captured memories

Tuesday, February 28, 2006, 9:28 AM

second day of CTs... i don't have any paper today... but poor guy.. he's got FM.... i meant to went up at 7 to send him a good luck message.. but after finish typing.. i forgot to send it out.. instead i fell back to sleep... how embarrassing can it get...

tomorrow is Ash Wednesday... a day of fast and abstinence.... what shall i abstain from? chocolates or computer? lol.. i guess the latter is the more obvious choice ya? so guess that means i won't be blogging tomorrow...

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You're a breath of fresh air

in my too-cluttered life.

You waltzed through my world

that was chaos and strife.

You smoothed the edges of my battered soul,

You lifted my spirits

and made me feel whole.

What would I do if we were to part?

Because you're a miracle,

...you unlocked my heart.

everything seems to be falling into place

i'm loving it

i'm loving him

*~Singing Her Song~*

Sunday, February 26, 2006, 8:06 PM

overnight study was hell of a fun man!!!

haha... yes... we were crazy enough to study from 9 plus till the next morning.. but obviously we peng in the end.. xinglong was the first to go.. lol... he slept at 5am :p... where as dip and i chat from like 5 to 7am.. nice knowing this fella :D...

but while we were studying..............

haha... we played dai dee while we were bored la... haha... the guys had this bet... every card the have in the hand after the winner wins.. have to pump 3... goodness was it so hilarious... i1st round dip kena caught with 11 cards... kena 33 push-ups!!! LOL... the whole night damn gao xiao la... they both pumped until their hands were so shaky to write :p

eventually... we resorted to dead jin :D

i think i'm with have one with grace tomorrow?

man... tomorrow is the start of CTs... wednesday collecting back CL(AO) and PW... and friday is my last paper...

i can't wait for everything to just pass! i wanna play MJ! :p

hopefully i'll do better... though i think the probability of that happening is pretty close to zero... lol... hope i don't faint on math paper again...

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got some photos from the last time... finally got transferred into his comp... :p

we went out for valentine's day... i tried on a cap at The Stadium at taka... and he wanted to take a pic of me... :)

ok.. my zi lian self... suppose to be studying... :p

i tired the blazer from school which xinglong had to wear for his NTU challenge.. it was so huge! lol... i wsa swimming in it... lol...

*us* supposed to be studying :p i love this photo lots!

*us* on Valentine's Day.... we were at the MRT station...

*us* in my room.. haha... i was being very zi lian again :p

something we have in common: we like to drink ice lemon tea from KFC and what's even more adorable... we like to eat the lemon from the drnk... so there you go... the remains of our lemons :D

you guys know me right..lol... i LOVE hearts... and this banana fritter which my maid and mum fried happened to be heart-shaped! and it was on xinglong's plate~ unfair ya? but he gave me half *aww*

here are some "formulas" xinglong derived during his NTU challenge:

*~Singing Her Song~*

Saturday, February 25, 2006, 10:48 PM

Standing in the moonlight

It takes two

Feeling without touching

Passion in waiting

Knowing what it takes

Wanting, needing and not even knowing

Believing, trusting

taking a chance

Words that penetrate your soul

Words that find your deepest need and fill it

Watching and seeing

Looking and being noticed

Finally able to be me

Learning who I am

Wondering what could be

Finally understanding

passionate love

Not knowing where to start

Feeling alive

Trembling, tasting

feeling, touching

Being built up and not torn down

Having so much more to give

Wanting to discover what could be

Hours rushing by

Feels like seconds

Willing to give

to give You a lot more

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will update on my overnight study session tomorrow :)

*~Singing Her Song~*

Thursday, February 23, 2006, 10:51 PM

things are slowly picking up :)

as for the studies side... many of my friends are pretty shocked.. lol... yeah.. it's a change.. but a welcoming change of course... heehee~ [sadly... stress makes me eat shit loads man! terrible acne breakout.. sighz..]

i can't wait for all these to be over.. it's only then can i have fun.. be happy... play MAHJONG! haha!!!

i feel like singing my lungs out..

