it's been quite a week.. prelims have begun.. oh wow whee? haha..

one paper down... 4 more to go.. -dreads-

i met some people during the week.. namely BUDDY and aaron.. lol..

i missed my buddy so so much please.. it felt like eons since i last saw her..
so we studied at coffee bean.. after which we had our usual dosage of donuts and silly arcade games~ haha.. so nostalgic.. haha.. thanks buddy for the wonderful company! (:

ok... we were fiddling around with my camera functions =p

i met aaron on friday to study at the national library.. oh man i felt so lost.. it was my 1st time there.. in fact.. our 1st time there.. lol.. but study room was so packed.. so we decided to plonk ourselves at raffles city starbucks.. where i had my grande vanilla latte(why am i suddenly having this craze sia... but i remember it was elke who introed to me a long time ago.. lol).. a pretty productive day i must say..

ok.. i don't know if i'm blogging nonsense.. i feel as if my day isn't complete today.. like.. something's missing and i can't put a finger as to what it is.. and it's getting me quite frustrated.. =/

oh yes.. i also decided not to get my desired N95 8GB.. coz i figured that since i got a new camera.. my phone doesn't really need that good specs anymore.. just good memory space for my music and photos.. heehee~ plus i don't really have like a model that i truly adore for now.. so i'll make do with a cheaper phone now.. and get a really nice one in the future.. provided if they have nice ones.. lol..

now i'm in a dilemma.. i have to choose among 3 models.. care for some opinions? heehee

they are:
6500 Slide
6500 Classic
6300

all nokia... do share with me your opinions k? much appreciated (:
nini.. i know you're good at this.. lol.. =)

strolling
the steady cool breeze
staring at the sea of eternity
oh-so serene

the waves crashing
dark water lit by the full moon's reflection
like a mirror to my soul

stars fill the sky
clouds rolled by
a wishing star?
maybe not =)

twas beautiful
thank You.

thank You, Lord... for giving me the strength tonight..
i can finally spread my wings and soar... once again (:

i've learnt that transparency in any relationship is really essential.. and i'm glad he took it well tonight..


well.. at least now i can freely type what i wanna now.. haha.. not to mention.. venture out into the forest.. haha.. i remember someone mentioning to me about all the different types of trees.. lol.. whether i want apple tree or even durian tree.. they are all out there for me.. lol.. (grace is it you?) sorry i can't remember who you are.. but thanks.. i've carried that with me all these while (:

BIG thank you to those who have supported me thus far.. both in my right and wrong decisions.. your encouragements... love... patience and comforting words really helped me through it all..
especially mummy.. thanks for being there for me when i practically cried my eyeballs out.. lol.. sorry i made you so worried..

but hey~ it's the experiences that helps me to grow aye? ^-^

and sorry to those i've neglected.. please forgive me.. i was truly foolish..


i'm really happy~ it feels so good to be the girl whom i was before.. for my babes.. i'm the charmy warmy again!.. haha..

now i'm just waiting to see what's the future has in store for me.. heehee~


thank you so much for the sweet surprise today.. i totally didn't expect it please.. i told you the trip was ridiculous yet you still did it.. haha.. at least it kept me awake (: thanks a mil~

i'm not ready.

Lord, please show me the way.. and give me the strength..

am i really doing injustice to myself?

i've been doing some of my own reflections of late.. still quite uncertain about some things.. but thanks for all those who were there for me.. i really appreciate it.. sorry if i got tad cranky though =/

speaking of cranky.. i totally loathe my upcoming timetable for my workshops!!!! argh! who goes to school during Holy week?! from Holy Thursday, to Good Friday, to Holy Saturday and even EASTER Sunday? ah!

and have i mentioned that i have to burn 3 weekends(three saturdays and 2 sundays please)? and also have lessons till 10PM for four days? oh gosh! the worst i have is on 17th Apr where i have to attend school from 10AM to 10 PM.. totally disgusting please..

Graciepoo! you're not the only one k? haiz.. i wanna crash lectures if i can though.. oh dear oh dear.. i do not like this one bit.. please have dinner with me on 17th apr k? lol.. even if you don't wanna.. i ain't giving you a choice.. lol!

was in a super bad mood after the eRev.. thank God that at least i had some way to destress (:

despite these disappointments.. i'm still really happy.. heehee~ it's been a good week.. =)

gotta catch up with my studies le! prelims are next week! so let's hope i won't be blogging much.. haha..

one last thing.. i'll officially move out of this place on 7th march.. so gonna miss the memories.. oh wells..

sorry if my entry is incoherent.. lol.. i'm just typing whatever pops into my mind.. lol..

do try to catch ah long if you can okie? i think it's hilarious! haha.. ok.. so random.. =p

i had a lovely Valentine's day... ^-^


thanks for all the gifts.. (:

i had a couple set meal at swensen's.. lol.. so cool! never eaten such a BIG meal man!


i loved the drinks! they came with bendy straws which were bent into hearts.. heehee~ and they gave me pink heart balloons!! hahaha.. and and and!! there was a heart-shaped cake in my favourite flavours!(sticky chewy chocolate & butterscotch!).... so heavenly yet so sinful.. heehee~

i don't know what else to say.. but i had a blissful valentine's day this year..

somehow or rather.. i felt really special (:

it's a valentine's day i'll never forget..

