Fo' real

I am officially lame hahahhaha pun intended to the max.
On crutches doooooood.

Time goes by, so slowly.

Poly totally kils the perception of time. It doesnt feel like we're approaching year-end, which doesnt feel like Mary's bday is coming which doesnt feel like Eve's bday is coming which doesnt feel like Christmas is coming which doesnt feel like my bday is coming hahahahahahah i make ahhhsome linkages. The only date that pops up incessantly is my mid sem test week which is the week beginning 8 dec. Very sad right. And 8 dec is hari raya haji!!!! Not that ive any relation to it but it's a holiday YOU KNOW. But wtv, i've got my own holiday from 13-28dec, and probably self-declare the last 3 days as holiday too hahaha.

The funny thing is that i've not gotten any of my pay cheques for my holiday jobs -______- my.bank.account.is.crying.

B-)

I cant sign in to msn and im totally freaking pissed.

I've decided to go for a Dip in Logistics, omg i should just narrate the journey of my decision. At first i was leaning towards Marketing because everyone kept telling me how wasted it'd be if i didn't choose that. Then my momma said Mktg was too general and i thought it was quite risky cos it'd be based on loads of projects (and my aim is to get a reasonably high GPA to go uni). She suggested Business (HR and Corp Comm, which was my other dilemma) and then for 2 days, i sticked to that. Within that 2 days, i had a dream about getting too frustrated with deciding and in that dream, i cried in front of my classmates, in some stupid lecture OMG SO DUMB. Oh actually i was thinking about Logs at the same time too (yes -.-) cos everybody was talking about how lucrative it is but trust me i'm not even gg there for the money! IT'S THE PROSPECTS and i'm not even intending to make it my future, unless i get really interested. Afterall, it's not really guaranteed that i'd get my desired electives in Business. Oh ya and if i go Business, i'd be competing with all the other polys. TP is the only poly offering Logzzzzzzzzz.

Ok this is a lame entry. Btw i've quit Hockey and returned to Table-Tennis, ultimate -____- i know. I'm so afraid i cant improve fast enough to match the others, afraid i cant reach my peak. Basically just afraid i cant be like last time, much less better that.

I think i'm a changed person after the 2 months long break, like more rooted to the ground and focused on my goals. I know what i want, i know what's my path, now i've just got to do what it takes to get there. I know right..... i sound so matured HAHA.

YESTERDAY WAS THE ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF ME COMPLETING O'S HAHAHAHAHA NOVEMBER 6. I can still rmb the exact happenings of that day last year man. Doesn't feel like one year i tell you, it feels so distant and this year seems so so so so long, guess poly's really draining the shit out of me esp the 9-6 day, WITH ONLY ONE HOUR BREAK. And i've trg at 630. It's so bad that every sunday i've got to be mentally prepared.

Mid sem tests are approaching (first/2nd week of dec), projects are starting. This sem, almost all my projects are with the same ppl haha quite funny.

Just felt like blogging but still no intention of committing to it, i mean what for right? Can't wait for tmr! Meeting up with ting and s2 cell HARHARHAR.