Today was the 30th Award Ceremony of CJC... and my was it one heck of a long session... but at least we had a long break =)

as you can tell... my dear was one of the prize winners... he did not win one... not two.. but three awards! heehee~ so zai you mei you =)

i'm so very proud of him...

my heart sort of melted the moment i heard such loud claps and screams from the choir.. lol.. heehee~ silly me huh?

feels so great to attend something so important for once :)

i hope i'll be there again next year to relive this day once again...

feels like eons since i last blogged.. but the fact is that i just did so 3 days ago.. heehee~


my week has been a pretty bittersweet.. moodswings maybe? hmm.. only God knows...

i've been feeling a little off.. one moment i'm happy... one moment i'm not... oh gosh.. i feel so irritable... maybe i'm just PMS-ing..

yesterday one free cone day! from ben & jerry's.. man.. the ice cream was so heavenly.. yet so sinful... lol.. love the heart-shaped cake thing.. so pretty... wish i had a heart-shaped cake for my birthday too :p

had choir today.. the people were funny man.. love em all.. but it doesn't change the fact that i still have to attend choir tomorrow and on friday.. don't get me mistaken.. not that i don't want to.. but my schedule really drains me... ok.. some of you might be in a worse position as me.. i'm sorry .. but that's how i feel...

i'm just looking forward to the weekends... can get more rest :p hopefully it will be a blessed long weekend...


missing you... hope you're resting well.. it's all my fault... i'm feeling so out of place.. knowing i can't be with you... i'm needing you... goodnight..

at first i was pretty lazy to blog... but now i'm feeling rather happy :p

[going to just type randomly.. forgive me if you don't understand...]


i now know why
satisfied and quenched my thirst
elated!
all smiles =)
love these conversations!


i can't wait for thursday and friday~


gosh.. time really flies..
i've lost my momentum..
not good
not good at all
no drive..
need to find something to look forward to..

ok.. i'm pretty shagged... so i'll be typing a short entry...

the week's been quite a hectic one for me.. completed my NAPFA at last.. in addition to that.. i had tests from monday to fri! oh man.. how draining~

NAPFA was just plain rubbish i tell you.. knowing me.. i loathe sports.. ok.. maybe not all kinds.. but most...

i got AAABCD

such a waste i can't jump... apparently it's in my genes.. i jumped a total of 11 times to get a pathetic D.. haha... aiya... heck it larhz.. no more NAPFA! lol.. that's most important :p

i'm just go glad that the week has come to an end..

i'm doing good.. just got more tests in the upcoming week.. oh dear...


had tuition today.. and mr karib brought up our E(X) and VAR(X) nonsense again.. ok... we get the drift~.. lol..

my twinee was the cutest... P(eating the round biscuit instead of the square one) = 10 !!! haha... you go girl!

tuition is so fun with my babes around =)


ok.. need sleep... i hear my bed calling my name! lala-land here i come!

fairytales... don't many girls just dream of having them? :)

pretty great knowing that i've finally got what i've been wishing for... heehee~ funny how the simplest things can put a smile on one's face for the entire day... :)


living in a world of my own
heart keeps beating at different paces
but when you hold my hand
blood rushes into my fingers
heart beats
filling each vessel
not to mention..
pounding away
confined within my ribs
like a partially withered rose
watered
provided with warmth and light
showered with love
and brought back to life..


ok.. randomising again... and do i feel so lethargic these days... oh no...

choir again tomorrow.. hope i'll keep my cool~

feeling kinda tired today...

had GP mock today.. it was manageable i guess...

today he went for his medical appointment.. the way he described his experience to me was hellofa hilarious i tell you... you should eat more, my dear...

have been reading blogs about young mummys... even read of one who had a daughter at the age of 16.. i have no comments coz it was afterall their decision to keep their child... but i really admire them for their strength and willpower...

it's so cute to read stuff like how they get so happy over a little drawing which their kids made for thm... also amazed by the fact that they take the trouble to prepare a home-cooked meal for them.. so cute la..


sorry just randomising :p


time to sleep now~ nitez!

it was a blessed weekend :)

























attended Easter Vigil mass last night.. i was so delighted to know that xinglong could go for the mass... seeing as he was a non-catholic and all.. i really appreciate his presence.. means a lot to me.. especially since i was in the choir... :)

speaking of choir.. we never practiced singing with lit candles! LOL~ it was so cumbersome to hold both the lit and dripping candle and flip through our scores at the same time... lol... choir was fun... i'll never forget our half hero~ lol..

the whole mass was about 2.5hours long... my heels were killing me (actually not really la... it's was fine.. i thought it'd be the typical thing a girl might say :p)...

