i must say! i love the fact that now my exam tables are SO MUCH BIGGER! at least i got space for everything!).. with white plastic chairs.. it was like as if we were walking into our own individual wakes =/

there were like at least 1000 peeps there taking the exams.. i was table 732.. imagine my friends.. i was in row 14 while my friends were in 30++ goodness gracious..

there's this guy diagonally across me who brought a travel alarm clock! oh my! a bit exagerrating bo? he put in front of him to watch the time i guess.. haha.. i thought a watch would be good enough =/

and oh my tian... the place was FREAKING COLD!! and when it rained.. it was like as if they purposely turned up the fans of the air-con.. my fingernails were all purple can? brrr~


oh wells.. at least it's one down.. four more to go..

1 day till next paper
2 days till my auditions
2 weeks till they are OVER! (they have only just begun and i'm already wishing it to be over >.<)

keep it up guys.. have faith.. God is always with us.. He is forever faithful..

Like the sun that rises everyday,
You are so faithful.
Lord, You are faithful.

Like the rain that You send,
And every breath that I breathe,
You are so faithful, Lord

Like the rose that comes alive every spring,
You are so faithful.
Lord, You are faithful.

Like the life that You give,
to every beat of my heart,
You are so faithful, Lord.

I see the cross and the price You had to pay,
I see the blood that washed my sins away.

In the midst of the storm
through the wind and the waves,
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful,
When the stars refuse to shine
and time is no more,
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful, Lord.

and so the battle begins in about 12 hours..

it's times like these that i wished the whole burn-my-book-and-drink-its-ashes thing works -.-

on the flip side.. at least exams are held at expo.. i needn't travel so far..


aiya.. i don't know what to type.. i think all the inputs are causing my emotions to go all hay-wired.. lol..

i think i have no time for POA yet again -.-

once again
the sound of the waves
softly crashing against the breakwaters
washing away unwanted thoughts
it hears our grievances
and pent up emotions
it's always there when we need to confide

with cool wind in my hair
and warmth wrapped around me
my day was made a better one

that one soft touch
was a moment i never had before