yup.. singapore idol just slipped through my hands again... what can i do? my heart says one thing.. yet my mind says another... i guess it won't kill that i didn't go... but i truly wanted to... not that i'll be the next SI but i just wanted the experience... oh wells... i still got my friends... and not to mention.. my choir... -smiles weakly-

i got to get back to my chemistry now.. it's calling my name.. haha..(goodness... i'm neglecting my homework)

ciaoz

*~Singing Her Song~*

Wednesday, February 22, 2006, 8:22 PM

The Movie

it was hell of a touching movie... as usual... i was the emotional me.. this time wasn't aud's jacket.. but mine... :p

certain scenes were so familiar.... reason being i've experienced them before... and obviously... these memories weren't exactly very pleasant... so that explains the tears...

on the other hand... i was happy regardless of the tears i shed...

the company

the popcorn(which i never in my life finished until today :P)

the hugs

the moment

the smiles

the reassurance

i hope these will last foever...

i hope you feel the same way i do...

thank you so much for today... it meant a lot to me...

*~Singing Her Song~*

Tuesday, February 21, 2006, 8:39 PM

i'm feeling weird... not like myself... not like ourselves...

is it coz of the workload? the SPA? the long days? the CTs? me?

maybe i'm just oversensitive... call me insecure... but i'm just the typical sentimental girl...

they welled up... but i held back...

"da jie lean forward" - am i still in the picture? (though it was very sweet of him)

feeling incomplete

hope i'll be fine

Good Luck to my SPA

"Love takes time, To heal when you're hurting so much...... I can't escape the pain inside, Cuz love takes time. I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be here alone."
-mariah carey: love takes time

*~Singing Her Song~*

Monday, February 20, 2006, 3:07 PM

feeling good today... so i posted 2 entries... be sure to scroll lower for the other ok?

this is for my babes:

the top 10 things i like about some guys that turn me on:

uniforms(but not school uniforms.. haha!)
damn! do they look H-O-T!!! i get the funny feeling down my spine whenever i see those men... haha~ of course there are those CMI one... studs thin bods in these uniforms are just mind blowing!!!
height
i LOVE tall guys... this one i'm not too sure why... ever since young i like le... maybe coz i jealous i can't be as tall? or maybe it could be the whole fairytale-like love again.. lol...
formal wear
some what similar to that of the uniforms... and talking about formal wear(i'm thinking about prom! haha)... some guys just look so darn smart in these outfits..
six-pack!
i so love to touch them~ so shiok!
really low voice(if in choir.. preferably bass)
i find it really sexy... -blush- love to hear these people sing...
a little metrosexual
nice to know they actually bother to "doll up"... especially if it's for me.... many many style~ :p (better still.. if they are those kind who like to take photos.. coz i get really trigger happy when i do get hold of a camera :p)
the way he knows how to hold me down when tickling me [only one person knows ;) ]
well... i don't have many ticklish spots... only very few... so far.. only one person has managed to find that very spot... but it's hell of a different feeling when he knows how to pin me down and tickle me till i lose my breath... lol.. (sick thought haha...)
the way they hold me
if they know their ways around me... sometimes they might be lucky enough to push certain buttons :p
a nice body of course...
i like thin guys.. nice to see especially when the remove their tops before they go for a swim.. heehee~
the kisses
some passionate kisses that i have had experienced have that effect on me... not much but a little... does that count? lol...

(not arranged in any particular order)

gosh.. i feel so embarrassed typing this post..

aud.. i hope it met your requirements.. heehee~

*~Singing Her Song~*

, 2:20 PM

to all my friends... thanks for all the blessings, the love, the care and concern, words of comfort... thanks for being my strong pillars of support... and lastly.. thanks for being there for me when i was in the worst state ever(emotionally of course)...

it was thanks to you guys that i made it through... that i am this happier girl i am today... thank you for showing me the way...

just doing a little shout-outs ok?