dad and i got a little friction that night... but it turned out to be a better night after that :)

had supper and i ate kinda too fast i think.. got heartburn together with a terrible sharp pain in my stomach.. gosh~ i felt like pulling my intestines out.. lol... but it was thanks to my significant other... he really nursed me the whole night... heehee~

thanks darl... remember "do do do" ? heehee~ every single gesture means a whole lot to me... thank God for You... you really know how to make a girl feel special and loved =) -hugs-




To the BIRTHDAY GIRL:
dee dee~ i'm so sorry i let you and the babes down.. i really couldn't make it.. but nevertheless.. i hope everything turned out well.. we play pool this sat ok? make it up to you :) love you!

indeed, a Good friday =)



i watched it again!!!! - All About Love!

as usual.. the emotional me took control of my body... however, today wasn't as bad as the time i went with my babes.. this time i only teared here and there... but the ending really made me cry(how embarrassing~)... it was SO SWEET! lol..

thanks for watching it with me... and lending me your shoulder... and thanks a million for making me feel better after the incident i had after dinner... hope you had a good time today =)

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just a few photos i took recently :)

today was just another ordinary day... ok.. maybe not all that ordinary =)

econs test today.. didn't study last night.. was too damn tired.. going to fail.. what's new? lol..

had my 2.4 today... thank God for the cool cool weather.. heehee~ got a C =) it's good enough for me... seeing as i'm not much of a sportswoman... lol... i just don't like it :p.... 5 stations next week*bleagh*

had break with cheryl.. cute la.. he came to join us :) our juniors are seriously jokers man.. the funny thing is that i don't understand why i only caught the joke about cheryl moving over like 1minute later... WOLS... i know... lol

cheryl and i ran up the stairs and she couldn't stop laughing la.. lol.. lost my momentum whilst running up... all i said was... "i can run vertical but not horizontal".. lol.. sounds weird but she said.. "you think you're a crab huh?" ok........ started like walking zig-zag on my level.. lol.. she's so funny...

first bell rung.. and i quickly went to change.. guess what?! i wore serena's shirt by mistake... and she wore mine~ how embarrassing... lol... i have no idea how that happened.. i clearly remembered taking the clothes from my chair...-raises eyebrow-

tai was so naggy today.. all i did was to help serena with one question then she like in a bad mood... ask me to stop discussing -.- well.. not like i had anything else to do...

mrs La'Brooy was totally losing it.. LOL! she was like super fierce and sarcastic during lecture... the next thing you know she was all hyper and HIGH at tutorial! goodness.. it seemed like as if she was about to have fits or something.. she was truly hilarious.. LOL~ love her la.. greatest GP teacher... she really kept me awake during her lesson(pretty rare.. seeing as i never really took an interest in both GP and econs :P)...lol...

ok.. one thing i am really disappointed in was that i attained only a band 3 for PW.. the thing is that i DID put in effort for the project.. and i'm assuming that my project was relatively good because out of all the 5 of us.. three attained 2s and the other two of us attained 3s.. now how sad is that.. Pathetic, i say... it's over.. nothing else can be done...


happy that my dear got so many awards... so proud of him.. but i feel that the physics thing is utter rubbish.. it's plain ridiculous... i think it's coz the school doesn't want just one guy to get everything.. sighz~

it's alright honey, you're always be number 1! =)


today is Maunday Thursday...
i will be making my way to mass soon.. meeting gerald at the bus stop.. shall be going there together... not sure what i'm going to do... will be like the earliest few la... lol... i think i'll settle the scores ba...

enjoy the long holidays people~ =)

listening to some pieces which i learnt in my 1st three months.. feeling low~ sighz... i can't believe i made one person affect me so much.. my passion.. so disappointed in myself.. as they say.. love is blind.. was it even love at all? i doubt so.. i was just stupid enough to let him destroy me..

ok.. i'm still kinda sick and drained~
coughs and sniffles have yet to go away... in addition to that.. i have not been catching up with my beauty sleep :p

today choir was alright i guess.. maybe i'm having a moodswing... or maybe i was just caught in a bad mood...

something different just now.. only few of you know.. no comments..

lost my mood to sing.. and that's not a good sign.. for me at least...