-even if the sun refuse to shine, even if romance ran out of rhyme..-

time passes so fast when you're enjoying yourselves.. cliche aye?

i really had a blessed chinese new year this year.. in fact.. it's the best thus far.. coz i can't really remember what happened in the previous years.. lol.. but this one is really etched deep in my heart..

my cny had a LOVELY start... and my my, was i a happy little girl.. (:
that's for me to know and for you guys never to find out.. lol..

it was the little things that made my new year a memorable one.. shhhhhhh~ heehee =p

thankew dear for coming down for my family's open house despite the many visitings you needed to do.. i really appreciate it ^-^

oh oh! and thank you so much for spending the 8th with me!! heehee~ ^-^


next event on the list:
Valentine's day!

it's one of my Favourite days!!! i know it's all over rated and everything.. but still? i love the fact that the whole town is filled with PINK or red decorations and with my FAVOURITE flowers!!! lol...

ah! it's so close to cny! i don't have the time to shop for little gifts for friends~! so so sorry if i turn out not giving you all anything okie?

speaking of gifts.. come to think of it... i have never received any gifts, especially my favourite flowers, on any valentine's day! (from The guys of course) haha.. bet this year isn't going to be of any difference.. it's okie.. no big.. i'll just add contrast to the pink and red all around.. haha.. let's try green yet again.. LOL..

alright.. holidays have ended.. time to hit the bed and embrace the new week! =)

nights world~

today was not too bad..

just disheartening coz my 1st day isn't as happening as the past few years.. coz some has gone.. while others are stuck in the old folks home...

so that means.. not so many angbaos le =/

oh wells.. CNY doesn't seem all That great anymore.. feels more like a family thing now =/

it's the 8th today..
and my heart speaks to me..

where are all the bak kwas?! hahaha..

may you all be blessed with many and BIG ang baos.. lol..

don't forget to pig out with the new year goodies... heck the shape now... just eat and be merry! shed the weights later.. haha.. make you eat the bak kwas k? they are really costly this year.. lol..

i'm so glad that i'm having a lovely start to my new year..

Lying on the floor
Pieces by the window
Scattered through the void
Everywhere; to and fro.

Lodged in the cracks
The walls are covered red
A void in my soul
Sad thoughts run through my head

Nothing left but pieces
Lying in the space
You tore my heart to shreds
And left it all over the place

*~~

i was left disappointed
still misunderstood
and misjudged
pride is my only medicine
to heal all wounds
patience is my best friend

a right choice has to be made
for better or for worse

8th of feb is looming by.. and i'm not too sure how exactly i'll be embracing it.. valentines day is nearing too.. while my friends are happily with their significant others.. i'll probably just treasure the memories i had for the past two years.. for only i know who my heart might pine for..

i don't matter anymore..
tears that roll down my cheek will not be caught..
i used to love the month of feb..
but all i'm left with are just bittersweet memories..

Lord, please give me strength to do Your will..

it's been quite a week... not to mention my sudden new cravings for tennis~ haha.. i got my classmates started as well.. lol..



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thursday


i played tennis on thursday before PBF class coz there was no stats lesson! haha.. shiok! 1st time playing doubles.. and i can finally rally.. lol.. so paiseh please.. i hit 2 "homeruns" lol... one of which fell into the pool.. the other flew to the other carpark.. wahaha!


my friend willingly lent me his mistress.. lol.. i felt so bad.. lol.. i find his mistress pretty chio though.. lol.. oh no~ i'm laying eyes on her! haha.. just kidding, fren..


i met my buddy after class... she was so sweet.. followed me to see my dermatologist.. heehee~ after which.. we had thai express for dinner! love the curry soft shell crab with rice and the tom yam seafood soup~ haha.. poor buddy.. the soup too spicy for her.. but nonetheless.. we had a really satisfying meal.. as always (:


after which.. we headed down to suntec.. coz we wanted to eat coffee bean's 1/2 priced chicago cheesecake.. but to our disappointment.. it was sold out.. =/ we went to the arcade to relive those stress-relieving days.. lol... but my legs honestly couldn't go on anymore.. >.<

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Friday

went to work.. and i found out that i might be a tuition tutor for my boss' P1 kid! oh my tian.. i don't even know the syllabus please.. lol... help? lol

went down to tampines mall to catch sweeny tod.. missed the earlier one so had no choice but to catch the later one.. which got me home rather late.. didn't mean for it to happen, really..



it was quite nice a show.. but i heard that the broadway and the concerts were done differently.. so i believe this movie was to attract our attention through it's gore.. lol.. it was so exagerrated~ i never expected it to be so eeky.. lol..



i never knew johnny depp could sing pretty well.. not that great.. but good enough.. haha..



i felt the show was a bit too dark to a certain extent.. can tell that many scenes were pretty much eliminated to accomodate the restricted 2 hours.. show started to get draggy after the 1st "customer"...



the whole show is just about obssession la.. lol..





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Saturday

i met up with xl to shop for his cny clothes.. heehee~ he sounded so busy.. thought we wouldn't get a chance to meet this weekend of something.. but we did! (:

as usual la.. blue tee shirt.. lol... but to our surprise.. that tee he picked out at nike was the last piece~ so we had like 40% discount.. haha.. lucky him.. anyways.. he looks good in it ^-^

we ate some yummy goodies while we were at the atrium.. heehee~ so nice =p speaking of eating.. i think i've been eating too much.. i got tummy le~ >.< i must be determined to eat less.. lol.. else i wouldn't look nice on cny.. lol..

time passed and we both needed to go.. i totally KOed in the bus please.. but he was amazing.. he accurately woke me up at my stop.. lol...

*~~

time for the emo bit =/


the pink petals fall
one by one
enclosed in the jar
withering

once a beautiful rose
now no longer alluring

at the next table
another rose
in its own jar
decoloured
from what was once blue
now white

glass separates them
all they can do
is watch from afar