Aini :

my darling! you've been there for me since day one! :D so happy i've got you! so sorry you had to put up with him... but now he's sorta out of my life.. hope you're feeling better... you'll always be my relationship confidante -winks-

Audrey :

twinee~ thanks for talking things through with me... i hope i made a better choice... sorry that you too had to put up with him... well... as the cliche goes... "love is blind"... guess it kinda applied to me last time ya? :p i'm so happy to see you so happy with your man.. he really pampers you ya? lucky you.. got a prince charming together with a fairytale-like love... -turns green- just kidding... i'm just very happy to see you smiling... as opposed to before.. both you and i were clearly suffering ya? *smuacks*

Cheryl :

hey babe.. oops.. i mean er jie :p.... thanks for hearing me out everytime... glad we can exchange our stories... knowing that we can trust in each other... and dear.. i am very happy now... you can tell too right? heehee~
hope you and him will be ok soon... and by the way... let's not talk about the mothering thing yet... lol.. a bit the far ya?.. lol...

Mum :

mummy.. you have watched me grown... from my first cry.. to who i am today... thank you for guiding me... for teaching me right from wrong... you are a really great mum... not only are you the best confidante... you are like a true best friend... i know both you and i suffered then... unfortunately.. it was no thanks to my foolishness that you had to suffer more...
thank you so much for supporting me all the way... picking me up as i fall... i hope i can one day be like you... and do the same for my children...
you know me through and through... you understand me like no other...i hope i'm doing something right now... i hope you're a happier mummy too... i love you...

Xinglong :

where do i begin... hmm.. LoLz... thanks for finding me... for coming to my rescue when i was suffering... you're the reason why i am so happy today... you're so patient... i really admire you for that... i just hope i'm good enough for you.. once in a while i do doubt myself... knowing your capabilities and all... but love isn't all about that ya? you're a really talented guy... wish i was like you... heehee~
you know.. i've always wished for a fairy-tale love... looks like mine has already begun...
i was just talking to cheryl during break today... time flies really quick! soon it'll be 2 weeks.. and in 16 days... our 1st month! gosh... so exciting :) [wonder if you feel the same way too]...
i'm so happy to have known you -hugs-

*~Singing Her Song~*

Saturday, February 18, 2006, 10:20 PM

tuition today was another fun day man! haha.. shann is so darn adorable!!!

Discrete Random Variable :

let X be the length of the snake --> not a discrete r.v because it grows... LOL~

this goes out to my babes.... we made a promise to write this... so here it goes.......

10 things you never knew about me:

i like dancing
i like the smell of rain
i used to like theresa teng's songs
i used to like a girl
i would love to be a bass in choir
i'm allergic to crabs... but not alaskan and australian crabs... :p (expensive taste lieterally.. haha!)
i love KFC's ice lemon tea... i poke the lemon till the drink gets more sour.. and then eat the lemon leaving the skin...
i went "dating" guys on IRC
i like hashbrown with grape jam from Macs
my relationship with my dad and i turned sour because of Ed

*~Singing Her Song~*

Thursday, February 16, 2006, 4:01 PM

last night was another perfect night....

one week has come and gone just like that... yet at the same time... it felt like years....

the tickles.. the popcorn... the laughter... the smiles... the stars.. the night.... and the moment....

call me mad.... but i'm truly in love with him... i've never been happier!

some say that this is just our honeymoon period... i know it true.. but i want it to last forever...

Thank God found you... thanks for being there when i was having the lousiest times before... you made my life worthwhile...

see you soon :)

ps: CTs are coming... i hope i can do well... so that i can be like you :p

*~Singing Her Song~*

Tuesday, February 14, 2006, 11:37 PM

Happy Valentine's Day EVERYONE!

today was better than last year's.. at least i got to go out to town for Valentine's Day... haha.. for once...

saw so many girls carrying bouquets of roses.. some with balloons... and others with teddy bears... so sweet la...

Love Is In The Air~

i love valentine's day.. filled with all my favourite things:

pink,red, hearts, roses, love..........

*~Singing Her Song~*

, 10:27 PM

cheers to my new blog! :D

*~Singing Her Song~*