~let's just play pretend~


2.4 is tomorrow.. not to mention... i'll be having my econs test as well.. i think i won't be studying.. i'm really too damn tired... lol.. i think i'll even fall asleep during mass tomorrow.. :p


easter is around the corner and i've yet to get chocolate eggs... lolz... i think i'll find a substitute :p


3days have came and gone just like that...
everything went so well went you were around..
the days, the night...
the smiles...
every second spent with you...
all etched in my heart...
i wish i could relive them again...
you are my reason...
my guardian angel...
i love you.

oh happy day~

i've been doing good =)

got a few stuff on my mind now though:

Chem Lecture Test results [sure fail]
Napfa[Needless to say... i'll fail]
Chem SPA tomorrow[have yet to study :p]
Chem Retest [what do you think? :p]



should i join the competition with my friend for fun? -still in consideration-


making use of every little bit of time... before it ends :)

it's today!

rested well [8.30pm to 8.30am! so early~]


thank you.......
for the care and concern
for taking the trouble even though we're so far apart
for waiting for my smses and calls
for making me smile even though i'm sick
for when i thought hope was gone.. you brought it back
for putting up with all my nonsense even though it's just 2 months
for loving me


and sorry for waking you up so early..


hope i'll be better.. especially for tomorrow...

got the cough and the sniffles =/

silly air-cons have been irritating my throat wherever i went... lol...



had a very good afternoon... had a pep talk with both serena and hui wen.. felt good to open up :) nice to know that your friends care for you =)

hui wen and i keep suffering the same fate today.. lol...
math lesson: both drop calculators
lunch: we spilt milo on ourselves (only thing mine was worse coz hers was only a few drops whereas mine was the whole cup.. lol... luckily serena got tennis and i could borrow her skirt :p thanks babe!)



choir people creating scandals again.. funny la these people... but sadly.. i was kinda sick to even say much today... i was pretty irritable i must say...

toh didn't come today... and we ended early =) at least i can get more rest...



lucky him.. got a new toy to play around with... hee~ hope he's having fun...



it's tomorrow.. but i don't think lady luck is on our side.. if only we could........

in the library......

today was a not-so-bad day... thankfully...

just that i realised something.. i've become a lot more tired as opposed to before... lolz.. is that a good thing? at least i've been studying :p

falling sick soon... one moment fever(thank you).. the next moment i'm ice cold... and now... i can feel the phlegm plugging up my throat along with the my my nostrils... the phlegm keeps tickling and irritating my bronchial tubes... making me cough...-bleagh- (my bio sounds a bit wrong.. lol...)

gosh.. i've been sleeping at every lesson... even Chem! no idea how was that possible... toh was like.. "charmaine? you understand? so what do you add to the salt to get your carboxylic acid?"(somewhere along those lines i think... lol... was still half-asleep then... so didn't really catch it lol..) thank God i revised my organic chem... starred at the board saying, "any dilute acid to acidify it".. lol.. anyhow whack la... but it's right :p heehee~

speaking of chem... i finally brought her flower to school today.. after weeks of procrestination :p

another incident was during GP lect... gosh! i was like so tired... i tried so hard to stay awake... but i just couldn't =/ in addition to that.. i'm not one person who would bother about the topic of globalisation... lol... kena called out la... so malu...

tai didn't nag at me today... as usual... she went around asking if they did their tutorials... but when she reached me..

tai: "i know you do already.. i give you extra questions.."
me: "no need la.. i do binomial"
tai: "don't do binomial" -hands me more DRV-... -bleagh-

she always waste paper la.. lol... give me extra questions but i never do... always do half way then give up le... lol... she's so free man... bother to find these questions for us and print for us.. FOC... so nice la..


OH! i just remembered! had the homosexuality talk this morning again... found out that Lung was on hormone therapy for 4 years! explains his boobs and hips~...lol.. i can't imagine his life when he was in NS... poor fella...

Lung showed us a photo of himself before he decided not to go for the sex change.. lol... and the guy behind me was like.. "wah! SO CHIO!" and i have to concur.. he was quite pretty back then.. i think he would have made a good woman... lolz... i really couldn't recognise him please~


had mass PE again today.. but because of our rather late dismissal from the talk.. we only had about 30mins for PE.. =D

7 grandstands! lol.. my friends and i could barely feel our legs after that... lol... funny~

we also did some inclines (3 sets of 10)... but the really entertaining sight was when Mr Isaac Lim's class had to do pull ups... some of the guys needed assistance... and as they went up... Mr lim hit their stomach.......

Mr Lim: who's your good friend?!
Student: pull-up bar!
Mr lim: what must you do?!
Student: pull and pull!!

LOL!!! it was seriously hilarious... but encouraging for the students i guess... :) i mean... Mr lim actually did that each time the guy pulled himself up... about 5 times each set i think?... so cute~

my friends and i were being pretty lame... we were wondering: how about us girls?

