it's end of the month.. and work is C-R-A-Z-Y!

lol.. been running around the small office... rushing things here and there... haiz... hurting my left ankle and right knee... oh wells... that's life...

i miss the feeling of wearing uniforms coz i don't have to decide what to wear everyday... it's beginning to be quite a chore.. lol..
i miss the feeling of slinging my crumpler across my shoulder..
lugging my books from one venue to the other...
i miss my hobby.. singing...
i miss the classroom... for personal reasons.. lol...
i miss the times i get to delay my work...
and the times i get to sleep during classes or lectures(especially econs! lol)

sad that teenage life has to end so soon.. before you know it.. next year.. my age will not have a "teen" behind it anymore.. lol... so sad...

talk of the town.. as we all know... would be the fact that our dooms day.. at least for me... and i know not for some..... is looming by... yup... it's this friday alright... that day that i have NOT been waiting for... lol..

i so need emotional support on that day... and i foresee it.... help~?

babes!!! ALL THE BEST!!!

and you wanna go for dinner on thurs? coz friday we ought to be off work ya? ;)

ever felt so very stupid in your life?

ever had moments whereby you're unsure of what you are doing; what you are thinking; what you want; and what you need?

ever regretted what you did only to realise that it was too late?

well... i empathise..

today was quite an unusual day... work was as hectic as ever.. but it was fun..

it's been quite a while since i last saw the lion dance upclose... the last time i remember seeing them was when i was in primary school... lol..

today.. these people from north shaolin danced in and out of citiblue, citigold and even our office.. so cute...

but there's one thing i dislike.. the percussions were so loud that my eardrums could go "pop" anytime!... lol...

but the lions were funny larhz... they kept throwing the vegetables and oranges.. guess they are suppose to represent good luck.. and to some.. money/fortune...

well.. an interesting day indeed =)

tomorrow... it's overnight mahjong party at my friend's place... whee~~ i can't wait!

and saturday.. dinner... hopefully you can accompany me :D

Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

it was indeed a HAPPY new year for me.. lol.. i shan't go into the details...

but i'm really glad to say i'm extremely happy =)

here are some pictures during the festive season... of my family and i.. and of course, him... heehee...

My Family :)

Daddy & I

My Favourite Cuzz & I

We Are FAMILY!

The Cam Whores Again~

THE Cousins!

*3rd Day*

[ the following pictures speak for themselves ;) ]

Valentine's Day is here again...

anyways... his field camp is coming to an end real soon.. and i hope time will fly faster...

before you know it.. it's chinese new year! lol...

-what is valentine's day without a valentine-

Do keep smiling...

remember.. 勾勾手 :)

everywhere i turn... at the corner of my eye...

i see couples so close together...
i see shops putting up their valentine's day display...
from soft, cuddly toys...
to flowers...
to jewellery shops...
a whole array...

as much as i try to ignore and accept certain facts... i still can feel that pinch... sadly... life has got to move on...

valentine's day is just another ordinary self-proclaimed day... but it's different when i someone real close to you isn't with you.... coz i know i'm feeling incomplete... like a part of me is missing...


on the brighter note...

tomorrow is the day i've been waiting for...
the day where i can proudly say.. it's been a year :)

we've brave through stormy weathers... and enjoyed precious moments...

i can't wait for his return... so that i can tell him... I Love Him...

sometimes i find humans such weird creatures...

made differently, yes... but if only we could ALL get along well... bah~

anyways.. work was like hell today.. my gosh... a huge boo boo made by me... another lesson learnt though...

sian... heard results will be out next friday.. i don't wannna panic.. but i can't stop...

what happens if i don't get my desired grades?
what happens if i don't get into a local uni of my choice?

freak...

sometimes shit just happens...

the 4th has finally come to an end... sadly...


i'm glad i'm done with it... after a week's worth of burning midnight oil... which led me to my flu.. lol.. it's all worthwhile... =)

babe.. thank you for hearing me out.. sad as i may be... i am still glad today still happpened... just thought i'd share my joy with you...


just curious.. anyone out there...and without a date for valentine's day? count me in.. lol...

anyone gamed for a girls' night out for V'day? lol...

ever heard of the cliche "you can't have your cake and eat it at the same time" ?

pretty much how i'm feeling now...

it's going to be a really different february for me... be it work.. family... or even my beloved one..

from monday onwards... it's full steam as a one woman operation.... my partner's contract has ended just yesterday... and i heard more RMs will be joining the team.. hope it'll be fun....

family wise... my cuzz is going to be out of town...

at family reunion.. one seat will be empty.... in the yearly cousins picture at aunt's place... one less person... just different, really...

lastly... the most crucial....

He'll be spending both our anni and valentine's day in BMT... not that i can stop that from happening... i can't even begin to express how depressed i am... but then again... i'm not here to ruin the 4th...

i'm down... but i'm still struggling to pick myself up each time these thoughts of Him come into my mind...

i dislike the thought of being so lonely on these two very special and important dates... sigh...

am i overreacting? or am i just pouring out my emotions...?
only i know...

i wish i were a goddess or something... but sadly... that's never possible...

i guess i got to make full use of the weekends... weekends which i'm allowed to be with Him...

my only comfort is that... perhaps valentine's day is just another day which anyone can proclaim for lovers to come together... maybe it's ok if i or rather we could do the same...

Lord...

i pray that You'll hear me... help me with what i do...

give me strength

Amen