Qn: Who's your good friend?!
Ans: incline pull-up bar! (a bit the long you mei you?)
Qn: what must you do?!
Ans: pull and pull!

goodness...


ok... enough of my rantings today.. lol... kinda got carried away...

1.5hours more...

and 2 days to go =)

it was a bittersweet day for me...

i was pretty drained in the morning.. not too sure why... but i fell asleep during the two lectures in the morning...

i don't know about you guys.. but this week seems like a pretty long and hectic one... as opposed to those before... anyone shares my sentiments?

following which.. i had a chem test today.. and man, am i not pleased with mysef today.. i mean.. i studied.. i know my stuff.. but sadly.. i didn't have the confidence to pen it down.. not only that.. i could actually read my questions wrongly.. how much more careless could i get?! it was no wonder why my answers couldn't coincide... gosh.. never felt so stupid in my life.. but what's done is done.. at least i know i have the capability.... i think.

math test results were a pick me up.. but it was only a temporary effect...

choir was fun.. norman was FUNNY! goodness... he never fails to amuse/entertain me... lol.. he's so sweet la.. bought chocolates for all of us... but special ones for both cheryl and i :p -blushes-

altos were super on form today.. really proud of them :)


despite all of this happening all at once.. there was only one thought on my mind... and if you guessed, Chem.... you've hit the jackpot...

thank you for all the encouragement and reassurances.... it's through these little things you do or say that make me feel good about myself... makes my life worth living..

and guess what?!

i forgot about choir tonight.. not only that.. RECONCILIATION! how can i miss that?! goodness... i feel so terrible... it's the few times when i pour out all my wrong doings.. and most importantly.. have a connection with God... how could i ever miss such an important session?

Oh Lord.. please forgive me.. i really didn't mean to forget... forget You...


today is really bad day for me... like grace said... eventful... lol... really looking forward to a better day tomorrow...

i like this song: - "... there's no difference between the teardrops and the rain..."

looking back on the things i've done......... (goodness.. sounds so BSB.. lol...)


showed him my file... life Before and After... big difference :p ... don't You agree with me?

gosh.. i wish i had been more independent... chose my own path i wanted... at least the right one.. now all i can do is to make the best out of it...

don't ask me why but these thoughts keep replaying in my mind.. like an neverending playlist... lols...



today's homosexuality talk was seriously W-E-I-R-D!

i mean.. if i were back in KC that's different... all girls school... but in CJ?! how much more embarrassing can it get?... goodness... but then again.. we had some good laughs here and there...

on my left... was my xiao di creating jokes with me... and on my right.. the studious ones doing pascal's triangle... pie... etc... what a scene... lol...

you have no idea how uncomfortable and "cold" i felt back in the audi this morning.. i mean.. who in fine fettle would listen to such a talk at such an hour? -corrupted-

for one period... he really made it seem like an interminable one hour~ and guess what? it's only round 1... two more to go... lol... how educational... haha.. goodness~


alrighties... i had better head back to my books... today's complex didn't go as well as planned.. lol.. knowing that i didn't study isn't exactly the best pick-me-up... lol...

argh~ where is that Chem practical file of mine.. :p


looking foward to choir tomorrow =) ~love you peeps~

cramps are serious a pian...lol.. literally...

i'm happy for theresa... she did us proud :) congratulations girl~ you did both KC and the choir proud :D

not too sure what to type about today... so i'll just try to write what's on my mind and in my heart...


when I am alone all I can do
is think about the sweet memories
those happy times we spent together
and how your smile lingers in my mind

i really enjoy every moment that we share
hoping that each day would not end
now all i can do is to sit here
and wonder when I will see you again

so now the day concludes
and another is about to begin
and I'm left here all alone
thinking about you

back on track...

yes... i am finally back to my books.. not the girl you used to know ya? lol.. got that comment from serena... but it's understandable... she never knew what i was like back in my secondary school days...

but it's cool =)

feels good to know i'm prepared for lessons these days.. as for econs and GP....................... no comments :p

i've finally got more time to myself...


PTM was today....

how predictable... as usual... my GP and econs was once again commented on..... my mum went on about my new tutor.. told tai how i loathe reading, etc..

unfortunately.. we bumped into toh again this year... she didn't seem too happy to see us... her smile was just so plastic...

current affairs: B? gosh! that's just plain amazing~ lol...


i'm also having doubts....

are we still going to prague? must he give up the whole idea coz of the lack of four male singers? isn't that unfair us? i know that there are people like me, in choir, who wishes to go to prague so badly... i admit i'm one of them... sighz...
Lord, make my wish come true please..


my week was pretty hectic... and yet sweet...

happy tears aplenty... smile, everlasting....


~need rest~